Man, who the fuck am I?

[ 25yo // he/him ] vent blog: depression, disassociation/derealization, anxiety, ptsd, chronic psychosis

[quotespile]

“The truth is that the heroism of your childhood entertainments was not true valor. It was theater. The grand gesture, the moment of choice, the mortal danger, the external foe, the climactic battle whose outcome resolves all – all designed to appear heroic, to excite and gratify and audience. Gentlemen, welcome to the world of reality – there is no audience. No one to applaud, to admire. No one to see you. Do you understand? Here is the truth – actual heroism receives no ovation, entertains no one. No one queues up to see it. No one is interested.”

— David Foster Wallace, The Pale King

[thatsbelievable]

When things go from bad to worse, it’s important to remember that at least it’s progress.

[striving-artist]

The best piece of advice I ever got was not meant as advice, but as an edict. If I was going to threaten people as a joke, it had to be so far out of proportion with what happened that it would be obvious I was joking. This changed how I expressed frustration with others. It then changed how I expressed frustration with myself.

Not “I’m going to hit you” but “I am going to buy a tuna sub from the gas station and hide it under the seat of your car”

Not “I’m going to kill myself” but “I am going to walk into the desert and let the scarabs take me”

The other side then happened. When I mess something up, instead of saying it’s bad and perpetuating negative thoughts, swing hard the other way.

Not “this art is terrible” but “this shall be framed and mounted on the wall in my museum exhibition as testament to the suffering I had to overcome”

Have been doing this since high school. It was my drama teacher who asked me to please stop scaring the actors. The other half of the edict was that I had to say it in a polite tone, and end it with either please or thank you.

Life changing. 10/10 Mr Muëller. Highly reccomend.

[llsilvertail]

lol

[striving-artist]

#Queued

Which means you saw this, could have told me, but instead, you chose this course. You chose violence. I'll be adding you to the list of traitors to be embroidered in the tapestry of my throne room.

[thatsbelievable]

Great!

[thatsbelievable]

P.S. If you read the story, they’re not really zombies, which is simultaneously a relief and hugely disappointing.

[catchymemes]

Ohio Total Solar Eclipse

[ferveurs]

[ancientsstudies]

burtoo.

[apocalypse-polakiewicz]

tozozozo

[thatsbelievable]

My anxiety requests chaos.

[damnitdani1]

[medievaljournalist]

insane dark cyber warrior unchained

[bransonreese]

[zeravmeta]

i love you people who hold doors i love you people who let others pass on the driveway i love you people who make funny faces at babies i love you people who pick up litter i love you people who say please and thank you i love you people patient with service workers i love you people who share an umbrella i love you people who are casually kind

[demiiwhiffin]

my real life hasn't started yet

[louisegluck]

Louise Glück, from “Blue Rotunda.” [ID in alt text]

[taxi-derpy]

[japotecture]

[justnoodlefishthings]

thank you asiatic clam man you are legend