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My name is Yola and this is my corner of the InterVerse. On this blog you'll find moments in my life. Click here for archive. ~~~~~~ Follow: youtube || filmseries || letterboxd || goodreads Navi: Writing: 2020 workshop || soliloquies || all writings 2021 workshop || aug '21 || '11-'14 great words Photo: puerto plata || cancun || jamaica || celestial sucker || fashion || my face || yoyo foto Misc: xmas || the original ~~~~~~ YOUTUBE: June Challenge | Vlogmas "ALL ABOUT LOVE"

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The significance of April 4th...what the date means to me and what I remember it as:

World Trade Center opened

Martin Luther King Jr.'s assassination

Robert Downey Jr.'s birthday

Bey-Z marriage

Jill Scott's birthday

Heath Ledger's birthday

Roger Ebert passed away

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yolanda

you landed

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"I am" translates to "Je suis" in French

Looks like Jesus doesn't it?

What was God's response to Moses when asked "who are you"? "I am"

What language is English and French derived from? Latin

What language was the Bible originally in before being translated to Latin? Greek

***The word “Bible” is derived through Latin from the Greek word biblia (books).** "Biblioteca" anyone?

Is it possible that the Bible is just a book? Like every other book, a narrative of stories and characters and we were NEVER supposed to take it so seriously?.....just a thought.

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just an observation | alien: earth in autumn

#vlog #nycdiaries #gotham 9.4.2025 welcoming autumn being self conscience ignore/ignorance nature ted talk soap box alien earth disney/hulu being watched in public as a women alone in nature nyc appreciation, getting free drinks autumn teas jayz/nicki minaj money makes you more attractive rewriting the bible/ interpreting text that is definite being consistent lion king batman v superman dawn of justice ~~~~~~ 0:00 Intro 0:48 Books, Vol. 2 1:20 Observations aren't emotional 3:32 Filming outside 4:48 Alien, Vol. 1 // "Being watched" 7:18 Observations aren't emotional, Vol. 2 9:48 "Being watched", Vol. 2 13:42 Observations aren't emotional, Vol. 3 14:52 Self-conscious // being uncomfortable 16:00 My corner of the internet 17:06 TED TALK | Noise pollution, how to argue/debate, perspective 21:42 Alien, Vol. 2 23:00 "The best listeners listen between the lines" 25:00 The Lion King 27:27 our difficulties communicating 31:30 outro 32:40 autumn teas 34:52 outtakes // Books, Vol. 1

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Love Island USA Season 7 - The Reunion | Reaction [watch with me]

- second hour

They coulda kept this -- no response island

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Love Island USA Season 7 - The Reunion | Reaction [watch with me]

- first hour

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the biggest thing i ever knitted + a music playlist

the kind of music i like | get to know me 

continuing my knitting journey + "i got a story to tell" series

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IT'S OVER | Funeral and Finale | Succession Season 4 Reaction and Response

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Reacting to Succession | S4E8 | Final Season | the FAFO episode

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6.16.25 -- Incredible! I learned this word today from my Jamaican mother. It's amazing.

This website is incredulous. I'm in love with it. I will devour it when given a chance.

A dictionary for slang is right up my alley. For a nerd who loves to learn like myself: where has this been all my life? Thank UNI for my mom!

And of course Jonathan Green is a British man 😎😊

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This is WHY you HATE your SELF IMAGE | Run away if you can't keep it Real [Part 4]

This video is from October 2023 -   and this is just part four of a four-part series    

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My thorough response to Umar Johnson and the BM who need BW’s protection [RANT] [Part III]

This video is from October 2023 -   and this is just part three of a four-part series  

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Distractions...

Every time I see or watch something that inspires me, I forget it and the feeling it gave me quickly. I've taken in far too many distractions.

Oh what to do....

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Shit happens so quickly on this fucking web. Before I can even process my thoughts about something everyone is off to another thing. This is why I don't participate and this is why I constantly have discourse with weirdos on here (the whole internet, not just Tumblr), because so many of you assume that everyone either:

thinks the same (about any given topic); or

knows everything about everything that is "HOT" this fucking week/day/month.

You people are exhausting. I say all of this to say that when I was experimenting with ChatGPT -- for 3 fucking days mind you (June 20th to 22nd) -- many were using it and seemingly cool with it. Now (or for a week now) people are pissy about it, so I didn't get to even share what I used it for and learned about it before everyone started shitting on it, and then the powers-that-be altered it.

Now, having said all that, the following post is the first of at least 5 posts covering my ChatGPT interrogation where I asked it a plethora of things just out of menstrual-fatigued-boredom and curiosity.

This was June 20th and "what are you for?" was the first question I ever asked it.

It picking the same creature I'd want to be reincarnated as. It's either a bird or a dragon, but I already am a dragon so...

The A.I. and robots I'm referring to here are: HAL from 2001; Ash from Alien; my first ever favorite robot and all-time favorite Star Wars character: R2D2; Wall-E; Sonny from I, Robot; J.A.R.V.I.S from Marvel; T-1000 and T-800 from Terminator 2; Alice from Subservience; Samantha from Her; Alpha and Zordon from Power Rangers; The Iron Giant; Andrew from Bicentennial Man; Rosey from The Jetsons; Mega Man.

Pretty much every single artificial intelligence character I've seen in my 35+ years that has shaped who I always knew I was. I'd find that I was always more formulaic in my approach to life and relationships than most people. This led me to believe that I was not like others, and related more to robotic characters that always used logic instead of emotions when doing, thinking and understanding anything. I always related to them more and I still do.

In the above post, ChatGPT is confirming what I've always believed, which is that deep friendships can be romantic. I personally feel this way because I also feel that having a deep-connection with a friend is more important, intimate, and long-lasting than having a surface-connection with a lover, which is what many, if not most, people have.

Me asking it to describe me based on our conversation and it got everything right. This is exactly who I am. I am a:

complex

deep-thinking

non-conformist

People have a problem with this because -- since I'm an attractive, young, Black, women -- I am supposed to be:

religious (aka male-worshipping)

more charming/nice (actually mean: stupid/naïve)

more nurturing (actually mean: coddling/enabling)

easy/easier to handle (actually mean: easier to manipulative/a way to humble me so they don't have to work/earn my attention and keep it)

I am the way I am because I seek deepness, fullness. I don't do the surface-level shit, and the minute I realize the person in front of me is about that, I'm no longer about them. If you find that to be too much or difficult, go find less. I promise I won't miss you. I want genuine connections that are intentional, not passive space-filler connections. It's not rewarding, it's not challenging, it's fucking boring.

-- she

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Why Always Black Women? [Run away if you can't keep it Real] [Part II]

This video is from October 2023 - and this is just part two of a four-part series

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What's Going On? -- The Black Community Concerns Me [Run away if you can't keep it Real]

This video is from October 2023 - and this is just part one of a four-part series

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Words of the Day

coloratura:

The ornamentation of music written for the voice with florid passages, especially trills and runs.

ancillary:

Of secondary importance; subordinate.

Auxiliary or accessory.

Subservient or subordinate, like a handmaid.

dowdy:

Lacking stylishness or neatness; shabby.

Old-fashioned; antiquated.

Showing a vulgar taste in dress; awkward and slovenly in dress; vulgar-looking.

resplendent:

Splendid or dazzling in appearance; brilliant.

Shining with brilliant luster; very bright.

Colourful, and thus pleasing to the eye.

fraught:

(of a situation or course of action) filled with or likely to result in (something undesirable).

causing or affected by anxiety or stress.

producorial:

Of or pertaining to a producer; concerned with production (of a film).

procession:

A group of persons, vehicles, or objects moving along in an orderly, formal manner.

The movement of such a group. Origination; emanation.

bonus word: emanation: the act of producing something or of expressing a quality or feeling.

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While watching a lot of Wicked press interviews [much earlier this year -- when I gathered these words] and Ariana would mention the 'coloratura' in Glinda's singing style and how it's different from her usual singing voice. She spoke about becoming quite 'producorial' over the soundtrack too, specifically when it came to her and Cynthia's vocals.

'Ancillary' is how I would describe my online presence, which nowadays is the only presence that seems to matter to everyone. It comes 'ancillary' to my minimalistic approach to life, where if it's not prioritized, it gets left behind. I feel bad at times but most of the time I don't. I always know and never forget that no one is missing me on here [ the web ] so my absence is never really felt.

'Dowdy' fashion....I think of vagabonds. Vagabonds.......I think of Chaplin.

'Fraught' sounds like a word only British people would use: "I was rather fraught". Please know when describing anxiety I'll be using 'fraught' instead. Me: (in a large crowd)..."being here makes me feel somewhat fraught".

When I think of 'procession' I think of a military group marching in unison. I think it's goose stepping or drilling. However, when I searched images for it I saw religious groups gathering......in 'procession'. **A sure way to remember words is to visualize them, this is what I've done for as long as I can remember. I have always visualized soldiers marching when I hear this word. I doubt that's going to end now.