raaaahh!!!

She/her, traumatized 21 year old, engineering student

[shrimpleastha]

the worst part of graduating college is losing access to all the resources :(

[shrimpleastha]

i kinda disappeared for a while. i got busy with college, and now I guess I graduated so yippee...

[zhmurrka]

Feeling funny today

[shrimpleastha]

I've Not been Locked In unfortunately, so im coming back to log my work or something.

[shrimpleastha]

My back hurts :(

[cocteautwinsgirl]

every time i get really active on dating apps i always come to the same realization which is that i’m looking for a tumblr mutual

[the-name-i-want-was-taken]

Here is EVERY deal Hamas has tried to strike with Israel. It was never about the hostages.

[sunshinecomfybabe]

Every time one of my classmates calls me smart I feel like I'm gonna scream. I'm not allowed to complain because they brush it off and say I don't have to try too hard cuz I'm smart. I'm trying so hard that I have steam coming out of my ears!

[shrimpleastha]

the fact that i'm still deluding myself into thinking i'm still a good student... since starting college, i've gotten lazier and have been taking the easy way out of everything. i think i've ruined my brain.

[shrimpleastha]

I don't feel like a real person. I don't have a personality, I don't really have original thoughts. Idk.

[shrimpleastha]

sorry i was gone for so long... matlab killed me

[shrimpleastha]

i signed up for this psych study at my college and basically the premise was that a team of computer science students were designing an app and the purpose of the test was to see if using the app was a positive experience for students. the first part had us captioning memes and the second part was showing how other users reacted to the memes....

one of my captions was "i eat soup" and a "user" "applauded my creativity." but i really knew something was up when i made a frat drugging joke and someone *apparently* loved my positive attitude 🙃

[dailydivergent]

There’s no such thing as work-life balance for neurodivergent & chronically ill people.

This is because everything in my life requires work:

maintaining friendships

keeping up with my hygiene

managing bills

making money

remembering my basic needs

sleeping regularly

outputting creatively

All requires some aspect of work for me.

And when everything in your life requires work, your balance goes out the window.

If you're neurodivergent and overwhelmed — I see you.

If you're chronically ill and overwhelmed — I see you.

You're not dysfunctional.

You're not incapable.

You're doing your best.

[redstonedust]

its so unfortunate when different peoples neurodivergent traits clash horribly. like yes i totally understand that the man at the other table cant control his stimming and loud vocal tics and i think he deserves to have a nice day out at a restaraunt without judgement. however if i dont remove myself from the audible vicinity in the next 20 seconds i will explode.

[gravesdaily]

day 45: 3/2/24

PUT HIM IN THE MICROWAVE

[why-the-heck-not]

ever think of a good job application sentence but it’s so fucking gross & hustle-culture that u refuse to be that person

[shrimpleastha]

I can't remember if journaling makes me feel better or if I should just suppress my emotions