the thing with being an ATAVIST is that there are those you will never be rid of, bonds that follow through each death & rebirth & death yet again for their community is ever small & connections will constantly be forged meaning that she is, surely, stuck with this man until the end of time itself. ( most likely there would be more betrothals to match new lives to mend this ones happily shattered engagement though she doubted any future endeavors would have more favorable results. )
automatically she follows, falling into step beside him with ever the ease yet DESTINATION remains unknown ( far too much of this city remains foreign for comfort ;; she HATES this feeling, sense of UNCERTAINTY towards surroundings. ) & all at once speech comes once more, catching attention so very thoroughly with what was said, round aboutly offered. ( of course he knows the proper wording. )
SURPRISE wars with TEMPTATION yet never has she been skilled, gifted with ability to properly voice appreciation, to vocalize that which she wants ;; teenager used to own space, you see at main house she’d encounter others only when necessary & ayakashikan was first place to instill desire to be amongst others yet still she could retire, hide on a floor that housed only one other. here there were people abound, strangers pressing in to the point where it became hard to breathe.
should she move into mansion, surely space would be gained once more & yet to admit appreciation?
❝ Figures you’d get yourself a mansion. ❞
arms cross at breast & there is not hint at CONTEMPLATION within mentality & for several beats t’is SILENCE that prevails ‘fore utterance departs o’er curvature of lips once more & for once it does not go dipped in poison, though FABRICATED sense still exists all the same.
❝ If you wish for me to be able to move in, then I believe that could be arranged. B - but only until I am able to be INDEPENDENT! This city may be a lot of things, but , perhaps it is the perfect chance to finally be able to be alone. ❞
that had been her GOAL originally, had it not? to be alone? she had gotten sidetracked before, plan derailed by others but now, without a doubt, there would be little to stand in her way this time around. ( without the presence of others constantly calling to her, pulling her out of own LONELY corner it seemed inevitable she’d regress back to how she had been before & if such happened, she doubted she’d attempt to fight it. )
❝ Alright then, how do we do this? I’m only doing this for YOU, know that, seeing as how I’d be PERFECTLY FINE on my own, as you well know ;; well, it would be easier to work towards independence around another who already knows what i’m like. I’d expect you to allow me my PRIVACY when I’m able. Non-negotable. ❞