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About medicine, he could understand, once he tried those as well, he was still on trial with those, and honestly, it was been a ride with that, yet he did understand the point of Logan about those. Yet he couldn’t keep his mind on that too long as Logan kept talking about how it was normal for other people which make him frown at that in worry. “What is the difference between you and other people? Like… We are all humans and have feelings… I don’t see how you exclude yourself from that if you said you have ADHD and stimming is a necessary thing to pass your feelings in some way…” He was confused as he signals that. “Oh but… You don’t need to answer if you feel uncomfortable in doing so.”

Virgil relaxed as he hears Logan keep talking and nodding, although, now that the more tense part was gone he yawned putting a hand in front of his mouth at that. As his shoulders drop a bit and he rubs his eyes a little bit. “Sorry… Having an anxiety attack normally let me tired…” He explains as he looks at Logan. “But yeah, you totally did! If it wasn’t for you, we probably would keep the misunderstanding going… Now I guess I will talk with mom and she probably will try to intermediate a little more while we all get more educated in that.” He relaxes as he looks at him smiling a bit. “If you want, I can talk to my therapist so you can go there with me as well… To you know, learn more about anxiety.” He shrugs, as Logan seems to be someone who likes to learn he guessed it would be an okay thing to say.

Janus smiles at the suggestions, in all honesty, he didn’t know too much about baking or things like that, but he was happy to see Patton so happy talking about those things and going on about it. He was also smiling a bit when Patton said about truffles for Remus glad that at least for now Patton wasn’t thinking too much about the drama of Remus. Figure that Patton probably was just a cinnamon roll as people says, and he honestly was innocent about everything. Thinking a bit about it and wonder as he just listening to Patton talk.

“Just a heads up, Virgil can be a sugar tooth, but others day he can also be against sugar. It depends entirely on his mood, as it’s an enigma every day, you can try to figure out what is his mood or just try to cut the sugar. He will honestly try a bit if he is in a day against sugar. But it’s more safe if you do with low sugar or just stick to dark chocolate and mint.” He explains as he knew that Virgil could and couldn’t like sugar certain days and that those days could go on for a few weeks. He shrugs as he looks a bit at Logan and Virgil, noticing Virgil yawning.

“Hey Patton, I need to sign off the call, but I will still be on chat. I need to go eat.” Janus said gently. “Maybe you can ask for Virgil to let you keep using his notebook or something? Whatever the case is, it was fun to meet you. I’m sorry if I was rude or that I gave signals of displeasure or annoyance, it wasn’t my intention to make you feel rejected or something.” He explains softly as he looks at him, he was clearly using his notebook, as his fingers were moving while talking. “I hope the first introduction doesn’t last and that we can get along from now own. I also hope we can all learn about each other more and not trigger each other by accident.” He smiles a bit at that, he was proud that he was talking calmly and explaining. “Once again, I’m sorry for anything.”

He moved his eyes a bit. “Vee, I need to hang up, but if you need me you can text me.” Virgil nods at that waving his hand a bit. “Logan, it was a pleasure to meet you as well. I hope we can talk more in the future and that we can play chess next time or something.”

Logan blinked in surprise at the question, though once it fully registered in his head and he was no longer caught off guard by it, he simply shrugged in response. “I’m not uncomfortable, but I don’t know the answer to that question, if I’m being completely honest. You’d have to ask my father.” he replied simply. Although, he supposed if someone were to ask his father, he probably wouldn’t have very kind things to say about the subject... the whole reason he’d adopted Logan was to raise a brilliant, perfect child, and unfortunately for Logan, being ADHD and stimming and such didn’t really fit in his dad’s description of the ‘perfect child’. Perhaps, however, he would find a trustworthy friend group in Virgil, Patton, Roman, Janus, and Remus... and they would be the sort of people he could open up in front of and be himself around a bit more without fear of them running back to his dad and reporting all his actions to him... it wasn’t quite the same as being able to just be himself all the time, but it was better than having to bottle everything up 24/7, and the thought of actually having friends in general made it difficult not to smile.

Logan gave a small nod of understanding when Virgil pointed out that having anxiety to the point of an attack normally made him tired, mostly just relieved that he was able to help. “That’s good to hear, I believe getting your mother involved is the right call.” Logan stated. “Sure, I would be honored to be able to learn more about anxiety so that I can better help in the future.” he stated, honestly glad that Virgil would even want him to speak to his therapist. He glanced back at Patton, wanting to check in on him, noticing that Patton seemed to be doing a lot better now that Janus had him distracted and talking about things that made him happy, that was good. Logan wasn’t really sure why he’d become so overprotective of Patton so quickly, he supposed it was because he and Patton had a lot in common, what with both having ADHD and both being adopted... only Patton still had those more innocent qualities that the way Logan’s father raised him prevented him from keeping, even when he was really little... and Logan didn’t want to see Patton lose those things the way he had, so he supposed that’s where the overprotectiveness came in...

Patton nodded a bit when Janus told him more about Virgil, making mental notes of everything he was told and praying he’d remember it all. Hopefully it would always work out that Patton was aware of how Virgil was feeling about sugar that day before he went to the trouble of making something, but he figured that was a groove they’d have to take the time to get into the better they got to know one another. He snapped out of his thoughts when Janus announced that he needed to sign off the call, but he would still be on chat... Patton really did need to get a computer and a phone so he wouldn’t need to ask to borrow Virgil’s all the time. Though he supposed he could worry about that more later... it made sense, Janus did need to eat. “Okay.” Patton said with a small nod. “It was really nice talking to you, I’m glad I got to meet you.” Patton added after a moment, giving a small smile when Janus more or less said the same thing to him. “That’s okay.” he said softly with a small shrug when Janus apologized if he gave off any signs of being annoyed. Things may have started off a bit rocky, but they were good now, and that’s what really mattered.

He was really looking forward to talking to Janus again and getting to know each other better, just like Janus had said. He had a feeling that the whole, misunderstandings and accidental triggerings would happen less and less as time went on, and he didn’t think it was something they really had to worry about too much anymore, since at least now they all knew it was just that... misunderstandings, so it was much easier to be forgiving and move past it if it did end up happening. Patton looked back over at Virgil when Janus addressed him, watching the interaction between the two. Logan glanced back at the screen when he heard his name. “Pleasure to meet you too... I look forward to speaking with you again in the near future, and proving to be a worthy opponent in a game of chess.” Logan said with a small smile before looking back at Patton. “I really should be getting home myself.” he told him, though he instantly noticed the slight pout on Patton’s face the minute he mentioned leaving, despite the fact that Patton was trying to hide it. “I don’t believe I have any plans for tomorrow... if you’d like to... hang out, as they say?” Logan offered, Patton’s pout quickly switching to a smile. “Yeah, okay!” Patton said happily.

Patton looked Logan over, hesitating a moment before giving Logan a hug, Logan blinking in surprise at the action, but quickly hugging Patton back... he had a feeling that since Virgil’s anxiety sometimes made him uncomfortable with physical affection that Patton might not get hugs too often, and Patton seemed like the sort of be one for physical affection, so Logan wanted to give it whenever Patton needed since he didn’t mind... and if Logan were to be completely honest, he may have been a bit touch starved and in need of some affection himself... it wasn’t exactly like he got hugs at home, and he had to admit, getting a hug from Patton was surprisingly nice, and comforting, which was quite unexpected since he’d really done it more for Patton than for himself, he hadn’t exactly realized he needed any comforting. Once Patton finally pulled away, Logan adjusted his glasses a bit. “I’ll stop by around lunchtime? Any idea of what you’d like to do?” Logan questioned, Patton giving a small shrug in response. He didn’t really know what he wanted to do, he was just relieved to not be alone, Logan biting his lip in thought. “Unless... perhaps instead of stopping by during the day, you might prefer that I... spend the night, a sort of... sleepover of sorts, if your parents are alright with it, of course.” Logan suggested, Patton immediately nodding.

Logan had a feeling Patton probably had issues with sleep, and based off of Patton’s reaction, he’d say that was a fair statement to make. “Alright then... so instead of stopping by at lunch, I’ll stop by around dinnertime... that’s probably better anyway, then you have the whole day to spend time with Virgil and your parents and catch them up on everything we discussed tonight. If for any reason your parents say no, I’m sure Virgil would allow you to text me to let me know not to stop by... he has my number now.” Logan finished. “Okay, thank you, Logan.” Patton said softly, Logan giving a small smile. “Of course.” he hesitated before smiling himself. “What are friends for, right?” Logan added after a moment, sliding his hands into his pockets and letting out a small chuckle when Patton bounced at that. “See you later, Virgil, it was lovely meeting you. I do look forward to seeing you again soon.” Logan said genuinely before showing himself out, incredibly happy that he’d decided to take a walk today.

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🏫-Part 4-🏫

TW: Violence. Swearing. Blood - mention. Injury - mention. Spiders. Panic Attack(s).

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Logan let out a small sigh when he didn’t get an answer to his question, he supposed he should’ve seen that coming. Still, Logan did better when he was given a task to do, so not really knowing what was expected of him was a bit stressful, but perhaps he should take the lack of an answer as the answer itself and assume Virgil just…needed him to sit here with him until he felt ready to join the others at the pool.

He eyed Virgil for a moment as if he were still expecting Virgil to request something from him, but when he didn’t seem to get anything, he returned his attention to his book. He figured it was okay for his attention to be there if the goal was just to sit in silence. If Virgil wanted more from him, wanted his attention and to talk, or if he felt ready to go outside, he assumed Virgil would find some way to communicate that to him so that he’d stop reading. He always did find a way.

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Virgil was still in shock that Logan had chosen to stay here with him, just sitting on the floor. He stared at the other, chewing his lip, tilting his head. What was he reading? Should he leave? So- so Logan could read in peace? Maybe he wasn’t there for the little one after all…

Virgil picked at his sleeve as Logan read, rubbing the back of his neck. Well… this wasn’t awkward at all… “Fr-friends” uttered the purple one, gesturing in the direction of where Roman and Patton could be heard. “G-go…”. Yeah… go and be with your friends, I know you want to… which is fine…

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Logan glanced up from. his book when he heard Virgil speak, blinking in surprised before setting the book back down in his lap. “You’re ready to go back to our friends?” he questioned, not really understanding what Virgil had meant, Logan had been sitting here with Virgil waiting for him to feel ready to go back and join the others, so he just assumed by what Virgil said that he was trying to let Logan know he was ready to do that. It never even crossed his mind that Virgil might just be telling him to leave him here all alone and go join the other’s himself, mostly because Logan would never do that.

He’d never just abandon Virgil and leave him to deal with his feelings all alone so that he could go off and have fun, not that Logan found the activity that Patton and Roman were currently partaking in to be even the slightest bit fun, but that was beside the point. He stood himself up, holding his hand out to Virgil so he could help him stand up, more than happy to lead him to the backyard where the others were. He wasn’t leaving without Virgil, if Virgil didn’t come with him, he’d just stay here even longer.

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Virgil watched Logan stand, nodding as he began to pull his knees in- before staring as the taller one suddenly held out his hand? Huh? What- why- wait…

He chewed his lip, realising that Logan must’ve thought he meant go back to the others… together, before shaking his head. “J-just- just- you…” he mumbled, looking away. “I- I- Iknowyouwantto”.

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Logan’s brow furrowed slightly when Virgil shook his head and explained further. His hand pulled back to himself the slightest bit before he shook his own head when Virgil stated that he knew Logan wanted to go back to their friends. “Not without you.” he added. Honesty, he did sort of want to go back to his friends, but not without Virgil. Plus there was a part of him that didn’t want to go because of the activity Roman and Patton were partaking in.

If he had to take part, he’d feel better if Virgil was there, because even though Roman and Patton were very kind and understanding, he had a feeling that Virgil would really understand what he was feeling better than the other two did… not that Logan would actually admit that he was scared. No, of course not. He glanced at the clock, knowing that if they didn’t go soon Roman and Patton would get out of the pool to come back here to see why they still hadn’t shown up. Logan wasn’t really sure what to do to get Virgil to come with him.

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Virgil swallowed, furrowing his brow. Not without him? What? But that meant- wait, he really was there for Virgil? The smaller one peered at Logan, slowly standing up. “T-together?” he wondered, hugging his tiny body. He still needed to change and all that, though… he really didn’t want to.

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Logan watched as Virgil slowly stood up, giving a small nod at the question. “Together.” he echoed, hoping Virgil would come with him. He wasn’t sure if Virgil would want to actually get in the pool, he knew he’d had an issue with changing during PE class so he had a feeling Virgil would probably also take issue with changing into swim clothes.

He and Roman had both just put on swim trunks, where as Patton had also put on a t-shirt as well. Roman had set aside a shirt for Virgil if he wanted to go that route like Patton had, but Virgil did seem very emotionally attached to that hoodie, and Logan couldn’t help but wonder if Virgil would be willing to take it off even just for a little while to go swimming with his friends.

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Virgil gave a anxious nod, shuffling his feet, before gesturing for Logan to lead the way. After all… at least getting there- well, that’s stage one… right? That’s something to achieve? He continued to hug himself as the pair walked, stopping near the doorway that lead outside.

“T-together…”.

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Logan stepped outside with Virgil, noticing that Roman and Patton were both swimming around in the pool, having fun. “You’re here!” Patton said happily, swimming over to the edge of the pool and giving the two of them a small wave. Logan couldn’t help but shoot Patton a small smile and wave in return, sitting himself down by the pool steps and putting his feet in the water but not going in.

“You okay, Vee?” Patton questioned, brushing some of the wet hair off his forehead as he looked at him, hoping Virgil felt better now than he had when they left… it was probably a good sign that he was out here, that had to mean he was feeling even the tiniest bit better, right? Roman swam over and sat on the steps a bit below Logan. “Doing okay?” he questioned softly, Logan giving a small nod.

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Virgil watched Logan, tilting his head as the taller one day down with his feet in the water. Oh? Well… that was doable… right? He glanced down at his socks, before peering up as Patton spoke to him. “I- um… s-sorry” was all the little one answered, as he perched on a chair and began to remove his odd socks.

He then frowned, noticing his jeans. Ah… now what?

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Patton tilted his head a bit in confusion at the response he got from Virgil, not entirely sure what Virgil was apologizing for. “Are you sure you don’t want me to teach you how to swim?” Roman asked after a moment. “I know how to swim, Roman.” Logan stated. “Oh, well, are you sure you don’t want me to teach you how to enjoy swimming? Nothing bad will happen, I promise.” Roman offered. “I appreciate the offer, Roman, but it’s really alright, you and Patton can continue on as you are, I’m fine here.” Logan stated.

Roman looked him over a moment, wanting to be really sure that Logan was okay before he glanced at Virgil, noticing that he hadn’t changed into a bathing suit like they’d offered him earlier. He supposed Virgil wasn’t going to be swimming either. “Maybe we should just come up with a new activity…” Patton said after a moment, not wanting Logan or Virgil to be uncomfortable.

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“N-no!” cried Virgil, hugging himself as he looked down at the ground- ashamed that he was taking the fun away from his friends. What a horrible person! He walked over to the side of the pool, shaking his head, before perching on the stairs- beginning to dunk a foot into the water, just like Logan.

“S-see?”. Would this work? He didn’t want Patton and Roman to stop just because of him… that wouldn’t be fair!

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The three turned to look at Virgil when he spoke, Patton a bit caught off guard by Virgil’s response to his suggestion and Logan deflating slightly before composing himself. Roman and Patton exchanged a look themselves before Roman went back under the water for a bit. Virgil didn’t seem to want to go back inside or even find another outdoor activity that they could all do, so he supposed the best thing to do would be… go back to swimming, right? Patton watched as Roman disappeared back under the water before looking back at Logan and Virgil.

“You can return to whatever it was you were doing before we arrived, Patton.” Logan reassured, Patton glancing at Virgil before nodding and going after Roman. Logan watched as the two of them continued what they were doing, letting out a small sigh, more than ready for this activity to be over. After a while, Roman and Patton returned to the shallow end of the pool, Patton practically tackling Logan in a hug. “Lo, I won the game we were playing!” he said excitedly, getting Logan wet. Logan honestly had no idea what game they’d been playing but judging by the look on Roman’s face, he’d figure it was safe to assume Roman had let him win.

“That’s lovely, Patton…” Logan said before pulling away from the hug and shivering a bit. “You’re so cold.” Logan pointed out. “Sorry.” Patton said, taking a small step back. “It’s alright, just… aren’t you uncomfortable, being so cold?” Logan questioned, Patton giving a shy shrug. “I guess we should go back inside, change into warm pajamas, maybe our onesies, we can make popcorn and watch Disney movies.” Roman suggested, now that he was getting out of the water he was feeling a little cold himself. “Unless you wanted to do something outside for a bit?” Roman added, not sure whether everyone wanted to do another outdoor activity before it got too dark.

“Bubbles! Or chalk!” Patton gasped excitedly, bouncing a bit as Logan grabbed him a towel and handed it to him. “Sure, I think I have chalk, we could draw.” Roman said with a small nod as he went to find the chalk, coming back a few moments later with it, Patton sitting himself on the ground and starting to draw, cuddling up to Logan for warmth as he did so, Logan smiling to himself before grabbing a piece of blue chalk and doodling a few stars as Roman wrapped himself in a towel to try to warm up and dry off a bit.

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The water was cold! Oh well… it was good to suffer, cause it made his friends happy. Virgil dunked the other foot, sitting on the step with his feet now in the water, as the pool lapped gently at the cuffs of his jeans. Oh well. He hugged himself again and eyed the three, watching for their reactions. Oh? They’re playing again? Good! It worked!

He relaxed at that, swilling a finger in the water. Hmm… this wasn’t too bad actually… kind of… calming, even. He then peered at Logan, before flinching as Patton suddenly swam over and lunged at Logan slightly; hugging him.

He’d won the game? Whoa… that’s so cool! He watched the exchange, before tilting his head as Patton mentioned chalk. Drawing? He liked to draw! Virgil stayed where he was, eyeing Patton and Logan as they began to draw on the floor? Really? They could do that? Could- was he allowed to do that?

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Logan normally wouldn’t have allowed himself to do something as frivolous as doodling with chalk, but just sitting at the edge of the pool all that time was boring, and Virgil wasn’t exactly a talker so it wasn’t like he could pass the time with idle conversation. It was fine, the time had passed and now there was something he could participate in more actively. He let Patton cuddle up to him more under the towel the two had somehow ended up sharing, noticing that Patton seemed to be more aware of how cold he was now that he was out of the water, and Logan didn’t mind hugging him for warmth. He’d never really been a touchy feeling sort of person but being friends with Roman and Patton who were two of the most cuddly people in the world had sort of opened him up to it more, and honestly… he kind of liked it…

Roman took a moment to towel dry his hair a bit before finally deciding he was dry enough to use the chalk without the water dripping off of him and instantly washing it all away, noticing that Virgil hadn’t joined in on the activity. Did he not want to draw with chalk either? He figured he shouldn’t be surprised Virgil didn’t want to swim but he thought drawing was something Patton mentioned Virgil liking, if he remembered correctly? Roman hoped that Virgil wasn’t too miserable here, he didn’t want him to go home or not be having any fun. Hoping that Virgil would join in he picked up a piece of chalk and handed it to Virgil with a small smile before sitting down next to Logan, starting to do a bit of doodling himself.

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Virgil sighed, resting his head on his knees, before something caught his eye. Roman? He looked over, staring at the piece of chalk that was being handed to him. “I- I’m allowed?” he uttered, gripping the item and giving a small smile.

He watched for the other’s reactions again, before taking a deep breath and beginning to sketch; starting to hum softly. This was so cool!

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Roman nodded, a bit surprised by the question. “Of course… just don’t let it get wet or it disappears.” he told him before letting his attention fall to his own drawing. The three of them just enjoyed the silence as they concentrated on whatever it was that they had decided to work on, Logan drawing a few stars, a moon, accurate constellations, and perhaps the Periodic Table of Elements as well, Patton mostly drawing very childish looking puppies, kittens, rainbows, clouds, etc, and Roman focusing more on a fantasy vibe, drawing Princes with fancy crowns and castles and dragons, his art probably the most impressive out of the three of them.

After a while Logan got bored with the activity, mostly because he was too cold to really sit out here and enjoy himself any longer and instead focused his attention on the warmth coming from the towel and cuddling Patton, Patton absentmindedly doodling a few smiley faces and hearts here and there but more than ready to head inside and put on warm pjs himself, Roman still enjoying his time doodling a tower but he was happy to either stay out here longer or head inside and find a new activity depending upon whatever everyone else wanted to do.

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Virgil was busy doodling elaborate swirls and patterns, along the top side of the pool edge; his tongue sticking out to the side slightly as he concentrated. This was so much fun! He was still humming away, creeping along the ground to continue his drawing.

Wait… was he- planning to go all the way around the pool? Huh, that would look pretty snazzy actually.

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Patton finally decided he was done doodling as well, cuddling up a bit closer to Logan when he noticed Logan had also finished. His gaze fell on what Roman was drawing, looking it over a moment before smiling. “Pretty.” he said softly, a slight hint of red coming to Roman’s cheeks. “Thank you.” Roman said before looking up from what he was doing to look at what Patton had drew. “That’s lovely, Pat, you did a wonderful job.” Roman said, smiling at the way Patton’s face lit up at the compliment before looking at Logan’s work.

“Yours too, Lo.” Roman said with a smile. He turned to look at Virgil to see what he’d done but furrowed his brow when he wasn’t next to them, looking around before spotting Virgil working his way around the pool, drawing all sorts of swirls and patterns along the top side of the pool edge. The other two followed Roman’s gaze, impressed with Virgil’s work. “Wow.” Patton said softly in awe, a smile on his face. It was so pretty!

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Virgil was just finishing up, rubbing his hands together to remove the chalk dust- you know? The weird rub clap thing you gotta do when your hands are covered in shit? Yeah, that.

He rubbed his forehead, before freezing when he saw that everyone was staring at him. “I’m sorry!” he squeaked, cowering away after kicking the chalk over to Roman.

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The three of them all felt their brows furrow in confusion when Virgil suddenly panicked and apologized, Patton looking to Logan for an explanation since he was the one who usually had answers to every question, Roman blinking in surprise when the chalk was suddenly kicked over to him, taking a moment to figure out what was going on before starting to clean up and put the chalk away. “For what?” Logan asked when he realized that the group was all equally surprised by Virgil’s sudden reaction but that none of them really seemed to know what to say in response to it, and Logan certainly never had a problem speaking up when he didn’t understand something, how else was he suppose to learn?

He honestly couldn’t figure out what had happened, they’d all be drawing nicely, enjoying a peaceful quiet moment, he couldn’t really figure out what they’d done to make Virgil feel the need to apologize, or what Virgil thought he’d done, there really wasn’t anything to apologize for… they’d just finished their drawings and decided to take a moment admire Virgil’s, they’d all admired each other’s work… did Virgil not want them to look at it? Had they invaded his privacy somehow? Logan only snapped out of his thoughts when he felt Patton shiver a bit, realizing he and Roman were probably cold considering that it’d gotten a bit colder out and they were both wet from being in the pool all that time. “We really should head inside.” Logan said as he stood up, extending his hand out to Patton to help him stand, Roman looking back at Virgil. “If that’s okay.” Roman added, not wanting to do anything to make Virgil upset.

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Virgil swallowed as the group continued to stare at him, his mind filling with allsorts of reasons- many of them wrong, but still. “I- I-” he stuttered, covering his mouth; making the writing motion. Poor boy…

He looked away, realising there was no paper on hand for him to talk with, before glancing back up at Roman’s question. If what’s okay? He opened his mouth to reply in some form, before simply shutting it and shuffling his feet; giving a small thumbs up.

That’s an okay… right? And he could get inside and find some paper! Maybe… I mean, sure the house had some pape- his bag! His notebook!! Yes!!

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The group relaxed when Virgil gave a thumbs up, partly glad that Virgil seemed to mostly be okay, partly relieved they could head inside and change into something warmer. Patton and Logan were both quick to head inside and back to Roman’s room, grabbing their onesies, Patton’s being in his bag and Logan’s stayed here at Roman’s since his father would never let him own something so silly. Roman dug around until he found and old skeleton onesie he’d gotten for Halloween one year, handing it to Virgil. “Here, you can borrow this.” he said. “I’m gonna go make popcorn, I’ll be right back.” Roman said as he headed back out of the room, Logan heading into the bathroom to change first, returning fairly quickly.

Once the bathroom was free, Patton headed in next, happy to let Logan change first because he knew Logan wasn’t a fan of feeling cold, but relieved he could change and warm up himself now. Logan wasn’t entirely sure what to say now that he was alone in Roman’s room with Virgil, he still wasn’t sure what had gotten Virgil so upset moments ago, and he was sort of afraid to say anything for fear of accidentally upsetting him. “Um, there’s a bathroom across the hall if you feel Patton is taking too long and you want to change now.” Logan said when he struggled to come up with anything else to say, just wanting to be helpful since Virgil didn’t know Roman’s home as well as he did.

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Virgil stared at the onesie in his hands, feeling how soft it was, shocked that Roman had given it to him. He peered at Logan when he spoke, swallowing.

“This- m-mine?” he asked, holding it up so he could see the design. Wow! A skeleton? That’s awesome! He held the onesie close again, tilting his head. Change now? Wait, into this?

Hold on, but that meant- it really was for him?!

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Roman gave a light shrug at the question. “Sure, it can be if you want, you can leave it here so you always have it when we have our sleepovers, thats what Logan does.” Roman said with a smile before he headed out. Once Logan was left alone with Virgil and Virgil didn’t seem to acknowledge what he said, he shifted slightly, letting out a small breath of relief when Patton came out of the bathroom in his own onesie. “Well, I suppose you can just change in there now.” Logan said as Roman returned in his own onesie with popcorn for everyone.

“Okay, so we have to watch the Little Mermaid for obvious reasons, but start thinking about what Disney movies you want to watch afterwards so we can have a whole marathon all night long. Patton, help me set up.” Roman said excitedly, Patton quickly moving to help him build a pile of pillows and blankets on the floor for the four of them to nest in while they watched the film. Once it was done, Roman pulled up Disney+ on his TV, searching for The Little Mermaid as Patton sat next to him in the pile and cuddled up to him, Logan looking back to see if Virgil was ready before making any moves himself.

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Virgil was stood in the doorway, now dressed in the onesie; cradling his clothing. “Th-thank you…” he uttered, chewing his lip as he watched Roman and Patton.

What were they doing?

He gave a shy smile as the pair sat down, tilting his head at the creation. It looked comfy, whatever it was. “I- I- um…” he stammered, before simply holding his clothing out.

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Logan looked at Virgil, tilting his head slightly when he held out his clothes before taking them, assuming that’s what Virgil wanted, right? He sure hoped so, sometimes it was hard to tell and he constantly worried that he was going to accidentally do something that was going to upset Virgil and it’d be all his fault, like earlier when they were working on their homework, or even his reaction when they’d all been outside playing with chalk. He folded them and neatly set them down by Virgil’s bag before walking back over to the nest of pillows and blankets the other two had created for the group.

He scooted closer, sitting himself down and making himself comfortable, immediately noticing that Patton cuddled up to him and he couldn’t really help but let out a small laugh at that, Roman still leaning on Patton. Logan made sure when he joined the group to leave enough room for Virgil to sit down with them, Roman finally finding the movie he wanted and pressing play, excited as The Little Mermaid finally started playing. Patton’s attention mostly seemed to have fallen on the popcorn, happily snacking as the movie played on the screen.

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Virgil gave a Logan a little thumbs up, watching as his friend placed the clothing near his bag. Perfect! He then tilted his head as the other joined the pair, sitting in the weird… nest? It looked comfy though…

He shuffled his feet, before slinking over and sitting down; a little away from the group, so he didn’t intrude, glancing at the screen.

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Logan was relieved when Virgil gave him a thumbs up, glad that he’d done the right thing. The three were mostly silent as the film played, focused on the television, only interrupting occasionally when Roman wanted to sing along to one of the songs, or point out all the fun things they’d get to do since this was the school musical, after all. Once the film ended, Roman immediately put on The Princess And The Frog, mostly because it was Patton’s favorite, and despite the fact that it was getting late and they were out of popcorn, Roman did love to do things that made Patton happy.

Of course, Patton fell asleep before they even made it halfway through the second film, cuddled up to Roman and the stuffed animal he’d borrowed, Logan struggling to stay awake as well, nodding off every now and again before waking back up and trying to focus his attention back on the movie, though it was hard when they were all so comfy, and all cuddled up together and everything just felt so relaxed and calm and safe.

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Growing up autistic was kinda like growing up surrounded by mind-readers who

were bad at reading your mind specifically, and kept mistranslating your thoughts and getting pissed at you for stuff you weren't actually thinking

constantly punished you for not also being a mind-reader

to the point you grew up thinking you were evil for not having superpowers like everyone else

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Either autistic people need to stop being so relatable or I need to do some research.

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its the latter

#muse

adhd-vibes

adhd moods

(edit: not universal experiences, not exclusively adhd experiences, and definitely not a diagnostic tool)

*stands up* *sits down* *gets up again* *walks in a circle* *stands up on chair*

apparently, “yesterday” was actually four days ago

apparently, “four days ago” as actually yesterday

I’m not sure if i just walked away in the middle of that conversation or ended it like a normal person because i can’t remember what happened

ok i’ve found my phone, keys, and wallet! …..where is my phone?

wait–did i just completely interrupt this person or was there a pause? i don’t remember

everyone hates me

i know you introduced yourself to me 3 times but i cannot remember your name i am so sorry

*sets 17 alarms* *is still late*

*successfully accomplishes one (1) task or gets someplace on time for once* i am a fraud. clearly i do not have adhd and am just faking for attention :’(

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error: Hyperfocus™️ unavailable because the project is still boring and the time pressure isn’t enough to make it interesting this time

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sentences that will immediately make adhd people hate you

- if it was really important, you wouldn’t have forgotten about it

- have you tried meditating

- you’re so dramatic, it’s not a big deal

- stop fidgeting

- ‘i dont know’ isnt an answer

- any ‘ooh shiny’ joke

- any ‘squirrel’ joke

- just go to bed earlier

- you can’t have adhd, you’re too smart

- stop procrastinating

- adhd isn’t real, it’s just kids being kids

- *gets mildly distracted* haha i’m so adhd

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He nods at the mental note of doing reassurances for Patton, although that was also in his own mind as he likes to compliments and says that is okay, normally it worked as self-reassurance, if Patton was okay Virgil would be okay since he didn’t have to worry about it. But he didn’t explain that as probably was too selfish. “I will remember that.” He says simply as he hears Logan keep talking.

“Yeah… It does make sense… But I think I will tell mom just in case? And explain to her about what we found out… It will be good in having a therapist I guess? Like, I’m guessing with therapist ADHD can be more manageable or at least more understanding? Like I have with Anxiety. It’s more manageable and understanding for me. Because the person explains that certain acts I do are part of Anxiety or not and things like that… But yeah, that sounds like a good thing to hope Logan.”

He noticed how straighter he went and the deeper shoving on his pocket, yet he didn’t think it would be nice to call him on that so he kept on his previous point. “Okay. Just remember your own words? Like… You said you have ADHD as well and is normal to stim… So I won’t mind if you do. That is all. I won’t ask why you need or your reasons about it, just… Dunno… Repressing feelings aren’t nice and I wished that you could feel open in not doing that.” He did pay attention to what Logan said and he did notice that Logan was repressing his feelings as he tries to say it in a gentle way, although it was more show on his face, since signal language didn’t have tone. So his face showed a bit of comfort and more calm, also understanding.

“But yeah sounds like a great time. I look forward to that. I want to know more about the things you like and are passionate to talk about so we can look for things in common like you said and bond over.” He smiles gently at that to prove his point.

As Logan talks about his skills with taking care of smaller children he nods he could do that. “Just… Need to pass the anxiety first…” He rubs the back of his neck as he thinks about it. “But yeah, thanks Logan, I feel way calmer after talking with you, you are nice to hear, you say facts you believe and I like it.” Virgil smiles gently as he signals. “But yeah… Hopefully, the next time Remus will be better or at least know how to phrase it better… But yeah, I agree with you. Thanks for clearing it.” He wasn’t biting his lips anymore and his breathing was calmer as he was smiling gently, although right now seems like a smirk.

Janus heard Patton talking about the ceiling and the movie and what he wanted to do in the room and how much he liked the movie last night, which make him smile, although he didn’t have much to add to that. “I agree with you how your room should be somewhere relaxing Patton. I know for a fact that Virgil receives money to eat at school and to buy things from time to time. I bet you will get those as well.”

Janus smiles when he started to hear Patton talking about what he could do and the options, he was happy to see him so happy about that as he relaxes and nods. “Well, that is the fun, I go to Virgil’s home a lot, so you can do different ones each time I go so I can try everything. And I would like to.” He tries to turn more calmly and gently, as he smiles, after all, he didn’t want to appear there and get like 10 different cookies to try out.

Patton said that he wished he was there was a bit sad but soon he was back in be happy and giggling about stuff and Janus nods at that. “Because of the sugar, I prefer dark chocolate and mint. I normally don’t like dark chocolate with pepper. But Remus does, because he thinks it’s hot.” He shrugs at that. “I also don’t like sweet tastes like vanilla too much, as normally it has too much sugar. In general, if you keep dark chocolate and mint I’m done and that is enough for me.” He smiles at that as he thinks about the Christmas cookies as he looks at Virgil back at Patton. “I will tell you a secret, Virgil says he can eat anything and everything, but he does like dark chocolate and mint as well, also if you do a red velvet cake he will melt.” He winks playfully. “Oh, you could do the ornaments in colors, like the ones you like and the one Vee likes. I bet it will be adorable.”

Janus was honesty as he talks, he was enjoying the talk and honestly glad that for more than it wasn’t on his list of favorite things to talk about it, he was still able to keep the flow of the chat. Glad that Virgil seems more calm and happy in talking with Logan, as he relaxes and his shoulders fall relaxed.

“Oh yes, I definitely think it would be wise and beneficial to tell your mother about this.” Logan replied with a nod. “Yes... and medication might become an option as well once Patton seeks therapy, though it will take time to find the right dose and that could be an interesting road ahead for Patton that we should be very supportive of, if he decides medication is something he even wants to try, he might choose not to, or he might try it and decide to stop, it’s up to Patton, really.” Logan stated. “Well, yes, but when I said that, I was talking about other people.” Logan explained when Virgil reminded him that he had been the one to say that there was nothing wrong with stimming or having ADHD. There was nothing wrong... for other people to have it or do those things, he had to be perfect all the time. He couldn’t let himself get carried away being run by emotions, his father would never approve of that.

Though Logan had to admit, it was pretty comforting to hear Virgil tell him that he didn’t mind him doing it, and that it was okay if he did, and that he wished he felt more open doing so... so did Logan, honestly. But that was a conversation for another time. “Yes, I think it would be wonderful for us to take some time to get to know one another better. I did learn a bit about the group today, which was quite nice, but it sounds... fun to learn more.” he admitted, biting back a small smile. “Right, of course.” Logan added when Virgil stated that he just needed to get through his anxiety first. Logan couldn’t help but smile when Virgil thanked him, relieved to hear that anything he had done had helped to make Virgil feel calmer and more at ease, honestly he was just glad he’d said and done the right things. “Of course, glad I could help.”

Patton smiled a bit as his conversation with Janus continued, honestly, he really enjoyed talking to him. He gave a nod when Janus suggested that he could make different things each time he knew Janus was coming so that Janus would get to try everything, liking that plan. Patton only ever went over board and baked too much at once when his ADHD had him feeling a particular way and that he needed to get all the energy out somehow, or if he was trying to distract himself from some less than awesome feelings. “Dark chocolate and mint... I wonder if I could put together a sugar free recipe for a cookie like that... sort of like the Girl Scout Thin Mint Cookies.” he thought aloud with a smile on his face, excited to see if he could put something like that together for Janus since he had said he liked dark chocolate and mint after all.

When Janus pointed out that Remus enjoyed dark chocolate with pepper, he took a moment to think. “I did stumble across a recipe for Black Pepper Chocolate Truffles... I wonder if that’s something Remus would be into, I could try to make them and see what he thinks.” Patton said, momentarily forgetting the drama with Remus earlier. When Janus let him in on the secret of Virgil loving red velvet cake (as well as dark chocolate and mint like Janus), Patton’s face lit up. “That I can definitely do.” he said with a bit of a proud smile, he’d definitely mastered red velvet by now. He quite liked it to. Though Patton pretty much loved every baked good. “Oh, that’s a great idea! That’d be really fun.” Patton said happy to Janus’ suggestion that he make ornaments in various colors based on the colors he liked and the colors Virgil liked. Maybe he could make ones based off the colors each of his new friends liked too.

It’d be really fun to come up with color schemes for each of them and decorate the cookies accordingly, then when they came over, they’d each have their own cookie made by Patton! It’d be great. Patton wiped his face again, still a little emotional from the fact that someone was actually talking to him, and not just talking to him, but talking to him about the things he enjoyed, and listening as he went on about them, the feeling he got from that still a bit overwhelmingly joyful enough to cause him to tear up, but he managed to more or less compose himself, not wanting his crying to become a distraction, he didn’t want anything to potentially make it so that Janus pointed it out and they got off topic. He knew Janus was going to have to sign off soon, and Logan would have to go home, so Patton was really trying to soak up every moment while he had the chance.

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Virgil watched Logan stand, nodding as he began to pull his knees in- before staring as the taller one suddenly held out his hand? Huh? What- why- wait…

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“T-together…”.

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He then frowned, noticing his jeans. Ah… now what?

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“S-see?”. Would this work? He didn’t want Patton and Roman to stop just because of him… that wouldn’t be fair!

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He watched for the other’s reactions again, before taking a deep breath and beginning to sketch; starting to hum softly. This was so cool!

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Wait… was he- planning to go all the way around the pool? Huh, that would look pretty snazzy actually.

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Virgil was just finishing up, rubbing his hands together to remove the chalk dust- you know? The weird rub clap thing you gotta do when your hands are covered in shit? Yeah, that.

He rubbed his forehead, before freezing when he saw that everyone was staring at him. “I’m sorry!” he squeaked, cowering away after kicking the chalk over to Roman.

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That’s an okay… right? And he could get inside and find some paper! Maybe… I mean, sure the house had some pape- his bag! His notebook!! Yes!!

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Virgil stared at the onesie in his hands, feeling how soft it was, shocked that Roman had given it to him. He peered at Logan when he spoke, swallowing.

“This- m-mine?” he asked, holding it up so he could see the design. Wow! A skeleton? That’s awesome! He held the onesie close again, tilting his head. Change now? Wait, into this?

Hold on, but that meant- it really was for him?!

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Virgil was stood in the doorway, now dressed in the onesie; cradling his clothing. “Th-thank you…” he uttered, chewing his lip as he watched Roman and Patton.

What were they doing?

He gave a shy smile as the pair sat down, tilting his head at the creation. It looked comfy, whatever it was. “I- I- um…” he stammered, before simply holding his clothing out.

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He hears about the future as he looks at Logan and looks at him when he talks about what could or not happen, he was right, he didn’t know the future, and thinking about it now was pointless. But he did like the other’s idea about bringing Roman or even Logan around when Remus was there so he didn’t need to isolate something he liked. “I liked that idea… Roman usually comes when he is free, that is why he says he hangs out with us sometimes… I liked that idea, Logan… Since it means that can be good for both sides.” He says as he slowly relaxes. “I don’t know… But I’m too scared to ask… In all honesty… I also don’t think he will say, he hadn’t talked too much about himself… We only figured some things out like he was scared of my reaction about his arachnophobia because he froze in the car… So… I don’t know… It would be nice if I knew tho…”

“I don’t like this idea… Of him doing things for Remus like him because of me… Isn’t there a way for him not? But yeah… I want Patton to be okay.” He noticed him stimming as he tilted his head when he shoves them in the pocket. “You know… You can stim if you want… You don’t need to hold things like it isn’t affecting you… I know that you have emotions and while things aren’t around you exclusively, and you were brought here just to help, I had like to think that you can be my friend… I wanna know more about you and be friends with you if you want… But everything in the time and priorities I guess…? I just… Yeah, you can stim if you want I won’t ask why you need it. Shaking hands aren’t noise, and visually it isn’t distracting me… So you don’t need to be scared of triggering me.”

He looks as Logan keeps talking and he thoughts about it. “Yeah… I was kinda used of to taking care of small kids on the system so… I think I’m just… Still, doing that with him? But yeah he arrived yesterday? Do you think so? Do you believe that…? That is possible to coexist between me, Remus and Patton?” As he hears him promised he wanted to make sure of that as he looks at the rest. “I will! I will protect him from that. I just… What if I’m not around or any of us are around him? What if someone random in school does that? I don’t wanna him to be bullied… And no, Remus would never do that, Remus can be an asshole when he wanted but… He isn’t that type. I want to believe in that… I want to believe that the friend I met is there… Even if today wasn’t a good day or his nicest behavior…” He says looking upset at that as he trails off, he was using signal language as he was biting his lips harshly.

Janus smiles as he hears Patton ramble about what he asked and went on with off-topics things, it was good and exactly what he wanted for Patton right now. “I think that painting cloud on your ceiling is a marvelous idea and sounds like you could have the morning sky on there.” It was gentle as he points that as he hears the rest. “Oh, your room sounds like a dream, if you want we can maybe ask your father to buy more paint and try to decorate it a bit more like with pounds, clouds, and sun. Princess and the Frog is a Disney movie right?”

As he hears him talking about he kept a genuine smile, he could see that Patton was truly opening and sincere, it was nice for him as he wasn’t watching lies or secrets. “Well, that solids my idea of what I need to talk with you next time, yes I would love to eat something you baked Patton when I’m back. In general, I can’t have too much sugar, but I can have small doses so I will like mine with the less sugar possible or just small bites to have the tastes. The twins are lactose intolerant, so they avoid normal milk, which is easy to fix as almond milk is one of their favorites to be in place, also I know Remus is allergic a shrimp, but those don’t go in baking.” He smiles fondly at that as he hears him talking.

He looked at how emotional Patton got just by that small chit-chat as he thoughts that maybe it would be better if he definitely was there, he wanted to hug him and just caresses his head gently as he had a small smile a bit more in the sad side. “I wished I was there… So I could help you…” He says simply and sincerely as he shakes his head slightly. “It’s okay Patton, I wanted you to be off-topic, I wanted you to just talk about what you like and I honestly want to hear you. So it’s okay.” He looks a bit more gently and comforting again as he smiles slightly. “Now do you want to keep talking about Tiana? Or baking? What you wanna talk dear?”

Logan was relieved to hear that Virgil seemed to like the idea, glad that what he was doing and saying was helping to calm Virgil’s anxious mind. “Excellent, Patton will be thrilled to hear Roman will be stopping by occasionally.” he said. “Honestly? I think Patton wants to be more open and honest about... everything, his past, his likes and dislikes, he’s probably just still a little too afraid to open up because... well, who knows how previous foster families reacted to him in the past. I think if we all just reassure him that he can talk to us about... whatever he wants to, even if it’s something depressing from his past, or something he doesn’t even fully understand about himself yet himself, he’ll eventually just... start discussing those things more openly.” Logan stated. He couldn’t be 100% sure of course, he was still getting to know Patton, after all, but that’s how it seemed to him, and even if he was wrong, it certainly couldn’t hurt for them to give Patton more reassurance anyway.

“I believe if we all just... give Patton examples of healthy friendships and relationships, eventually he’ll be able to tell the difference on his own, and he won’t feel the need to work so hard to make everyone like him because he knows he has us, he has a group of people already who love and support him for exactly who he is, and those people aren’t going anywhere even if someone new doesn’t particularly care for him, if that makes sense.” Logan explained, though he blinked when Virgil suddenly called him out for stimming. His eyes went a bit wide and he slid his hands deeper into his pockets. “It is preferred that I do not, but I appreciate you saying so.” Logan said simply, standing up a bit straighter. His dad wouldn’t be very happy to find him here... stimming and being called out for having emotions. But maybe, eventually... Virgil and Patton’s house would become a safe space to be more open about those things? He wouldn’t get his hopes up because he didn’t want to end up disappointed but... it was sort of nice to think about. “I would enjoy getting to know you and becoming your friend...” he added after a moment.

“Honestly, I think your skills that you’ve developed from taking care of the smaller children in the system could benefit your relationship with Patton. From what I’ve seen he appears to be a bit more youthful than expected for his age, whether that’s because he feels he missed out on a lot of his childhood due to being in the system or perhaps that’s just... Patton... I don’t think it’d be a bad thing to use those skills to sort of... help him through everything, in a way... and of course I believe that, I wouldn’t have said it if I didn’t believe it, I would never state a falsehood as a fact.” Logan clarified. “Unfortunately, we can’t protect him forever, but we can all do our best to look out for him and try to make sure that doesn’t happen and that he has a positive educational experience.” Logan said. “Remus may have behaved poorly today, but that doesn’t mean he’s a bad person, he just had a bad day, it’ll all be alright.”

Patton smiled, his face lighting up when Janus said that he thought Patton’s idea to paint clouds on the ceiling was a good one. “Yeah, I wanted it to be bright and calming. I like pastel colors, but I really like blue, I just think it’s relaxing, and your room should be a nice, calm, relaxing space where you feel comfortable and like you can breathe, you know?” he explained. “That would be so fun, I built a little pillow fort in the corner of my room, I was hoping maybe if I saved up money from an allowance from doing chores and stuff I could buy fairy lights and put it on the pillow fort to make it all relaxing and pretty.” Patton continued before nodding. “Yeah, it’s a Disney movie. I think it’s my favorite one. I’ve always liked the Frog Prince, I have the book, and a stuffed frog that I’ve had since I was a baby... but I actually never got the chance to watch the Princess And The Frog until last night.”

Patton nodded, making mental notes of all the things his friends couldn’t eat. Less sugar for Janus, no milk for Roman and Remus, and not that he was baking anything with shrimp in it anyway, but still good to know that Remus also couldn’t have that. “Oh, I can make you plenty of sugar free options so you don’t have to constantly worry about not eating as much as you’d like... I have a lot of recipes that don’t call for it... like, I make these Pecan Crescent Cookies that are so good, and they’re sugar free. I can also make Nutella Cookies, Toffee Pudding, Chocolate Blondies... lots of sugar free options. But you’re always welcome to try my other stuff too!” Patton said with a bright smile. Oh. So he was REALLY good at baking. “I really enjoy making Rice Krispie Treats, and that’s just butter, marshmallows, and rice krispies cereal so everybody can have those! I hope Logan’s not allergic to peanuts because I can make Peanut Butter Rice Krispie Treats too and those are the best.” Patton stated. He blinked when Janus suddenly stated that he wished he was there, letting out a small breath he hadn’t even realized he was holding. “Yeah... me too...” he said softly, really wishing Janus was here.

Patton couldn’t help but be taken back when Janus asked what he wanted to talk about, it was so rare that he was asked that, and even rarer that he believed the person meant it when it was said. “Hm... maybe you could tell me what sorta flavors and stuff you like best? It’ll give me more baking ideas. I know the holidays are coming up, and I’ve always wanted to make Christmas Cookies at Christmas. I think it’d be so fun to decorate them to look like Christmas trees, and ornaments and snowmen and stuff... maybe I could make holiday cookies for other holidays too, there’s a lot of Winter Holidays, so I could end up making a bunch of cookies...” he said with a small giggle, officially having forgotten why Janus had started this conversation in the first place, too distracted by how happy it made him to have someone actively having a conversation with him and listening to him to think about much else.

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Virgil looked at Logan when he heard him, his voice was attracting his attention as everything was quiet, he tried to focus on his own breathing but he found it too hard as he tries to follow Logan’s breathing and pay attention to what he was speaking. He nods when he heard about judging someone on a rough day, he honestly had a problem with judging and he knew that a lot. So hearing that Logan did agree with not judging on a rough day, was a kinda relief for him.

“I don’t wanna him blaming himself… Or that is his fault… I know it’s not. I know that…” He whispers as he knew that Remus was probably having a rough day, in all honestly, he has been having a rough month and it was messing with him. Although hearing Logan saying how good and nice Patton was, definitely did him blink a few times and try to follow Logan’s breathing a bit more closer. As he slowly unclenches his hands, who clearly was red with how strong he was holding it, and had nail marks on his palm. “I don’t like this… I don’t wanna Remus been important for Patton just because Remus is important to me… I want Patton to know that… I want…” He whispers as he bites on his lips.

The reassurance of Logan about how Patton felt about all this was nice as he was still biting on his lips nervously, yet he seems to be breathing a bit more calmly now. The lack of light made it easier for him to focus on Logan and only on his voice and breathing, as Virgil closes his eyes. “I… Don’t wanna Patton be with someone who he didn’t like just because of me… I can just… Not bring Remus here? And go to the twin’s home instead of when I want to see Remus. I don’t know… It’s all… Confusing.” He was back in sign language as it was easier for him to express himself right now. As he was trying to keep calm “I know you said he has a fear of rejection and will do everything to please the other person but… I dunno, I don’t like this feeling? I want him to be him, I want him to do what he wants, not worrying about others or what others will think or like… I know, that I need special care, and all I know that. But… I want him to be free and do whatever he wants because he wants. He says he doesn’t like to be alone and I want him to have friends, nice friends who will like him and know to stop him if he is just doing things for pleasing them and not to abuse that… You know? Because too much kindness can be see as a way to abuse. And I’m scared of it… I’m, I don’t wanna that happen to him…”

Janus kept his face as neutral as possible, as he smiles when Patton answer’s about the frogs, even if it was just for a small moment he had Patton’s attention and not thinking in Virgil’s anxiety attack. As he looks at him. “Yes, he will dear.” He could see Patton’s anxiety rising as he looks at him in a gently way, he wished he was there it would be far more easy to pull’s Patton attention to him than now, as he couldn’t touch him or anything. “Patton, believe in me, Virgil will be okay, now about the frogs in your room, you said they were cartoons right? Can you tell me the colors of your walls and how the frogs match? Dos any of the cartoons calls more attention than others?” He was used with that, he didn’t mind Patton losing track of him or anything. “Patton, do you need me to repeat what I asked?” He says gently, his tone was comforting and calm. His expression in general was calm and comforting.

Logan nodded a bit as Virgil continued, definitely understanding where he was coming from. “I understand that. But we have no idea what the future holds, perhaps in time, Remus and Patton will actually become friends, and then he’ll be important to Patton for that reason.” Logan pointed out. “No, you and Remus have been friends for some time now, you should be able to have him over every now and again. Perhaps Roman can come over when Remus does and he can spend time with Patton? I think he’d really enjoy that, he seemed to really like Roman’s company, if Roman is busy and can’t come over, I can always come over and spend time with Patton so that you can be with Remus. We can absolutely work something out.” Logan assured. “In all honesty, I’m not sure how this affecting Patton... it’s a bit different this time as I think it’s the first time he’s been... specifically, verbally rejected. It’s different than jumping to conclusions in your head.”

“I can’t tell you for sure what Patton will do next, perhaps he’ll try to give Remus space, or try to do things to make Remus like him, both for you and himself, but the one thing I’m sure of is that Patton will be okay, and that’s the most important thing, everyone is okay.” Logan said. He sighed, however, when Virgil stated that he wanted Patton to be himself, that he felt bad that Patton was starting to feel as though he had to hide parts of himself because of everything that happened, that he was scared to show happiness or upset for fear of what others thought, and Logan couldn’t help but shake his own hands a bit as he thought about it because, well, hiding his feelings had been what Logan had been trained to do from the time he was a toddler, he knew how hard it was to bottle everything up, and he didn’t want that for Patton either.

Noticing his hands, he quickly shoved them in his pockets to keep from continuing the stim, had to be serious, had to be professional, had to focus on Virgil. No emotion. “I know you do, and that makes you a really great brother that you want that for Patton. He just arrived, what? Yesterday? It’ll just take time to find a balance where Patton can be himself without fear of triggering you or upsetting Remus... it will take time, but we’ll get there.” Logan promised. Logan frowned however at the last thing he said. “I don’t want that for Patton either, but we’ll protect him from that, all of us... the only person he’s interacting with currently that dislikes him is Remus, and Remus would never do something like that, he would never take advantage of Patton’s kindness in order to abuse him, so we have nothing to worry about right now.” Logan assured.

Patton instantly took notice when Janus smiled at him, and he couldn’t help but give a small smile back, even if it was sort of weak. Patton couldn’t help but wish Janus was actually physically here too, but he was happy he at least had him on the screen. He continued to hit and tap his hands together, his shoulders relaxing slightly when Janus assured that Virgil would be okay. “Um... my room is blue... like a pretty light blue. Maybe one day I could paint clouds on my ceiling, like how Virgil has stars...” Patton thought aloud, blinking when he realized he was getting off topic. “My room sort of looks like outside, during the day when the sky is a really pretty blue color, so it matches because it’s sorta like the frogs are outside.” Patton continued. “There’s this one frog Virgil painted, he sorta reminds me of Naveen from The Princess And The Frog... I just watched that for the first time last night, I liked it a lot...” Patton said, starting to get lost in the conversation.

“The main character, Tiana, she wants to open a restaurant, and she makes beignets, I know how to make beignets... I’m really good at baking, I can bake anything, though I’m not good at cooking, like... at all, I’m awful at it, actually... I was sort of learning how to make pasta before I came here though... maybe I can bake stuff for you guys when you come over after you get back from your vacations. Are you allergic to anything? Are-- is anybody in the group allergic to anything?” Patton questioned, wanting to make sure that he didn’t accidentally bake something that would make any of them sick because that certainly wouldn’t be good. He’d have to remember to ask Logan if he was allergic to anything since Janus wouldn’t know, they did just meet after all, and-- was Patton crying? Maybe a little bit... but Patton genuinely couldn’t remember the last time someone asked him about stuff that he enjoyed and made him happy and just let him talk and get excited about it.

For a minute he forgot that Virgil was panicking, and that Janus wasn’t even technically there, because when Patton looked at Janus he was smiling and seemed genuinely interested in what Patton had to say, and that never happened, and so he couldn’t help but get a bit emotional about it because for a split second Patton was just... happy. Suddenly remembering what was going on in the room next to him he glanced back at Virgil, quickly rubbing his eyes before looking back at Janus on the screen. “Yeah... sorry, I got a little off topic.” he said after a moment, almost wondering if this particular time, maybe the fact that he’d gotten so easily distracted and off topic had less to do with his ADHD and more to do with how wonderful it felt to just... talk to someone, really talk to someone about something, anything, whatever, even if it was silly or nonsensical, just because it was something he liked to talk about.

#patton x virgil #020

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Roman nods in agreement. “Sure Nerd, Pat. I’m really sorry about my brother’s behavior.” He says hushedly as he seems to be kinda holding Remus’s hand and arms. “But I do believe that we can meet again and talk more I will save your number later Calculator Watch. Remus stop it!” He says as he turns the call off as he was going to take care of his brother.

Janus looked a bit and sighed at that, he truly wanted to Remus be better, but lately, things have been so hard for the older twin that he wasn’t impressed to see him out of his mind. “I’m also sorry for Remus, I’m not saying that I condone with his words, I know his words hurt or make you two feel uneasy with him. And that is fine, just knows that he isn’t doing anything to trigger you guys on purpose.” He tried to explain although his sight was quickly moved to Virgil.

“Virgil! Hey, Look at me.” Janus was snapping his fingers as he tries to call Virgil’s attention, who was breathing in and out quickly, stress ball disappeared as he was craving his nails on the palm of his hands. Janus was looking between Logan and Patton, as he concludes that Patton won’t be able to help.

“Patton, do me a favor and turn the lights off.” Janus was pretty sure that Logan would be more able to keep calm than Patton right now, yet he wanted to give the other something to do and help, as he snaps his fingers again and Virgil looked at him. “Yes, look at me. I’m here, okay?”

Virgil was still clenching his hand as he was biting his lips harshly. “Remus was a dick… I thought… I thought he wouldn’t be… Maybe it was a bad day for him? He is just…” He was speaking although in a whisper tone while in the middle of his panic as he shakes and rocks front and back, shaking his head. “He isn’t like that… He…”

Janus looked at Virgil, that was bad, like really bad. He took a deep breath calming down as he looks at Logan. “Hey Logan, there is a method that neither I or Remus can do, and I have a feeling you will know how to. I’m asking you to logic his thoughts. Right now it would be better if Angela was there to talk with him because she is the one to normally help him with this. But till she catches up will take way too long, talk with him, try to untangle the mess that is his thoughts he will calm down when he sees the logic. Also Patton, I think, I know how you can help Virgil with an anxiety attack but I prefer to explain yours when I’m there. Since it would be more easy.”

“Right now though, Patton talk to me okay? Like, can you tell me what type of frogs did Virgil painted for you and how he painted it?”

Logan bit back another smile at the nicknames. “It’s okay.” Patton said softly, not wanting Roman to feel bad about it, before sighing as Roman left the call with Remus. He already missed Roman. He was nice to talk to, but hopefully he’d be able to help Remus with whatever it was he was currently going through. Logan pursed his lips when Janus apologized for Remus’ behavior as well, and stated that Remus really wasn’t trying to trigger either of them on purpose, Logan wasn’t entirely convinced, but he did trust Janus, so if he said that was the case, Logan supposed the best thing to do was to believe it for now, though that didn’t mean he wouldn’t still be a bit cautious with what information he shared when talking to Remus... just incase. He didn’t want anything he said be held against him later and used to upset him like Remus had seemed to do to Patton... Logan had much more to lose if he got upset in front of other people than Patton did. Patton was allowed to have emotions, after all... Logan didn’t feel like he was.

Logan snapped out of his thoughts when he noticed Janus trying to get Virgil’s attention, only then noticing that Virgil seemed to be having a panic attack. He’d never actually been around someone having a panic attack before, he wasn’t entirely sure he knew what to do. The only person here who knew what to do was Janus, and it was much harder to help over a screen than it was in person. When Patton heard his name, he gave a small nod, getting up but moving slower than he normally would’ve because Remus had said him moving quickly and being loud had triggered Virgil earlier and now he was afraid to do... almost anything, really. Logan furrowed his brow slightly at the instructions that he was given, Logan was good when given a task to do, but he couldn’t help but find the instructions unclear... he was good with logic, it was his speciality, but what logic could Logan add to Virgil’s current thoughts?

If Virgil was right, and Remus wasn’t like that, then what other logic could Logan add to that statement? If Virgil was wrong and Remus was, well, for lack of a better word... a bit of an asshole, to say that Virgil was wrong wasn’t logical, it seemed cruel to bring up in a moment of panic. Clearing his throat, he adjusted his glasses and glanced back at Janus in hopes of a bit more guidance or information, he did better with clear instructions, but when Janus seemed to turn his focus to Patton instead, Logan figured he was on his own with this one. The perfectionist really couldn’t get this one wrong... no pressure there... “Virgil, just breathe with me, focus on your breathing... if that’s too difficult, focus on my breathing and try to follow along with that. Okay? Look at me, you’re right, Remus might have been having a rough day... and you can’t judge someone because of a rough day.”

“You are very fortunate in the fact that you have a loving and wonderful brother who is sweet, and kind hearted, and accepting. He has so much love to give and he’s never had anyone to give it to until now, now he gets to give it to you, and your parents, and your friends, who hopefully in time will become his friends too. Patton couldn’t hate anyone if he tried, he’s too nice, and forgiving, he may be panicked over Remus disliking him, sure, but he’s also probably already trying to come up with ways to give Remus the space he needs from him, and processing the reasons why Remus might’ve behaved the way he did, he may think it’s his fault, he may blame himself, but the most important thing to him is that Remus is someone you love and care about, he’s important to you, and so he’s important to Patton too, even when he’s not showing Patton kindness personally.”

“Patton will do everything he can to get along with Remus for you, for himself, even if that means giving Remus space, whatever it means, Patton is more than happy to do it, there won’t be any fighting or screaming or yelling on Patton’s end, he wouldn’t put that kind of stress on you, and he doesn’t have it in him anyway. That’s just not who Patton is, I know I only just met him, but I can tell, he’s a very caring person. Everything will work out.” Logan assured, trying to keep his voice as gentle and soothing as possible. Patton nodded a bit when Janus said he had a technique Patton could use to help Virgil through panic attacks, but that it was better taught in person, and therefore not something Patton could do to help right now, unfortunately.

Patton fidgeted with his hands a bit, feeling guilty that he couldn’t help, because he wanted to help Virgil now, trying not to let his feelings from the conversation he’d just had with Remus combined with the guilt of his new brother having a panic attack he couldn’t help with cause him to spiral into an attack of his own, because that certainly wouldn’t help the matter at all, but he couldn’t help but bounce slightly in the dark, focusing his attention on the computer screen so that he didn’t get scared of being in a dark room because the computer screen was a source of light, though he figured he’d be okay because he wasn’t alone in the dark, he was in a room of people. Patton blinked when Janus asked about the frogs Virgil painted in his room, tilting his head slightly because he was surprised Janus was striking up a conversation with him...

Clearly Patton was not understanding that Janus was trying to distract him because he was probably picking up on Patton’s own anxieties and fears and figured he’d help Patton while Logan helped Virgil... “Frogs?” Patton repeated, his gaze already fixed on the screen because of the light anyway. “Virgil painted cartoon frogs... da- Ethan found green paint in the garage, I think?” he said, tapping his hands together lightly. “Is Virgil gonna be okay?” Patton asked Janus after a moment, Virgil being all Patton could really think about, despite the fact that Patton hated to lose the opportunity to have someone’s attention where he actually got to talk about things that made him happy because who knows when he’d get that opportunity again... but he was too worried about Virgil to think about his own needs.

He’d gotten so focused on Janus that he hadn’t really heard what Logan said to comfort Virgil, whatever it was, he hoped it worked. He wanted Virgil to feel better, even if it meant Janus would probably stop talking to him and hang up, and Logan would go home, and Virgil would need time to himself... and Patton would have to go back to his room and be all alone... nope, don’t go there right now, don’t make it about you when your brother is in the middle of a very bad panic attack, that’d be selfish and rude, and Patton was not selfish or rude, he thought of other people, he put other people first, especially his brother. He was hitting his hands together a bit faster now as he tried to refocus his energy, letting his focus fall back to Janus. “I’m sorry, you-- what were you asking me about the... are you sure Virgil’s gonna be okay? Should I be doing something else for Virgil?” he asked.

#patton x virgil #020

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They all heard Logan talk, it was honestly quiet while he spoke but at the end of it, it was Virgil who was the first one to break the semi-silence. Tapping slowly on Logan’s shoulder, to call his attention so he could signal. “Now that you spoke all you wanted hope you won’t mind us trying to explain or clear some things.” They all were silent at that since Virgil was one of the focus in there, as he waits for the confirmation he was going to think a bit. “I’m sorry for not including Patton on this, but I’m guessing you can sum up and fill in after we are done.” Since Patton was the only one who didn’t know sign language.

“I’m in fact the one to stop those two of their paranoid about my anxiety, and I’m the one to point when someone who is doing it on purpose or doing it by mistake. Yes, I did notice how they seemed annoyed about Patton triggering my anxiety by mistake, but I didn’t notice that was negative for Patton, because I was in the middle of an anxiety attack. But now that I know, I want both of you two to apologize to him. You two know that for more I appreciate your overprotectiveness, it’s not fair with the person out.” Virgil says as he looks at Janus and Remus.

Roman raised his tone next though. “I typed what you talked Vee, if Patton can read the chat it would be more easy for him to follow up.”

Virgil nods as he is going to put the chat up, the screen now showing their faces, and the text, where in fact Roman had typed what Virgil said.

Remus and Janus looked in thought as they were thinking about their words, eventually was Janus who spoke first. “I’m sorry Patton, if at any moment seems like I was annoyed or upset with you. But I should already warn, we don’t do it to trigger you or to exclude you. It does have a reason, but I will wait Remus apologizes.”

Remus thought about it. “I will apologize if my expressions did you feel excluded. I’m sorry for that, it wasn’t my intention at the moment but, I can’t promise I won’t do that again. Vee, since it’s you, please explain.”

Virgil nods at that, waiting for Roman and Logan to look at him, so he could explain. “I read people, like… Books. I need to see expressions, I observe the ambient and the surroundings. I take the scene as a whole, paying attention to everything. One of the reasons I get overwhelmed easily, is because I’m constantly noting my surroundings, how certain people react, talk, interact. I’m constantly reading them. In a way, it’s calming for me because I know when I need to avoid certain people if they are angry or try to help if they are sad. Their point is. Because of this, they show their emotions on their face clearly, so I know what they are feeling.”

Janus nods as he looks at Logan. “We are used to be only us, school isn’t a nice place for Virgil, because people are often triggering him by purpose, so we feel in a habit of think that way with everyone. Sure, it’s our mistake to treat Patton like that, and at least on my part I normally would have a bit more patient. Well, at least you can expect that, from now on. I don’t mind in translate for Patton what Virgil is talking about, although for now, Roman is doing a fabulous job.”

Remus shook his head. “I can’t promise any of that. To be direct and clear, I don’t think I can be friends with Patton, I can and I will learn about his ADHD and try my best ability in keeping myself from triggering him. But, I can’t promise patient and gentleness. I’m going to show if I get annoyed about him triggering Virgil, I’m going to put Virgil’s feeling first. Yes, I know Virgil will get pissed every time because he cares more about anyone else first than himself. But I can’t promise that.

Virgil sighs a bit at that. "Remus is kinda… How do I put it…?”

Roman stopped to type as he looks at Patton. “I can explain, Remus and Virgil were like brothers before Patton. They were more like brothers than me and Remus, to be honest. So, it will take him some time to understand that he isn’t losing his place as a brother with Virgil. So… Maybe just hang in there? And try to understand that he isn’t doing it because he hates you or wants to exclude you, it’s just his intrusive thoughts constantly yelling at him that he is bad, or that he did something wrong, or even that he should…” He was cut as Remus mute the phone.

Virgil looked at that as Remus seems as yelling and Roman was yelling back. But it was Janus who spoke in their place. “Remus has a hard time with his thoughts, like, sometimes he can go weeks not taking care of himself because of said thoughts. So, yeah, asking for him to not show what he feels is a bit over the line, give him time to understand. Eventually, he will. I’ll try my best to explain Remus when he is like that.” As he points to the cam, the twins seem to be still arguing muted.

Virgil looked at Patton, but Janus was speaking for him as Roman was busy. “I want to include you and be friends with you, as well act like your brother, I promise you that. I know for a fact Janus will try his best to get along with you because you are important to me. But I guess you will need to learn to ignore Remus’s thoughts about you.”

Virgil knew that Patton wanted to learn sign so they wouldn’t need a translator or a book, and that did make him feel happy but right now they had more things to talk about.

Janus was speaking again by himself as Virgil seems to look at the cams and the twins still arguing. “Twins, stop it. Roman, you shouldn’t speak about your brother’s feelings so open like that. Remus, you should be more trustful and direct and say it. You two were right and wrong at the same.”

Remus and Roman seem to stop as they turn the mic on but Roman was pouting and Remus was annoyed at him.

Janus sighs a bit at the next point. “We don’t care about stimming, like, we won’t say for him to stop or say it’s annoying. But yeah if I do see bad ones I will ask for him to stop or bring them to the attention. We all have stimming so, no problem at all with those, Virgil has bad ones like scratch the back of his neck or hitting his tights, we have been working on those.”

Roman and Remus roll their eyes in annoyance at each other as Remus was the one to explain. “I guess I will explain what happened for me to be annoyed and what triggered Virgil’s anxiety. I know you didn’t do it by purpose, but loud sounds and sudden noises are triggering for Virgil. He doesn’t care about movies or games but when it’s near him, like you two right now, if you suddenly yell or move too quickly around him he will get scared and freeze, normally getting anxious. That is why his anxiety was triggered early.”

Virgil shrugs. “I know it wasn’t on purpose, so I don’t care. You shouldn’t be annoyed because of that.” He says simply to Remus, Roman did translate as he looks at Virgil. “And you shouldn’t put your anxiety needs down because of Patton. This is an open talk, Virgil.”

Janus coughs as he calls their attention. “But yes Logan, we will keep an eye on harmful stim and not be mad with Patton if he bounces or does others.”

Virgil thought about the choker as he shrugs. “I don’t mind, I talked with Ethan to get a new one anyway, I was hoping to go shopping that with Jan and Re when the year starts.” Janus and Remus looked at each other for a while, but they didn’t seem to point out about the choker. Clearly, there was a secret, but they didn’t want to point.

Roman blushes with the compliment honestly. “Thanks, Microsoft Nerd. But the reason for low emotional intelligence with everyone is probably because we are all overwhelmed. Also, liking or not, I’m the outsider. I was in Patton place once, triggering Virgil’s anxiety and getting my brother annoyed at me. Sure I don’t have RSD, but it was a hard time.”

Remus looked at that annoyed as he wasn’t liking that talk at all.

Janus sighs at Remus. “Remus, stop the childish behavior.”

“No.” Remus answered simply as he was chewing on his nail.

Roman looked at that and so pulling his hand from his mouth. “Well, for everyone’s safety, I think if everything is clear. I would like to bring Remus to play games before he starts doing things.”

Janus and Virgil looked at Roman with the faces that they knew what he was talking about. Janus spoke as he looks at Patton. “I’m returning one week early than school starting, the twins are going to be back early than me. But we can meet before school starts so we can meet personally. If you want to talk with us online till there we won’t mind.” Janus looked at Logan smiling. “You should also get our contacts so you could talk with us if you want. But I need to agree with Roman, this night has been fulled with too much information, and would be better if we don’t prolong this much so we can understand it.”

Logan looked over at Virgil when he tapped him on the shoulder, watching him sign and nodding a bit. He certainly didn’t mind them explaining their points of view, that’s how conversations worked, after all. He was more than happy to listen now that he’d made his point, show them the same respect they’d shown him. Logan wasn’t really sure how he felt about Virgil telling the others to apologize to Patton, if it were him, it wouldn’t really mean very much to get an apology someone was told to give as oppose to one that genuinely came from the heart, but... maybe Patton would be happy to just have the apology either way, so since it wasn’t meant for him, he figured his opinion on the matter didn’t need to be verbalized.

Patton looked back at the screen when Roman announced that he was typing what Virgil was saying so that Patton would be included in the conversation despite the fact that he didn’t know sign language yet, his face going a bit red again. “Thank you, Roman, I really appreciate it.” he said softly as he started to read the chat so he could keep up, glancing up when he heard Janus address him. “Thank you, Janus...” he said quietly, a little scared of Janus’ reasons for being annoyed or upset with him but figuring there was no point in worrying about any of it until the conversation was finished, right now he was more than happy to focus on the apology itself, which he was very appreciative of.

Logan and Patton both took a moment to think about what Virgil said, that did make sense, if Janus and Remus were use to making their emotions more clear for Virgil’s sake, they probably weren’t even thinking when they started talking to Patton. “Oh, that makes sense...” Patton said as he looked back at Janus, that must’ve been what he was referring to earlier, right? He didn’t exactly like hearing that kids at school triggered his new brother on purpose... that was so mean. Patton was about to thank Janus again, he really was appreciative of Janus, especially the fact that he was willing to translate for Virgil when Roman didn’t so Patton could be included, but he was cut off by Remus.

Patton blinked in surprise at what Remus said, and even Logan found his eyes going a bit wide because... well, he hadn’t really expected Remus to say that, he knew the guy could be pretty blunt, but that shocked even him. “I don’t want to replace Remus... I would never try to take his place in Virgil’s life.” Patton said when Roman further explained, Logan pursing his lips slightly as he studied Remus, not even sure if the twins heard Patton or noticed Logan because they were suddenly fighting. Hm. “Okay...” Logan said slowly to Virgil before glancing back at Patton to make sure he was okay. Patton had never had anyone just sort of... state they didn’t like him like that before, especially for something out of his control, or when he really hadn’t done anything wrong, and Logan had a feeling that was going to stick with him.

Patton decided it was probably better to keep what he wanted to say on the subject to himself, so he focused his attention on Janus, Virgil, and Logan, and would focus on Roman again when the twins stopped fighting. Seemed like the smarter way to go. “Okay.” Patton said simply with a small nod to what Virgil said once Janus had translated it. When Remus explained why he’d gotten so annoyed with Patton, Logan let out a small breath and looked away, partially wishing Remus hadn’t done that. “I’m sorry.” Patton replied to Remus simply and Logan glanced at Patton out of the corner of his eyes before studying Remus a moment before realizing Virgil was signing again and looking back so he didn’t miss what he said.

Logan couldn’t help but narrow his eyes slightly. The conversation had taken a potentially dangerous turn that Logan wasn’t sure how to navigate, and now he had the sinking suspicion that on top of all that, that the group was keeping some sort of secret, he wasn’t sure what, but he had a feeling it had to do with Virgil’s choker, or perhaps their planned shopping trip, either way, he pushed it out of his mind. Their secrets were none of his business, instead glancing at Patton to see if he could figure out if Patton had picked up on the secretiveness as well, he had a feeling, surprisingly enough since Patton usually seemed a bit oblivious, that he had.

He instead let his attention fall on Roman, catching sight of Roman’s blushing, which caused him to blush a bit himself. “I can understand that.” he said with a small nod, it did make perfect sense... Roman knew what it felt like to be in Patton’s shoes, so of course he was more empathetic than the others. Hearing Remus interject, Logan nodded a bit in understanding when Roman suggested that he remove Remus from the conversation... that seemed wise and in everyone’s best interest. “Alright, thank you very much, Roman, I think I speak for both Patton and myself when I say that your contributions to this conversation were wonderful, I hope we get to speak with you again soon.” Logan said with a hint of a smile, Patton nodding in agreement. “Definitely.” he agreed.

When Janus recommended that Logan get their contacts, Logan nodded before typing his phone number in the chat, making sure to be quick to do so so that Roman could get it before he left with Remus. “I have put my phone number in the chat, if you’d all like to send me a text or something so I have your numbers as well, you’re welcome to reach out to me at any time for any reason.” Logan stated before looking back at Janus and nodding as he talked about when they’d all be returning from their winter vacations. “That sounds lovely, don’t you think, Patton?” Logan stated when Janus suggested meeting up in person when they got back, Patton nodding in agreement. “Thank you all for having this conversation with me and Logan... I appreciate that you were willing to do that, even if not for me, for Virgil.” Patton concluded, Logan studying Patton’s face as he spoke.

#patton x virgil #020

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(I wouldn’t usually post pics from others like this but this is a really good infographic. I have also messaged them on instagram and suggested they make an ADHD infographic account, which I’d share. It’s just really good and I hope they make more.)

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CHOICE PARALYSYS????

THAT ISN’T JUST ME??????

OH MY GOD I’VE BEEN BEATING MYSELF UP OVER THAT FOR Y E A R S I HAD NO IDEA IT WAS AN ADHD THING

#important

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If you experienced trauma in childhood or had a rough childhood, dude listen to me. Offer yourself play. You were deprived of it.

Keep bubbles in the house, blow bubbles in the yard, blow them in your room, get a coloring book that doesn’t have to be an adult one with mandalas, watch cartoons, laugh at stupid things, dress up as a superhero for Halloween, wear a Santa hat on Christmas and big light up snowflake earrings, lay down on the floor, lay down in the grass, eat eggos for dinner sometimes. It’s not stupid. You’re not childish. You’re giving your inner child what they had taken from them. They deserve it.

#self care

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They all looked at each other or seems to as they thought about what Logan was saying. But was Roman who spoke first. “In all honesty, I don’t stay with Remus, Virgil, and Janus that much on school or out of school. We do sometimes get along, go out together, but I have a group of friends of my own. Yet I did go to Virgil’s therapist to learn more since I was often triggering his anxiety when he visited us. So, yeah I won’t mind going to for Patton, although in all fairness as I said I don’t stay on their group too much.”

Remus shrugs as he looks at Patton and then at Logan, now he felt a bit calmer that Virgil was okay. “Sure I won’t mind. I don’t know if Patton will fit in the group, as it seems we are creating a misunderstanding after another but I can do that.”

Janus looked in thoughts as he thinks about it. “Well, it’s Virgil’s brother so yeah I can do that, and answering your question Logan, you can call out anyone in this call. As I said, we value in general value the truth and sincerity for more than it hurts. We deal with the hurts feelings talking after getting called out. Sure, sometimes we don’t talk about it immediately and can let it slide to the next day, but we are pretty open.”

Remus looks at Janus and then at Logan. “What he wants to say is, you can talk our ears off, we will deal with it.”

Virgil looked at them sighing a bit. “We all want to learn since we are going to be somewhat together or around each other because these two are so paranoid in not triggering me. Misunderstanding is something that easily triggers my anxiety, so if we all can avoid it, by learning about ADHD they are more than happy to do.”

Janus rolled his eyes at Virgil. “We aren’t paranoid Vee.”

Roman nods at that. “Sure you two are.”

Remus pouted as he crosses his arms over his chest. “We aren’t. We just take care of him as he deserves it.”

Roman shakes his head a bit. “What Virgil says was, that we want to learn since we will be around each other, he called that these two are paranoid in not triggering him. And as misunderstanding is something that easily triggers his anxiety, if learning about ADHD will avoid that, we are more than happy to do.”

Virgil smirks as he looks at Janus and Remus. “Paranoid.”

They both pouted at that, as Virgil was just teasing them, and they both knew it not taking offense in that.

Roman was laughing a bit at that. “Just, start talking calculator watch. We can’t hold you all night in Virgil’s house. We won’t be upset or angry with you and if we don’t like something we will talk like civil humans.”

Logan nodded a bit when Roman spoke. “Alright, well, I do appreciate you being open to learn more about Patton and his ADHD despite the fact that you’re not as involved in this friend group as you are in your own. That’s quite considerate of you.” Logan said. Patton sunk down in his chair a bit as Remus spoke, hating to admit that Remus was probably right. Patton didn’t exactly fit in with this group very well, he couldn’t exactly blame them for not wanting him around. Logan looked back and forth between everyone as they spoke, though focused mostly on Virgil since he was signing and he didn’t want to miss anything important, especially since Patton didn’t know sign yet and would need someone to catch him up.

Logan bit back a smile at the nickname, never had one of those before. “Alright then... well, since I’ve been given permission to be completely honest, I feel I should say that despite the fact that I’m pretty sure that you’re joking around, or at least I think you are, I’m not the best at figuring that sort of thing out... Virgil’s actually right. You two are quite paranoid, or overprotective of Virgil as a whole. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, it makes you very good friends, but I think that perhaps the two of you should take some time to think about the difference between someone who is intentionally trying to trigger and upset Virgil by being unfeeling and unsympathetic to his anxiety, and someone who is accidentally triggering and upsetting Virgil without meaning to who genuinely does feel bad when they realize they may have upset him. Because both Janus and Remus have made obvious facial expressions of annoyance towards Patton, and Patton isn’t oblivious to said expressions, and it triggers his RSD.”

“It is unfair to punish Patton by reacting the same way you might to someone who was being cruel to Virgil on purpose, because Patton isn’t trying to upset Virgil on purpose. He’s an individual with his own thoughts and feelings who’s going through a big change of his own by joining a new family and hoping to be accepted by not only that family, but by the people who are important to that family as well, and that’s you two. Perhaps you could try to be a little more patient and understanding of the fact that this is all new to Patton, and it’ll take him some time to learn what upsets Virgil, and how to speak sign language, and how to behave and react to his new brother’s anxiety, as oppose to giving him annoyed looks and reacting as if he were doing these things for spite, when he clearly is not. I know that your natural response is to put Virgil’s feelings first because he’s your friend and you care about him, but there’s no reason you can’t be understanding of your friends anxiety and patient with his new brother at the same time. You just have to master that balance.”

“If I were Patton, I would more or less feel excluded and as though I were unwanted, and I’m not saying Patton has to be included in everything the three of you do from now on just because he’s Virgil’s brother, but it’d be nice if on the occasions that you did invite him along that you made him feel as though you genuinely wanted him to be there, assuming that feeling is genuine. At least then he won’t have to spend the next five years at the very least feeling like a burden you all feel you’re obligated to include.” Logan stated with a shrug. “As for Patton, you do plan on spending a good amount of time educating yourself on Virgil’s anxiety so that you don’t accidentally trigger him in the future, yes?” Logan questioned, Patton nodding immediately. “Yeah, I don’t want to make Virgil anxious or sad, and I wanna learn sign so he can still talk to me even when he doesn’t wanna talk to me... if that makes sense...” Patton said.

“Alright, excellent. So both of you will educate yourselves on what the other needs mental health wise, that’s fantastic. As for Janus, Remus, and Roman, you’re halfway there as you’ve already educated yourself on Virgil’s needs and therefore just need to do the same for Patton. I think a great way to start is to perhaps educate yourself on the subject of stimming, or self-stimulatory behavior. Its repetitive behavior Patton may do to calm his over stimulated mind, such as fidgeting or bouncing in his chair, things like that. Patton, you should try to become aware of if any of your stimming is actually triggering to Virgil’s anxiety... if that ends up being the case, we can try to work to replace that stim with a different one, it’s not easy and it’ll take a bit of time, but it can be done.” Logan explained, Patton nodding. “And Virgil, Janus, Remus, and Roman, please be patient if Patton ends up needing to do this, it takes time, and he could slip up.”

“I think you four should also pay attention to Patton’s stimming so that instead of finding the behavior annoying or aggravating, you understand what they mean. Which movements mean Patton is happy, which one means he’s stressed, etc... Janus, you should be very good at learning more about that as you seem to have a talent for reading people and understanding the meanings behind their actions and the things they say... though some stims can be harmful, some people bang their head, or hit themselves, or scratch at their skin, and obviously if Patton displays any of these stims, we should work on trying to direct him to less harmful ones instead, though a therapist would obviously be better equipped to handle something like that than us, but we can discuss that with Patton’s therapist when the time comes, and still do our part.”

“I don’t know Patton well enough to know what he does, all I’ve really noticed was the bounding and fidgeting, but some examples of stimming so you have an idea of what to look for include... staring at objects, especially anything with lights or movement... like when he got distracted by Virgil’s ceiling earlier, gazing off into space, blinking repeatedly, looking out of the corner of your eyes, finger snapping, tapping on things, flipping lights on and off repeatedly, random noises, repetitive verbalization, or repetitive movement like spinning or pacing, even thumb sucking can be a stim. I’ve mostly got my own under control, but I do have a tendency to flap my hands if I’m feeling particularly... overwhelmed, whether that be a good thing or a bad thing.” Logan explained. “Patton, you mentioned that Virgil wears different colored chokers depending upon various aspects of his anxiety, and you’re learning what those colors mean, yes?”

Patton nodded. “Yeah, one had a spider on it, and Virgil stopped wearing it cause I’m scared of spiders, which was nice of him, but I think if he really wanted to wear it, I’d be okay now that I know it’s just a pretend spider... I got scared it was real and it was gonna bite him.” Patton admitted. “I see, so while the others are working to learn more about you, that’s another thing about Virgil that you can focus on learning about and understanding better.” Logan pointed out. “Overall, if I’m being completely honest, I would say out of everyone here, Roman is actually the person with the highest level of emotional intelligence, he was observant enough to notice that Virgil’s anxiety was spiking, but self aware enough to point it out to Remus because he knew Remus was better equipped to handle the situation than he was, he never once gave Patton any sort of judgmental or annoyed glance, he included Patton in the conversation by discussing Disney and Theater with him when he found something they were able to bond over, and he was and is willing to go to therapy to better learn how to respond to both Virgil’s anxiety and Patton’s ADHD, I think we all could stand to learn from Roman’s example, myself included... he seems to be quite the real life Prince Charming.” Logan concluded before giving the tiniest smile.

#patton x virgil #020

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Virgil jumped a bit when Patton exclaimed and then was rushing off the room, he knew it was just him been excited but that scared the crap of him. As he holds a hand over his chest and another at his side in a fist, taking a deep breath.

Roman seems to notice as he elbows his twin and then points at Virgil. Remus looked at Virgil and then sighing a bit. “Vee, look at me, everything is fine. Okay?” His voice was a bit more low and calmer, as he looks at him.

Virgil nods at that as he jumps a bit more when Patton was back and squeaking in excitement, Remus seems a bit annoyed, although the older twin knew it was bad like that just because Virgil was in a bit of a stressful situation right now. “Virge, look at me, can you tell me something blue?”

Virgil looked at Remus and then at his surroundings. The mug.

They both were doing small chatting like that. As Roman looked at Patton smiling excited to see the toy. “It is truly both! I loved it! I do love the movie as well, it was a classic about how a person can found true love even in someone with a different appearance!” Roman was happy in talking about something of Disney, but he would be quiet when Logan started to talk.

Virgil seems calmer as he was quiet and Remus was smiling. Janus was looking at Virgil and Remus on the cam so he knew it was okay with them, sometimes it was better if the twin was the one to calm down, especially in the fewer panic ones. They all heard Logan talk silently.

That explains a lot of why Logan’s grade was so high, in school, Virgil’s grade was the highest between the four, followed by Janus, and then Roman and Remus were always having to do extra homework to add to their grade. The twins weren’t studious at all. Although Virgil’s grade was kinda cheating as he has a good memory, almost like an eidetic memory.

Janus seems to hum as he hears about books. “That is a good book. Although I prefer more philosophy ones, I would like to hear more about your tastes in books. I know that Virgil does like to read as well.”

Virgil seems to be just staring in somewhere behind the computer as Janus was snapping his fingers. “Virge. Come back.”

“Oh… Sorry.” He signals as he was getting a bit overwhelmed with everything. “I’m just… Overwhelmed? Kinda want to stop talking right now…”

Remus seems to nod at that. “It’s okay Vee, we totally get it.”

Janus nods as he turns his eyes to Logan and Patton. “As Patton mentioned, I will say what Virgil sign talked. He said sorry, and that he is overwhelmed, so he wants to stop talking right now. In other words, he is getting mentally tired. But he is okay to keep listening and be here.” Janus seems to look at Logan for now. “How about you explain about ADHD and explain the misunderstanding that happened early? I guess it would be good for us to understand it.”

Patton was so happy that Roman seemed genuinely interested and excited by what he was saying, that at first he genuinely didn’t notice that Virgil had been startled by his excitement, or that Remus was annoyed with him for it. His face went a bit red as he listened to Roman go on about his love for Beauty and the Beast, a smile on his face. This may have been the happiest he’d felt since being adopted. Meeting new people and joining a new family was obviously something that made him happy, but it was also a bit overwhelming, and worrisome when you thought about whether or not your new family was going to like and accept you, and let’s be real, Patton really lucked out... he could’ve been adopted by mean or awful people and thank God he wasn’t and his family was lovely and nice.

Though that incredibly happy feeling disappeared fairly quickly when he caught sight of Remus’ face and he looked... annoyed. Why did he look annoyed? Patton had been about to say something else to Roman about Beauty and the Beast and continue with their current Disney conversation, but he quickly shut his mouth the moment he noticed the look on Roman’s brother’s face. Was he annoyed with Patton? Maybe he didn’t like Patton talking to Roman or-- he caught sight of Virgil, finally noticing that Virgil looked a bit anxious and overwhelmed, and Patton honestly wasn’t sure if Remus was annoyed with him because he hadn’t noticed, or perhaps even that Remus was annoyed with him because he’d caused Virgil’s anxiety, though no matter how hard Patton tried to piece together everything he’d done in the past few minutes to figure out what might’ve upset Virgil, he couldn’t come up with a single thing...

It had to have been something he’d done though, because Remus wouldn’t have been looking at him like that if it was caused by some outside force, so the safest course of action was probably to just, stop everything. Logan watched as Patton went from happy and excited and bubbly and absolutely thrilled to have Roman’s attention to quietly keeping to himself in his spot on the chair, and he pursed his lips. Logan logically understood that Virgil couldn’t help if he felt anxious, but he felt bad that Patton had caused it because Patton clearly hadn’t meant to do anything wrong, he’d gotten over excited, he’d gotten genuinely happy about something, and Logan thought them talking to Angela about this and scheduling therapy for Patton would definitely be the best thing to do, because it’d be a shame if Patton slowly reverted into his shell and never let himself show happiness or joy for fear of upsetting Virgil.

Logan knew all too well the pain of hiding your emotions, he wished he could be as open about his feelings as Patton was, and he’d absolutely hate to watch Patton lose that.

“Philosophy books can be quite interesting, yes.” Logan said after a moment, finally breaking his gaze and looking back at the screen so he could address Janus. Calling attention to the current situation may not be the best move, perhaps it was better for Virgil’s anxiety that they just push forward, he could talk to Patton about it later. He was about to continue on, as Janus had stated that he wanted to hear more about his taste in books, but he stopped himself when he saw Janus snapping his fingers at Virgil, realizing that Virgil had zoned out. Logan, unlike Patton, understood sign, but he was glad that Janus had translated so that Patton would know what was going on. Patton chewed his lip and gave a small shy nod at what Janus said. Logan blinked at what Janus said next, clearing his throat. “Oh... alright... well, obviously I can’t explain in perfect detail, as I did not witness what occurred, I was briefly told about it, but that’s not quite the same, though I suppose it’s the best we have to go off of.”

“However, I have been sitting here and studying the behavior of everyone so that I can better understand where misunderstandings might occur in the future so that we can work together to prevent those misunderstandings from ever happening in the first place, and if I may give my opinion, while I have no idea if you plan on including Patton in your friend group, or if you’re not going to include him and rather just let him join in every once and a while since he’s the younger brother of your friend, or whatever the case may be, I think it’d be quite beneficial for Patton to do what you all have already done and speak to Virgil’s therapist so he may better learn how to handle Virgil’s anxiety, and for all of you to speak to Patton’s therapist to do the same. Even if he doesn’t ultimately join your group, you will all be interacting somewhat on even the rarest of occasions, and I think it would be in everyone’s best interest to take the time to get to know about ADHD a little more from a professional.”

“I, of course, as someone with ADHD, have noticed a few things that I could comment on that we all could do to be less likely to result in future misunderstandings, but... I’m not sure if I should call attention to them or not... I’d feel more comfortable doing so if I knew that no one took what I have to say as a personal attack, and more as a lesson on how to better understand one another... if that makes sense.” Logan finished as he looked back at Patton. He didn’t want to say something that would upset Patton or Virgil, or heck... Janus, Remus, and Roman either. He didn’t know how sensitive they were, and while he actually loved sharing his knowledge and information with other people, he didn’t want to do so until he was absolutely positive that no one was going to walk away angry with him for it... or angry with one another for it. After all, he didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, not to mention he had RSD as well, even if he was good at masking it. “I don’t mind you saying stuff I might’ve done... I won’t learn what to do and what not to do if I’m not told, you know?” Patton said with a small shrug. Logan seemed smart, he was happy to accept his help, and he’d do his best not to take anything personally.

#patton x virgil #020

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Janus nods at that as he hears Logan talking. “As I said, twins and I, went to Vee’s therapist at least once to talk about it and to figure out how to help him. We all are equipped to help him, but we all act in different ways. I’m more the type to bring his focus on me because my voice is really different from everyone else and is easy for him to pay attention to me. So I call his attention pretty often when I see him harming himself unconscious or to bring his mind back at his surroundings. Remus is the type who is genuine with his compliments and good to remember him in a soothing way of things. So his parts range more about after Vee is calm to conduct him to a better place.”

Virgil sighs a bit as his shoulders finally fall as he looks at his laps. Anxiety is different from each other, but if you want a way to calm down someone… From what I saw you would be the type to talk during an anxiety attack and logic the thoughts to more rational logic. After the person is talking or just… You know… More calm? Virgil looked a bit at Janus who nods.

“What Virgil is trying to say is, you probably can combine what I do and what Remus does, in your own way to calm someone. We wouldn’t mind helping or even explain it to you later after we are in a more social or even present in there.” Janus explains gently as he looks at the twins.

As the twins are finally back, Roman sighs a bit. “Sorry for muting, our parents came to talk to us.”

Janus smiles at that. “You two are back in a great time, care you introduce yourselves?”

Remus nods at that as he thinks a bit. “Name is Remus Maganizo, I’m the older twin.” He taps on his lips thinking a bit before speaking. “I’m the definition of chaos and trouble, I love things that are more gore, sexual, and even weird. I have great resistance to a lot of things so don’t get scared if I eat something that shouldn’t be eaten.” He shrugs at that. “Favorite color is green and silver, nicknames are Re or Duke, the not-nicer-ones fall in Trash Rat, Rat, or others more spicey ~” He winks as he grins. “Although that is my normal personality, I have a problem with Intrusive thoughts, so I might get lost or even disassociate sometimes because of that. In general, I try to deal with that in my own way.”

Roman rolled his eyes as he hears that. “Roman Maganizo, I’m the younger twin, although Remus didn’t say, we share a love for Disney and theater. But while I’m in the theater club, Remus isn’t, I love romance and be extra. It’s easier to say that my favorite color is red and golden, nicknames are Ro or Prince, the not-nicer-ones fall in Dragon, Sir sing a lot, and variations of more related to Princes.” Roman thought about it.

Remus sighs a bit as he notices that his brother didn’t tell them. “Roman has a perfectionist problem, if it’s not perfect he will freak out. He also has a problem with time, so he freaks out when he disassociates or gets lost in something and doesn’t see the time pass out. He has also the problem to not talk about his problems or worries.”

Roman pouted as he punches his brother’s side. “Asshole!”

Remus shrugs. “It’s to be truthful and sincere Roman.”

Janus rolled his eyes. “Twins.” He says as they both stop arguing and shoving them. Virgil puts his hand on his mouth as he muffles a laugh at that, he liked to see the twins arguing. Janus shrugs as he looks at Patton and Logan. “Now that you two know about us, Logan, care to you introduce yourself as well?” Virgil sighs a bit as his shoulders finally fall as he looks at his laps. Virgil looked a bit at Janus who nods.

Logan nodded as Janus spoke. “That’s very interesting. Good to know.” Logan said. When Janus offered to explain it more later, he nodded again. “I would like that, thank you, I appreciate the offer.” he said before looking back at the twins. Patton and Logan both listened as the twins introduced themselves, focusing on what they were saying, Logan having to bite back another smile as Remus introduced himself. Interesting. Patton tried to make mental notes of all the information he was getting, not wanting to forget anything important. Patton smiled when Roman mentioned loving Disney and theater, Patton really liked those things too. He’d never done a show before, but he’d managed to get his hands on a few movie musicals over the years, and he really wished he could go see a show live and in person.

When Roman and Remus were both finished talking, Patton jumped when a thought suddenly came to him. “Wait!” he squeaked before standing up and starting towards the door. “Where are you going?” Logan asked. “I have to get something for Roman!” he said as he ran to his room, Logan blinking before looking back at the screen. “Not sure if you heard, but apparently he’s getting something for Roman...” Logan repeated, much calmer than Patton who was extremely excited about... whatever it was he was going to get. “Perhaps it’s a tad silly to say this since we go to school together, but it’s lovely to meet all of you, more officially.” Logan said to pass the time before Patton returned from his own room, figuring he didn’t need to knock this time since he said he’d be right back.

“I’m back.” Patton announced as he sat back down. “We see you, Patton.” Logan said with a lighthearted chuckle. “What did you want to show Roman?” he questioned, curious as to what Patton had rushed to get himself. “I got a Beast doll from Beauty and the Beast, and when you turn this... he transforms into the Prince.” he said excitedly, making sure to hold it up so Roman could see it on the screen. “It’s Disney and theater!” he squeaked happily, really hoping Roman would be impressed. “Ah, very nice Pat, I can see why you wanted to show Roman that.” Logan said, not finding the item particularly exciting himself, but he had said they should find things they could bond over, and both Patton and Roman had commented on liking Disney, so he wanted to encourage Patton in these sorts of moments so he felt comfortable talking to the others.

When Janus asked if he wanted to introduce himself, Logan blinked before nodding. “Oh, right, of course. Well, I’m Logan... I actually was adopted as well, but I was adopted around... five days after I was born? So I don’t actually know what it’s like to be in the system or anything like Virgil and Patton do. I was adopted by a single father who is very interested in my education, he finds learning very important, so I’m usually studying one thing or another. Though I most enjoy astronomy, or... learning about space. As I stated before, I have been diagnosed with ADHD, but I do a good job of keeping it under control so that it doesn’t effect my studies. I like reading Sherlock Holmes books, as well as books by Agatha Christie, my favorite is The Murder of Roger Ackroyd. Like Patton, I don’t really have any nicknames as I do not have a group of friends at this time to provide any...” Logan said with a shrug.

“What’s your favorite color?” Patton asked. “Hm... I suppose I would have to say dark blue.” Logan said, Patton smiling, he liked dark blue, Patton liked light blue, they both liked blue, something in common! Logan could relate to what Remus had said about Roman being a perfectionist. His father put a lot of pressure on him to always be the brightest, to be more advanced, to never make a mistake or get a low grade. Sometimes the pressure got to be too much for him, but he’d gotten very good at masking his emotions over the years to hide that. Unfortunately he struggled with not masking every emotion, even the good ones, so sometimes he came off a bit unfeeling or robotic, even if that wasn’t the case. He supposed he didn’t need to mention that for now, though. It didn’t really seem like relevant information.

“Do you know anything about your biological family?” Patton couldn’t help but ask, Logan shaking his head. “No, I know nothing about them... I don’t really have much interest in finding out either, so I’ve never really taken the time to look into it.” he admitted with a small shrug. The way Logan saw it, if they wanted him, they would’ve kept him, and if they didn’t want him, there really was no reason to look into the matter any further. The only reason he could think of that it would be important to find out in the future was if he needed medical history for any reason, but that hadn’t come up as an immediate problem in his life so far, so he didn’t give any thought to it.

#patton x virgil #020

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Oh… now makes more sense… Virgil says quietly as he fidgets with his ball.

At why he didn’t mind when I asked to return home yesterday or… looked at me when asked what type of pizza he wanted… Virgil was biting his lower lip as he felt guilty about it, as he felt egoistic.

Janus looked at Virgil but was Remus who talked. “Vee, we talked about it, we all understand you, don’t need to feel guilty okay?” It seems like Remus was the one to reassure Virgil.

Janus smiles at that. “Also, we can find a way to please everyone in the future, as it is good information to have around. Thanks for explaining Logan.”

Roman was looking at his phone as he seems just hearing them and not saying anything. While Virgil thought about it a bit before going to pick his own phone and play a simple game of Tetris.

Janus relaxes completely as he looks at Logan. “Sure, I had read about it, although I didn’t memorize all of the possibilities. I’m guessing you like to play as well? I normally play with Vee when we are waiting for Remus to get free from detention. Maybe someday you will want to play with me? Vee is good, but he often loses to me.”

Virgil pouts a bit at that. Don’t blame me that I’m not as deceitful as you’re. But he was more relaxed after playing on his phone and them looking at Patton. We should talk with mom after this… She will probably say for you to go to a therapist as well, but it would be nicer to let them know and so we can learn a bit more and how to deal with it as they do with me.

Janus smiles as he looks at Virgil been a bit more relaxed, he knew how to deal with Virgil pretty well, since he was the most stable one between them. Looking back at Logan. “You seem like you wanted to ask something for Vee? As far it isn’t about his blood relatives he is pretty chill to ask for now.”

Remus and Roman seem to mute as they were both looking to the side, as it seems they were talking with another person.

Patton gave a small shrug. “I really didn’t mind coming home and letting you pick the pizza, I mean... I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable or anything.” Patton said, he was new to this family, and he didn’t want Virgil to feel as though he was less heard because their parents were focusing on the new kid, he didn’t mind fading to the back as long as he was still in the picture, he just didn’t want to be alone, as long as he was with other people, he was happy with whatever they did. Logan couldn’t help but smile the tiniest bit when Janus thanked him for explaining, seeming to enjoy the praise, or perhaps just being acknowledged in general.

Logan nodded as Janus continued. “Yes, though I’m an only child, and mostly keep to myself, so I don’t get to play very often, unless you include those computer versions of chess where you play with an automated player.” Logan admitted, biting back another smile when Janus suggested they play together sometime. “That would be nice, I definitely can provide you with a challenge, as I usually do not lose.” he said with a playful smirk. Patton nodded a bit when Virgil suggested they speak with their mother after this. “Okay.” he said, he enjoyed talking to Angela, so he certainly didn’t mind catching her up on all of this.

Logan shrugged. “I just haven’t really interacted with anyone with anxiety before, I know about it because I like to study up on various subjects, and I would like to think I’m educated on the subject of the anxious mind, but reading about it and actually discussing it with someone who experiences it are very different things. I have more of an understanding of Patton because I also have ADHD, but I haven’t been diagnosed with anxiety so, I just find it interesting, though I don’t believe the pursuit of knowledge is worth risking accidentally triggering Virgil’s anxiety, I would hate to do that, so I’ve just been sort of taking mental notes of what I’ve observed as oppose to asking anything specific so that if the situation ever arose where Virgil, or someone else, was feeling anxious and I was the only person around to help, I would be equipped to do so.” Logan admitted, Patton still looking at Roman.

“Though you and Virgil seem very close, and you are very good at understanding his anxious mind and helping him through it, so perhaps I should actually be taking mental notes of your behavior so that I’m better suited to help should I ever be in a situation where I’m alone with someone who’s anxiety is bad and they need my help.” Logan said. “I know anxiety and ADHD are different, but you’ve done a good job of helping me so far, so you’d probably be good at helping someone with anxiety too.” Patton pointed out. “That’s good to know, thank you, Patton.” Logan said, adjusting in his seat slightly.

#patton x virgil #020

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