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Tiefling at stage one transformation.
This is part one of a style study, this character is shaping up to be a protagonist in a comic series about religious trauma, perception, and finding out who you really are.
Falling from heaven and becoming a devil and relating that to the trans experience.
Art test 01.
Testing a painterly style. I learned a lot from this piece, I'm almost where I want to be for art skill level.
I know it's "edgy" but it also kind of speaks to the feeling of breaking free from religious trauma. Like I used to be a prim and proper Mormon boy. Now I'm a girl, gonna be shredded , busty, and fuck you church for thinking you could clip these wings.
The new years resolution update.
Gonna keep this one smaller.
But I had another mental barrier pop up recently. And this one was the hardest one yet.
It turns out that most of my projects were a form of dissociation. Before recently, I only thought of disassociation as going numb. Or merely zoning out. But I never thought of it as a positive thing.
Like my plans all pretty much looked like:
Step 1: come up with a framework, or rough draft.
Step 2: I'll figure it out later. But it will probably be cool with 0 friction or obstacles.
Step 3: accept awards and accolades. And get a billion dollars.
When life got tough I would then use these blogs, the writing of lore™️, or the daydreaming about success act as a form of self regulation.
And holy shit life has been tough. There is a graveyard of like 16 projects from 2023. All decent ideas. But, no plans to deal with failure. No plans to deal with time limitations. No plans for any kind of struggle, or lack of knowledge.
During an awful time in my life I learned to daydream. A LOT. During my 2 year disassociation nightmare called a Mormon mission I learned how to make plans. But my current life sucked so fucking bad, that I couldn't let any amount of negativity into my little dream space. Including little pieces of friction like: lack of knowledge, or experience get in the way of my shiny dream that would save me from a life of drudgery. Anything that did not resemble that life.
So that mode and mindset stuck with me.
There didn't need to be a plan beyond wild success and awesome art. It really just needed to help me get through a struggle. But once I was getting started on something, if there was any friction, suddenly I needed to switch to something else. As the excitement and soothing feelings of project A would end. I would need project B to give me the emotional boost that I craved.
So I was self regulating my stress with daydreaming. While also somehow expecting those daydreams to come true. While on top of that all, feeling deep feelings of guilt for never completing something prior.
It was not healthy.
It still isn't.
I'm learning how to regulate my stress and recognize what I'm calling "daydream disassociation".
It sounds so basic but I'm lying out a roadmap. Then I'm laying in a course to point myself towards those goals. Charting where I am in skill level now, towards where I want to be.
My goals need to do the following:
- Have steps that I can work towards in the next 24 hours. Additional steps should be added once they are known. 48 hour and 72 hour goals really help hone a direction to work.
- include sacrifices or stress points as part of the plan, or accommodate for the possibility of stress points.
Example:
I want to exercise and get sexy. But I don't know that much about working out certain muscle groups.
I know that I will be sore, and tired, changing my diet and this will take up an hour of my already busy day.
Goals for 24 hours: look up fitness guides for beginners
Goals for 48 hours begin those exercises and take steps to study and improve nutrition.
No just envisioning myself on a beach, I need to think about what those workouts look like, how I will feel during and after, pain included, I will more than likely follow through with all of this.
And then if I do catch myself daydreaming about results I reassure myself that this is merely a dream, and the reality will be harder but worthwhile.
So if you read all this nonsense and wonder why I'm always writing as if I am a current indie dev darling who is mere weeks away from launching a product. It's because I believed it. But I didn't want to fight for it. But now I do.
The old blogs will remain up. To document this journey of self hype and dreaming.
The next post will be deliberate. And showcasing why you should follow me. As opposed to dropping vague hints hoping to entice you with something that is as substantial as a dream I once had.
If you have read any of my other posts. Thank you for following along with my creative journey. I'm going to build this journey on a solid foundation. Not on dreams and hopes.
Thank you.
Gamedev update
The good, the bad, and the revelation.
Hello my fellow artists, gamedevs, and other folk who stumbled upon this.
Tldr; I have to stop Armageddon ignition til I have more time and a team, but I have other things I want to release to help me get funds to help with both problems.
Here is the long version:
It's been a spell since the last update. The delays are complex and fairly personal. But the conclusions I've come to on the other side of my chaotic life are going to shape what this solo dev project will ultimately become.
The good
So for the longest time I kept hammering away at my game while having some blinders on. One core belief I held was that I was going to do this all solo. While writing and planning a game that I needed 12 voice actors for at a minimum. (The full weight of that dichotomy crashed over me later, don't worry.) Watching my first in game cutscenes and hearing either a soulless bot spit out the lines, or my own attempts at doing multiple voices, raised some flags in my mind. But I still pressed on. I just needed to work on the game every day.
I also wasn't seeing as much growth in followers with my various blogs or twitter. Sure I made posts. But they seem to blather about nothing and I never have anything other than a screenshots to hype my game.
Life then forced a large break on my time. A month and a half long break that was personal, and a little painful still. This forced break I took helped me see my process and allowed myself to do some introspection on my marketing, presentation, and my goals.
The good news is the game is still gonna happen, and I'm still going to develop it. But...
The bad
Because of this vague event in my life my time is now strained In a way that will prevent me from working on this game enough to make any meaningful progress. And this time constraint won't loosen for at least a year. I want to come back to it. And I have a plan to come back stronger.
During my month long interlude I had some time to think about each thing I could improve on.
1. Better content: guys I'm verbose. And I'm sorry I'm verbose. I really should have been a writer or a philosopher. The accounts I see with the most growth get that growth from .gifs. if I can't sell the idea in a gif I won't post it. Unless it's a bigger how to, or post mortem.
2. Solo development for a game is only good if the game I am making has 1 or less voice actors.
3. Art as a medium is under attack and we need to build groups to make it through. Solo dev only helps a solo person. Team efforts can help teams of people.
4. I talk a lot of talk. Boy do these words I say allude to a lot, without revealing a thing. Even this post assumes that there is a major audience clamoring to hear any small update. I need fans first.
Through all the navel gazing, the most important thing I Learned is that I need to start building a community, but the life event left me a little despondent . Most of my time was spent healing and getting back a good headspace. Now I'm refreshed and ready to use what little free time I have towards making a studio that is a group effort.
The revelation.
During my break I saw the writers strike, I saw the actors strike, I saw rights being pillaged from our livelihoods inch by inch. And I saw people win to get a fairer share. In order to complete Armageddon ignition I'm going to need money to properly pay some voice actors, I want to get more people involved. I finally started a game that I think will see the light of day. But I no longer want to be a hermit about it. And I want a team with more perspectives than my own to help me.
There are too many companies bleeding creative teams dry for "content", there are too many ceo's who look for tools or pipelines that completely remove humans to save a buck for the next quarterly earnings.
My goal has shifted from producing a game as a solo creative to building a company. A group of people who share in the earnings of their product, rather than some white dude who went to Yale and learned that slashing jobs makes the next quarterly earnings look a little better and gamed his own paycheck to give him more money than they ever "saved".
But I don't have the funds now, nor do I want borrowed equity for this thing. If I'm going to build up an organization that is more artistic focused, rather than profit focused. I can't do it on debt that can be leveraged to destroy a queer, story driven studio.
So in order to get a cash flow started I found something that I can do with my much leaner free time. This is going to be an animated project that can, on paper and not just in my head, be developed and maintained by a solo artist.
This time I'm going to release the videos and let the work speak for itself, rather than wax on before it's even done. Once I have some time back I'll try to make a post mortem.
So as far as timelines go. This is going to push back this game indefinitely. But I hope to utilize this time to actually build something that can benefit the game industry. And build a better game in general.
The next blog should be coming with enough detail to sell you on what I have cooking.
See you soon
Minor game update.
I promised updates, but life gets a little hectic.
I've been:
- Grinding my 3d modeling skills.
- Grinding my animation skills
- Experimenting with level layout pipelines.
- coding
- gearing up for some art commissions so I can afford some cool tech to help with the development of the game.
Game blog #3 ANNOUNCEMENT!
The big announcement:
My game is going to be called:
Armageddon Ignition (Tactical Espionage Action)
A fan letter to the Metal Gear solid serries. I hope to capture the feel of playing Metal gear solid 1 / 2. With the over the shoulder toggleable camera from MGS3, and the Alert phases of the first 4 games of the franchise. I hope to utilize my favorite aspects of each game and put them in. I chose a graphical style that is somewhere between MGS 1 and 2. (A Work in progress screenshot below:)
While gameplay is one half of what I consider to be a true metal gear experience.
The other major half is story. Cutscenes, codec calls, and 4th wall breaking elements. I will be incorporating a verbose script, with many twists and turns into the game. I hope that I nail that "Hollywood action movie" tone that MGS was aiming for.
I also want to capture the mood of MGS 1's story the most. Riding a thin line between schlock and an action thriller. With long ( but skippable and pause-able) cutscenes to tell a political story, and a cast of characters that I hope you all will become attached to. But, for now I'm going to avoid the themes of the script as to avoid spoilers.
I feel like if there isn't at least one cutscene that takes 30 minutes I will have failed my goal. I hope to have a trailer out by the end of the year, I will post as many updates as I can.
As for a release date. I won't even commit to a year right now, as this will be my first major game release. And I want to get this right. I'm going to be starting a Youtube channel to post future updates. (I'll have a link when I post my first video) These blog posts will become more about the broader aspects of game development.
A few other points that don't have any real place in the above announcement:
Funding is not really an issue with this game, if there is any crowdfunding it will be for voice actors.
Update frequency: I'm a stay at home mom who is doing this in her free time. So if I stop posting for a bit, I'm quite busy with kids.
In universe lore updates: The last post I made was a general introduction to the protagonist of the game. I will be posting more information in that manner to introduce you to the world of Armageddon Ignition.
Meet Operative Venom
(Photo Taken Today February 9th, 1997)
Former member of the DARPA's top secret special forces group Doomsday Intervention and Exfiltration (D.I.E.), Operative Codename: Venom was kicked out of the team in 1995 for violating the "don't ask, don't tell" rule for having sexual relations with a woman.
Recently picked up in New York City and taken to REDACTED LOCATION: CLEARANCE ABOVE TOP SECRET REQUIRED. REQUEST MISSION BRIEFING DOCUMENT FOR MORE INTEL.
If she accepts the mission she will be fully reinstated to the squad. As a part of the team she acts as the operative on site for disarmament or demolition of extreme bleeding edge experimental technologies. The amount of Armageddon scenarios this one operative has stopped should be taken into account for your consideration for the emergency reinstatement to her former rank and station.
- Sergeant Major Ian Falcon
(in universe letter to pull the protagonist out of her forced retirement)
Dis is riker. He truly is my number one.
Livesey Chad Walk but it's Metal Gear Solid
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Gamedev Blog #1: Playstation 1 aesthetics and the unreal engine. + Game tease
Unreal engine 5 has been pushing the limits of real-time rendering. But some of us, myself included, have gone WAY back to rendering chunky, blocky PS1(PSX) styled graphics.
The tip of this spear is the Gorgeous Goth Goddess @b0tster with their twofold Bloodborne PSX and Bloodborne Kart projects respectively.
The reasons we choose the style are simple. Firstly those of us who are leaning hard on this aesthetic were in our formative years during the fifth console generation, so we have fond memories of playing games that look CHUNKY. And secondly, perhaps most importantly, it is the easiest (kinda) 3D content pipeline to do as a solo developer.
No need to bake meshes, no polygon budget, no texture streaming budget, Installs that won't even approach 100 gigs(let alone 10g), and guaranteed 60fps is a minimum. Low poly art style has a lot going for it.
-Getting the style
The Unreal engine 5 does have to be modified a little bit. Since it has features that were not even dreamed of in 1998 set as default, We actually have to use a shader to emulate the lower fidelity colors, resolution, and lighting effects. Starting the project means turning off things like: anti aliasing, motion blur, HDR lighting, ETC.
My current post processing effect.
Since most people aren't playing on old Sony CRT tv's and have modern 16:9 monitors, we have to just divide the HELL out of the resolution and color space. This shader (shown above) is very adjustable, and is just the first step on the PSX-esque look.
The next step is modeling and texturing. I'm used to 3d modeling in high resolution, so I had to learn to think like a 90's developer and get as much detail as I can squeeze out of as little polygons as possible.
A WIP of a character in my upcoming project
High polycounts give artists the freedom to make their characters as realistic as possible, BUT making them look exactly right, and more importantly animate in a way that looks real is hard to pull off. Low poly models require much more precise and EXACT modeling and texturing, but allows for a more artistic interpretation of how characters look and move. The human eye is more forgiving of caricatures of people.
Another popular effect for most PSX throwback games is the model "jitter" where models would not place vertices in their EXACT location on the screen(check out the video above!). So it looked like the character was shaky until the camera got right next to the character, to save on memory. I am currently debating using this effect in my game.
The game
So the game I'm working on is: Codename Cardboard Box. (the title is pending some stuff)
As you can probably surmise from the codename it is a metal gear solid homage. I will be taking the Tactical Espionage Action gameplay, and long stylized cutscenes of the serries and putting my own spin on it.
I have been playing through the whole serries recently(again lol), and have noticed so many Queer pieces of subtext than I did as a teen. But it seems like there was a heavy censoring hand on the story creators to push that aside, for example in MGS 2 there was cut dialogue in the script where Otacon would have mistakenly called Snake "David". Implying a much more familiar relationship. MGS4 showcased a lot more "for the male gaze" designs, and camera angles. (I swear to god Naomi's boobs have more screentime than Meryl in total) and the whole serries seemed to have every woman who talked reinforce gender stereotypes, or was just a non stop flirting machine for snake to banter with. The only one who sort of escaped this fate was Emma Emmerich, but even then there were a few lines that made my eyes roll.
Originally I thought of a mod that would change the genders of all the main characters of the MGS serries, to make it way gayer. But then I thought, firstly, Konami is quite litigious, and that I don't think that changing the voices and character models would do much to the overall queer representation and messages of the story.
So Codename Cardboard box (CCB) is going to be an original new story to represent what it is to be queer in the world right now.
The style I am going for is pretty specific, not quite 1:1 PSX or N64 in graphical fidelity. More like a step between Metal gear solid 1 and 2 as a port to the PC in 1999.
Hopefully I can capture the exact aesthetic, I'm still experimenting between MGS 1 style and MGS 2. I don't fully want to commit to one or the other. So I'm toying around between super low textures (64x64-128x128 max) of MGS1, and the medium detail models of MGS2 (with eyes and a single mesh). This is what I have landed on so far, but things may change in the near future.
I also will be using more modern real time lighting solutions, as I think there can be some gameplay choices that can be effected by this (darkness being a great asset).
As far as gameplay goes I'm going for a patchwork of mechanics from across the serries. So here is a small list to represent how it will feel to move and attack with the character:
The over the shoulder / top down view toggling options from MGS3.
The 3 stance options (stand, crouch, prone) of movement from MGS4.
The auto aiming from MGS2, with the over the shoulder toggle aim from MGS4. (no first person view, for now)
The ledge climbing from MGS 2.
No Stamina bar like in MGS1.
And surprisingly enough a hybrid of the MGS 1 item selection (where you just have all of your weapons available to select at any time, rather than using a backpack)
And of course some other cheeky mechanics that I can't spoil just yet.
But of course all of these screenshots, mechanics, and ideas are works in progress. While they fit the game now, they may be changed to fit the vision of the game better in the future.
So that is it for blog post #1! I will tease the next update just below, but after that I am going to continue my personal gamedev history below that!
Next time:
Blog 2- animation, scripts, and themes.
So Personal gamedev journey. The most vivid memory I have of making a choice to be a game developer was in the year 2002. I was playing Diablo 2, after completing a multiplayer halo 1 campaign . My friends and I were just in awe of games as a storytelling medium. We had been playing on a LAN connection and were thinking about making our own diablo 2 mod or even whole separate homage game. We all chose roles of what we could do to make the game. And none of them really did anything beyond a conversation. I was enthralled thought.
I dabbled in halo moding (I never released anything, so don't bother looking it up.) and thought about making games through the rest of high school.
After graduation I kind of dropped it while I just kind of goofed off for like 3 years. So in 2007 I took some 3d modeling classes and learned how to use 3ds max at my local community college.
I made a few cool looking mechs, but I remember just not being able to do much with the software. If you don't know 3ds max is not a very good 3d software.
So from 2008 to about 2014 I was a bit of a mess. I didn't really do much with my life as I was a disassociated mess ( see blog post 0 for more info) I just was kind of drifting from one job and activity to the next. Those friends I mentioned earlier started a video production company, we made a few short videos for youtube, never got over 40 views. And we just kind of fizzled out. I was the 3d artist of the team. But nothing really clicked.
I felt trapped, cuz I lived in a super expensive area and with my parents. So of all things I moved to Utah to strike out on my own, where I tried to kickstart a 3d printed miniatures company. (I beat hero forge by a little bit, but they had the more solid everything)
After that the unreal engine 4 came out. I poured more and more time into it. I had 0 programming knowledge and had seen games like braid, and fez become popular. So I started just making stuff. When I found a dead-end due to a lack of knowledge I would then try to educate myself on that blind spot. Slowly I learned, UV unwrapping, animation, sprite art, rigging, and more!
That took all of 6 years off and on. Then one day I decided that I had not gotten my shit together. So I looked inward (once again read post 0) and found that I had ADHD and other hang ups that were causing me to not commit to any one project. So I got medicated, and therapated, and learned how to properly learn. So After about 50 false starts. I'm throwing my hat into the ring again. This time doing it for myself. I'm not going to use this blog as a method of checking in, I'm using it to document my journey. No matter where it takes me.
The goal is to release a game on itch.io and steam. I don't care how many units it sells. I want to release something to have fun, and to see where I can take myself.
I will do some attempts at the social media game, if it finds an audience, awesome. If not. K. My only hope is that a queer person somewhere plays my gay ass game and has a gay ass time.
-thanks for reading this loooong poooooost!.
Gamedev: rising revengance
Developing a game is hard. Like, really fucking hard. Developing a game solo, is an entire stratospheric difference in difficulty. So before I dive into my own personal gamedev journey I just want you to really, and honestly appreciate how we have so many solo developed masterpieces to play right now. And I'm just hoping to release... Something, someday.
This is development blog #0 on a game. I'm not even going to tell you what type of game it is yet. Not even the engine. My gamedev journey truly started when I learned how to become the person who could make and finish a game. Everything before hand was education.
If you find yourself getting stuck, I hope that this blog page can give some inspiration. And that if you see yourself in this, you can know that there is hope for you yet.
I really hope that some of you are coming back from future updates, hello! And if you are here and there is no blog with a number higher than this one, please be patient. I'm gathering enough content to make them informative while also being able to release them at a steady pace. (Hopefully also do some YouTube videos to supplement)
This gamedev blog will walk you through the process it took me to go from 0 experience, and trial and error-ing my way through to a final product.
So here is what I consider to be step 0:
In order to know what my game was going to be I had to get to know how I worked as a person and what my motivation even was for making a game.
Know thyself
The main obstacle and asset you have to face when developing a game solo is: yourself. This is neither a good thing nor a bad thing. Even with heaps of trauma and issues, no matter what you are YOU. The habits, thoughts, and feelings you have are still you. To assign good and bad feelings to those aspects of yourself is just going to hurt. But knowing where you are is the step to get you where you hope to be.
And by knowing yourself I mean really knowing, like: How do you respond to anger, frustration, stress? What calms you down? Do you disassociate? If so, when? Do you have a way to snap out of it or are you disengaged from your own life?
And the most important question I learned in getting to know yourself: can you make direct correlations between what happens to your life, and how you feel? I'll come back to this one shortly.
For myself, when I started this journey I was a cis straight male with some patience issues, time commitment problems, and a difficulty remembering my past. (Jesus Christ, I didn't know who I was at all. Spoilers this was not the person I wanted to be.)
About 3 years ago I sat down and really decided to take a look within my head, heart, and soul. regardless of what I would find. So I could figure out "what was holding me back", that way I could fulfil my lifelong goal of making a game.
And to those who may not think this is that big of a deal, I was raised Mormon. If I didn't find an absolute devout member inside myself it would basically mean I was the worst person alive and would flay myself in guilt. I usually looked only at my surface level feelings, since I was honestly just terrified of what I would find. (My response is typical for those who feel they are different, but don't want to get punished by their god, or more specifically their support group that is their religion)
I found out that I was a mess. I had religious PTSD, gender dysphoria, and ADHD. Not one of which I had ever even attempted to acknowledge existed in my life. I just turned 37 years old this week, and for the first 34 years of my life I was taught to just push everything down, ignore any and all of my own personal problems. And just hope that God would fix things when I really needed it. It doesn't work like that, and the only thing you will find going down that road is more sorrow.
That discovery broke me. But It was like re-breaking a bone that had healed incorrectly a long time ago. I looked back and saw how I was just limping along, a husk of a person that was just disassociating their way through life. Just coping to get by.
I suddenly just saw how my religion was bullshit, I saw how much I Y E A R N E D to be a woman. How much I was stuck a trauma response most days. I was constantly moving between freeze, and fawn. I wanted everyone else to be happy, and maybe if I could make them happy / calm I could enjoy my life without fear for a little bit.
With this newfound knowledge I thought for sure I had myself all figured out, I was ready to take on the world, as it turns out this was just the top level of getting to know me.
Suffice it to say, dear reader, that my meditation, observation, and recording of my own behaviour has gone so much deeper.
Every month I try to make new observations about current behavior from myself. And then try and work on a way to change the behavior if it is not in line with what I want out of life.
So three years of changing, three years of pondering " why can't I just stick to making a game?" I found it. I found the core of the incongruity between what I wanted to do with my life, and what I ended up doing besides my best efforts.
One night my darling wife made an observation. When I told her of a lifelong dream I said " I wanna make a video game, sell a million copies, and never have to worry about money again!" And she was observant, each project I started and flung myself headlong into I would always say "I'll be successful and sell a million copies".
My wife asked... "Why though, why does it HAVE to sell any copies at all? Don't you just wanna have fun?" And I didn't know. And for some reason that question scared the hell out of me. Like I shut down for a day and a half, that innocent question just rocked my core. And as much as I just said not to assign feelings to aspects of yourself. That can be really hard.
This is what I was talking about earlier, being able to draw a direct line between something that happens, and how I feel. My wife merely said "hey why is success tied to your creative project ideas?" And I was a mess. So I tried to trace back my feelings to what my issue was.
Trauma releasing
After some thoughtful meditation and internal questioning I had found my answer. I was trying to prove to people I was worthy of love and respect. I wanted my father to know that his daughter could actually accomplish something, I wanted my old teachers to know that I was a capable person, and that my failing high school wasn't going to keep me from success. I pretty much wanted "love revenge" on those I felt had ignored me. Like I wanted to make something so cool, they would have no choice but to be impressed. But more importantly I felt like I wasn't worthy of love UNTIL I had accomplished a large task like this.
And it hurt. A lot. I cried letting all my thoughts out to my wife. And she told me "don't work on anything else, don't draw, or write, or program until you can find some motivation beyond external validation."
My heart just wanted to be loved. And whenever I was looking for it I would bury myself in a project or gamedev. So if I ever found some I would just kind of give up.
So I spent the last year or so just learning what gets me excited, what gets me passionate, what I WANT to do, rather than what I think would sell or be popular.
The way I changed myself is the other half of how I can become the person I want to be. So if I'm lacking validation, I need to be there for myself.
So I tried just working on a piece of my game every day. And making sure to give myself some internal validation. I have twin 3 year old kids, and anything they do, no matter how small, I praise them. Same thing with finishing a piece of code, or a 3d model, or even a line of dialogue. I tell myself good job! You're one step closer to your dream.
So I wanted someone to be there for me, so I showed up for myself.
For the past 18 years I have been learning how to use game development tools. And in all that time I've never felt as fulfilled as I have now. I'm making this game for me. And that is why I'm confident enough to say that this will be my first game I will release.
I know Im not done getting to know my own mind. But I have discovered new ways and new tools to help myself.
Because I will know myself.
Next post will be about my actual knowledge journey. Rather than my emotional journey. And I will also be looking forward to showing you my first screenshots in my next blog post:
Gamedev blog #1 psx aesthetics for the unreal engine. And how I got here.
Book Review!
So I was able to read my lovely Danish pen pal / friend @anyawildt 's book "As we fall" recently.
It is a sizzly good romance / political thriller. I was able to post about this book on other social medias, but my family knows about those ones so I can finally say on tumblr. This book is so fuckin gay. I love it. A MLM story built on the solid foundations of light fantasy, political strife, and just atomic powered tension. It is just a fun time!
I actually found Anya's instagram while looking for sapphic wedding dresses, Anya and her wife Jacki have a wedding album that about sent my soul to the Outer plains, and I just started gushing about her wedding stuff. Anyway after lots of chatting I found out that she was writing a book! One of the things I often see / hear from other people when they find out someone they know is making something is: "Oh can I get a free copy?" NO. Support your friends. Help them out. So I bought this copy and read the hell out of it.
Back to the review at hand. So, a light fantasy set in a grecco-roman inspired world with the protagonist right at the center of love, war, peace, and parties. It is really well written, and Anya has excellent skill with plot pacing, dialogue, and scene description. All while subtly building up this world, without just dumping it all out on one page. It is truly impressive how she does this with this being her first published novel.
So for pride month support some queer authors!
I reblogged this last month, tagged it, and said “might as well see if it works.” I used this video as a reference to find all the forms that i needed (which is A LOT, especially if you’re a dependent) and sent them through the mail, not really allowing myself to hope.
dude.
$2,714 of medical debt from my top surgery - gone. im shaking this was such a weight on me for 2 years and it fucking worked. what the fuck.
This is huge. Sharing for my US friendos.
Hospitals like to hide these policies under a lot of successive links in obscure places, so if you don't see anything right away, keep looking! Get friends to help! Make it a scavenger hunt. A game where you're assassins sent to slit capitalism's throat
Utah becomes the first state in 2023 to ban gender affirming care for trans youth. It takes effect immediately. Utah is the only state with
They want you to die
They want to kill you
@rednines maybe you could help spread this if you haven't already seen it
Sometimes it's fun to go back and see a writer's previous work credits. Sometimes it's great to connect the dots with themes and motifs. Sometimes it leads you down a WHAT THE FUCK? route.
Let me give you my latest one.
Craig Mazin.
Helped write the most beautiful episode of the Last of us. Long, long time. Fucking hell. I was crying my goddamn eyes out that episode. ( He is credited as the co creator of the show even with Neil Druckmann)
That man also helped write Disney's 1997 dud of a kids movie. Rocket man.... This one.
This movie has so many fart jokes... It is basically one long fart joke. My parents banned this movie from our home. They just hated it so much... The man who made a 95 minute fart joke. Also wrote one of the most meaningful episodes of television in the past decade... My brain hurts.
I mean what a glow up. But now like... Every time I watch the last of us I'm going to be thinking of that stupid fart in a dual person space suit joke...
Once again, we have a Patreon to support the development of Revenant - It would really help with making sure everyone is properly compensated for their contributions New content has gone up and more is coming soon
https://patreon.com/yagamimi
This reload animation. Does so many goddamn things.
1. Presents the character in ludicrously small window of time.
2. It's hot as hell.
3. Sells me on an art style that is unique. It's high poly Enough to have the lips move in a believable way, but has the most jaggy shoulder armors ever (both good things).
4. Tells me it's a send up to older games with it's low rez textures, but uses modern shaders, reflections (look at the eye glow on the eyelashes!) And lighting effects.
This is how you sell a (edit: not a game!) A project. My interest is beyond piqued!
I'm just thinkin' about how Eda pushed Raine away because of the curse.
She was afraid to let them in. She was afraid to ask them for help, or share how she was feeling...she was scared to show the side of herself that was messy and dangerous and painful and (in her mind) unlovable.
But when she finally let Raine see who she actually was...
...this was their reaction.
...they love all of her. Including those messy and dangerous and painful parts.
This show. T_T
