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we in this bitch

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Holiday Spice Cocoa Butters!! The scent is cinnamon, clove, and orange. If you’re into the smell of Thanksgiving and scented pinecones, then this cocoa body butter is perfect for you!!

Sorry about the quality of pictures! There are clearer ones on my etsy which I’ve linked :)

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hey, i’m struggling financially and could really use some money so i’m selling these two paintings. attaching my etsy link in case anyone is interested. thank you.

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don’t really wanna be here anymore, but i feel stuck no matter where i go

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eugene is weird but its ok i guess??

haven’t posted in a while. herbal internship is going okay, the teacher keeps throwing microaggressions at me and my boyfriend.

i cant stand white people that wanna be 'woke’ but are still racist. when i did my box braids this woman would NOT stop talking about my hair like “how healthy can that be for your hair?” i wanted to blow up on this lady so bad because first of all, you got hella nerve talking about my hair when you have a rat’s nest sitting on top of your head. on top of that your hair smells SOUR. like PUNGENT. but if i say that i’m being disrespectful right? hm.

then after the fourth of july she tells me and my boyfriend it was illegal for black people to be in oregon and that eugene was hella racist. like okay!! we get it, we’re not welcome here!! lowkey i’d fight her but she’s old.

i’m just at the point where i’m getting stressed because me and lenny both work 10 hours each to stay here, which isn’t bad. but then we also work 5 days a week and we’re both artists. and broke!  plus our job only pays us on the 1st and the 16th of every month. we’re still waiting on our first check which wont come until after my birthday and no i haven’t asked my parents for money cause i owe my mom like $300 already. AND i had to pay for these two bolts on my car to get replaced and it costed 900.

so yeeeahhh life is keeping me on my toes, but if anyone has some advice or a reality check ready, i’m all ears.

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i made it to oregon!

the drive was nice! i thought me and lenny would be living in my car, i even made a pretty cool sleeping/storage build for it. everything kinda worked out perfectly though!

i knew that my herbal medicine internship came with housing, but i wasn’t sure if we were both going to be able to stay here (especially since lenny put in an application and never got an answer back). but we worked everything out at orientation! so now we have a place to stay in exchange for work.

we’re both looking for jobs and still need to get a p.o. box.

lenny left back to california on the bus yesterday to pick up his last check. hopefully he can fix his car and drive it back up here.

anyway, i’ll probably write more since i’m lonely

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‘move.’ -rizalyn masako

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i’m starting to like oil.

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my favorite piece, i think i did it in 2019.

available on my etsy

https://www.etsy.com/shop/DownToEartth

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Asian Readathon Recs + TBR

The Asian Readathon is a month-long readathon from May 1st to 31st dedicated to reading books by Asian authors and I'm definitely participating! I thought I should make a post with all the recommendations I have for the readathon and also all the Asian books I have on my entire TBR. My goal is to read as many Asian books as I can throughout the month.

Details about the readathon:

announcement video by cindy : watch here

twitter page: @asianreadathon

google doc with all details: read here

So let's go on to the book recs:

young adult contemporary:

-> recommendations:

to all the boys i've loved before series by jenny han

when dimple met rishi by sandhya menon

there's something about sweetie by sandhya menon

a very large expanse of sea by tahereh mafi

a match made in mehendi by nandini bajpai

i believe in a thing called love by maureen goo

the way you make me feel by maureen goo

my so-called bollywood life by nisha sharma

frankly in love by david yoon

love, hate and other filters by samira ahmed

love from a to z by s. k. ali

does my head look big in this by randa abdel-fattah

-> to be read:

a pho love story by loan le

the astonishing color of after by emily x. r. pan

noteworthy by riley redgate

more than just a pretty face by syed m. masood

tell me how you really feel by aminah mae safi

this is all your fault by aminah mae safi

i love you so mochi by sarah kuhn

kings, queens and in-betweens by tanya boteju

darius the great is not okay by adib khorram

parachutes by kelly yang

graphic novel/manga:

-> recommendations:

anya's ghost by vera brosgol

the prince and the dressmaker by jen wang

death note series by tsugumi ohba and takeshi obata

quiet girl in a noisy world by debbie tung

they called us enemy by george takei

-> to be read:

persepolis by marjane satrapi

laura dean keeps breaking up with me by mariko tamaki

this one summer by mariko tamaki

orange series by ichigo takano

anthology:

-> recommendations:

wise and otherwise by sudha murty

a thousand beginnings and endings by ellen oh and elsie chapman

an unrestored woman by shobha rao

no man is an island by ruskin bond

-> to be read:

how to pronounce knife by souvankham thammavongsa

once upon an eid by s. k. ali and aisha saeed

revenge by yoko ogawa

mystery/thriller:

-> recommendations:

confessions by kanae minato

-> to be read:

everything i never told you by celeste ng

quiet in her bones by nalini singh

your truth or mine by trisha sakhlecha

can you see me now by trisha sakhlecha

a line in the dark by malinda lo

out by natsuo kirino

miracle creek by angie kim

the widows of malabar hill by sujata massey

historical fiction:

-> recommendations:

girls burn brighter by shobha rao

a thousand splendid suns by khaled hosseini

the kite runner by khaled hosseini

malgudi days by r. k. narayan

-> to be read:

the silence of bones by june hur

the forest of stolen girls by june hur

home fire by kamila shamsie

last night at the telegraph club by malinda lo

the glass palace by amitav ghosh

the guide by r. k. narayan

the library of legends by janie chang

brother's keeper by julie lee

train to pakistan by khushwant singh

middle grade:

-> recommendations:

the village by the sea by anita desai

-> to be read:

the night diary by veera hiranandini

amal unbound by aisha saeed

front desk by kelly yang

other words for home by jasmine warga

sidekick squad series by c. b. lee

eva evergreen, semi-magical witch by julie ab

romance:

-> recommendations:

the kiss quotient by helen hoang

the bride test by helen hoang

the marriage game by sara desai

the dating plan by sara desai

two states by chetan bhagat

-> to be read:

the right swipe by alisha rai

girl gone viral by alisha rai

first comes like by alisha rai

serena singh flips the script by sonya lalli

fantasy:

-> recommendations:

shiva trilogy by amish tripathi

warcross duology by marie lu

the daevabad trilogy by s. a. chakraborty

-> to be read

the poppy war trilogy by r. f. kuang

wicked fox by kat cho

star daughter by shveta thakrar

the kingdom of back by marie lu

spin the dawn duology by elizabeth lim

we hunt the flame duology by hafsah faizal

the memory police by yoko ogawa

empire of sand duology by tasha suri

ash by malinda lo

non-fiction:

-> recommendations:

know my name by chanel miller

ace by angela chen

i'm afraid of men by vivek shraya

-> to be read:

in order to live by yeonmi park

white tears/brown scars by ruby hamad

LET'S READ ASIAN BOOKS, BABY!

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i wanna just GO, take my car and travel!

seriously, i’ve been watching a lot of videos on youtube and i’m gonna start solo travelling. the only thing is that i’m broke and i need to get money. i’ve been having not so good luck selling my items on ebay recently, there’s a LOT of scammersss.

i’m being more disciplined on myself about focusing more on my future. i know i’m more of a person who likes to jump into things (because plans kinda stress me out) but i need more structured steps to get where i wanna be. like right now, i need a job. it’s not what i want to do, but it’s a good step if i’m gonna get to where i need to be.

i’ve been trying to do art full time, but i honestly have had a really hard time motivating myself or getting inspired. everything i make i feel like i over criticize myself and then it comes out terrible.

recently i’ve been getting into herbalism, i’d like to go to some type of school but as i said, i am broke. which leads me back to getting a job.

i don’t know why it’s so hard for me to work, i just wanna really love what i do! i’d love a job where i get to work outside, with plants, or animals, or something else that i like. i was a cleaning tech for like 4 months and i HATED it. have you ever cleaned a mens restroom?? anyway, i guess i could go back to doing that. it was good pay, maybe i’m acting privileged.

i guess what i’m worried about is doing the wrong thing. i went to vet assistant school, worked at a small hospital for $10 a hour, then realized i kinda hated it. so in 2019 i left to go live on a boat to focus on my art, went broke, moved back home and well now here i am. STILL struggling with finding out what i’m gonna do.

ANYWAY that’s where i’m at. anyone else struggling?

here’s my etsy shop i’m making body butters now lol

https://www.etsy.com/shop/DownToEartth

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starting over

here i am again, a lot has happened recently! the most recent thing that happened is me realizing that i carry way too much pain.

after i finally started to come to terms with everything that’s happened to me within the last year, i realized i haven’t even unpacked the damage caused by the other 20 years of my life.

i’m codependent because i don’t believe in myself. i don’t believe that i can provide stability for myself, i worry that i’ll never find my place in the world because i’ve forgotten where i belong.

i try so hard to help others around me and to earn their acceptance. i feel i need validation from others because i don’t think i’m smart enough to go on my own path.

i know that nobody can tell me which way to go because only i know what makes me happy. i’ve honestly just been avoiding the whole thing because i never got comfortable standing up for myself or creating boundaries.

i’m working on forgiving myself and opening up so that i can heal these old wounds to become a better person. i don’t want to be so sensitive that i can’t talk or open up about whats hurting me. i’m tired of completely shutting down when i get sad.

anyway, typing this out because i’m a slow hand writer and it feels better than leaving this in the notes app or google docs forever. will probably continue to organize my thoughts on here

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i am moving. starting my life journey hopefully.

[quay-writes-poetry]

You are the wind, shifting in every direction trying to be to many places at once.

Acting as if you know what you want only to change your mind at the last moments.

I feel your words like a cool breeze across my cheek when you tell me you want to be with me.

My skin prickles with goosebumps and somewhere in the rushing cool wind I hear you say “I love you”.

I try to capture you in these bottles I call lungs, I try to breath you in and hold my breath but I can only go so long before I have to let you go.

I had hoped you would stick around, that your words would come with action but you left me so quickly that I was gasping for air before I had even realized you were gone.

Your promises drifted away with only the shaking leaves and my messy hair to show you were ever there in the first place. Like the wind you were momentary and I’m stuck here left trying to figure out how to conjure you again...

- And sometimes, when it’s really quiet I think I hear you stirring around outside, but whenever I run out you’re always gone...

Tell me, did I do something wrong, or is it just in your nature?

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haha so much has happened??

lost my job cause the virus so now i’m working as a full time artist. so basically i’m on drugs and starving.

i think i can collect unemployment but seems like a lot of steps. i’ve googled it like 3 times but keep getting confused.

powers off at my house and the fish in the tank are slowly suffocating. i counted two dead ones but there might be more. i don’t really want to think about it but the fish tank is right there.

hopefully my uncle comes back home soon so he can get the electricity back on and take care of the fish. i’d take the dead fish out maybe if they were smaller.

so....anyone wanna buy art??

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haven’t been on here in a while

i’m 20 now. counting the days until i move out of my sister’s house. back to LA.

after living in north carolina for 4 months i definitely learned to appreciate los angeles.

2/20

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