So typically I would never in life think to post a photo showing skin. Ever. I never want to be labeled as a hoe, or attention seeking. But its just skin people. Today I feel led to be very real and raw. This is the first time I've worn a biniki in....forever.... without putting shorts/capris and a tank top on to cover up. I still wouldnt sport it at the beach but I want to tell you something. Weightloss is a crazy journey, its a beautiful, messy, dirty, hard struggle. It's a mind game, it's a battle everyday. Everyday Im learning to love me, if I dont, I can never be fully loved by another. Ive had some beautiful conversations the last few days with woman, about learning to love ourselves, be confident in ourselves, to know that others view of us, their actions towards us, doesn't ultimately determine our value. Im learning to love my body, it has suffered 2 major surgeries, one at birth, and one in 2010, both surgeries done for things that actually should have killed me before they were even done. This body suffered a car accident in 09 leaving me unable to hardly walk the back injury was so bad, the pain so fierce. This body has birthed 3 amazingly beautiful children, one who was 2.5 weeks late and one who had me on bed rest. This body suffered years of low key depression, hating myself, believing the words and actions of others were my reality. This body suffered me eating my feelings away. This body is mine. Every single stretch mark, piece of cellulite, every fat roll, all the saggy skin, the scars, they tell a story. I have to learn to love every flaw, because this is my story, this is my body, this is my life. I love my body because it has fought thru pain, this body has know heartache, abuse, injuries. This body is a survivor. I am a fighter. I love every part of my journey, for i have been taught so much. I love my body for its past and for its coming story. Its only just begun. Im not done yet and no matter what twists, turns and curves I take, i will remember God made me. Hes helped me beat many odds. He has plans for my life, plans for me to prosper. So here i am. Every roll, every mark, every real, raw and unedited, unfiltered part of me. (at Ridgecrest, California)
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