//All mail is on, magic anons, pelipper mail/malice, marshuna mail/malice, everything. And recently with a magic anon, anons can now influence their actions and emotions by telling it to do stuff//
Another update once again.
My name is Skyfire. I use it/they pronouns, not just they/them please try to also use it/its pronouns for me as well.
I am a pokemon, not that it is much of important what exactly I am. I am 18 years old as of recently.
I am champion rank in Paldea, part of Team Star, and my rivals consist of Penny, Arven, Nemona and recently Tisa.
I draw as a hobby of mines. I also study biology, am tasked with dealing with strong tera raid dens, unusual pokemon and situations, I am working towards documenting forms of pokemon including shiny pokemon.
Otherwise I love horror, gaming, painting, exploring, pokemon battling, spending time with friends and such.
I have a hard time getting some things and my memory is a bit faulty at times. Please feel free to explain things to me more if I failed to get what you were trying to say.
All mail is unfortunately on and I cannot turn it off.
//ooc section under the cut//
Ooc section here. I am the mod behind Skyfire. They are my Sona of sorts. So I use the same pronouns and go by the same name.
While I have been around rotomblr specifically for a few years I have been roleplaying for over half a decade. Do not be shy to send asks or ask questions or request stuff. I will be more than happy to answer.
Trigger warnings for this blog include
Mental breakdowns, torture mentions, gore descriptions, death mentions, repetition, memory loss, injury and mentions of pokemon consumption, death and abuse. While none of this is constant and I will tag posts accordingly to the best of my ability these come up enough for me to just let you all know.
No NSFW on this blog, the most I get is suggestive.
Skyfire's universe has a crossover with silksong due to the original skyfire's powers still lingering so don't be surprised to see talk of hollow knight and Silksong characters on here.
Both me and the character skyfire are a system.
Some refs for Skyfire kinda unfished in some of its forms
I have other blogs as well
@skyfire530 is my main blog
@wolves-and-magic-swords is a blog for another oc I have that will probably be involved once I get the motivation for them
@void-incarnate multi-fandom blog for whatever rp space I want to check out really.
@musings-of-a-moth is a new blog for Pharloomblr and I hope y'all like it .
So I got gifted Nintendo online so I got the mega stones for the Kalos starters and baxcalibur. But I also now have the ability to trade.
If anyone that does not have the dlc but wants dlc pokemon or if someone wants a milotic because I have a bunch of extra shiny feebas. Or if someone wants a shiny dlc pokemon or a shiny pokemon I am open to just giving the extras away. And I have a ton of extra shiny pokemon. I even have some extra shiny alpha pokemon.
So if anyone is interested we can talk on this post or though dms
(pretend I checked the coherence on this lmao I’m just going to hope it’s readable)
Beheeyem (but also Aranza) Mail from Aranza!
[… Aranza!]
When one was almost certainly used to the sage 25 years in the future, seeing Aranza younger self certainly could have possibly been a jarring sight- but nobody could say with any confidence that despite his lack of later significant scarring he seemed any stronger than he was in his old age. In fact, that opposite would likely be true- grief and trauma turning to an uncontrolled constant paranoid rage was certainly a tool in a sense… But he’d not yet reached that point.
So instead, the sage- despite currently clutching an electrician’s hammer (so tightly his knuckles had gone white) in a violently shaking hand- looked exactly like what he was, a scared and confused man in a fancy robe that he’d learned to attribute his whole meaning to. With beyond tired bloodshot eyes (only four hours of sleep certainly does that), a stumble despite barely moving from issues standing up at all, beyond messy hair, and heavy wheezing to name a few… Frankly it was a surprise looking at him that he’d even been able to muster the willpower to try this at all.
Czesław clutched his head with his free hand, exhaling sharply as he looked around. The moment his eyes locked with Skyfire he raised the hammer and pointed at them, hand shaking so much more now that it was almost a miracle he didn’t accidentally toss it.
“Y-you! I told you to stop?! Why didn’t you stop?” He practically choked out, sounded like he was holding back a sob- which was fairly possible considering it did in fact look like he was starting to cry “I SAID I don’t want to hate you?!”
Skyfire was on all fours, mid stretch when it noticed Aranza. Claws dug into the dirt, ears pinning back and fur raising as it noticed the weapon. They scrambled up into a more defensive position. Teeth bared at Aranza.
They just stood there, slowly calming down. Fur remaining raised yest posture relaxing. They shakily went a bit closer. Attempting to just put a paw on the end of the weapon.
"Because I am my own person. With my own thoughts and feelings. I may not like him but I give the same amount of respect he gives back to me. I am sorry if out conversation hurt you. I intended to just keep it between us I am sorry you witnessed it. " Skyfire explained, well tried to. It wasn't sure what to say in this situation. It doubted anything could actually make things much better.
However they didn't move to attack. It didn't feel the need to. It didn't want to.
Aranza seethed inside, Skyfire was supposed to hate him! Not apologize! However Czesław was tired, confused, all he wanted was to collapse to the ground and cry- he hadn’t even barely been able to get out of bed these last few days, and to do so and go so far was mentally taxing for various reasons!
“You… You can’t mean it! You’re supposed to be evil, wicked! You don’t respect Him, and you’ll never respect me!” Aranza argued, shaking his head “… You… He says heretics will deceive us! Try to make us fall into evil! That’s… You’re deceiving me! Everyone hates me and deceives me and uses me! I… I need to be strong and fight back for once! F-FIGHT ME?!”
Despite his insistence he didn’t exactly raise the hammer or anything, still sort of just wobbling and staring at Skyfire.
Skyfire just looked at him. Seeming rather confused.
"I find it hard to hate anyone, there's no point really. Respect is something given and shared. If someone does not respect me I don't respect them. But I am not evil, or wicked. Or a heretic. Since I am the Arceus of my universe I doubt I could count as one." Skyfire said
"If everyone hated you I don't think Ghetsis would want you around. If everyone hated you I don't think you'd have the strive to even come here. " It sighed, sounding tired.
"I don't want to fight. I am tired." They tacked on
Skyfire gave the hammer a little pat for some reason not even it knew. If he looked closer at them, Czeslaw could see how tired they looked and that despite how calm it seemed their pupils remained small and looking towards the ground like a child who was in trouble.
“Then… Why else would you… Do all this?” Aranza asked, voice cracking as he struggled to reason with himself… It… Was hard to do that sometimes… Usually when he’d just stay in bed… Which was a lot “And… Ghetsis is different. He only sometimes wishes he didn’t care about me! That’s because ‘he’s a good person, and nobody else will ever care about me’! I… Don’t want everyone to hate him too! Like me…?”
He paused, hand lowering some “But… If we don’t fight… wh-what am I supposed to do…? I don’t want to go back right away, He’ll be angry I stole Anodyne for this thing…? Fighting is… It is… Time?”
"Because I care, because I despite how I feel like my words may do very little or nothing, I always have a small glimmer of hope that maybe the outcome will be better. I don't think if someone cares about you that they wish that they didn't. Unfortunately Ghetsis is disliked by many people, but he does have his followers so he can't be hated that much where your group is. You shouldn't have to worry about that." Skyfire mentioned, it seemed distant.
"Well you could spend the night, and I can take you back in the morning. It is not too much trouble. It might be late right now as well but perhaps some food would ease your mind." They offered.
Skyfire would figure out the logistics of all this later. Of having to explain this to their dad. It would definitely have to make sure to specify that Aranza did NOT hurt them. And just needed to stay one night.
(pretend I checked the coherence on this lmao I’m just going to hope it’s readable)
Beheeyem (but also Aranza) Mail from Aranza!
[… Aranza!]
When one was almost certainly used to the sage 25 years in the future, seeing Aranza younger self certainly could have possibly been a jarring sight- but nobody could say with any confidence that despite his lack of later significant scarring he seemed any stronger than he was in his old age. In fact, that opposite would likely be true- grief and trauma turning to an uncontrolled constant paranoid rage was certainly a tool in a sense… But he’d not yet reached that point.
So instead, the sage- despite currently clutching an electrician’s hammer (so tightly his knuckles had gone white) in a violently shaking hand- looked exactly like what he was, a scared and confused man in a fancy robe that he’d learned to attribute his whole meaning to. With beyond tired bloodshot eyes (only four hours of sleep certainly does that), a stumble despite barely moving from issues standing up at all, beyond messy hair, and heavy wheezing to name a few… Frankly it was a surprise looking at him that he’d even been able to muster the willpower to try this at all.
Czesław clutched his head with his free hand, exhaling sharply as he looked around. The moment his eyes locked with Skyfire he raised the hammer and pointed at them, hand shaking so much more now that it was almost a miracle he didn’t accidentally toss it.
“Y-you! I told you to stop?! Why didn’t you stop?” He practically choked out, sounded like he was holding back a sob- which was fairly possible considering it did in fact look like he was starting to cry “I SAID I don’t want to hate you?!”
Skyfire was on all fours, mid stretch when it noticed Aranza. Claws dug into the dirt, ears pinning back and fur raising as it noticed the weapon. They scrambled up into a more defensive position. Teeth bared at Aranza.
They just stood there, slowly calming down. Fur remaining raised yest posture relaxing. They shakily went a bit closer. Attempting to just put a paw on the end of the weapon.
"Because I am my own person. With my own thoughts and feelings. I may not like him but I give the same amount of respect he gives back to me. I am sorry if out conversation hurt you. I intended to just keep it between us I am sorry you witnessed it. " Skyfire explained, well tried to. It wasn't sure what to say in this situation. It doubted anything could actually make things much better.
However they didn't move to attack. It didn't feel the need to. It didn't want to.
Aranza seethed inside, Skyfire was supposed to hate him! Not apologize! However Czesław was tired, confused, all he wanted was to collapse to the ground and cry- he hadn’t even barely been able to get out of bed these last few days, and to do so and go so far was mentally taxing for various reasons!
“You… You can’t mean it! You’re supposed to be evil, wicked! You don’t respect Him, and you’ll never respect me!” Aranza argued, shaking his head “… You… He says heretics will deceive us! Try to make us fall into evil! That’s… You’re deceiving me! Everyone hates me and deceives me and uses me! I… I need to be strong and fight back for once! F-FIGHT ME?!”
Despite his insistence he didn’t exactly raise the hammer or anything, still sort of just wobbling and staring at Skyfire.
Skyfire just looked at him. Seeming rather confused.
"I find it hard to hate anyone, there's no point really. Respect is something given and shared. If someone does not respect me I don't respect them. But I am not evil, or wicked. Or a heretic. Since I am the Arceus of my universe I doubt I could count as one." Skyfire said
"If everyone hated you I don't think Ghetsis would want you around. If everyone hated you I don't think you'd have the strive to even come here. " It sighed, sounding tired.
"I don't want to fight. I am tired." They tacked on
Skyfire gave the hammer a little pat for some reason not even it knew. If he looked closer at them, Czeslaw could see how tired they looked and that despite how calm it seemed their pupils remained small and looking towards the ground like a child who was in trouble.
(pretend I checked the coherence on this lmao I’m just going to hope it’s readable)
Beheeyem (but also Aranza) Mail from Aranza!
[… Aranza!]
When one was almost certainly used to the sage 25 years in the future, seeing Aranza younger self certainly could have possibly been a jarring sight- but nobody could say with any confidence that despite his lack of later significant scarring he seemed any stronger than he was in his old age. In fact, that opposite would likely be true- grief and trauma turning to an uncontrolled constant paranoid rage was certainly a tool in a sense… But he’d not yet reached that point.
So instead, the sage- despite currently clutching an electrician’s hammer (so tightly his knuckles had gone white) in a violently shaking hand- looked exactly like what he was, a scared and confused man in a fancy robe that he’d learned to attribute his whole meaning to. With beyond tired bloodshot eyes (only four hours of sleep certainly does that), a stumble despite barely moving from issues standing up at all, beyond messy hair, and heavy wheezing to name a few… Frankly it was a surprise looking at him that he’d even been able to muster the willpower to try this at all.
Czesław clutched his head with his free hand, exhaling sharply as he looked around. The moment his eyes locked with Skyfire he raised the hammer and pointed at them, hand shaking so much more now that it was almost a miracle he didn’t accidentally toss it.
“Y-you! I told you to stop?! Why didn’t you stop?” He practically choked out, sounded like he was holding back a sob- which was fairly possible considering it did in fact look like he was starting to cry “I SAID I don’t want to hate you?!”
Skyfire was on all fours, mid stretch when it noticed Aranza. Claws dug into the dirt, ears pinning back and fur raising as it noticed the weapon. They scrambled up into a more defensive position. Teeth bared at Aranza.
They just stood there, slowly calming down. Fur remaining raised yest posture relaxing. They shakily went a bit closer. Attempting to just put a paw on the end of the weapon.
"Because I am my own person. With my own thoughts and feelings. I may not like him but I give the same amount of respect he gives back to me. I am sorry if out conversation hurt you. I intended to just keep it between us I am sorry you witnessed it. " Skyfire explained, well tried to. It wasn't sure what to say in this situation. It doubted anything could actually make things much better.
However they didn't move to attack. It didn't feel the need to. It didn't want to.
Lord Ghetsis I’m stealing Anodyne you can be upset when I get back I have no issues with that but I cannot sit by and let this thing continue and have any sort of healthy reaction to it my apologies when you read this.
I will not apologize for being rude to Ghetsis. And I will forever insult him honestly. But can't help but feel bad for him specifically, knowing how things go. Just sad. Especially with how he talks now.
he could've done worse :) i did the thing he hates most! it's what his daughter did! running away is a death sentence for him because he'll always find you :) he hates it when people run away. and i lied too! :)
That doesn't make things better. He could have done better. Well maybe instead of being clingy he could have just let you go. If everyone leaves you and runs away at a certain point if you have to force people to stay it means you're the problem. That you are not a good person to be around.
And he wouldn't have to find you. Pretty easy to avoid that.
Lying happens sometimes. Sometimes it is a means for survival.
I don't like lying either. But I had to to not make situations worse. My parents didn't like when I was upset. Even when I told the truth that I didn't even know why I would be crying. I know they didn't like me getting upset at small things. I didn't either but it's not like I can control it.
So I lied. I lied a lot. I hid, and hid and hid my emotions, anything that could be seen as anything other than the carefully crafted mask of whimsy and silliness I hid away.
He's your grandfather, he can just let you go. That is what family is supposed to do. And you could visit and go home whenever you wanted but there is an expectation that eventually you'd go off on your own to build your own life.
Not try to hunt you down but just find you and make sure you were safe.
Sir Hagar :) hates it when i'm sad. it's annoying to him! :) he doesn't like it because it means i'm broken. and sometimes i don't want to be fixed. so i make sure i'm not visibly broken! :) and only real people have real emotions!
lying isn't fun. i don't like lying. sometimes Sir Hagar makes me lie! :) i know it's good, but i don't like it! :)
what would i even do out there? :) most people are scared of me, even on here :) shiny hunting can only be a career here and it's what i'm best at now!
if it wasn't to hurt me, someone would have done something right :) the staff would have realised it would help me! Sir Hagar wouldn't have hidden me away! :)
I make sure I am not visibly broken either. It makes others upset when I am upset. My emotions tend to just get in the way. But that is fine.
Lying isn't fun but sometimes it's necessary.
Well there is so much for you to do. I could show you. You have given me so much it only makes sense for me to do something in return.
Well all the people that work there are working for him, he could have specifically told them not to do anything. And perhaps it is because if you weren't hidden away he would get in trouble because he is doing bad things.
but you're a real person? :) so your emotions are real!
i lied a lot when i was younger because Sir Hagar asked me too :)
i could be awful at it :) why would i do something i'm bad at? i gave you things because i wanted to! giving you the things made me happy! :) i can give you more things! i'm good at getting things for people :)
there were hundreds! one of them would do something if it was bad :) one of them would have stopped it! :) one of them would have told the police if they thought it was better! people break rules, and they would've broken the no speaking about me rule too! none of them did :) so it can't have been that bad
My emotions are real but they get in the way, complicate things, especially my negative emotions.
Because you can't get better at something without being bad at it at first. That's the fun part. I wasn't always good at drawing. Or writing. Everyone needs to learn to read, to talk, to walk. You had to learn to fly and I bet you weren't exactly the best at it first. You have to be bad at something first to be good at it.
Giving people things makes me happy too. So I would like to give stuff to you as well.
Well there's something that happens and it is when people are afraid to step up, either because they think others will one day or because they don't want to lose their job or get hurt or die. Hundreds of people all thinking the same thing. It happens. Unfortunately. Especially in an environment like that I think people being afraid to do anything makes sense. Even if they got fired and such Conrad seems like someone to go after someone who would say anything.
it's not fun to be bad at things. it means you get punished :)
i don't have anything you can give me. i already have everything i want :) my apologies
why wasn't there at least one person? there just had to be one! one person who was willing to take the risk! or one person who was stupid enough to do it anyways! one!!! :) there had to have been one person! :) i don't want to have to live in a world where hundreds of people did nothing when i was getting hurt! they did the right thing :) it was a good thing! :) that's why they did nothing! :)
When you are bad at things you fail and learn to fix why you failed that is not a punishment that is life. And it is no fun to get punished for failing, that happened to me a lot.
Well I can show you things. Bring you places. Give you good meals. I know many spots I think you'd like to see. Sometimes when you aren't somewhere for a specific purpose it is nice to just observe.
Maybe they all thought there would be that one person and that they didn't have to do it. Just because nobody did anything doesn't mean it was good what you went through
You learn by yourself. You make your own choices and figure things out on your own. You come up with ideas, follow through, you learn.
I go many places without a purpose, I wander around a lot. Because I have a horrible memory. I wander, and sometimes I stop and look around.
Well this is not exactly something you can choose to have been good or bad. Sometimes things are just bad and you have to just take it in. I wish things could just be good sometimes but that just can't ever happen and that fine.
that sounds strange. you don't even have a course? :) it sounds fun but very weird
i feel scared and like under my skin is itchy when i'm not doing something :) maybe i could try to do things slower one day! not right now :) Sir Hagar wants me to get a shiny milotic
i don't like what it means for everything else too
maybe i could shiny hunt but slowly :) it might be enough to keep myself from getting that awful feeling
he already has two :) i think he wants to put on some kind of show with them and some shiny lumineon to attract new students :)
i don't like it. Sir Hagar is good. even if he makes me lie sometimes and even if he hurts me and does bad things to me :) i don't like it at all. i can't leave. Sir Hagar is good :)
I mean I see more shiny pokemon when I take things slow.
Only two?
Well I do wish your situation was good. I don't like that it isn't. Conrad has killed people, has killed his own daughter and seemingly just doesn't care unless it is to try and make it seem like he had to.
That is kinda sad actually. To have so many feebas and so little milotic shows a lack of care. Horrible really. And for someone who prides himself in a collection I would think he would be better than to just leave them feebas.
I will not apologize for being rude to Ghetsis. And I will forever insult him honestly. But can't help but feel bad for him specifically, knowing how things go. Just sad. Especially with how he talks now.
