nic.

happy little things

[whitepeopletwitter]

[gingersofficial]

[candiikismet]

Life path unlocked. He’s a scientist now.

[prolifeproliberty]

If your dad is telling you in great detail about something he’s passionate about, you’re going to be hooked even if you don’t understand a word.

[by-grace-of-god]

He tells us more…

So now I have to deliver a quiet lecture on the Standard Model every night. He loves lists of things, like all the streets home from daycare, or the train stations between here and Central, so he loves hearing the list of leptons and quarks and bosons.

Anyway, I made this poster for him, based on the CPEP ones we used to have at uni . 

Alas I ran out of room for antimatter, colour charge and confinement, but hey, maybe there can be a second poster later.

It’s funny though — on the surface of it, it seems like it must be far too advanced for a 3yo. But when you think about it, quarks and leptons are no more or less real to him than, say, dinosaurs or planets, and he loves those too. And he recognises the letters on the particles.

I am absolutely overwhelmed by the kind and sweet things people are saying about this, thanks everyone ❤️

Addendum: he has really grasped onto the “everything is made of atoms” part of this, so tonight he listed just about every object he could think of and asked if it was made of atoms.

“And my bed?” Yes, and your bed. “And that wall?” Yep. “And the armchair?” Yes, the armchair too. … … “And… the book case?” Y—

“And my home?” Yep, the whole apartment block. “And your home? Oh wait, your home is my home.” Haha, it is. … … “But is it made of atoms?” Yep. “And… [best friend]’s home?” Yes, it is. And [other friend]’s home, and [third friend]’s home.

“Is [yet another friend]’s home?”

Update from the other night:

“Is my… is… [extremely long pause] is my atoms poster made up of atoms?” —Yes! Yes it is.

I have never heard such a contemplative silence. I think the next poster will have to be on the philosophy of referential language.

Update from this morning: after listing everything in sight (mummy? daddy? fridge? milk? cereal? table? etc.) he asks “is [baby sister] made up of atoms?”

yep!

*runs over to her on the floor* *puts face up real close to hers* “HI! YOU’RE MADE UP OF LOTS OF ATOMS! DID YOU KNOW?”

[arcticfoxbear]

@radioactivepeasant @themagdalenwriting @iusedtohaveanaccount

“HI! YOU’RE MADE UP OF LOTS OF ATOMS! DID YOU KNOW?”

[the-strongest-decoy]

[lyjerria]

your standards should be high for both your friendships and romantic relationships. everyone you surround yourself with should have qualities you actually admire.

[ruinedchildhood]

[canadianbeerandpostmodernism]

[verovagdevi]

Disney + movie shots

[hotboyproblems]

me: gosh i have so much work to do i better get started

my brain: you cannot

me: why

my brain: you are feeling moderately upset, any attempt at productivity is futile

me: i don't see how-

my brain: cannot.

[drovie]

Today at therapy was really hard. I was sitting here crying, and generally being miserable, when I felt a nudge at my knee. I looked down to see that Zeus, my service dog, was doing his job… and brought me a potato. it is very hard to cry with a gift of potato.

[drovie]

Remember this? I’m having a rough time right now. Zeus has a solution.

That would be an empty pill bottle, the *correct* pill bottle, a bottle of embossing powder, and two, TWO potatoes.

[afkland]

You’re worth at least 2 potato to him and that’s pretty special imo.

[drovie]

I would just like to remind you all that *I don’t own any potatoes* and I have no clue where he’s getting them from.

[friendlyneighbourhoodpizzaman]

i love old ladies

i’m at the bus stop and these two very old ladies suddenly recognize each other and very sincerely one goes “holy shit you’re still alive!!” and the other says “i’m gonna outlive my husband if it kills me”

[specialbored]

The Circle of Slice….

[alwysdrunk]

this is perfect

[noxtenebrarum]

[parakavka]

[neogohann]

[pho]

[glassbonespaperskin]

[oyasumi-killyou]

[molang-official]

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

I know this isn’t for everyone and there are different versions of self love and acceptance that benefit different people for different reasons, but speaking of my own experience, becoming self-neutral has been better for me than any steps I took to become self-positive. Accepting that I have inherent, intrinsic value simply by Being, unrelated in any way to my appearance or my mental health, has been everything.

I spent time enjoying the concept of reclaiming ugliness and craziness, which I’ve discussed here. And that was a good first step for me. But even then, ugliness and craziness only means not fitting in to certain societal standards of beauty and mental health. It’s also made up and bears no weight on my value as a person.

So beyond understanding that some people will find me ugly and that’s okay, and beyond accepting that some people will find me crazy and their opinions don’t matter,

I’ve found a lot of peace in knowing that ugliness and craziness, on a true, inherent, universal, spiritual level, don’t exist. They’re concepts. They’re smoke.

I do exist. And because I exist, I have value. My life has meaning simply because I am alive.

I don’t have to love myself. I just had to stop hating myself so I could finally simply exist as myself. And I’m really enjoying who I’ve discovered I am.

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

Not to bring Mary Oliver into this but “Wild Geese” just really drives this home.

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

This is it. This is everything. I have a place in the family of things.