here lies a broken extractinator

yeah bye

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Y’all: Hey, don’t be upset about the new official lore, it’s not in the game, so you can ignore it! :)

Re-Logic: We’re adding a bestiary of official monster lore to the game itself. :)

Me:

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Alright I think it's time we all follow your main blog too x

Yeah but don't expect a whole lot lol

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@definitelynottired: Hey, just asking, I know this might still be a smarting wound here and it’s probably none of my business, but are you okay? Just know that we’re all still here to support you. Just because there’s a new aspect to a game you might not like doesn’t mean that you should abandon something you love (and are great at)! You can do this, and still have fun! Ignore the “canon” lore stuff. It’s rushed and horribly thrown together, I’ll give you that, but it doesn’t impact how the game itself plays!     

@definitelynottired: Keep up the amazing work you do. Play. Fight. Build. Explore. Isn’t that the core of the game? I know I might sound a bit harsh, but I do want to help. We all do :) Amazing art and builds, by the way! (Excelsior is probably my favorite. Great design and character building)

First off, thanks for the kind words. I’m honestly surprised to hear from anyone that Excelsior’s their favorite; I’m always under the impression that most people here are here for the Aberrant, haha.

As for the ‘being okay’ thing, it’s kind of sitting on a precipice. I’ve had to cut myself off from a lot of toxicity and self-worth issues lately and while I do feel I’m better off for it, it hasn’t left me in much of a mood for creativity on most fronts. I don’t feel like I’m going to return to Terraria, simply because over the years it has caused a lot of these self-worth issues (not being appreciated except through the lens of someone else’s world, etc.)

So in short, yeah, I’m okay, but only because I’ve abandoned a lot of this stuff in favor of trying to recenter myself. Thank you all for the support in spite of that.

I don’t think I’ll shut down this blog, though I’ve already fully-culled my TCF presence, so my old art and old character/NPC writeups are... well, not gone, but they only exist in .txt files on my computer now and have no public outlet. I don’t know if I’ll be putting that up anywhere else, mostly because it’s all BBCoded and I don’t feel like reformatting it into HTML.

In the mean-time, I just complain a lot on Twitter and my mainblog while trying to find more things to do IRL and not surrounded by the constant toxicity of the internet.

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It's not a big deal to most people.

It's an extremely big deal to me.

As someone who'd wish nothing more than for people to respect the canon of my own original work (a tall ask on the internet) , I am obligated by personal morals to respect the canon of other people's work.

That's why I gravitate towards fandoms with either no fixed canon, or with flexible canon and/or open ends.

By making an official canon (after letting others assume there wouldn't be for 8 years), it's invalidated all the work I've done. Maybe not to everyone, but it does to me and my personal code (which is very precious to me in a world where I've been on the recieving end of far more broken promises than kept ones), and I'm the one who wasted all those years.

Forgive me if the 6-year gaping hole in my heart hurts a little.

But in the end, I'm just one person who made the mistake of getting emotionally invested in someone else's world despite all the screaming warnings not to.

I'll try to avoid making that mistake again.

I don't think "not wanting to be a hypocrite" is necessarily strict. It just seems that way when the world practically RUNS itself on infidelity.

Other people can do what they want. I'm not stopping them, or even saying they're wrong. I'd rather be strict to myself and suffer those consequences than demand others follow my rules; however, I still feel like I should have the agency to cry a little when the pain is really bad, even if it's self-inflicted.

Mostly because I’m sure at least two people are gonna want an explanation for why it hurts so much I want to leave.

And, contrary to what you might be thinking, implying I’m wrong for hurting in the first place isn’t helpful.

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Terraria Official on Twitter

“Happy 8th Anniversary! To celebrate we're revealing a first-ever look at some of the official lore for Terraria in a LIVE Discord event on our official server - https://t.co/Hv2g6h3KhV Join the devs at 2PM PST at #lore-2pm-pst to watch, hang out, and celebrate this occasion!”

There it is.

I guess this is time I called it quits.

Seeya later, Terraria. It was a fun run until it wasn’t.

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Sad how this opportunity steps to the bridge right as the last shreds of rope are smouldering from all the problems I’ve run into with the overall community over the past couple years. Not necessarily Tumblr directly (though I have run into some drama while browsing tags and/or reblog chains), but across multiple  social platforms (Official Forums, Steam Community, YouTube, etc.).

I don’t know whether it’s worth it attempting to apply for something like this, and make one last, desperate grasp that has a very high chance of doing nothing more than burning my hands as it pulls away, or turn my back and let it fall.

The fact that there’s going to be a ‘lore team’ at all is a huge middle finger at all the headcanon developers who don’t get in on that job (and even those who do run a chance that they’ll try to apply their headcanons to the official canon only to be shot down), and that really rubs me the wrong way. Even if I applied and GOT that position, it’d feel really shitty to just, like, invalidate everyone else who’s been sticking with the game and writing their own worlds for years.

Sure, AUs exist and shit, but it always just feels so bad to create based on a wide-open template, only for something official to come along and say “oh, yeah, you’re wrong now.” It’s what ended my time with R-Type, World of Warcraft, Dark Souls, Darkest Dungeon, and a bunch of other settings. I guess this is just another charred husk for the pile* because apparently I can never learn, and I suppose it’s my fault for seeing that pattern and still trying.

Leave Terraria’s lore open for everyone, that’s where Terraria shines best.

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Hey! I was looking through your blog (bit creepy I know) and I saw one of your characters named Auraion and honestly she looks and sounds awesome! What's her whole deal? Hope you don't mind my asking!

I don’t mind at all! Honestly happy there’s interest, haha. I don’t find it that creepy. Thank you!

Sadly… this is kinda a tough one to go in full depth, though honestly most of her pertinent info is actually on my Terraria character list; while she’s effectively original, she just kinda lives there (like Daimera) in her off-time. More in-world info for her WOULD be on my headworld blog but it’s, uh… kinda… shut down. Which is what makes it difficult to go more in-depth for anything that’s not tied to her Terrarian origins.

Her meta backstory is that I’d hit ‘random’ for a Terraria character to play an adventure map with my friends (the pink/purple and blue colorscheme led me to naming her after the glowing blue and purple Thinking Putties, Aura and Ion. !!CREATIVITY!!). After we finished the map, I decided to keep her mage loadout from it, but also took her around to my main world and stole a bunch of extra magic gear that I’d collected from my main playthrough with Dai, so I decided to characterize her as a thief, but also a scholar on the account that she’s a practitioner of magic.

After a while I just decided to make her vague concept into a more fleshed-out character tied with my headworld mess, but left her in Terraria because she has nothing better to do.

For a while, I was going to make her Actually A Dragon, but decided to go with a more illithid approach on the account of her taking to wiping people’s memories to protect the library (plus, being the servant of a mysterious eldritch thing).

Along the way, when I took a short dive back into Magic: The Gathering, I made an Izzet deck full of annoying low-cost cards and decided that was her pre-Ambkryp-pact magic style, but also threw in a single Consuming Aberration and a few tap-for-any-color artifacts in order to get it out… that was so much fun that I eventually switched her theme deck to full-on Dimir for EDH with Wrexial as the Commander. Fun ensued. I know mill isn’t good in EDH but it’s hilarious.

Her early 5-eye layout plus squidface paralleling that of the Moon Lord is completely coincidental, considering her old 5-eye look predates the Moon Lord by almost three years, haha.

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Technically this belongs here too since she started as a Terraria character and the library’s one of my older builds.

Also, for lels, here’s a pic I did of her in her ‘now i’m serious’ form (albeit chibi) for my (dead) headworld blog during my hiatus because it’s relevant I guess haha

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Everyone’s favorite depressed blue fungus.

Now with 100% more superfluous hyphae.

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Ooold pic that has enough Notes to not really need the additional attention, but every once in a while I am reminded that this picture exists and get a little mad at myself that I didn’t make the hyphae (the fuzz and ‘fur’) glowing blue because for ages I’ve headcanoned that the blue mushroom grass is glowing mushroom hyphae and it’s such a lost opportunity, weh. :S

It just feels a bit too late to fix it considering this pic’s made its rounds for the better part of 4 years.

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I'm just gonna leave this here.

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Did you sign up for the beta testers for the mobile update?

Nope. I just play the existing one when I'm using the bathroom lol. I'm not really that invested in it.

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Did you know that Redigit posted some stuff about Terraria Lore on official Terraria Discord?

After the disasters that were Deep Rock Galactic and Risk of Rain 2 public Discord servers, I avoid official game servers like the plague. They are everything I hate about official forums turned up to 11, then multiplied by 500.

Plus, if the devs are making "official" lore now, maybe that's my cue to leave because there not being official lore is why I prefer Terraria over Starbound...

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Hmmm...

Bonus: Most aggravating boss at this gear level. Not hard, just tedious af.

And current map

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I’m so happy NL is finally playing Terraria again.

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I hope they keep going.

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They kept going and it’s so good.

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Self-reblogging this with the “I’m back, here’s where I’m at” textwall deleted, since looking back I feel it detracted from probably my nicest fanart in a while, and likely for a while.

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I’m so happy NL is finally playing Terraria again.

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I hope they keep going.

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I just watched him ride a minecart into lava. I like this guy

So do I. The Egg’s charm is difficult to deny.

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I’m so happy NL is finally playing Terraria again.