Sometimes I try a random filter on TikTok or Snapchat and it gives me my ideal jawline, cheek bones, clear skin, etc. and the feeling of seeing myself as „beautiful“ in this filter literally fills me with so much emotion that I feel sick by it.
I have to quit the filter, go on camera, and see myself without the filter. The intense emotion and anxiety goes away and I feel so much better at seeing myself.
I honestly think I have anxiety about getting some sort of dysmorphia and I just need to see my actual face before thinking „this filter is giving me these perfect lips and clear skin and -10 pounds and I will never be as beautiful as I am in this filter“
Truly does help to just smile at yourself in the filter-less camera reflection, kind of as a bonus






















