we're all stuck in a loop

honetly dont know how i got stuck in this hellsite but i'm here and youre here so......

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The way heated rivalry has helped me bond with my new colleagues, this is why art is important. It’s the gift that keeps on giving. P.S. also convincing a straight white guy to watch it, pitched it as a hockey show that has gay players

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So I’ve consumed all ALL the fanfic available for In memoriam like a thirsty bitch in the desert and have decided to reread the book again. Don’t be like me, choose joy please

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Tell me what I have to do, to convince you to read In memoriam by Alice Winn. There aren’t enough words in the English language to describe the depth and beauty of this magnificent piece of literature. I am so beautiful wreaked after reading this, I don’t think I will ever be the same. I cannot recommend this book enough, fair warning, it is heavy, lots of graphic details about war and death, but each character in this book is written so eloquently. I will forever treasure Sidney and Henry, my tortured poets ❤️

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I’m half way through in memoriam and I’m SOBBING, I was already tearing at chapter 4 but it’s not a pretty little cry anymore!! HOW WILL I MOVE ON, I’m scared to read this on the tube tomorrow because I know I’ll continue SOBBING!!!! My heart is heavy omfg. CUT THE SHOW IM DONE

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Connie baby, I’m sorry they put you with two sexist assholes as a way to get good PR. You deserved better. Seriously fuck the men’s hockey team and their sexist fucking ass

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Starting In memoriam by Alice Winn. Wish me best of luck folks, I don’t think I’ll survive😭😭

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Get your parasocial ass off my babies. Unless you’re actually part of their social group there’s no reason to speculate anything about them, ffs let people live and be themselves, go touch some grass, get in the sun, talk to the trees and birds, GO OUTSIDE!!! We used to be a society 😭😭😭😭

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You know sometimes I’m filled with so much joy and hope from fiction that is disgustingly joyful and full of love that I start to wonder maybe it’s time to give reality a chance, and then do something stupid like download a dating app. Lasted 10 minutes folks, 10 minutes in and I realised it’s just best to stick to my joyful little fictional stories where love actually exists and not confuse that with real men.

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My beautiful boys in we could be so good. Andy: grew up with absentee parents, always feels like a burden, constantly thinks he can never do anything right, doubts himself a hundred times a day on a hundred different things, MY BEAUTIFUL BAY BOY IS SO SOFT AND SWEET, he is everything!!! Its shameful the amount of times I’ve cried reading that exchange between Andy and his dad in the third act, baby boy thinks so lowly of himself that he cannot believe there are people who care about him. OMFG I WOULD KILL FOR ANDY

And then we have Nick: grew up with a shit head of a brother who used to beat him up, pulled himself together from nothing and works his ass of, is in a constant state of anxiety due to his queerness and is in perpetual fear of getting caught, has never been properly taken care of a day in his life, cannot fathom a world in which he will ever find love and settle down!!!!! I CANNOT EMPHASISE HOW MUCH I LOVE THESE TWO!! They are both my babies and I cannot stop thinking about them and their world. Seriously, go read we could be so good, I need to make this someone else’s problem 😭😭😭😭

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I’m only half way through we could be so could by Cat Sebastian, and have yet to stop smiling and kicking my feet !!!! It’s so good babes, YEARNING, SLOW BURN, appreciation for clavicle and forearms!!!!

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An updated, I finished the book with fucking tears in my eyes, omfg it’s so good!!! I usually don’t like a friends to lovers trope or a grumpy x sunshine, BUT IT WAS SO WELL DONE!!! I loved both Nick and Andy, they’re everything to each other and now me omfg. Can’t. Recommend. This. Enough.

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I’m only half way through we could be so good by Cat Sebastian, and have yet to stop smiling and kicking my feet !!!! It’s so good babes, YEARNING, SLOW BURN, appreciation for clavicle and forearms!!!!

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I love living vicariously through shows and books, life is so full with art omfg

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Sorry gang, im temporarily a heated rivalry blog i guess

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Just saw an edit of Shane and Ilya to the monologue in the song of Achilles….tears babes, I have literal tears in my eyes.

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Being bi is especially hard today, can’t decide who’s hotter, Ksenia Daniela Kharlamova or Hudson Williams, seriously I’m only human, there’s only so much I can take 😭😭😭

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Is it ever casual?

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Forgive me Benito, I was not aware of your game.