Things that make me happy

She/They, 1992 baby, Polyamorous Lesbian, Backstage Ninja, Nerd, Crafty Bitch, Liberal Feminist Killjoy. I curse a lot, so if that bugs you I suggest not following me.

[afemalesebastian]

"Sewing is a gateway drug to thinking through complex problems. It seems really simple; culturally, we make it women's work. Let me tell you: real sewing at any kind of level of proficiency is a bloody magic trick. Sewing, like mold making, involves mental frames that require one to think inside out and backwards. It requires one to work on an order of operations that is often taking into account the reverse. It's a really, really important skill, and if you learn how to sew, you're mostly on your way to carpentry and welding and sheet metal work. I'm not kidding: these are planar forms meeting under rules and conditions. And if you can make a sleeve work, I swear to God, you could build a house."

--Adam Savage

[cunt-inent]

in trouble for referring to a friend's polycule as a "ship of theseus type situation"

[jamesroach]

4:35 Blaze it sorry traffic was crazy

[jamesroach]

oh we missed the ten year anniversary of the worst post i’ve ever made

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

traffic again?

[redstonedust]

i could never handle immortality not because of any existential reasons but because i know itd make my procrastination so much worse. catch me putting off tasks for decades. catch me putting off tasks for centuries. what do you mean that movie ive been meaning to get around to became lost media 40 years ago. what do you mean that landmark ive been meaning to visit has been eroded. oooh i got PLANY of time..............

[gaymolegaming]

The term "gay sex" implies the existence of other kinds of sex. But that is of course liberal propaganda

[noknowshame]

I know we’re all like lawless nonconformists but you really can’t be texting and driving. that’s one of the ones you’ve gotta listen to for real

[ouroborosorder]

the girl who is comfy in bed yearns to be On The Computer. The girl who is On The Computer yearns to be comfy in bed. Thus does desire become the root of all suffering

[easterndaylighttime]

if I just had the presence of mind and the wherewithal and the chutzpah and the bandwidth and the executive function and the energy and the mental resources and the spoons and the right attitude and the capacity and the gumption and th

[mal-studyblr]

hey quick PSA but “reading before bed to wind down” only works if you’re normal about books btw. if you aren’t you are going to end up awake at 2:52am after finishing the whole book just trust me on this one

[sneaksiekitten]

I don't normally get hung up on people. Sometimes I think that means there's something wrong with me, that it's so easy for me to get over a relationship or a crush and move on. And honestly, that happens while I'm with people, not just after a breakup. Something in my brain changes, and I don't feel the way I did at the beginning.

I think the longest I really had strong feelings for anyone was maybe half a year? And the longest I was hung up after a breakup was maybe 2 months?

I stayed in the longest relationship I've had almost more out of a sense of obligation to the way my life was "supposed" to go. And there was a part of me trying to sabotage it from pretty early on because I knew on some level it wasn't right for me.

So given all of that, I don't understand why I still have feelings for you over a year and a half after I first noticed them. I keep thinking maybe I'm finally over you, and I can be fully happy with just being your friend. And then I see a romance scene in a show, and you're the first thing that comes to mind. You're always the first person who comes to mind, when I want to share something about my day or a silly meme I saw or just sit next to someone and read. You're my best friend. And I'm still in love with you.

[sneaksiekitten]

I can't tell you that I'm glad I didn't get the gig to work on your show. That every time you can't hang out, there's a part of me that's relieved. I miss you, but it's sometimes worse when you're around. You know I'm not okay, but I can't tell you that you're a big part of the reason. Sometimes I wish I'd never met you. Because then it wouldn't hurt so much not be close to you.

[sneaksiekitten]

There has got to be a better way to snap myself out of a spiral toward suicidal ideation without forcing myself into dissociative shutdown

Theoretically though, that probably involves asking for help, and given that one of the biggest factors rn is feeling like I am too much and just being a drama queen, that doesn't seem super likely

[sneaksiekitten]

The thing is. I say it feels like I'm more invested in this. You say you're hurt by the implication that you don't care. But it's true. I know you care, but as long as I am in love and you aren't, I am more invested in this. You are always on my mind. And it feels like I'm an afterthought in yours.

[lovedthestars-toofondly]

underdiscussed benefit of auditory processing issues is that I’m basically immune to catcalling because I fully. do not understand a single word of what people are saying. half the time I barely realise it’s me they’re talking to because it‘s not like I can figure it out based on content and context clues. there’s just Some Guys Yelling on the other side of the street, and it barely occurs to me to feel addressed because I am, at any given time, too busy thinking about the menacing duality of rhododendrons

[emo-communism]

is anyone else just like. constantly filled with rage about their position under late capitalism and how we are expected to just keep playing this game that we know will literally kill us, is already killing people all over the world, and yet everyone around us is somehow fine with going about business as usual, with pretending we are free by being able to choose between different ways of being exploited. there is nothing more dehumanising than being forced to partake in a system that is actively detrimental to our survival as human beings, that is so physically, psychologically and spiritually destructive, and i don’t know how to deal with this anger anymore

[heartlessqueen]

reassurance

[mortalityplays]

one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.