okay i'm gonna be honest i don't like people who are actively looking for a relationship and shooting their shots all around to see who will be most interested, it's weird. literally just wait until you fall in love with someone, it doesn't happen every year, what the fuck. it makes all relationships feel so transactional, like options on a menu, and so often i am considered one of the options and i don't flirt enough fast enough but i think to myself oh this person has feelings for me let me think let me explore that... and then i'm always given up on for someone who's faster. and i never understand what could make them unhave those feelings for me so suddenly and so fast until i realise there never was any feelings involved they literally just looked at me like i'm on a menu and tried to estimate the price, i.e. how much generic unspecified dishonest affection they'd have to throw at me until i gave myself over willingly and they Had A Relationship, until they Had Obtained Love. i wish people stopped trying to "shoot their shot" and "test the waters" with me, i mean i know i can't demand loyalty before i even agree to anything but i'd really rather they not show any interest in me at all if they don't mean me at all. i'd rather not have people attracted to me than have people be so open about it me and then so open about changing their mind about me once i turn out to not be digestible enough. idk something about a person LOOKING for a relationship (and you can always tell when they desperately are) is so off-putting to me like are we talking about falling in love or investing in a new pair of shoes. why do you think about this like acquiring something. the concept of looking for love itself is insane to me i'm sorry i can't respect that.
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