self love & manifesting journey

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hard work

I have good grades

I have worked hard 

my hard work is going to pay off

I have good grades

I am successful

I am smart 

I have good grades 

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Update: my hard work payed off!!

 I remember the day in December last year when I got my test back and had the lowest grade compared to all of my “friends”. Two weeks before that my friends completely turned their backs on me and studied for the test without inviting me. They completely ignored me and then blamed it all on me, saying it was my fault. I remember feeling sad but also angry at them. I've always said sorry to people and apologized even at times when I truly didn't mean it, but I still did it because I wanted people to like me. That time I didn't apologize because I truly felt like It was not my fault. I did not do anything wrong. But still, I wanted to work hard and prove to them that I am smart and prove myself to them. Well... that didn't work out like I wanted to... like I said at the beginning, my friends all got a really high grade and all the praise I barley passed the test.  

I remember coming home and falling on my knees crying, screaming and hating myself. I tried so hard to prove them wrong and I still failed. I managed to get the worst grade out of all of them, even tough I studied SO hard. 

Flash forward to march this year. my final exams were coming up and I needed a certain grade for that same subject/class in order to graduate high school. Again I studied hard, but not for them. I studied for MYSELF. Because I wanted to graduate. I didn't do it to prove them wrong or show them how smart I am. I did it for myself. 

The day of my final exams: I remember being nervous that day. my two “friend” had their exams before me and it was my turn to go.  

I had my exam in my hand and turned the pages to read all the questions. Suddenly a boost of confidence flew into my soul. I knew how to answer all of the questions. 

directly after my exam I got my final grade and surprise: I got a perfect score. No wrong answer, everything was correct.

hard work pays off. sometimes you fail, scream and/or cry and that is okay, but remember to wipe your tears, get back up and try again and again and again. it will pay off trust me.  

[joli--coeur]

to anyone out there who’s struggling with having no friends — wondering where you belong in this world, searching for a place to belong — you matter. you are so important. and you will find your people or maybe just a special person who feels like home. it may seem like your loneliness will last forever, but it won’t. it never does.

[snowdropinsaturn]

hard work

I have good grades

I have worked hard 

my hard work is going to pay off

I have good grades

I am successful

I am smart 

I have good grades 

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22.02.2022

I have been in quarantine for the past four days, but I´m feeling better day by day.

Today is a very special day and I just want to change my mindset on certain things in life. As I have gotten older ( I´m 20 lol) I am starting to realize that change is good. Letting go of the past is good. There is no need to hold on to certain things just because you are scared of letting it go. Change is scary but what if it's for the better? What is everything works out for you? The main thing I've learned in the past few years of me growing up, is that you will eventually figure things out. so with every problem or change I face, whether it is willingly or not. I remind myself that I am going to figure it out like I always have and I always will.

i am proud of the person I am becoming. 

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positive energy

I am living in alignment with my biggest dreams

I deserve all the good things that are on my way 

I deserve to be loved

I deserve to be happy 

I deserve to have good friends 

I deserve to have people around me that actually care about me 

[andengandeng888]

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where I want to be rn

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no one

I just finished all my exams and all my friends are partying but no one invited me. I wish there were people that actually cared about me. 

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

hey.

if you happen to be reading this, i just wanted to say some things coming from someone who knows what it’s like to fall asleep in tears.

you are not a burden or a mistake or a problem. you are a person with feelings and talents and potential. you deserve happiness even when you feel you don’t, and you deserve a future even when you’re stuck in your past.

life isn’t all about finding the one or succeeding perfectly. life is about finding your happiness and wellbeing in a world that gives you chaos. in that chaos you might cry yourself to sleep, might stay in bed for a day only getting up to use the bathroom, might mean shutting out the world out of frustration, might mean saying “fine. bye.” when you really just want them to stay. but you have tomorrow. and i hope tomorrow brings you at least one, real, beautiful smile.

you’ve got this. you’ve got a good heart. don’t forget that. even when all you can hear is reasons to give up on yourself, don’t. you have got this.

[chibird]

We may not be able to know how things will turn out, but that doesn’t stop me from believing that they’ll turn out good for us all! 🐟💕 Sometimes it can be good for us to be a little optimistic, as a treat! 

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[akindplace]

Seconds Apart on instagram

[neckkiss]

Daily quote,lol

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feeling empty

I am so disappointed. I work hard everyday and I study for all of my exams but the results are just so disappointing. I am so tired everyday. it is so hard to wake up and go to school. I feel so empty. there is noting that makes my genuinely happy these days. everything is going wrong

I need to be strong and hold on but it is so hard.

[loveaffirmations]

I am the architect of my life; I build its foundation and choose its contents.

I am thankful for all that I have in my life.

I am a do-er. I will take action and get things accomplished.

I am focused and productive.

I am smart and successful.

I am committed to my goals.

I am an unlimited, creative being.

I am grateful.

I am fearless.

[snowdropinsaturn]

staying positive

I know that this blog is all about positivity and hope but I´m currently feeling like shit-

I feel forgotten

it's so hard to stay positive 

[therelatablepost]