This is the aspect of endurance. Many people with this aspect have gone through trials and tribulations in their lives and despite the obstacles they may have faced, they still remained incredibly determined and persevered even when faced with challenges and adversity. People with this aspect have a strong sense of discipline and are very dedicated towards building something for themselves. They don't easily give up and use their energy in a constructive way to bring a sense of stability and order into their lives. Saturn-mars people are very reliable and loyal people and if they find value in something, they work very hard to preserve it. Most people with this aspect are very methodical and their actions are well thought out, calculated, and deliberate.
lesbian heated rivalry wouldn’t be in hockey because there are already many out queer women in hockey due to the fact that hockey is viewed as a men’s sport. the whole reason hockey is captivating for mlm is because it is a toxically masculine sport and the idea of having out queer men in that sport is surprising (requiring them to stay closeted/have situationships/etc), whereas it is not nearly as surprising for queer women. therefore, lesbian heated rivalry would actually occur in a setting like ballet, gymnastics, or some other stereotypically feminine sport (that has toxic feminine standards) where queer women are not as visible. in this essay i will
i was raised in the ballet; specifically the boston ballet. dancers are usually "jumpers" or "turners", i was solidly a jumper and a "good corps dancer". while i had some skill, i am "curvy", which genuinely is frowned upon in ballet. but i was short and technically-accurate enough to just keep-being-casted. I think I've been pretty much every character in the Nutcracker, minus the leads. I did sometimes land titled roles when dancing with smaller companies - including Sleeping Beauty, where i was the Evil Queen.
i got it over one of their permanent soloists. she was nice to me, even though she was a better dancer than i was (and a much better turner). i had shown up on audition day and taken the role from her. the choreographer had told her to her face: you have the dance skills, but she has the stage presence. that kind of conversation just happens in ballet. she cried about it later, i caught her coming out of the bathroom. i had apologized on his behalf. i said it's not fair. i asked her if she wanted to get dinner, my treat.
she was often knitting or listening to music, so we didn't talk a lot, but she had been nice. she just seemed introverted, and i am unfortunately an extrovert. i often tried to include her, but she would rarely participate. we were in one of those circles, discussing exes. i am always very careful in these conversations; and never out myself. i am often, after all, in a room of somewhat-naked women. i do not not want any of them to think i'm like that. i do not want the fuss. (it's happened to me before. it was ugly.)
we were putting on our pointe shoes, and I was laughing. "no i swear. we got into an argument about it. my ex was like - what do you mean you actually dance on your actual toes. i guess my ex thought it was like, a euphemism? mind you, i wasn't even the first dancer they dated." i flexed my foot, shimmied the shank a little lower, tested the box placement. it only hurts for the first year and a half, kind of. also every time you have to jump en pointe. after that, the worst pain is just the 100 dollars every time you need a new pair (which is often).
around us, the green room was a flurry of tutus and hair spray and people in very-thick slippers. most dancers are very friendly, actually. it takes a very specific kind of person to physically destroy yourself for hours on end; and then to do that in front of a live audience, half-naked. in sequins. with your leg over your head.
most of us have some kind of mental illness. i should tell you that. many of us have adhd. the thing about being a girlchild and being restless is that they have a solution for that: just slam you into endless dance classes. the constant body-awareness is incredibly soothing for me; but it's a lot for other people. we aren't kidding when we tell you we need to be aware of literally every tendon, angle, and muscle of our bodies. i have spent a lifetime focusing on lifting the sole of my foot. my pinky finger is a villain, and i am always trying to tame her back into shape.
her brown hair was perfectly back, her eyes perfectly rimmed, lipstick perfectly applied. she was knitting. the other girls chatting about how boys don't get it and how kristen's boytoy hadn't come to a single show and she was breaking up with him because of it. the conversation turned, we were just ragging on our terrible exes. somebody's ex once totaled her car. someone else's tried to use honest-to-god monopoly money at a starbucks.
and i fucked up, because we were laughing, and i was distracted by getting ready. and i said "yeah, she -" and then i snapped my mouth shut. thank god someone else was already talking. i felt myself blush. my body went cold. i thought to myself - there was crosstalk. everyone was speaking at once. maybe nobody heard. nobody even seemed to look at me twice. everyone was talking about their stupid exes. i smiled and nodded and gave it a few minutes. i was frozen, laughing mechanically. and then i made some excuse and half-ran into the hall, my stupid toeshoes clacking.
i felt like i was dying. fuck. fuck. i slammed my toes into rosin and pretended to warm up in some cramped corner between costumes. i pressed my forehead flush with the cold cinderblocks of the hallway, trying to force my breathing into check. i had to be onstage in a few hours. they're going to hate me now, and put me into some fucking side-room bullshit to get changed. they'll think i was being predatory that whole time. it's all ruined. fuck.
a little cold hand landed on my bare back. she was standing there, tilting her head at me. she has the "ideal dancer body" - tall, thin, long-legged. over that dinner, she'd said balanchine was a pedophile and it's weird they expect us to look like this. and i'd said ballet is a bastion of white supremacy. she'd said: you are the better dancer, by the way. they only like my shape.
she hugged her elbows, little goosebumps on her blued skin. "hey." she wouldn't make eye contact with me.
i felt like crying, which was stupid - despite having shellacked myself into waterproof makeup, i didn't want to risk tearstains.
her mouth twisted. "it's almost time for you to get into costume." her words sat between us awkwardly. we both knew i would be alerted by the costume crew when they were ready for me. she frowned, then, her jaw working like she was trying to say something. instead, she just shook her head a little.
"okay," i said. my voice was weird and scratchy. "thanks."
"did you - i heard you." she put one hand above mine on the wall, one long leg out in a common shape for dancers: a cross of fourth position and attitude; digging her foot down into her shoe, wiggling. she cleared her throat. "i heard you say she."
i dropped my hand. i pretended to stretch. "okay." i said. my brain was blank with fear. fuck. it's ruined. "yeah."
"you've dated... women?" she flexed her feet. pointed. started doing gentle hip swings, her body no more than an arm length from mine.
i looked anywhere else. the other people in the hallway, running around before the show. the racks of clothes. the wires. behind us, the greenroom was muffled and raucous with dancers laughing. i was going to be banned from that space now.
i crossed my arms over my chest. the duct tape creaked. (in a few months, i would genuinely crack a few ribs binding like that. but for then i just took the half-air). "yeah," i said. i puffed it out. "i'm. yeah."
"gay?" she was looking at her feet as she made tiny rond de jambs, working her ankles.
"gay," i creaked.
she paused then, and stepped closer to me. i was suddenly aware she had a solid six inches on me, all of which she carried with perfect grace and accuracy. "you go to contemporary on thursdays, right?"
a ballerina is supposed to enjoy ballet more than anything. i was actually secretly falling completely in love with contemporary dance, because it forgave me for having any mass on my body. "yeah?" i looked up into her dark eyes, trying to figure out where this was going.
she handed me her phone. "text me next time. we'll carpool."
stupid and stunned, i punched my number in, first name raquel last name ballet.
she took the phone back, looked at the screen, and smiled a little. she thumbed a few keys and held it back up: first name raquel, last name ballet: and then a rainbow emoji, girls kissing, and little pink hearts. "gotcha. see you then."
and then she turned and walked away in that particular "walking in pointe shoes" way dancers have, a little rolling lope. she made it look graceful, purposeful. i had no idea how to respond. i just stared at the after her, wordless, boggled.
my phone was in my dance bag, i didn't see the notification until many hours later. chugging water and sweating out of every pore. from an unknown number: the next role is mine, by the way. and then i'll take YOU out for dinner.
1st House: The Helm This is where your spiritual energy and identity take the spotlight. The 1st House governs your appearance, personality, and vitality—the essence of how you project yourself to the world. It’s your steez, your approach to life, and the first impression you make on others. The 1st House is all about beginnings, the mask you may unknowingly wear, and how you come to know yourself on a deep authentic level. The captain of this ship is the ruling planet of the zodiac sign residing there.
2nd House: Gate of Hades Your values, self-esteem, and ability to attract wealth are all tied to the 2nd House. This is where your personal resources, possessions, and financial matters come into play. The foods you eat, your saving and spending habits, and your sense of self-worth are all part of this house. It’s where your style and material wealth are rooted, reflecting how you value yourself and what you own. This house represents how you sustain for yourself, how you support all that the first house needs of you to be who you are.
3rd House: Goddess The 3rd House is the domain of communication, early education, and the mind. It governs how you gather and process information, your intellect, and your interactions within your community. This house also encompasses your relationships with siblings, short travels, and technical skills. It’s the space where your to-do list and daily mental activities take shape.
4th House: Subterranean Deeply connected to your roots, the 4th House represents your home, heritage, and ancestry. It’s where your inner life and sense of security are nurtured, influenced by your upbringing and relationship with your parents—especially the mother. This house also relates to land, generational gifts, and knowledge passed down through the family. It’s a space of femininity and the feminine energies in your life. This is the lowest point of the birth chart and can be fairly private and personal-as opposed to the 10th house. It holds up the rest of the chart and is incredibly important in terms of learning about our sense of security/stability emotionally, spiritually, and physically.
5th House: Good Fortune Joy, creativity, and self-expression flourish in the 5th House. This is where you experience the pleasures of life—love affairs, children, art, and entertainment. It’s the house of flirtation, play, and drama, where your passions come to life. The 5th House also governs leisure activities, fertility, and the pursuit of happiness through creative endeavors. A sense of nostalgia lives here too.
6th House: Bad Fortune The 6th House deals with work, health, and daily routines. It’s the space of labor, servitude, and the duties that never seem to end. This house also governs how you care for your body, deal with illness and injury, and interact with employees or pets. It’s where the unexpected challenges in life arise, requiring your attention and resilience. Look here for understanding on what great works you may find yourself committing to.
7th House: Setting Place Relationships take center stage in the 7th House. This is where you finally begin to truly engage with others, forming long-term commitments, whether in marriage, partnerships, or friendships. It’s the house of open enemies, where you face the other in life. The 7th House also governs relaxation, romance, and the deep bonds that define your connections with others.
8th House: The Idle Place Death, transformation, and shared resources are key themes in the 8th House. It’s where you confront karma, contracts, and generational lessons. This house also deals with loans, debts, and the deep psyche—the mysteries and fears that lie beneath the surface. The 8th House is a place of soul material, where you explore the unseen and the unknown. Here, you face all consequences-positive & negative- of the 7th house and the relationships, contracts, and potential enemies made there. This is the house of others esteem of you, opposite of the 2nd.
9th House: House of God The 9th House is your portal to higher knowledge, philosophy, and spiritual exploration. It governs your worldview, ethics, and the pursuit of truth through study, travel, and discovery. This house is where you connect with religion, spirituality, and the higher mind, expanding your understanding of the world and your place in it.
10th House: House of Praxis Your public life, reputation, and career are shaped by the 10th House. It’s where you strive for honor, recognition, and achievements that define your legacy. This house also relates to your relationships with authority figures, particularly the father, and how you navigate the public sphere. The 10th House is where your goals, fame, and business acumen are realized. Sitting at the very top of the chart, like the sun at noon high in the sky, all can see you here.
11th House: Good Spirits In the 11th House, your hopes, dreams, and social networks come to life. This house governs your friendships, group affiliations, and the communities you belong to. It’s where you connect with humanity, receive sudden blessings, and find support in your aspirations. The 11th House is also associated with gifts, riches, and the imagination needed to dream big.
12th House: Bad Spirits The 12th House is a place of retreat, isolation, and self-undoing. It’s where you confront your inner shadows, secrets, and hidden enemies. This house governs institutions, mental health, and the need for solitude or seclusion. It’s also a space of psychological development, where you deal with endings, sickness, and the unseen forces that shape your life journey. This house is in a blind spot to the first house of Self and that is why we can be blind to the very things that reside here. Its not so much that these things seek out to destroy you but any area of your life your are deeply unaware of can come back and disorientate you from who you believe yourself to be.
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Pay attention to the house that Venus is the ruler of. Your physical appearance reflects the condition of the house Venus rules, so if you want to have a glow up, take care of the matters related to that house.
Also, in synastry, the people whose personal planets sit in the house(s) that your Venus rules have the most influence on your appearance. Notice how your appearance change (whether glow up or glow down) when you're in a close connection or close proximity to those people, it can tell a lot about their energy and their influence on your life.
Venus rules the 1st house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you take care of your body, your health
When you're being confidence and sure of yourself
When you're your own boss, the master of your own life
When you know and pursue your aim and goal
When you're not afraid to express yourself
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you neglect your appearance, your health
When you don't know yourself, lack of self-awareness
When you try to hide yourself
When you feel like you can't control your own life
When you feel aimless
Venus rules the 2nd house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you feel valued, when you value yourself, when you know your self-worth and uniqueness
When you have financial stability, when you can provide for yourself
When you feel safe and protected
When you can enjoy comfort and pleasure
When you utilise your talents
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you don't understand your values
When you feel financial lack, or feel indebted to someone else, lack of financial independence
When you overspend, when others take advantage of your resources
When your safety and autonomy are threatened
When you let your talents slumber
When you feel physical discomfort
Venus rules the 3rd house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you feel mentally stimulated, when you feel free to express your ideas, when you can have exciting mental exchanges
When you're actively learning, studying
When your neighbourhood is safe
When you can travel easily, freely
When your friendship, your relationship with your siblings, your neighbour is untroubled
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When your movement is restricted, when you feel caged in
When you feel bored or over stimulated, anxiety and restlessness
When you let your mind stagnant, when you struggle with study
When your relationships with your friends, siblings, neighbour go awry
Venus rules the 4th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you have a safe home to return to
When your relationship with your mother and the female side of the family is good
When you have your privacy
When your home is beautiful and comfortable
When you make peace with your past
When you listen to your instinct
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you neglect your home
When your relationship with your mother and other women goes awry
When your privacy is disturbed
When you hide from your past wounds
When you're stuck in the past
When you ignore your inner voice
Venus rules the 5th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you can have fun, when you can find joy in living
When you nurture your creative spirit
When you take time to enjoy your hobbies
When you are in love (not just strictly romantic love, having a subject to give your love to, even if it's not a person, can still be consider a romance)
When you're in tune with your inner child
When you enjoy being who you are
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you don't have time to play, to enjoy life
When your creative spirit is drained
When you don't nurture any hobbies
When you feel you're loveless
When you lose yourself in the stream of collective and don't know who you are
When you're too strict with yourself
Venus rules the 6th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you give priority to your health, diet, hygiene
When you have a stable routine to stabilise your life
When you have enough sleep
When you feel helpful and productive
When you polish your skills
When you take care of your pets, plants, or weaker beings
When your ego is in check
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you don't take care of your health, lacking proper sleep, harmful diet etc
When you neglect daily tasks, routines
When you're life is in disorder and lacks structure
When you feel bored and don't have meaning full duties to fulfil
When you lack humility and act selfishly
Venus rules the 7th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When your partnerships are harmonious, you connect with people who are right for you
When you have loving bonds with people close to you
When you engage in and find enjoyment in social interactions
When your effort and affection are reciprocated, equal energy exchange is very important
When you strive for fairness and equality
When you can make peace with your karma
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When your personal relationships and business partnerships are disharmonious and disruptive to your inner peace
When you connect with people who aren't right for you
When you're lonely
When there's one-sidedness in connections, imbalance in energy exchange
When you're being combative and making enemies
Venus rules the 8th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you're selective of whom you're intimate with
When you accept your shadow and demons
When you connect with your spirituality
When you have good sleep
When you allow others to support you
When you feel powerful with your wealth
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When the person you're intimate with affects you negatively
When you ran away from your shadow
When you keep everything at superficial surface level
When your sleep is troubled
When you refuse to let others in, when you refuse to share yourself
When you feel helpless
Venus rules the 9th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you feel inspired, when you can find meaning in what you do
When you uphold your principles and moral code
When you expand wisdom about life as you live
When you allow yourself to experiment with life
When you can travel freely, mentally and physically
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you close your mind and refuse to grow further and deeper
When you keep yourself prisoned by superficiality
When you feel uninspired and what you do is meaningless
When you go against your principles and moral code
When you feel restless and bounded
Venus rules the 10th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you have self-discipline
When you have a strong concept of self and are in command of your life
When you long term goals and ambition are progressing
When your career is flourishing
When you're well regarded by your community
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you keep yourself hidden
When you lack self-discipline
When you're lost and can't establish a sense of self
When you lack long term vision and ambition
When your career is stagnating or going downhill
When your reputation is blemished
Venus rules the 11th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you can find hope in life, when you have an ideal to follow
When you connect with the people around you, the people of the world, when you receive love from people, when you can love freely
When you're with good companies, when your friendships are in good health
When you realise the connection between you and the collective
When you embrace your quirks and differences but also accept them in other people
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you feel hopeless and directionless
When you can't connect with other people, when you can give love and receive love
When you're with bad companies
When you don't care for the collective, when you blindly follow the "rules"
When you deny your differences, when you refuse to accept people for who they are
Venus rules the 12th house:
🌹Venus is nurtured when:
When you keep your psychological health strong and stable
When you know your inner strengths and weaknesses
When you let your intuition guide you, when you connect with your spirituality
When you're compassionate and care for others
When you can have your solitary time to recalibrate, when you build a healthy boundary
🥀Venus is neglected when:
When you're aimless and lost in daydreams and fantasies
When you don't see yourself clearly, both your light and your darkness
When you're too focused on the tangible and refuse to connect with your spirituality
When you're lost in other people with no boundary, when you get overwhelmed psychologically
I’ve relinquished the need for control and I’ve never felt better. I’ve come to realize I own nothing besides what is rightly mine in divine ordinance. To anymore I simply acknowledge, appreciate and experience. I am truly free now that I’ve found this truth. I am only meant to be the caster and watch it play out but I don’t need to carry every story and character. What’s meant for me will simply be and already is.
Sokoto state, a majority Muslim state in north-west Nigeria was bombed on Christmas day.
It is still unclear how many bombs were dropped and where. Confirmed is a bomb dropped on a Mosque in Jabo, killing 5 people.
Trump has claimed that this is in retaliation of the "Christian genocide" happening in Nigeria, committed by "radical Islamists" of the ISIL (ISIS), and the specific choosing of Christmas day was to reify that this is a religious based retaliation.
This Christmas, I am in Nigeria. My family is majority Christian. We are without fear of being persecuted on the basis of our religion. So, what is going on?
There is no Christian genocide in Nigeria. Nigeria is a complex country that faces a lot of violence, exploitation and subsequent neglect from our government. But it is not Christians being targeted in our country. This insidious piece of misinformation has been dutifully organised by US officials for months and gained steam on platforms like X and Truth Social.
I do not believe though, that this action was done to fight Islamic terrorists or protect Nigerian Christians. The reason being:
Sokoto state is not a state with ISIL activity.
This is another display of US throwing its weight around, conveniently, onto the most oil-rich country in Africa.
Do not believe everything the US tells you about its foreign affairs. The US will gladly spill blood on the flimsiest of justifications just to continue gorging its empire.
Please keep love in your hearts for the Nigerian people.
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