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19// she/her // random posting

[shoujo-dreamland]

[sombern]

Got me blushing and covering my face. Something is wrong with me,

its deeply unsettling.

[sombern]

I need a boyfriend that I barely post, but his whole public page is practically a fan account of me.

[sombern]

I want a puppy boy ahhhh!!!! So cute!!! i want to tie him down and toy with him!!! I want to slap his stupid cute face, I want to see him struggle against the restraints. Need him to be a dumb drooling mess for me!!!! I want to fondle and squeeze his face and pet his head!!!

[sombern]

I get embarrassed and shy reading my own notes

[vampysangel]

can i suck the blood from your neck please? pretty please? with a cherry on top?

[sombern]

My fantasies are so twisted.

like why tf am I a bitch? Borderline bully... so deranged.

Like spill your blood for me, paint me red, let me torment you, love you than discard.

Touch yourself without my guide.

Let me see you shake and hear you cry, tell me you can't take it anymore, that you need me to milk you, Need my hands on your body instead of your own.

But also I want to be tied up against my will.

I want someone to wrap me up like a present, bind my hands and legs. The soft plush of their mattress under me and their body entraping mine.

I want to feel their longing, taking every whiff to catch and memorize my scent, to lick up the tears off my face just to know this isin't some sick perverted fantasy dream their having again, No, this time... this is actually happening And my salty tears have never tasted so sweet! They could eat me up.

Need someone to smother me with their love that it leaves me dumb.

Drowning me in endless praises and kisses!!!

For them to run their hands under my shirt...

Just take advantage of me.

I want to feel fear and helplessness, to know my life is in the palms of some lovesick lunatic who'd do anything for me as long as i don't fight back or run away.

But even if i did they'd forgive because their love and pooling obsessive possession over me will Never waiver!

[decreesofroyalty]

" you attract what you fear " oh no ! possessive creepy stalker boyfriend ! oh god no anything but that !

[falsetactic]

me after the author mischaracterizes me in a xreader fic

no hate tho

[sombern]

Right now I am tired, I will regret staying up late in a few hours....minuets..seconds.

I feel detached yet stuck inside this mind and body.

Of this life.

Time is daunting....I need rest.

When I wake up in 7 hours from now...I'll be the same as before.

I will awake hoping for more time to rest, leisure, for death.

An eternal slumber calls me like a sweet warm embrace.

[sombern]

I often times wish the universe would give me powers, well not necessarily power...but a way to absorb all the the pain and sufferings given to those helpless people. Yet I feel unfortunately helpless myself.

I want to consume it all, their grievance, their hurt...

But would they be human any longer? Its kinda messed up, to think that being human you need to break apart...and build yourself back up.

Life is absurd.

Does any of this make sense?

[sombern]

Hit my head hard that I bled and I'm STILL going to clock in tommorow 😭 I'm a bit embarrassed though to go back i felt over-dramatic.... Although atleast I don't have a concussion.

[sombern]

I see freaky posts and I note that I really ain't all dat freaky but some things sound good as hell.

Although i say that as if i don't fantasize about bondage and bloodplay, kidnapping ....stalking....

Praise is basically the tamest, I aint letting no man call me a whore or bitch.

[sombern]

"I want to go home" I tell myself as i lay in bed. What is home?

Care, love, cozy....safe.

Will the soils of the earth wrap around me like a blanket? would the worms and maggots, bugs as such cradle me? Am I just another seed for the planet? My full bloom only in death?

Sometimes Its like i can feel the clock ticking ever so slowly, i want to wither away. The world will give me a joyous life and than I'll be staring at the night sky ..its so vast. I want what's beyond this world. I want to not exist as flesh and blood any longer, I want to be a star so I can shine and scream as loud as I want and no would would hear; It's funny how it often seems that way now.

Perhaps to the universe we are the screaming exploding lights...as above as below....so we are.

[sombern]

This world It's so filthy...yet I still choose to live in it. Is this some sick deprivation my soul desires? To suffer yet feel "better" when given my daily bread and entertainment? I could drink more blood than water from what has been shed in this world.

[sombern]

A man's tears is another woman's stimulant

[sombern]

let me lower my head towards you so you can tie the back of my hair, carry me towards the bath to cleanse me of my bubbling shame.

I hate you, I admire you.

Love me sick.

I want that pure cuteness yet I push and pull, I'm confusing. But I just want someone to call me sweet things, be gentle with me, if i turn away in bed just reel me in tighter, closer to you, smother me in all your loving that I feel greedy. Crush me I want to feel you....close...closer...

How grossly-cute it is to hear and feel this pounding heart, with my hands, my ears ...I want to melt onto him with my own body atop his, feel his heart with my own...

Is it my heart or theirs thumping so rapidly in my chest?

Bite me, praise me, moan, cry, let me tug you by the collar, pull you by the tie like a leash...than bind my hands with it, take control of me and go steady than rough, needy, longing, panting and whine into my ears. Bite the top and lick it, whisper such sweet words, tell me how much you adore me, how much you dream of me, how you fantasize of this moment, how you'd lock me in so that no other being could take me from you, how you'd paint me with your blood and bite marks to claim me....just love me.

And perhaps I'll love you back.