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INTRO POST <33333
hiiiii!!! i’m star!!! she/they, 19
this blog is mainly a mcd/ fanart blog, and probly just other little things i’m going to draw !!!
i have a side blog @aliengirl-on-earth where i reblog all things aliengirl and such :333 (a big interest and hobby of mine but just doesn’t rlly fit on this blog🛸)
ANYWAYS!! my interest include:
Laurance Zvahl 🫶🫶
I miss him and I miss his voice
i too miss his voice 😭😭😭
laurance my beloved
"there's a ladybug on you, strange...I thought they only came out during the day".
I'm back! Here's a drawing based on a scene from ep 80 of MCD. One day I will draw someone other than Laurance....
"don't you dare run to where i can't protect you." YEAH OKAY WHATEVER !!!!!!! WHATEVER !!!!!!
oH. MYYYY GODDDDDDDD. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD
Ill admit ive never been that into laurence (any his variations really) but something has been really bothering me since rewatching parts of MCD.
What really caught my attention about MCD Laurence is that he starts out as this well adjusted, loyal knightly and charming guy- and then after he becomes a shadow knight you just see this slow decay of him. Like hes slowly losing parts of himself and its causing him to become more and more unstable to the point where by the end of season 2 hes honestly kind of terrfying.
And ALOT of that is reflected with how his relationship with aphmau starts to shift. He goes from this sweet, suave and honestly pretty silly personality, to being so obsessive and vindictive towards her.
Theres this one scene, at the end of ep 95 S2, where aphmau has just essentially seen a ghostly image of aaron and is really shaken up by it. Laurence comes to sit with her and ask her about it. And at first, it genuinely seems like hes just trying to get her to open up so he can support her. But then it quickly spirals into him demanding to know why she cares about aaron so much and why shes greiving so hard for him, like its a problem. He becomes so aggressive and condensending to the point where Garroth has to intervene and he walks off.
In this moment you see how far hes really fallen, he goes from semingly reasuring and gentle, and by the end of it hes disrepecting a dead man, who gave his life to save both his brother and supposed love of his life, who he travelled and fought along side with for months, who close to the end of his life was taking care of an orphan (something he comlimented in aphmau), and hes thowing all of that out the window because hes taken Aphmau's attention, due to the fact he fucking died.
After that happens, aphmau has a conversation woth vlyad where he basically tells her that laurence has to accept what he is and go to the nether or else hes gonna go insane, and that the only reason he came back is because hes "chasing a fantasy". Aphmau responds by suggesting they get cadenza over so that he can be with family, and vlyad says she can do what she wants but implies its pretty much inevitable that laurence is going to hit a breaking point. And hes completely right.
Before laurence even gets to speak to cadenza, he eavesdrops on the conversation where aphamu reveals shes pregnant, and just immediately peaces out, out of fear that hes going to MURDER HER.
Not to mention that in that conversation, cadenza herself tells aphmau not to tell laurence because shes scared of how he would react. He has gotten so unstable that his own sister, who loves him more than anything, can recognise that he is a danger to some degree and shes RIGHT.
All this paints a stark contrast, the laurence we first met vs the man he has now become. Its tragic because its this inevitable downfall brought on by an act that was completely selfless, him sacrificing himself that got him turned into a shadow knight in the first place.
Even this is eventually tainted, his selfless act becomes a selfish one as he seems to cling to aphmau's love and affection as an emotional crutch. Aphmau obviously loves and cares for him deeply, but not in an explicitly romantic/sexual way. And if she doesnt love him the way he wants, then why is he suffering through this? Why did he bother to sacrafice himself at all if theres no reward? Its honestly horrifying how pretty much everyone who loved and respected him, makes what should be incredibly out of place predictions on him, but they always end up being right except for aphmau. She cant accept that hes changing and theres nothing she or anyone else can do change that. Its gut wrenching.
This all lead me to beileve that i didnt give enough credit to his character. I love this. This is the type off tragic story telling im here for. Theres so much more to this character than i ever expected.
Heres the thing.
Why the fuck do laurence's biggest fans seem to just completely disregard this? If you believed a good portion of the fandom, laurence is just this sauve uwu sad boy who was unfairly rejected and ignored by a woman who demamded the world from him.
Im dead serious, i saw people saying that laurence "deserved better than aphmau", that he deserved someone who recognised the sacrafice he made. Which like- there is so much to unpack there.
First of all, aphmau did recognise his sacrafice, she did love him and try to support him in the best way she could, even when literally everyone around her was saying it was a lost cause. She did everything she could for that man and forgave so much of what he did while struggling with the calling and she got nothing but shit for it.
Second of all, no the fuck he doesnt?? As illustrated in the examples above he did not respect Aphmau's boundaries. He did not respect her feelings. And by the end, he didnt even respect her bodily autonomy. Lets be honest here, he basically abandoned everyone he apprantly "loved", because bro tapped it before he could. She loved him so much, but because he wanted something she wasnt willing or able to provide, that being explicitly romantic and sexual attention, he just didnt see it. To try and argue that hes the real victim here, is in the same vain of "nice guys finish last". Him being kind, compassionate and selfless- shouldnt be reliant on whether or not this woman will fuck him or not. That is an insanely misogynistic way of thinking.
But most important to me in the context of this analysis- what is there to like about laurence with this interpretation? What possibly sets him apart from the gazillion other brunette pretty anime bois? Am i to gay for this? Is there something im not seeing?
I understand fanon can wildly divert from canon, and i understand that alot of this is probably down to the fact that i find dissecting and critiquing canon more intresting than reinventing it through fanon. Im locked into the Baldurs gate 3 fandom and i had the same experience there (laurence fangirls got NOTHING on Astarion girlies). But both experiences have left me with the same question- what draws you to a character, when all you do is boil them down to their most generic aspects?
I find Laurence intresting cause we are seeing this man crash out and become a monster in real time. And i dont see how he is worth even an honourable mention, when you take that away.
What is there left to be compelled to?
hello! i write about this sometimes, but the general take on this disintegration of Laurance by Laurance fans is just sadness. his character was asssasssinatedddddd. we are so sad he isn’t the person he used to be. it is a good story, but i really feel i could appreciate it a lot more if i felt it was GOOD character writing (peace and love but not what aphmay is best at) instead of a way to make the best love interest not an option. It is a arguably sad and good story to watch him fall from being such a good knight and character to the disgraceful things he does at the end of s2
needed to put these somewhere nobody knows who I ammmmmm lol
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LAURANCE ZVAHL I LOVE YOU MCD COULDNT HAVE BEEN EHAT IT WAS WITHOUT YOU APHMAU PLEASE I AM BEGGING LET SEBASTIAN VA AGAIN PLEASE EPLEASERE PLEASE
uh guys umm uh
Aphmau MCD designs?? let's go??
omgggg !!!! luvvvvvv!!!!!!!
Oh the girls are fighting…🙁🙁
This was supposed to be a warm up but I got really carried away and got locked into rendering and color practice 😭😭😭
oh my god ??!???
Easily the best part of early MCD is Aph’s voice acting. Why is Zenix voiced as if he’s at the bare minimum fifty years of age???
me and my sibling do the voice as a bit ALLL THE TIME
“… zeeeenixxxxx, we must-“ insert crazy random thing we’re doing/ smth fucking wild
HE IS SUCH A DIXK
My heart actually just shattered what the fuck
this part is always so hard. i truly believe this isn’t our laurance, this is his shadow knight anger and jealousy- his worst traits completely taking over
Adding to this.
Looking at this situation from Laurance's POV, it kind of makes sense.
They had just lost Garroth in the beginning of season 2. Laurance saw how Aphmau handled that. Sure, Garroth wasn't dead, but there was a high likelihood that he would be since he was trapped with Zane in a dimension they had no idea how to access again.
Laurance knows that Aphmau knew Garroth the longest. They were close. He was the head guard and always by Aphmau's side. He knew how Garroth felt about Aphmua and vice versa.
So, seeing the difference in her distress towards Garroth, someone she has known for so long and is so close to, compared to a man that they all barely know is confusing to him.
Because think about it. No one besides Aphmau knows about her hooking up with Aaron until the baby reveal. Laurance probably thinks he was just some antisocial revenge seeker only staying out of convience.
You also have to remember that Aaron threatened to kill Aphmau!!! And for Laurance, whose job it is to protect her, that automatically makes Aaron an enemy in his eyes. That's something that's hard to get over.
THEN, add the shadow knight stuff on top. The calling is getting worse, making him impulsive and quick to anger. His mind is a mess or confusion, his instincts constantly clashing with each other.
So yeah, I understand why he would be confused as to why she was so upset.
so real. agree w everything u say here
I’ve seen people irl who are struggling with a lot mentally be in a state like this- when you’re just feeling all your emotions and you are saying things to hurt people, burning bridges like crazy because they just don’t care anymore
literally in the next scene he tells Garroth that he is the reason Aaron is gone. He’s lashing out and consumed with anger, fueled by the fact that he doesn’t understand the nature of Aaron and Aphmaus relationship and of course he has his worst fears, which ARE true granted, but he’s also obviously spiraling: going missing for large chunks of time, and probably just sitting in his anger and rage and convincing himself of a lot of things that ARENT true 
He stated before that during his transformation Aphmau was his tether to his humanity, and so now that he’s ‘losing’ her, he’s acting in ways that are much more shadowknight-like, and for the sake of canon that is evil
HE IS SUCH A DIXK
My heart actually just shattered what the fuck
this part is always so hard. i truly believe this isn’t our laurance, this is his shadow knight anger and jealousy- his worst traits completely taking over
“Don’t You Dare Run to Where I Can’t Protect You”
Season2 Episode14 at 5 minutes and 41 seconds.
Every time Laurance hugs Aphmau an angel gains their wings I’m soooo serious. He’s so concerned for her 💔 literally terrified of losing her too. When they’re dealing with Kenmur’s breakdown at seeing his formerly dead fiancée, Laurance by default imagines Aphmau as his fiancée and it makes him 100% empathize with Kenmur’s reaction. 😭😭😭 No matter what, when it comes to matters of the heart, she’s the one he thinks of. AND SHE’S SO RECKLESS AND AND AND SHE GIVES FARRRRR TOO MUCH OF HERSELF TO THOSE AROUND HER AND HE JUST WANTS HER TO BE SAFE AND OKAY AND HAPPY AND- 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
They make me so insane I can’t I simply cannot I have to lay down. This is. They’re just. …I refuse to accept a world where they don’t live happily ever after, okay?! They deserve itttttt 💔💔💔☹️☹️☹️❤️🩹❤️🩹
you are so so real 4 this in my mind they are happily every after
THEY ARE REAL TO ME
ik everyone gets mad abt kawaiichan not having hair that matches her ears but i hc that she does actually have dark hair but dyes it as apart of her being-different-frm-siblings thing
i think her dark roots don’t grow in often bc it reminds her of her past but sometimes she gets busy and they show a bit
