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[toneelspeelster]

ilya wanted to touch him and know that he was really, really okay. he had barely slept last night. he'd spent the whole night sick with worry and refreshing sports sites looking for news of shane's injuries. he couldn't close his eyes without seeing shane's unmoving body on the ice. it must have shown in ilya's eyes, because shane extended his good hand and said, in a soft voice, 'hey'.

[grabmybush]

something something shane nagging ilya about eating healthy and quitting smoking and ilya just needs a fucking nicotine hit and (softly) snaps ‘why do you care so much? i’ll just do it outside and shower after’ and shane looks him dead in the eye and says ‘im not letting you chip years off your life when we’ve already wasted 9’ and ilyas just like yeah oh fuck he wants me for as long as he can get me and quits smoking and starts doing yoga even when it feels like his legs are going to fall out from under him because he doesn’t want his last thoughts to be regret for time lost

[whatthebodygraspsnot]

[toneelspeelster]

you called me shane.

[toneelspeelster]

page 163, heated rivalry.

[toneelspeelster]

shane smiled and took one hand off the steering wheel. he reached over and ilya quickly tangled their fingers together and squeezed. two weeks. for two weeks they could pretend that their situation wasn't impossible.

[littlegirlinvisible]

ILYA ROZANOV WEEK: DAY FOUR FAVORITE TRAIT   ↪ HIS EMPATHY AND KINDESS 🥺💕

“When our childhood homes are chaotic and dangerous, we learn that the way to stay safe is to always be on alert — hypervigilant. Our nervous system never calms down because it’s constantly on the lookout for the next bomb that is going to explode [...] As the show goes on, we will learn that underneath Ilya’s extremely hard shell is the heart of a squishy teddy bear wrapped in a warm blanket, but it takes YEARS for Shane to see it. When we look at Ilya through the lens of what he learned as he grew up, it makes sense why he behaves the way he does. We can even have empathy for the level of hypervigilance and fear he lives with. I like to lay things out this way because it’s usually a hell of a lot harder to give ourselves that same grace. We have an idea of who we “should” be in our heads, and when we don’t live up to that we assume it’s because we’re a failure, a useless waste of space. None of that is true: we are behaving in ways that make complete sense when we understand how our nervous system was trained to respond to our environment.” — Reading Ilya Rozanov through the lens of trauma.

[pookieshane]

Endless gifs of Ilya Rozanov 18/∞

[gloryhollanovjah]

@bugslibraryy HELLO??

[ilyapricot]

Forever thinking about “Boston is nice too?” and wanting to throw up about it. Just sitting on the floor of a gym across from the stranger who would be the Shane of his existence like.

I am so far away from home. I am so afraid but I cannot show it. I’m going to be all on my own out there and people are not kind to me. I’ve always been alone, but never this kind of alone before. I don’t really know you, but you seemed kind. And earnest. You would not lie to me. Is it safe? Will I be happy there and safe? Boston is nice too?

Ougghhhhgg. My brave little bug I’mgping to be sick

[hollanoveau]

no but seriously like

yuna was born and raised in montreal. david went to college there. they definitely took shane to metros games at the bell center growing up. he KNOWS montreal, at least a little bit. but ilya? he doesn’t know shit about boston. never been there in his fucking life. he speaks english, sure, but speaking a language and knowing literally anything else about a city, about a country, are such vastly different things.

and here’s this boy, who came to find him and introduce himself to ilya when he had absolutely no obligation to. and he tells him yeah, boston’s great too, and he believes him, because he’ll believe in anything if shane hollander says it.

[heatedrivalryz]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILYA ROZANOV! JUNE 15th, 1991 (insp)

[toneelspeelster]

marina tsvetaeva 

[firstprinced]

pretty boy in loveee

[toneelspeelster]

shane's hands cradled ilya's face as he kissed him with the force of everything they had almost said out loud.

[rozrozhollander]

HOLLANOV + TROPES

[toneelspeelster]

there was no reason for the butterflies in ilya’s stomach.

[cecoeur]

cuteness aggression is at an 11

[samwwise]

Good morning. Good morning.