Anything’s Possible If You’ve Got Enough Nerve

Suffering on this hellsite since ‘11

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actually Benedict's proposal at the ball was perfect because if he'd done the traditional kneeling, Sophie would have gotten engaged with her head down and eyes pointed to the floor, symbolically in the same position she's been in her whole life. instead he offers the ring up to her, positioning them both as equals, neither one having to bend or reach for the other ever again. they only have to look directly at each other <3

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I think what stood out to me so much in bridgerton s4 is how in most bodice rippers and adjacent stories there’s a dynamic between the male and female leads where the man is ravishing the woman. He’s compromising her, having his way with her, ruining her, etc. and though the women are willing participants, there’s still a whisper of male dominance.

At no point with Benedict and Sophie does it feel like he’s doing anything to her; he’s doing it for her. And likewise, she’s doing for him. Despite them having the largest social power imbalance of all the bridgerton couples, their romantic relationship feels so equitable and I just love that so much

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wait oh no it just occurred to me that now that benedict's season is over there will be far less of him in subsequent bridgerton seasons oh nooooo

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benophie has me going places I never thought I'd go again (ao3)

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Alright! Sorry for being so absent today! I was building a tool so you can all check your own names on demand.

I am asking that you not talk about it on Hugging Face. I'm sure word will get there eventually, but I'd like to avoid them accessing this as much as possible. Feel absolutely free to spread around Tumblr.

AO3 search tool is here! Use page 1 to search scraped fics by username. Use page 2 to search by work ID (which you'll need to do if you're looking for an anonymous work).

Or you can use this version, which is strongly recommended if you've published more than about 20 fics on the username you're searching.

If you're unsure which to use:

The first link is better if your entire username is a common word. For example, if you're username is just "bread" then you probably can't search yourself in the second link. The first version is way slower, so I recommend trying the second link first and using the first link as a backup option if the second fails.

The first link contains a page to search by work ID. This is good if you have an anonymous or orphaned fic, since that's not going to appear by searching your username.

The second link is better if you have a LOT of fics. It will give you a count of fics so you don't have to add them up. It will show the top 2,000 work results found.

If you have more than 2,000 published works, first off, I am jealous of your motivation. But second, that won't display right on the public version of the tools. You can send an ask or DM to have me do a custom search for you if you have more than 2,000 total works under 1 username.

You can also ask or DM if your entire username is a common word, because you're likely to get drowned out of the search results in that case. Try the tool first, but if it returns a lot of author results for your search, and YOUR name isn't in the results, ask me! There's a decent chance you're in there, but one of the tool's weak points is searching extremely common words.

In case this post breaches containment: this is a tool that only has access to the work IDs, titles, author names, chapter counts, and hit counts of the scraped fics for this most recent scrape discovered in April 2025. There is no other work data in this tool. This never had the content of your works loaded to it, only info to help you check if your works were scraped. If you need additional metadata, I can search my offline copy for you if you share a work ID number and tell me what data you're looking for. I will never search the full work text for anyone, but I can check things like word counts and tags.

Please come yell if the tool stops working, and I'll fix as fast as I can. Version 1 is slow as hell, but it does load eventually. Give it up to 10 minutes, and if it seems down after that, please alert me via ask! Anons are on if you're shy. Version 2 typically loads results within 1 minute and handles most users well.

On mobile, enable screen rotation and turn your phone sideways. It's a litttttle easier to use like that. It works better if you can use desktop.

Some FAQs below the cut:

"What do I need to do now?": At this time, the main place where this dataset was shared is disabled. As far as I'm aware, you don't need to do anything, but I'll update if I hear otherwise. If you're worried about getting scraped again, locking your fics to users only is NOT a guarantee, but it's a little extra protection. There are methods that can protect you more, but those will come at a cost of hiding your works from more potential readers as well.

"I don't want to know!": This tool is 100% optional. If you don't want to know, simply don't click the link. You are totally welcome to block me if it makes you feel more comfortable.

"Can I see the exact content they scraped?": Nope, not through me. I don't have the time to vet every single person to make sure they are who they say they are, and I don't want to risk giving a scraped copy of your fic to anyone else. If you really want to see this, you can find the info out there still and look it up yourself, but I can't be the one to do it for you.

"Are locked fics safe?": Not safe, but so far, it appears that locked fics were scraped less often than public fics. The only fics I haven't seen scraped as of right now are fics in unrevealed collections, which even logged-in users can't view without permission from the owner.

"My work wasn't a fic. It was an image/video/podfic.": You're safe! All the scrape got was stuff like the tags you used and your title and author name. The work content itself is a blank gap.

"It's slow.": Unfortunately, a 13 million row data dashboard is always going to be on the slow side. I think I've done everything I can to speed it up, but it may still take up to 10 minutes to load. It's faster if you can use desktop, but it should work on your phone too.

"My fic isn't there.": If it was published after March 15th, 2025, that was likely after all of the scraping took place. Otherwise, from what I can tell so far, the scraper's code just... wasn't very good, so most likely, your fic was missed by random chance. I am continuing to look for methods to reduce the chances of a work getting scraped anyway, and I will share on this blog if/when I find something that works.

Thanks to everyone who helped with the cost to host the tool! I appreciate you so so so much. As of this edit, I've received more donations than what I paid to make this tool so you do NOT need to keep sending money. (But I super appreciate everyone who did help fund this! I just wanna make sure we all know it's all paid for now.)

(Made some quick edits to the post on 04-May-2025 to update information a bit!)

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Bobby Nash almost dying in a fire, on drugs, passed out, a neglectful husband, inadvertently responsible for the deaths of a hundred and forty-eight people including his family.

Bobby Nash actually dying on firefighter duty, sober and aware, desperate not to leave his wife, directly responsible for saving the lives of everyone in that building, including his chosen family.

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snow not buying that katniss had feelings for peeta makes even more sense now. he probably clocked she was part covey and immediately deemed her Incapable Of Love

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haymitch and katniss. who ended up in the games because they couldn't keep from protecting a loved one. whose younger sibling means so much to them and who they are powerless to save. who's just a poor kid from the seam, suddenly being thrown into the center of a rebellion plot. who are so similar.

but also

katniss, who at sixteen can't envision a life that involves love and children. haymitch, who at sixteen can't envision a life without his love.

katniss, who keeps her distance from other people but learns to build connections during her game. haymitch, who's well-known and liked, but is forced to keep everyone at a distance after his game.

katniss, who stops peeta from eating the poison. haymitch, who mistakenly puts the poison right into lenore dove's mouth.

katniss, who never has to mentor a single child. haymitch, who mentors 46 to the grave.

katniss, who blows up the arena. haymitch, who tried so hard.

katniss, the girl on fire. haymitch, the kid who lit a spark.

katniss, who someday finds herself able to have a family and love and all those things she never imagined. haymitch, who raises geese and knows he will never have those things he imagined so clearly.

katniss, who is just like haymitch, just luckier.

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haymitch telling maysilee the only way to get rid of an earworm is to pass it to someone else. lucy gray sharing her songs with district 12. the people of the district remembering them and passing them on to their children. katniss singing them on live tv and passing them on to the whole world. panem banding together through the songs snow could never get out of his head.

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it's nice to know coriolanus snow never got a true moment's peace after his last day with lucy gray. he spent the rest of his life sick from his own poison, terrified of an uprising without a single person he could trust, hearing ghosts every time a tribute from twelve sang a song, haunted by the narrative he created

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do you guys think haymitch always wondered if burdock's mine accident happened because the capitol figured out they used to be besties

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iconic things suzanne collins did in sunrise on the reaping:

had haymitch declare himself an lgbt+ ally

confirmed snow is still habitually crashing out over lucy gray 40 years later

made me cry over the regina george of district 12

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wait but imagine how personally haymitch must have taken the 75th hunger games. first time in 24 years he let himself care about anyone only for them to be immediately sent back to the slaughter just like everyone else he’s ever loved

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maysilee donner invented supporting women’s rights and wrongs btw

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snow must have been sooooo embarrassed in catching fire when literally the same people blew up his arena!! for the second time!!

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if I was a teenage girl in district 12 during the 50th hunger games… lets just say… Lenore Dove would’ve had some competition…