like drinking battery acid

don't worry about it

[sour-syrup]

There was a shooting at an event near where we live tonight (two men got into a fight and the violence escalated and bystanders were injured) so the roommates are talking about buying multiple guns to keep at home and on their person. Putting aside that we are now adding yet more deadly weapons into the equation... yes, I'm sure that keeping firearms in the residence you share with someone who has in the past and present struggled with suicidal ideation is a reasonable move when faced with the highly specific and unlikely situation that you're now slowly working yourself into a lather about.

[sour-syrup]

My fuckass roommate didn't leave me with enough bleach powder to do my whole head correctly. Now I have patches to try and fix tomorrow after I just spent the money to get my hair cut.

[slumbernot]

[sour-syrup]

How do I kindly explain to my family that I am so financially fucked that owning a house is a retirement goal at best so please stop showing me houses that I not only have no interest in but cannot in any way afford?

[parkchanwoohoo]

This kid is so fucking good holy shit. I love how into it the audience is, too

[tvguts]

home movies is one of my absolute favorite cartoons-- it's one of those things i can watch over and over and still enjoy. a million years ago i drew the film crew as 20-somethings, and now that i'm 30 i figured i should draw them as 30-somethings! 📺✨️

melissa moved to the big city and has a job "in the industry" making commercials. brendon works as a manager for a hipstery coffee shop / video rental store and writes scripts on and off for fun. jason is a relentlessly quirky weirdo who makes money off a bunch of weird side hustles-- right now he's breeding lizards in his garage, among other things. they get together for movie nights now and then, though it's hard for them to agree on what to watch.

[creature-wizard]

Folks have got to understand that they probably aren't messed up by some Secret Big Trauma that they just can't remember; but rather by a million tiny microtraumas that they do mostly remember but don't even register as traumatic because nobody actually understood that these things would cause trauma, much less stack on each other over the years.

[xpxssxm]

Whether you're carrying one big rock or a big ol' bucket of sand, it's going to weigh on you just as much.

[ramshacklefey]

This is why psychologists have started taking more of an interest in CPTSD in the last 10-15 years. What most people know as PTSD is a response to a single, intensely traumatic event (or even a series of events). However, CPTSD (chronic post-traumatic stress disorder) is caused by living for years in a situation where your nervous system cannot catch a break. Even if nothing huge ever happened to you, you always had to be on guard for a thousand little things that could and did happen.

After years and years of this, your nervous system gets "stuck" in an activated threat response. It never really lets you rest, and if this started when you were a kid, you may not develop a lot of neural pathways that you should have, because your brain was too focused on keeping you safe to bother with little things like "genuine human connection" and "interpersonal attachment."

[naamahdarling]

No lie, Complex PTSD/CPTSD is HUGE.

If you are disabled, if you are queer, if you are chronically ill, if you are the survivor of a toxic but not abusive relationship, if you grew up or lived under the threat of harm but no "actual" harm (or "very little" harm) was done, you may have CPTSD that isn't getting caught because CPTSD looks different from PTSD.

[thenookienostradamus]

At the risk of falling into a trivialization trap, a lot of things you may not perceive as traumatic actually are. I was embarrassed for a long time in both group and individual therapy to say anything in my childhood was traumatic, because I was sitting with people who had suffered horrible physical or sexual abuse. But here are some things that are, in fact, traumatic and - when they occur over a long period - can set you on a course of maladaptive coping for decades if not addressed:

Being told or shown that your emotions are not valid, that you have no safe place to express them

Parents or caregivers oversharing graphic trauma from their past with you

Threats of physical violence, even if not carried out

Being told or shown that affection or approval is contingent on competency or academic success

Prejudice from inside OR outside the family (homophobia, racism, body shame)

Mocking or dismissal of things that are meaningful to you

If you constantly feel unworthy, afraid, ashamed, or even flat and emotionless, it's worth exploring why. And, because you've been so consistently undermined and minimized, you may feel like a fraud for being upset or functioning poorly. You're not a fraud; it's years of conditioning telling you "I should be able to handle this" or "lots of people are worse off than I am so I shouldn't complain." Your conditioned brain is lying to you; you won't be able to open yourself to the joy of trusting relationships with others OR do meaningful things to help those who are worse off until you do the work to melt the block of ice surrounding you. All my love to you, friends.

[lunahorizon]

Pete Walker is a therapist that's been on the cutting edge of this for many years, and he has a website here with plenty of free resources. (Just straight PDFs of parts of his books!)

Also, his books are not that expensive, well-written, and truly helped me process a lot of my trauma. I did a ton of it alone because I couldn't find a therapist for years, and those books (complex ptsd: from surviving to thriving & the tao of fully feeling) really changed the trajectory of my life.

He talks about grieving, about changing our internal dialogue to one that's positive instead of negative, talks about SEVERAL trauma typologies, and more.

As someone who has been diagnosed with the big trauma PTSD but most of their problems were coming from the little stuff that was CONSTANT and made me run on 2000% all day every day, this guy is a lifesaver. I'm so different from how I was before, especially with the help of some in-person therapy. Finding the right person makes all the difference, truly.

You can pick up his books on the website, but if you're looking for resources on this and you have the space and support to be able to do some of your own work (please don't do it completely alone unless you must) check out the sidebar over at pete-walker.com. He made this incredible resource that not everyone knows about and I try to share it where this comes up.

Thank you for informing people about this.

[creature-wizard]

Reblogging for the additional info and resources, and to emphasize that the C does indeed stand for "complex," not "chronic." (Understandable that people would get mixed up, though.)

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[baddywronglegs]

The people who insist AI is smarter than a human are doing their fucking damnedest to manifest that

[shrewreadings]

Не верите. Доверите.

Do not trust: verify.

[sour-syrup]

You know what happens when you inject formaldehyde directly into a living human brain?

Using ChatGPT is like that, but slower.

[dragonomatopoeia]

i feel like i'm losing my mind why has the AI debate pivoted away from material/labor concerns back to debates about Real vs Fake Art. cannot express just how little i care about relitigating Art and high art and low art and skilled vs unskilled art. what i care about is the treatment and compensation of workers, the power corporations are exerting over intellectual property and creators, the continued extraction of resources, and the omnipresent glut of spam and disinformation with few or no regulations/resources that filter out the SEO AI generated nonsense

[victusinveritas]

Redwall concept art. https://www.artstation.com/artwork/mDeged

[sour-syrup]

Momentarily had my jeans down to fix the plastic wrap over my tattoo, and also show my coworker what it looked like, and despite the fact that I was wearing the exact same compression shorts that I wear under my skirts at work, the store manager walked up and gave me a look like I was an unknown substance on the plane seat she has to sit in.

Like, I already know you don't like me, so if you want to say shit, just say it. We can be adults and just say things instead of playing pretend.

[thememedaddy]

[20th-centuryghost]

HEY ARTISTS!

Do you design a lot of characters living in not-modern eras and you’re tired of combing through google for the perfect outfit references? Well I got good news for you kiddo, this website has you covered! Originally @modmad made a post about it, but her link stopped working and I managed to fix it, so here’s a new post. Basically, this is a costume rental website for plays and stage shows and what not, they have outfits for several different decades from medieval to the 1980s. LOOK AT THIS SELECTION:

OPEN ANY CATEGORY AND OH LORDY–

There’s a lot of really specific stuff in here, I design a lot of 1930s characters for my ask blog and with more chapters on the way for the game it belongs to I’m gonna be designing more, and this website is going to be an invaluable reference. I hope this can be useful to my other fellow artists as well! :)

[sour-syrup]

I was losing my damn mind thinking I did a bad job cutting in around the ceiling only to realize that ceiling is, in fact, actually like that.

[merlizetdi]

Second Sentinel

[mortalityplays]

happy tdov to people who don't pass or have no interest in passing, who can't pass because there is no culturally recognised category for the way they want to be recognised, who flip flop and fuck around, who can't hide their transness and have to plan their everyday around being visible, who can't signal their transness and have to come out over and over because the default presumption is intolerable, who don't have the resources yet or the knowhow or the willpower to change what they want to change, whose transness is warped by a hegemonic image of ideal transness that is almost as difficult to escape as the hegemonic image of cisness, who don't have a justification prepared for the assertion that they are trans but can no longer justify the assertion that they are not, who have a million justifications that are all surplus to the fundamental requirement (that society mandated one articulation of you and you chose another), et cetera and so forth across the world and universe forever. your version is right. don't concede.

[kosmogrl]