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vent blog for when i need to get things OUT! dermatilomania/autism/MDD/ADHD/chronic pain/POTS/general sense of dread

[burntblueberrywaffles]

I LOVE being autistic and trying to communicate because every time it’s

[southernsuffering]

how to stop hitting myself square in the forehead every time i think about what she did to me. no glue no borax.

[southernsuffering]

how to stop hitting my head with my hands/on the steering wheel no glue no borax

[scary-friend]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[only-knives]

gentle reminders for anyone who needs it:

you have inherent worth simply by being alive. you are not a failure or unworthy for struggling with your mental or physical health. you're just a human being in pain.

you are not a burden; you have a right to support, care, & community, and it is not your fault that this world isn't built for disabled & neurodivergent people.

your emotions matter. even if they're big, or "out of proportion" to other people. everyone experiences life differently, and you deserve people in your life that treat your emotions with respect & kindness.

you are doing your best. i believe you. you don't need to compare yourself to others, or your hypothetical best self. who you are right now, in this moment, is enough.

it's okay to struggle with change. it can be scary, stressful, daunting, and confusing. you're allowed to take your time in figuring things out. you don't need to have all the answers today. life is about experiencing, not being perfect.

i'm glad you're here. many more people than you believe are glad you're here. it's okay. you're okay. you may not feel okay, or may not be doing okay: but as a person - you're okay.

be gentler with yourself. you're worth it.

[woodlouseandbird]

my therapist suggested i imagine my intrusive thoughts in the voice of donald trump bc i do not possess an ounce of respect for him or trust in his competence. going thru it today so i made this. hope this helps

[southernsuffering]

it’s not much, but this is HUGE for me as someone who usually picks their skin literally constantly. just downloaded this app and it’s helping because i don’t wanna reset my clock! i don’t wanna do that! i also had a huge urge to pick but i didn’t! instead i put bandaids on with antibacterial gel and vaseline. having a spikey fidget is really helpful. i feel good about this, knock on wood.

[iloveyoudeanwinchester]

I got denied for disability after waiting 2 ½ years for a response and the wording in the letter pissed me off. So I wrote a poem about it.

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Poem transcript under the cut

You are not disabled under our rules.

Your body may be in constant pain. 

Your back may bend in all the wrong ways and your muscles may feel like sunburned taffy in a press. 

You may be too dizzy to stand or sit for more than a few minutes at a time. 

You may have chronic migraines and chronic fatigue and a chronic sadness from a childhood lacking love. 

You may have a dysfunctional thyroid and dysautonomia. 

You may have to sleep more than you are awake and you may have to use a wheelchair or cane any time you are able to leave the house. 

But aren’t you aware the medications you take to make your pain more bearable can also make you sleepier? 

Aren’t you aware that everyone wants an excuse to not do the dishes and your extreme back pain is laughable? 

Aren’t you aware that your life is expendable? 

Aren’t you aware that we don’t care about you at all? 

You are able to work some; you are able to work more. 

Just adapt. 

Just push yourself more. 

Just break your body more.

Just be a good little number on a screen and stop screaming as we churn you through the system and beat you to a pulp. 

This is because you are not disabled under our rule.

[cavitychemicals]

made this instead of doing my PT exercises

[feefal]

Scoliosis gang rise up..!

[southernsuffering]

awful awful awful flare up today, had plans to hang out with friends but can’t drive when i’m like this because it hurts too much to turn my head and check my blind spots. also didn’t have the energy to get out of bed, spent the day in pjs watching interview with the vampire. had a skin picking episode on my chest, its very red now. but my mom brought up grilled cheese and chicken noodle soup for dinner and i have my stuffed animals so everything is okay 🩵

[handweavers]

[bl0w-m3]

[shotgvnfreak-deactivated2026052]

i feel so fucking jealous of people who can just know what they can and want to do and do it without having their brain argue with them

[southernsuffering]

sometimes you wanna make a post beautifully articulating what life is like living with chronic pain but all you can come up with is “ow”

[chronicallydragons]

Anyone else with chronic pain ever get really absorbed in a project and dissociate from your body while you're working but then you finish and you come back to your body and you're just like AAAAAAAHHH! WHAT'S WRONG?? oh yeah. The horrors. Never mind

[pufferfishjones]