#excoriation disorder

[vam01011001]

I think I might need to keep having Dermatillomania and not treat it. I feel a tiny bit of satisfaction when picking, and a bit of satisfaction—even if it's an unhealthy kind—is precious because of my anhedonia. Plus when I pick I'm quite focus, which means no potential dark thoughts bothering me and less boredom.

[vam01011001]

Are videos of pimple/blackhead popping usually seen as helpful to avoid picking by people with Dermatillomania?

For me it's just like watching a DIY of an activity I really want to do, so I finish by doing the "DIY" while watching or after watching the video. It just makes me want to pick more.

[velvetinerabbitdiary]

I've been watching been watching pimple pop videos to desperately avoid picking at my face and arms

[chuuyatheginger]

random poetry from my notes pt. 1

scan, poke, pick, repeat. scan, poke, pick, repeat.

Repeat over, And over, And over. Repeat until I am, But only flesh Supported by a frame Of white calcium Scratch further Pick until I'm carving Carving marks into my bones Degrading my bones to nothing

The eerie screeching sound A quiet, but soulfully loud sound

The sound of my face being ruined The sound of something scarier than a bacterial infection The sound of my face becoming a sight mothers hide from their kids A sight I can't even face in the mirror Without destroying my dignity Destroying my image An image that I can't even remember seeing

A normal human face What does it look like? What would my face look like, Without holes, Without shame? It's a sight I'll never see again My face when it was beautiful

[2shadowsdeep]

Every time I manage not to pick for a while, it ends up making things worse when I relapse because my brains like: 'Ooooo, fresh healing skin, prime for destruction'

[chestersbraincell]

Oughhh when you’re biting your lips and you can HEAR the flesh tearing wtf wtf wtf

[vam01011001]

Your Dermatillomania is caused by:

Anxiety

Genetic factors

An event (e.g. puberty pimples) triggered it

A traumatic event triggered it

Mix of answer (comment/reblog if you want)

Other (comment/reblog if you want)

Idk

No Dermatillomania/Results

Voting ended onJun 24

(if you're not officially diagnosed you can answer, it's a disorder easy to self recognize anyway)

Personally I had weird habits since very early childhood but puberty pimples triggered my Dermatillomania when I was about 10, and now it's very anchored in my brain wiring.

I have no anxiety and strong emotions don't trigger my kind of Dermatillomania, it really just happens when my brain feels like it and/or when I notice an "imperfection".

[2shadowsdeep]

Goodbye skin! Hello dopamine!