Public Fears In Private Places

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We lust over fantasy romance and expectations, but pure love when it's raw and gentle is what we really want, why do we crave for something that is unfaithful and petty when our bodies and souls can wait a life time to feel safe in another's arms.

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even when youre down ill always be around

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I could hear a voice that was not my own I could hear it calling down the phone I could see a shadow crawling out of mine I could see it hiding there all the time I could feel it taking over my dreams at night I could feel it drain me of my life k.c

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plot twist: she kisses him

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"art" is an opinion not a item or product

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Journey To Happiness / Knife Of Freedom

Every day you were pushing me further Further down into a dark abyss But you kept me on a rope So I’m always there when you need me  But that rope was a noose  A noose that strangled my mind  All your lies were suffocating me I had the knife, I had it in my hand and I could have cut myself free But I didn’t I couldn’t Because I would fall and you would walk away a free soul

All those days we were together  The hours we spent laughing  But I seemed to be the one making the jokes

I always thought you were everything a person could ask for I always thought we would last I always thought you cared I always thought that what we had we would share

But I guess I was wrong  In fact I couldn’t be more wrong

You are not the person I thought you were You never wanted it to last You never even cared It was only your problems that you shared

I tried to be there for you and I always was I would put your problems above my own I’m not trying to make myself look good because I know I Was there But where were you Where were you when I was breaking down Every lie you told just tore me apart  You broke my heart

Summer. We had been looking forward to it since last summer Plans for a week away We would be together every day But yet again I was your second choice I was pushed to the side of your mind It was hard for me to find the right words to say at the right time So I said nothing But I thought everything

My mind was crowded with thoughts of resentment and bitterness My mind began to over flow while my eyes fogged over But I did not cry I held up my head and carried on Even though I knew you were gone

I soon grew tired of holding my head up and being strong Your noose was tided around around me for so long  You were the one that dropped me but I was still holding the knife It was full of anger I hid thoughout my life I kept my grip tight on that rusty old knife

Three months later It was early November  You and I haven’t spoke Barely made eye contact  You ignore my presence in the room  So I did the same I forced my forget our past But i was entwined in its branches I couldn’t bare to lose those memories  You were doing so well without me It was my turn to forget you But like walking with only one shoe A part of me was cold

I dropped the knife  I started over  A fresh mind A clear heart I changed how I see life

I spend more time alone than people believe is healthy  But I am more alive than ever My mind is more active than it has ever been I’ve started growing and stretching out Finding new releases  New escapes I’ve got new records and new tapes I’m surrounded by people I love not people I hate I’m in a better place Im in a happier state My life is great

-kc

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Anxiety Melts: similar to an anxiety attack but rather than it being attack it just makes you feel like your just melting away to death.

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Having a dream where you are in love and almost feeling their heartbeat while you lie in bed is perfect. Until. Until you wake up. You wake up and everything goes silent. Your alone. Every last drop of happiness is just drained from your cold bones.

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sketch book skin

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Fairly Local // twenty one pilots |-/ power to the local dreamer

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La Dispute // all our bruised bodies and the whole heart shrinks (my edit)

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These two movies made me feel in some sorta way

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afternoons spent dreaming of places ive never been to

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Take Me On A Road Trip

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I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself, I dont make a sound but my eyes scream out help.