Sparrow's Tarot

she/her || bi, poly || adhd || just a birb with a pretty deck of cards

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Knight of Coins

Proceed with caution in all things. Slow and steady wins the race. Choose sure bets of incremental progress over high-risk/high-reward gambles. Do the things right the first time, instead of taking shortcuts and setting yourself up for failure late. Your efforts will pay off.

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What I know: The Fool

What I'm doing: Judgement (reversed)

What I need to know: Ace of Swords

Okay, YOU KNOW WHAT, Dark-- Actually, yeah, no, that is pretty fair. "I know that I know nothing," very philosophical of you. Or from a more flattering perspective, I know myself. I know the ways that I don't fit convention and I know that I want more out of life. I know how to own my Weird.

What I'm doing, on the other hand, is less helpful - I'm letting myself get distracted. No, not letting myself, that's too passive - I'm going out of my way to focus on literally anything but what's important, immersing myself in things that don't really matter so I can avoid difficult truths, placing unrealistic expectations on myself and on the world and clinging to that version of reality rather than admit that it doesn't really work like that.

The Ace of Swords is trying to serve as something of a wake-up call. I might know that I'm the Fool, but I haven't really taken the time to understand everything that comes with that. I might know that I'm always at the start of a new journey, but I don't know HOW to begin it, how to turn that energy and potential into motion and action. I need to clear through some of the fog and the noise and separate out what I truly know from what I just wish were true.

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Judgment

Testing yourself, being prepared for trials, weighing your options, honing a critical eye, learning from past errors

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Five of Swords

Tension, strife, bad blood, being a poor winner, disregarding the costs of victory. It may seem like the score is settled, but you still have unfinished business.

Speaking of which, does this card always make that one Emma Blackery song get stuck in anyone else's head? No? Just mine? Too bad, it's a fuckin bop.

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V. tired today. Stayed up too late rewriting creation, and woke up too early because J. had a bad dream. You get one card and you get what you get.

Two of Cups

ok if that art is not THE MOST PRECIOUS TH--

thank u, Divi. I'm now only at like 45% of a bad mood instead of 92%. 🥺

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Career Direction

My last contract just ended, so now seems like as good a time as any to check back in with the direction of my career and see if I feel like I'm headed on the right track.

My career as a whole: Judgement (reversed)

My next step: The World

How I'll know what's right for me: Knight of Wands (reversed)

Skills I should have prepared: Ten of Wands (reversed)

Career accelerant: Three of Swords

Couple of wands, couple of majors, plenty of reversals, so about the vibe I expected - careers do tend to have pretty major life impact and require a good bit of energy and momentum.

Judgment is calling my ass out right off the bat. Why yes, I do have constant imposter syndrome about my work thankyouverymuch. And yes, I am all about that Refusal of the Call when it comes to my job, baybeee. I'm strongly considering blocking the Call's number. Give me an Adventure™️ in any other area of my life, but a career is not the place to fuck around when we're living in a late-stage capitalist dystopia. I've been financially insecure for too much of my adult life to start taking risks now that I'm finally stable, and I can find plenty of Personal Fulfillment or Higher Calling or whatever in something that I'm not relying on for a paycheck.

The World's message about my next step is a little more cryptic, because it's whole the-end-and-the-beginning-are-one deal has two different meanings that could both logically apply to this context. It could be saying that the end of my contract is a good place to wrap this phase of my career and get a completely fresh start doing something different, or it could indicate that my next step will be the end goal that my previous steps have all been working towards, like a Forever Job that will sustain me for the long term instead of contract hopping.

Whichever way it goes, the reversed Knight of Wands tells me that I'll know it when I see it because it sparks joy. It might not be a golden ticket or a huge life change or my One True Destiny, but it absolutely must be something that genuinely makes me happy for as long as I'm focused on it.

The reversed Ten of Wands is another unambiguous callout; I'm absolute shit at delegating, partially because I don't like asking for (or accepting unsolicited) help, but mostly because I really don't like feeling responsible for or in charge of anyone else. I'm the sort of person who finds it easier to take an hour doing everything myself than to take five minutes explaining my process to someone so we can do it together in half an hour. Clearly, I should work on that.

And finally we have the Three of Swords offering advice on how to accelerate my career, which is a... weird place for it to turn up, to put it mildly. I suppose it may be a warning that moving ahead too far or too fast will end up causing pain, either to me or someone else. This could be a suggestion that I need to get a little more comfortable with accepting pain and loss or being ruthless when necessary, or it could be suggesting that pushing for a jumpstart simply isn't worth it and that it's better in the long run to chill in the slow lane. Either way, it says that, fast or slow, it's absolutely imperative that I keep moving forward. Letting myself stop completely, either to wall out pain or to wallow in it, will only make any problems that arise worse.

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Emotion/Action/Outcome

Somebody woke up on the executive function side of the bed this morning, so we're doing three entire cards today!

Today's emotion: Six of Wands - Pride

Today's action: Page of Cups (reversed) - Planning

Today's outcome: The Devil (reversed) - Breaking cycles

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Six of Cups (reversed)

Lost in the nostalgia sauce, chasing old highs instead of finding new joy, mourning lost innocence (true or otherwise), looking at the past through rose-colored glasses at the expense of the present and future

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Six of Wands (reversed)

Pride goeth before the fall. Give credit where credit is due. Nobody likes a glory hound.

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The Hanged Man (reversed)

uggghhhhh why??

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Page of Coins

Energy, potential, big ideas first and logistics second if ever, that feeling of endless possibilities, fresh starts and bright futures, some ridiculously adorable reindeer

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Three of Swords (reversed)

The fine line between release and escapism. Allow yourself to let go so that healing can begin but don't deny or block out the hard truths. Find the place where you can accept pain without romanticizing or clinging to it.

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The Lovers (reversed)

Interesting getting this reversal again so soon after the last one. Still not getting a specifically romantic vibe out of it (all my current relationships are pretty low-key in a healthy, comfortable kind of way), so I'm thinking on what other areas of my life it might apply to. Closest I can think of is that my contract is up fairly soon, so I've been pretty disconnected from work lately and not really invested in maintaining relationships there.

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The Sun

Ironically enough, the weather is calling for torrential downpours all day today.

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Nine of Coins

Quiet and contentment, peace, safety, indulgence, appreciating what you have, a well-deserved moment to rest on your laurels and just vibe

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King of Swords (reversed)

Your best friend on days when you 110% woke up on the stubborn, grumpy, irrational, judgey side of the bed this morning, and don't care who knows it.

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The Lovers (reversed)

Be cautious of relationships (romantic or otherwise) that may be toxic, codependent, or otherwise unhealthy. Avoid creating a closed loop with your partner that puts the two of you in an echo chamber and isolates you from the outside world. Remember that a bond can be strong and meaningful without having to be all-consuming.