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like the betrayal’s always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didn’t matter. someone discards you because they didn’t give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say “I love you. I would make the same choice again.” You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.
“I thought they cared about me, but they were lying this whole time.” <- tired. boring. removes all the nuance of this relationship to make it easier to move on from.
“I thought they cared about me, and I was right, and every minute they were there for me, every time they said they were proud, every laugh we shared leaning against each other bruised and breathless, all of it was real. and they still left me behind. They could put their love aside. I couldn’t.” <- insane. will never leave you alone. reminds you that even the worst people are still people and can still care about even the ones they hurt the most and that undoes neither the harm nor the love.
okay. something about the way i worded this is making people think this is a vent thing about real relationships. and it’s fine if that’s where it took you. but i feel like i need to be transparent here: this be blorboposting. karlach cliffgate and her terrible awful no good very bad betrayal.
Should the fandom forgive character X: The most boring question ever. Sees characters as fully fledged people and not tools for a story, and fans rarely agree where the character actually fucked up.
Would character Y forgive character X: The good shit.
There’s an episode of Sesame Street (on Netflix! you can watch it easily!) where Elmo attends a toy-swap, where you offer up old toys you don’t play with anymore and receive someone else’s toys that are new to you. Cute!
But Elmo, after cheerfully surrendering his old toys, sees that the children who swapped toys with him are playing with his toys “wrong”! They’re imagining entirely different make believe scenarios! They’re pretending the football is a dinosaur egg instead of a rocket ship! Aaahhhhh!!!! And this is so distressing to poor Elmo that he does the unthinkable: He does swapsies-backsies and takes all his toys back!
This being Sesame Street, he learns that you can’t control how other people play pretend, but you can join in if you want to! And if you don’t want to, that’s ok, you can just play pretend your own way by yourself or with someone else who wants to play that way too. You can still be friends with people who play pretend differently than you (and aren’t being mean/harmful/etc, do not bad-faith-read this 🤨).
I try not to fall into the "I never liked their work anyway" ditch when an artist/creator reveals themself to be a terrible person
BUT
a feeling I do have and will stand by is "While I enjoyed their work overall I did have some gripes that I overlooked out of affection and whimsy, but now that my loyalty is gone and my affection tainted there is nothing holding me back from enumerating my many grievances, to which the revelations of the creator's shittiness may or may not provide a new and infuriating context."
Really weird feeling to spend years reading a webcomic only to get frog-boiled as the story starts to go downhill but you can't break the reflexive habit of reading checking the website until one day you realize that now you're hate-reading it, which sucks!!! Hate-reading is bad for you!! Don't do it! Bah!!!
Little bite-sized snippets of regularly-scheduled stories are great nourishment for the media gnomes that live in your brain, but hate-reading is toxic to them!! And it's very important to take good care of the media gnomes!! If your media gnomes get sick you might end up doing things like posting water-filter screenshots of blogs that you've blocked or getting mad at TV showrunners like they're your dad or doing kiwifarms stuff
There is a very delicate line between being a Hater (mirthful, no personal stakes, titillating to the gnomes) and being a Hater (resentful, jilted, bad for the gnomes). Unfortunately I always have a hard time telling telling which side I'm on so I think it's better for me to just not do it!!!! And tbh I suspect that this might be true of everybody...
Black ppl deserve to feel safe and welcomed on the internet, on fandoms on whatever community or hobbies they want without having to deal with antiblack racist attacks, microaggressions or enablers of antiblackness . And if u genuinely consider urself to be left leaning or an ally or woke you should do and try to unlearn the colorism, texturism , eurocentrism and antiblackness
Okay, real talk now. People love to tag male characters in posts about women, but this post is gonna take this seriously. Is there actually a canonically male character you believe is a trans woman? Or at least has made into a trans woman for a fanart or a fanfic? Excluding the ones canonically implied.
Sound off in the tags! Link to the fanart or fic if available. Do it. Give me the girls. Make more women.
I have a chart for this ("estrogen would fix him" is the stuff that qualifies here. I could write a short blurb about all of these but I'm too tired to do that right now so y'all get the chart).
(Description below the readmore rather than in alt text since it's long.)
A venn diagram with three circles, labeled "estrogen would fix him," "estrogen would make him worse," and "estrogen could not save him (but it'd be really funny)."
In the "estrogen would fix him" section are:
Kirito from Sword Art Online.
Mister Priest from Make the Exorcist Fall in Love.
Cloud from Final Fantasy 7.
Don Quixote.
In the overlap between "estrogen would fix him" and "estrogen would make him worse" are:
Enciodes Silverash from Arknights.
Denji from Chainsaw Man
In the "estrogen would make him worse" section are:
Light Yagami from Death Note.
Izuku Midoriya from My Hero Academia.
In the overlap between "estrogen would fix him" and "estrogen could not save him" are:
Seto Kaiba from Yu-Gi-Oh.
Sanji from One Piece.
In the "estrogen could not save him" section are:
Shinji from Neon Genesis Evangelion.
Char Aznable from Gundam.
Quatro Bajeena from Gundam.
In the overlap between "estrogen would make him worse" and "estrogen could not save him" are:
Zenos from Final Fantasy 14.
Laios Touden from Dungeon Meshi.
Lazurite Roy from Arknights.
And finally, in the dead center of the venn diagram, are Shirou Emiya from Fate/Stay Night and Kim Dokja from Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint.
In a far corner of the image, away from the venn diagram, is Saber from Fate/Stay Night, labeled with her name and overlaid on a circular trans flag.
if a character has "commitment issues" but it's only for romantic relationships and all of their platonic relationships don't seem to have that problem then i'm calling bullshit and making them aromantic
If you don't want LinkTree putting your imagery into AI... get out now
Just canceled my account (not that I used it that much). But I won’t permit this. Via @unaminh.bsky.social:
IMPORTANT: For any artists/writers/etc etc, using Linktree to point people to their work, from 5 July, they'll be feeding all imagery you use on your landing page into DALL-E by OpenAI.
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