♡Scarred Fox♡

Mix of an Agere and vent blog. a place for me to just heal. BA-16 LA-1-5. they/it.

[spi1t-milk]

INTRO POST

Hi there I'm Rosie or Milky. I made this blog so I can have a proper safe place. I have 3 other blogs but they are for other things. And have been tainted with bad memories. This blog is just for me to feel safe and properly heal myself.

About me

My big age is 16 but my little age is 1-5 and it slides alot. Im somewhere on the non binary spectrum though im afab. I have autism and ADHD, along with BPD, General anxiety, and PTSD.

I have an ED and issue with being Suicidal and cutting but I'm not going to talk about that here if I do it's about me getting better from those things.

I have rheumatoid Arthritis which really affects me and my body and endometriosis.

I really like steven universe, hazbin hotel, winnie the pooh, and the DCA from fnaf.

Honestly it would be nice if I could make a friend or two to talk to about my struggles and try to help eachother get better from thing we both suffer with.

Please do note I struggle ALOT mentally and often impure or involuntarily regress and more often then not it's upsetting for me which is why I made this blog. There are going to be more sad posts then happy.

I'm also looking for an agere CG.

That's all for now. Hope I can make some friends.

February,20,2024 1:24pm

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I's feeling like a silly puppy girl right now. I wanna go put my ears on really bad, but I'm listening to Harry potter wif my mum so I can't and I just ahhhhhhhh ໒꒰ྀི◞⸝⸝◟ྀི꒱७ I just wanna bite, and play, and roll and just everything.

September,27,2024 9:58pm

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I made a new banner since I'm improving in some ways. So iv moved up from fawn to fox♡

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September,18,2024 6:39pm

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I made a fox animagus/regressor marauder moodmoard for myself and wanted to share.

September,17,2024 10:27pm

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Thank you @spookymoonie for the tag

Open tags

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/644129

What you look like irl

What you want to look like

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current look

The look I want

guess who’s getting tagged again @g0thb1tch @nottapossum @spi1t-milk

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Thus was hard for me to do as there arnt many good options but I did my best

How I look vrs, kinda how I wanna look.

April,3,2024 11:43pm

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I did an updated version of this.

My hair is bleached now and longer but I'm hoping I can do the spilt dye I want soon.

September,9,2024 4:47pm

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Here's the finshed comic page I made. I live Sundrop alot(along with moon) and I so wish they were real cause I think therlyd love regressors. So I made a cute little thing with me and Sundrop. I tend to bite myself alot due to oral stimulation needs so that's what this is about. It took me a month cause I procrastinated but it's finally done♡♡♡♡

May,17,2024 1:00am

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Iv got a really cool thing that's almost done that's been in the making for a month now!!!

Not finished yet but it will hopefully be done by tonight!!!

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M having a really bad arthritis flare up and it hurts so bad. I keep almost regressing because of it but I don't wanna regress while in pain cause that will suck alot.

May,1,2024 1:32am

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I'm just a child trapped in a big body.... a big body that I don't even like....

April,30,2024 6:31pm

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Sometimes being in the same room as my mama and trying ti bond with her again in my own way by showing her the stuff I find on lintrest that I think is cool is just depressing. Cause she doesn't really care. And she doesn't really acknowledge it. And it just makes me feel more distant and alone.

April,30,2024 6:19pm

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Sometimes being in the same room as my mama and trying ti bond with her again in my own way by showing her the stuff I find on lintrest that I think is cool is just depressing. Cause she doesn't really care. And she doesn't really acknowledge it. And it just makes me feel more distant and alone.

April,30,2024 6:19pm

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Dang it. Now I'm regressing from.the stress of the memories and the overwhelming emotions that come With never being able to go back and everything changing. Because I can never go back to that school.And I don't have a way to show anyone because no one can see what's in my head and I have no pictures. And it's all stressing me out so much....

April,28,2024 12:17am

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VENTISH post

Getting random flood gates of memories is not fun. I was just on TikTok scrolling normally, and there was a slideshow for random, but specific childhood things and the song that was playing was Erie and calming. But one of the things that showed up was one of those paint racks that you've seen an art classroom and it just opened this floodgate of memories actual memories from my school life when I was able to go. And I remember so many Things and it's creepy. Because for once in many years I feel a genuine connection to my child self. I was just so aware as a child. That and all of my memories I know that everything I see is just gonna be a memory and that became part of the memory and it's so weird and creepy. But now it's 12 AM and I'm trying to figure out where I went wrong.. How I went from the child?I was into what I am now. It doesn't make any sense to me.It's like my brain was just severed at some point. And I wasn't in control because I can't remember certain things still from The ages 9 to 12. I have none of those memories. But now I have some of my memories from when I was 7 and 8 again. It's so weird because I thought I had forgotten those things long time ago. But it makes me want to cry. Because of all the feelings I'm feeling again. It's so overwhelming and all of the memories are overwhelming to have again. Because I can see everything and I can hear Everything in those memories.It's like I'm just relieving parts of my life.That I shouldn't be able to relieve. But I'm relieving it at a distance.I can't touch it.I can't interact with it. And it's only her that can see me and even then.She's just aware of there.She can't actually see me.... I wanna go bad...I just don't know how...

( Sorry for potential spelling errors I'm using talk to text)

April,29,2024 12:12am

[spi1t-milk]

Ai ohto closet cosplay while I'm out!!!!

I'm so happy. I love pretending to be ai ohto!!!

April,27,2024 3:24pm

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I cut my thumb with a mandolin while trying to make my mama sweet potato frys and ended up cutting under my nail and nearly halfway down and through my nail. It hurts rly rly bad and it's hard to type. I nearly passed out to due to shock and fear...

April,27,2024 1:22pm

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I feel so small and I just wanna sleep and be baby for a bit.

April,26,2024 6:24pm

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Vent

My eating disorder and age regression costently go against each other. But one of the biggest reasons I still have an ED is because I don't feel childish enough, and I hate how I look when I wear childish clothing.

April,26,2024 9:49am