Supernatural Reactions and Reviews

Seven episodes left...now seems like a good time to do this type of thing. 

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HELLO!!

Guess who's back?! (Cue Eminem)

Anyways.

Obviously, this blog was initially more or less dedicated to the new season--particularly, the second half, since that's when I officially decided to make it.

However, when I first made the blog, I had teased the possibility of going back and doing a full re-watch while reacting on this blog, if that was something you guys were interested in.

Now that the full Seasons 1-15 has come out on DVD (yes, it was a while ago, and I've had it on my shelf for a while, but this is the first time I've actually had the time/ability to look at it more closely), and now that I own it, I've decided this is a good time to do that.

Now, I'm just gonna throw it out there right now: I am very busy, and I don't know how often I'll be able to do this, but I'm hoping I can at least get out one reaction a week--I just don't know for sure if it'll always be on the same day. That said, though, I hope you guys are still interested in seeing my reactions, even if my content isn't 100% consistent.

With all of that out of the way, let me tell you my plan.

So, obviously, I've seen every episode before, so most of the re-watch is gonna be exactly that--a re-watch. As such, my reactions won't be for the first time, but more looking back, remembering things I forgot, pointing out scenes I've always loved, quoting my favorite lines, etc. etc.

However, most of the special features are completely new to me. Things like commentaries, featurettes, panels, and full gag reels, I'll be seeing for the first time, so my reactions to those will be much more fresh.

As such, I may react to more than one thing in a night if I have time. For example, the Pilot has commentary, so I'll probably react to the Pilot as is first, and then react to it with the commentary--more than likely in two separate posts. This is probably how I would do just about any of the special features that directly correlate to specific episodes. Otherwise, I'll do the special features as their own individual things and label them as such.

I'm really excited to do this, and I hope you guys are as excited as I am! I think it'll be really fun to do a full binge from start to finish knowing how the show eventually ends, and I think it'll be even more fun to share that journey with all of you.

Thanks for joining me on this ride! I hope you all have as much fun as I plan to! <3

P.S. I'm just going to put it out there right now: I know there's been a lot of controversy with the way the finale ended and everything that's come after, but this blog is purely for fun, reacting to something that still means so much to me. Drama has no place here. I'm gonna say what I say and feel what I feel, and while I welcome you to share your own opinions and comments, the one thing I ask is that you keep it kind and mature. If you don't, I will delete your comments/asks. I don't want to deal with pettiness--I just want to have fun and share my love for my favorite television show in the world. That is all. :) <3

SPN Family Forever! <3 <3

[kitkatwinchester]

One year ago today...

On November 19th, 2020, I said goodbye to a show that I never thought would leave me.

And now, a year later, I feel so lucky to say that it still hasn't.

From the minute I joined the fandom, I knew that Supernatural was something special. A part of that was how funny, heartwarming, and all around beautiful the show itself was, but ultimately, there was so much more to it than that.

Supernatural is special not because of the show, but because of its family. Because of the cast, the crew, the fans, and everyone in between, Supernatural still has a voice today.

There's been a lot of drama in the last year. I can't deny that. The in-fighting over the finale has left me heartbroken more times than I can count, and the metaphorical "Season 16" that has been circling through the internet has had so many highs and lows that I've wanted to log off more times than seems necessary.

But I never did, and I'm still here, as are so many others. And that's insane to me.

It's crazy to me that something that causes so much drama and emotional turmoil somehow also still creates so much love and appreciation in the depths of it all.

It's crazy to me that while so many people shout how much they hate the show, the writers, the cast, and everything in between, there are just as many people shouting how much they love and appreciate everything that the show has created.

It's crazy to me that so many people in this fandom can go from hating this show to loving it in a heartbeat.

I guess that's what it means to truly love something to no end. You see it for all of its faults, and you point them out and bash on them, but in the end, you'll never stop loving it, no matter how many flaws or cracks you can find.

I like to think that this attitude will stay forever. I like to think that Supernatural's legacy will continue to grow and thrive, even as this anniversary gets longer and longer.

I don't know if that's true. I don't know if, forty years from now, we'll all still be spending every waking moment thinking about this show and what it has meant to us (and done to us) over the years.

But I like to hope we will.

And even if we don't, that's okay to. Because I know that, no matter what we say, or do, or how our lives progress after this, Supernatural will always have a special place in our hearts. It's part of who we are, and it always will be.

So yeah. Maybe this post is a little late. And maybe I didn't finish the edit that I wanted to have done for the anniversary, or make any new collages, or write any new stories. Maybe I didn't have the time to commit my everything to this show that I have in the past.

But I didn't forget. And I never will. And I have a feeling no one else will either.

So here's to another year of remembering. Whether it's through a Season 17, or even just through yet another binge watch--I finally had the courage, for the first time, to re-watch the series finale today, and I sobbed just as much, if not more, than I did the first time--Supernatural will always have our backs, and we will always keep it in our hearts.

After all, that's what family does, right?

[spnreactions]

The Booklet

This is a short reaction, but I just want to talk about how cool this little booklet is.

The photos, while admittedly nothing compared to the giant Behind-the-Scenes book (which I also got, because for me, money is nothing when it comes to this show XD), they're really fun, and it's nice to see pictures that correlate to each season and each of their episodes.

The organization is also so nice, and honestly helps so much. It lists out each of the special features, which means I can appropriately watch episodes that have commentary after I watch the actual episode, and it means I can plan how I wanna watch things and react to them a little better, which is amazing. Plus, in general, the content on these DVDs is incredible. Appropriate music, first of all (darn Netflix and its royalty rules), and all of the gag reels, panels, featurettes, commentaries, interactive road maps, unaired scenes, webisodes--it's AMAZING. I'm so excited to check them all out and dive even deeper into this show than I have in the past!

Most of all, though, by far my favorite part of the booklet is the little letters/notes from Eric Kripke and Bob Singer at the very beginning. They made me cry the first time I read them. Even with all of the recent drama, I truly do believe in our SPN Family, and everything it's stood for, and I still feel so, so lucky to be a part of something so special and loving and so incredibly real and true. Eric and Bob are exactly right--our family is special, and we've been through a lot, but no matter what, we will always, always keep this flame burning and going on, because it's what we do, and it's what we love. It's what makes us a family.

With all of that said, and my love of this little booklet properly expressed, let's get into our first episode of September 13th, 2005... <3

[kitkatwinchester]

I’ve Realized Something

I’ve been feeling so…off, these past few days. Almost sick. Like, weird enough that I was honestly worried I might have COVID. 

I feel sick to my stomach, I’m so tired no matter how much sleep I get, I’ve been having a hard time conversing with people like a normal human, and I feel so distracted, like I can never focus. 

For the life of me, I couldn’t figure it out. Am I sick? Anxious? Depressed? I mean, my anxiety and depression do tend to feel like this, but there’s something about it that feels different. 

And finally, it hit me. 

I’m grieving. 

I’m grieving the loss of Supernatural, and of two of my favorite characters in the entire universe. 

That’s why it feels so similar to my anxiety and depression, but at the same time so different. 

Here’s the thing. 

In my opinion, the finale was beautiful and perfectly done, but that doesn’t mean it hurt any less. Losing Dean so early on hurt like he**. Losing Sam at the end hurt like he**, no matter how much I love that they ended up in heaven together. More than anything, knowing that there would be no more episodes of this show hurt like he**. 

I know there are a lot of people who didn’t like the finale, but at the same time, I have a feeling that, deep down, one thing we can all agree on is how much it hurts to lose this show. 

Some of us have been in this fandom for all fifteen years, and some people are brand new. Many of us are somewhere in between (like me). But no matter when we joined this fandom, we’ve all felt its impact, and as such, we all feel its loss. 

I, for one, haven’t been able to re-watch any of the scenes from the finale without sobbing uncontrollably. I can more or less scroll through Tumblr and look at gifs and images and fan art, but when it comes to watching videos, I fall apart. I haven’t even attempted to watch the what are bound to be beautiful fandom music video edits from my favorite YouTube channels that include the finale, because every time I think about Supernatural and its end, that pit in my stomach gets even wider. 

So instead, I’ve been trying to distract myself with music, work, and other things, in desperate attempts to keep myself from crying. Though, clearly, that’s not a healthy coping mechanism. I suppose I get that from Dean Winchester. 

Funny. 

Even when he’s dead, I’m still projecting onto Dean Winchester. 

Though, I suppose, in one of his interviews, Jensen said he does the same thing, so maybe, truly, I’m projecting onto Jensen Ackles. ;) 

In any case, my grieving process is not the point of this post. 

What is the point of this post is that I’m grieving. And I know a lot of other Supernatural fans are too. 

Whether you loved the finale, hated it, or you’re somewhere in the middle, I think we’re all feeling the loss of a show that has meant so much to us for as long as we’ve been involved in it. It affects us all in different ways, and it definitely hurts. 

I just want to remind everyone that we are all in this together. 

This fandom is not going away any time soon. 

We are still the SPN Family. 

We still love and appreciate this show for everything it’s taught us, and that legacy will never be forgotten. 

Just because the show is over doesn’t mean we are. 

It doesn’t mean the actors are done with us, and it doesn’t mean we’re done with each other. 

It hurts. A lot. I’m starting to cry just writing this. 

But we are all here, together. 

I’m here for you. 

I hope you can say the same for me and for others. 

And in the end, no matter how we all felt about the finale, I think we can all agree on grief. And no matter how we all deal with it, it’s important that we deal with it together. 

You are not alone. 

I see you, and I feel you. 

And we’ll get through this. 

I love you all. <3 <3 

[spnreactions]

15x20: Carry On

Alright guys. 

So I know I suck, because I didn’t do reactions for any of the promotional material, and I’m about to suck even more by telling you that I didn’t live react to this one either--I just sat on the couch and let myself soak it all in. 

And let me tell you, as unpopular as this opinion seems to be on this site, I was not disappointed. 

I. Freaking. LOVED that episode. I thought it was a perfect end for Sam and Dean, and I thought it wrapped up all the loose ends as best as it could. I was ugly sobbing from the minute Dean told Sam to stay with him to a good two hours after the final credits rolled. 

And as much ugly sobbing as there was, I couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful ending. I truly feel like this episode finalized everything that Sam and Dean stand for, and everything that this show stands for. It was everything I could’ve hoped for and more. 

But, given that I start to cry anytime I re-watch a scene--even a small portion--or think about the episode too long, it’s hard for me to write a concise review or re-watch the episode to give you proper reactions. 

So instead, have this video of me talking about the episode hours after it had ended. I look kind of disgusting and terrible--especially once I start crying--but it’s worth it, because I will defend this show and its finale until my last breath if I have to, because, no matter what anyone else says, I truly thought it was wonderful. 

The video is long, and my thoughts are all over the place, and I start crying about twenty minutes in, but it’s how I feel, and it’s what my thoughts are, and I hope that more people agree than disagree, even if it doesn’t feel that way to me right now. 

More than anything, I hope that, despite the anger people are expressing over the finale, everyone remembers what this show has truly been about and the many things it’s taught us over the years. Maybe the finale wasn’t exactly the way you wanted it to be, but that doesn’t mean the show was bad. It doesn’t mean that the lessons it’s taught us and the impact it’s had on the world are changed in any way. 

Supernatural has still created an amazing legacy, an amazing fandom, and an amazing family. Don’t let your emotions over the finale ruin that for you. If Supernatural changed your life in any way--like it did mine--then let that be what you walk away with. Don’t be bitter--be grateful that you had something to hang onto at all. 

Maybe that’s easy for me to say, since I liked the last episode, but I really hope that people do take that to heart. I think this show, this cast, and this fandom deserves that. 

With all of that said, here’s my unofficial reaction video for this incredible episode: 

https://youtu.be/2johOitF5Dc

My Rating: 50/10

P.S. I’d really love to hear what you guys thought, but please remember to be kind. I know there are a lot of mixed emotions right now, and while everyone is entitled to their own opinion, I’d really hate to see our fandom family falling apart over this. So reblog or comment and give me your own thoughts, but be gentle to others in the process. 

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15x19: Inherit the Earth

Alright guys. 

It’s time. 

The unofficial finale. 

The season finale that ties up a lot of loose ends before we hit the official series finale. 

Oh god I’m so scared. 

But I’m also sooo excited. 

AHHH!

Okay. Let’s just do this. 

Oh. Hey Amara. 

AHHH! My baby. :’( :’( 

OPE! Looks like God’s book is gonna come into play. 

GEE THANKS FOR SHOWING ME THAT AGAIN AHHH!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

“Now”

...f**k. This really is Infinity War...

My Mom: Oh look. It’s the pandemic. 

...wow. 

Everyone. 

...

...who’s gonna ask it? 

Which one of them is gonna ask about Cas? 

I bet it’s gonna be Jack.

Awww Sam...this wasn’t your fault. 

Yep. Called it. 

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

The reactions to that oh my god. Dean really is trying too hard to be the strong one here, but Jensen is doing a really good job of playing the hurt and the pain subtly enough to know it’s there. 

And Jack... :’( :’( :’( My poor baby. I didn’t expect anything less, but god it hurts... :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

AHHHH!! WHY DID WE HAVE TO LOSE CAS??!! 

Sam’s face too. :’( :’( :’( 

The way they’re both tearing up. 

God...I hate it. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Sam’s trying. He’s so desperate. 

JODY! NOOOOOOO!!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( 

THERE BETTER BE A WAY TO GET EVERYONE BACK!!

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I kind of wanted a little more from that moment between Dean and Jack, but I guess I don’t know what else would happen. Dean is upset, and Jack is upset, and Dean’s just trying his best, but it’s hard for him too, so I guess that makes sense. God my poor boys. :’( :’( :’( 

Wow. That shot. 

UGGGGH! SCREW YOU CHUCK!!! (But also that zoom-out was really cool.) 

...wow. 

...ouch.... (I mean, he’s not wrong, but ouch.) 

IT SURE LOOKS THAT WAY DOESN’T IT! 

I thought he was gonna say “the kid” there oops lol. Saying “Jack” is better anyways. 

MY POOR BABY AHHH!!! NOOO!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

OKAY WTF??!!!

WHAT THE HECK IS THAT??!! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY BABY??!!! :’( :’( :’( 

Dean did you just...get a beer? (Oh who am I kidding? Of course he did.) 

Sam no. Stop. This isn’t your fault. :’( :’( 

Sam noooo. What you did was right. 

Sam... :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

My Mom: SAM! Don’t yell at him! 

God. You know it’s bad when Dean and Jack are the positive ones and Sam is the one giving up... :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Come on Sam. You guys are Winchesters. Winchesters never give up. 

I really like the cinematography in this. There are so many panning shots and it’s really cool for the style and story of the episode and everything. 

EWWWW!!! SCREW YOU!!!!

Ugh. Rob Benedict is so good at his acting as Chuck, but man, I really hate Chuck. 

Wait, REALLY?! There has to be a catch here right? They wouldn’t just do that. 

AWWW!! DEAN!!! :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

...wow. 

I guess they are giving up. 

HEY! 

UGH! COME ON CHUCK!!! 

SCREW YOU!!!!

I mean, that was bound to happen.

BUT SCREW YOU!!!!

HEY! 

Jack is NOT a lap dog, you jerk. 

...that is SOOO not cool. 

As if the Winchesters need any more eternal suffering and shame...Jesus Christ. 

SCREW! YOU! CHUCK!!! 

Ahh...this montage of all of them grieving. :’( :’( :’( 

That was a really great shot of Jack, by the way. <3 <3 

But also :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Poor Dean, on the floor with his alcohol.... :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

...no you don’t. 

...ope. 

Jack’s...hearing something? Sensing something?

Ah. Sensing something. 

HA! 

HEY! PROMO LINE!!! 

....wait. That’s a good point. I guess because he, like, is still a nephilim, right? 

DOGGO!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

IT’S THE DOGGO FROM THE PROMO!!! <3 <3 <3 

“Miracle.” <3 <3 <3 

He’s just so happy to see somebody else alive oh my gosh. <3 <3 

Also, I saw something before talking about the promo and saying that it would be really out of character for Dean to like a dog in this episode, but, like, really? I mean, what about Dog Dean Afternoon where he finally found an appreciation--even a love--for dogs? I think it makes perfect sense. Especially since he’s so desperate to just...have something to hold onto again, to have somebody to save. The dog makes perfect sense. <3 

Awww!! SEE??!! IT GIVES HIM HOPE!! 

HA! Dean OMG!! XD XD 

Sam’s surprise is hilarious. XD XD 

Oh Dean... 

HA! DEAN I LOVE YOU!! 

SEE?! THAT is what we call CHARACTER GROWTH PEOPLE!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

My mom said “good boy” to our dog at the same time Dean said “good boy” to their new dog lol. 

AWWW!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

NO!!!

My Mom: SERIOUSLY?! NOT COOL!! 

ARE YOU F***ING KIDDING ME CHUCK??!!! 

ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW??!!! 

THAT WAS SO UNNECESSARY CHUCK WTF??!! 

JERK!!! YOU F***ING SUCK CHUCK!!! 

THAT WAS JUST UNCOOL ON SO MANY LEVELS UGH!!!! 

My Mom: That is messed up. 

UGH!! 

Stupid Chuck. Go die in a hole already. 

...okay. Okay. 

“I have no idea what we’re walking into.” To reiterate, what else is new? 

I bet it’s Michael. 

My Mom: They’re walking...very slowly. Me: Well, yeah. They’re being cautious. My Mom: But they need to hurry up. The suspense is killing me. (XD XD XD)

...okay I see her point. 

Heeeey Michael. 

...Jack looks...mad, for some reason. 

Not gonna lie, I was 100% expecting to see wings there. Kind of disappointed that I didn’t get them. 

HA! He would. 

Awww...too bad. (Not gonna lie, though, my mom and I never really liked Adam. But! We do really like Jake Abel as Michael. He does a great job.) 

UGH. Poor boys... :’( :’( :’( 

“Amazingly”

...come again? 

OH! 

...welp. 

That’s awkward. 

“All caring” HA! I actually laughed out loud when he said that, because yeah no. 

...you could almost say...he’s “Daddy’s blunt little instrument”.... (...and now I made myself cry ugh.) 

Oh. THAT’S why Jack’s mad. 

Oh thank god! Now we have another powerful being on our side!! 

Oh hey! It’s that scene from the promo photos! 

...yeah there’s no way it’s that easy. 

That’d be nice. 

But there’s no way. 

Yep. Not that easy. 

Welp...shoot. That would’ve been nice. 

GUYS!!! IT’S THE SCENE!!! FROM THE PROMO PHOTOS!!

....awww...boys. :’( :’( 

UMMM

Yeah no. I don’t buy it. It’s a trick. 

OH MY GOD THE WAY HE JUST BOOKS IT AHHHH!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

FOR ALL YOU PEOPLE SAYING DEAN DOESN’T RECIPROCATE, LOOK AT THIS!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

There’s no way it’s really Cas. 

But god, the way he runs to him. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

It’s probably Chuck though. 

WHOA! 

UMMM!!

WELL! 

THAT WASN’T WHO I WAS EXPECTING AT ALL! 

But OKAY THEN!! I’M EXCITED! 

I LOVE HIIM!!

WELCOME BACK MARK!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

My Mom: I LOVE HIM! So excited!! <3 <3 (Yeah we’re definitely related. XD)

Also! 

Dean’s FACE when he saw that it was Luci. XD XD XD 

Now THAT is a highlight of this episode. XD XD 

Jensen you dork. XD XD <3 <3 <3 <3 

Anyways. 

HAHA I LOVE HIM!! XD <3 <3 

“As you guys know” XD XD 

OMG I LOVE HIM!! XD XD <3 <3 <3 

I mean, yeah, I wouldn’t trust him either. 

But also, I love him. XD <3 

....?? 

Huh. 

This is...interesting. 

HA!

OH! I see what he’s doing! 

New Death! 

Smaaaart Luci! 

...what if she hates them just as much as Billie? 

...did Dean just hide behind Sam? 

Oh no he crossed over okay lol. That makes a lot more sense. XD XD 

OPE! 

Frick. 

LUCI OMG!! XD XD <3 <3 

“And that...whatever that is.” XD XD 

HA! 

I like her. XD <3 <3 

I love how she’s talking in the third person now like they’re children. XD XD 

They’re just...a little surprised, okay? Don’t be too hard on them. 

...uh oh. 

I don’t trust that AT ALL, but okay...

My baby is monitoring Luci so closely I love him. <3 

OOOF. This is gonna be rough. 

“Mikey” XD XD <3 <3 

HA! 

The way Sam and Dean both react to the “humanity”. XD XD They were just like “excuse you?” XD 

“Asshats”?? XD XD 

“Of course I’m sure. I’m Death.” “You’ve been Death for an hour.” XD XD

...there’s a catch. There’s no way. That’s too easy. 

...yep. There it is. 

DANGAT LUCI! 

But I liiiiked you. 

Oh FRICK! 

Yeah okay. That makes a LOT more sense. 

...ouch. 

FRICK! 

Okay Jack! It’s up to you! 

Yeah he would never, so shut your face Luci. 

He says no. 

HA! XD XD 

...huh. 

Well. 

That was quick. 

Is there another catch? Cause Luci wasn’t back for very long... 

...why is Jack being so weird?? 

Like, I love my baby to death, and I definitely trust him, but he’s being soooo weird...

...a...a battle? Michael, chill. That was barely a scuffle. 

Yeah, so instead he sent Lucifer to TRICK CALL DEAN WITH CAS’S VOICE!!! SO NOT COOL LUCI!!! SO! NOT! COOL!!!! 

...you totally did don’t even. 

God. All these angels with their daddy issues. 

All these panning shots again. I love them. 

Like, dude, the camera didn’t change at all. That was awesome. <3 

...huh. 

...again, too easy. There has to be a catch. There has to be. 

But also, I really love how they did that, bouncing back in forth between them getting to the special place and Sam talking about the plan. Cool storytelling. 

Summon something unstoppable to fight him...well that just sounds like another problem, doesn’t it?? 

My Mom: That’s a really pretty special place. (She’s not wrong.)

...I’m waiting for the catch. 

I’m waiting very nervously for the catch. 

My Mom: Whoa. 

...it didn’t work?? 

...frick. 

FRICK!!! 

DANGAT!!! 

SEIROUSLY??!!

UGH!!! FREAKING SCREW YOU MICHAEL!!! 

WHATEVER!!! Jerk. 

Ha! 

Saw that coming. 

UMMMM

UMMMMMMMMM

Okay that’s terrifying. 

No likey. 

My Mom: Ouch. Me: Yeah no kidding. 

Bye Michael. You deserved it for betraying us. 

LEAVE THEM ALONE!! 

...ouch. That hurts, because THE SHOW IS OVER! :’( :’( 

HA! YES SAM! 

DANGAT!!

COME ON JACK!!

Jack is bound to pivotal in this somehow...

COME ON JACK! 

HA! 

Okay, I shouldn’t be laughing, but I wanna talk about this for a second and why I laughed. One of the reasons my dad stopped watching this show is because he hated that they kept falling into the trope of bringing the big bads down to a fist-fight so that the boys have a chance. But let me tell you: it makes perfect sense right here. Chuck has the high ground. He has all the power, and he is just reveling in it. He knows (or rather, thinks, because I have faith that they’ll get out of this somehow) that he has them, and that they’re his, and he wants to take the time to truly make them suffer. Killing them quickly is too easy. It ruins the fun for him. But this? This is toying with them. It’s exactly what he wants. And it’s perfect. 

Come on boys! Stand your ground! You can do this! 

... 

:’( :’( :’( 

OW! 

My mom and I are both just cringing and turning away, because OW! 

SCREW YOU CHUCK! 

Come on boys. You can do this. 

THEY WON’T! 

OUR BOYS NEVER STAY DOWN! 

YES BOYS!! YOU GOT THIS!!! <3 <3 <3 

THEY JUST KEEP TAKING IT!! THEY KEEP GETTING BACK UP!!! I LOVE THEM!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THEY WON’T EVER GIVE UP YOU JERK!! 

OH MY GOD!!! THAT SHOT!!! SAM HELPING DEAN UP!! THEM HELPING EACH OTHER STAND!!! THAT is a BEAUTIFUL MOMENT PEOPLE!!! OH MY GOD!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

They’re SMILING!!! I LOVE IT!!! 

JACK!!! IT’S JACK!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

YES BABY!!! GET HIM!!!! 

“Hey Jack” THE WAY HE SAYS THAT ALL CAUTIOUS HA!! I LOVE IT!!! 

YOU BETTER BE SCARED! 

DUDE!!!!!

DUDE DUDE DUDE!!!! 

HE IS POWERED UP!!!! 

THAT’S MY BABY!!!! 

YES!!!! 

YES BABY!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THAT’S MY BOY!!!! <3 <3 <3 

OH MY GOD YES!!!

THAT! WAS! AWESOME!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

I don’t even know how, but WOW!!! THAT WAS SO COOL!!!! 

HECK YEAH WE DID!! 

...wait...what? 

It’s...it’s empty? Cause...only Death can read it, right? 

YES BOYS!!! 

OH MY GOD YES!!!! 

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!! 

HA! I LOVE IT!!! 

I LOVE THE WAY THEY’RE DOING THIS OH MY GOD!!!! 

THIS IS OUR BOYS!!! 

OH!!

THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!!!! 

Of COURSE Sam and Dean knew!! Because they WOULD KNOW!!! 

DUDE!!! THAT IS THE COOLEST THING EVER!!!! 

OH MY GOD YES!!!! 

THIS IS SO AWESOME!!! THESE BOYS!!! MY BABY!!! OH MY GOD!!! I LOVE IT!!! 

My Mom: JACK!!! <3 <3 <3 This! Is! Awesome!

THAT is a Winchester ending. Like no other. <3 <3 <3 <3 

HA! SCREW YOU YOU JERK!! 

They are 100% going to let him live. 

Because he wants to die. 

So they’re not gonna let him. 

HA!! I KNEW IT!! 

THAT’S OUR BOYS!!! 

THAT! IS SO PERFECT!! 

POETIC JUSTICE PEOPLE!! 

OH MY GOD!!! 

GUYS!!!

“That’s not who I am.” 

After Chuck just called him the ultimate killer, he knows he isn’t. 

BECAUSE OF CAS!! 

GUYS!!! 

HE TOOK CAS’S WORDS TO HEART OH MY GOD!!!

YES!!!

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!! 

THAT IS THE BEST THING EVER!!!  THANK YOU CAS!!! 

CHARACTER!! GROWTH!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“It’s not his power anymore.” YAAAAAS BABY!!! <3 <3 

JACK REALLY IS OUR NEW GOD AHHH!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

HA! 

THAT is the BEST!!! 

YES!!!

THAT is EXACTLY what you deserve, Chuck! 

THIS! IS! PERFECT!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

BEAUTIFUL RESOLUTION SPN!!! SO GOOD!!!! 

Oh man, that music. The camera work. EVERYTHING!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

HE’S SO DESPERATE OH MY GOD YES!!!! 

YOU DESERVE IT CHUCK!!! YOU DESERVE IT YOU JERK!!! 

YES BOYS!!! I’M SO PROUD!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Guys OH MY GOD!! 

There are 15 minutes left still ahhhh I need this commercial to end so I can see the final resolution of this episode. 

WE BAAAAACK!! 

So...Jack can fix all of this now, right?? 

HIS LITTLE SMILE OH MY GOD I LOVE HIM!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

HE DIIIIID IT!!!! 

MY BABY!!! I’M SO PROUD!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

HIS LITTLE SMILE OH MY GOD I’M CRYING!!! :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) <3 <3 <3 <3 

AND THIS SONG!! IT’S SO PERFECT FOR THIS SCENE!!

THE DOGGO!!! <3 <3 <3 

JACK’S EXTRA LITTLE SMILE FOR THE DOGGO OMG!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

safkl;jdsklfsajd THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Awww Dean! <3 

Awww....

...he isn’t, is he? 

... :( 

AWWW!!!

“I’m me.” <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) 

JUST LIKE WHAT HE SAID IN JIM’S GEMS!! 

OH MY GOD AHHH!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

I’M CRYING OH MY GODDDDDD!!! :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

HE’S SO WISE AHHH!! I LOVE HIM!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

FAKJLA:DJKFD OH MY GOD AHHHH!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“I learned from you...and my mother...and Castiel..that when people have to be their best, they can be.” YEAH HI THAT’S IT!!! I’M DONE!!! I’M LOST!! ALL THE TEARS!!! 

“And that’s what to believe in.” <3 <3 <3 <3 

THIS IS SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL OMG!!! THIS IS SUCH A PERFECT ENDING FOR MY BABY I’M SO PROUD AHHH!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

AND THIS IS SUCH A BITTERSWEET GOODBYE, but MAN, I LOVE IT!!! 

BECAUSE IT ISN’T REALLY GOODBYE!!

BECAUSE HE’LL ALWAYS BE THERE!!! 

AND HE KNOWS HOW TO PROTECT THE WORLD BECAUSE OF HIS DADS (AND KELLY)!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

OH MY GOD I’M CRYING ALL OF THE HAPPY TEARS RIGHT NOW THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

My Mom: OMG THIS IS SO GOOD!! <3 <3 

HE JUST TOUCHED HIS HEART I’M GONNA LOSE MY SH** OH MY GODDDDDD!!! :’) :’) :’) <3 <3 <3 <3 

HIS LITTLE GOODBYE!!! JUST LIKE HIS LITTLE HELLO!!! THIS IS SO PERFECT OH MY FREAKING GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“See ya Jack.” <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

OMG THIS SHOT WAS IN THE “Carry On” PROMO!!! 

“To everyone that we lost along the way.” :’( :’( :’( :’) :’) :’) <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

I’M CRYING OH MY GOD THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!

THEY’RE FINALLY FREE!!! 

THEY’RE FINALLY FREE!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THAT LITTLE WAY DEAN GRABS SAM BEFORE THEY WALK OFF AHHHH!!! <3 <3 <3 

THEIR NAMES ARE ON THE TABLE HOLY FRICK!!!

CAS AND JACK’S NAMES ARE ON THE TABLE GUYS I JUST LOST ALL FUNCTIONALITY OH MY GOD!!!!! :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THEY’RE DRIVING OFF!!! <3 <3 <3

OH MY GOD WHAT??!! 

THEY’RE ACTUALLY. MONTAGING US RIGHT NOW HOLY FRICK!!! 

GUYS THIS FEELS SO FINAL WHAT COULD NEXT WEEK EVEN BRING OH MY GODDDD!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THIS SONG TOO!!! GUYS OH MY GOD MY TEARS ARE JUST FALLING EVEN MORE!!! :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) :’) <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THEY WERE SO LITTLE OH MY GOD!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

JESS!!

BELA!

DEATH! 

BECKY!

DONNA!

ALL OF THESE OLD CHARACTERS!!!! AHHHHH!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

CHARLIE!! 

KEVIN!!!

THE WAY THEY’RE DOING THIS OH MY GOD I’M LOSING MY MIND!!! 

KELLY!!

THE DRIVING SCENE!!!!

ALL OF THESE SCENES OH MY GOD MY MOM AND I ARE JUST FULL-ON SOBBING RIGHT NOW!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

BOBBY!!

PAMELA!!

ELLEN!!!

CAS AND DEAN!! <3 <3 <3 

JODY! 

RUFUS! 

GARTH! 

MISSOURI!

GABRIEL! 

ROWENA!

EILEEN!

THIS ROLE CALL!!! GUYS!!! THIS WAS NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING AT ALL OMG THIS FEELS SO FINAL!!!! 

JO!

LUCI! 

KETCH! 

LEBANON!! <3 <3 <3 

THAT BULL SCENE!! 

FAN FICTION!!! <3 <3 <3 

MEG! 

CROWLEY! 

MICK!! 

BELPHEGOR!! 

WAYWARD SISTERS!! <3 <3 <3 

TEAM FREE WILL 2.0!!! THEIR LAST SCENES OF THE MONTAGE WERE OF TEAM FREE WILL 2.0!!! I LOVE IT!!! 

AND THAT ENDING SCENE!!! THE IMPALA!!!

“We got work to do.” 

GUYS!!! GUYS!!! GUYS!!!

COULD THAT HAVE BEEN ANY BETTER OH MY GOD!!! 

I LOVED IT!!! 

I LOVED IT I LOVED IT I LOVED IT!!! 

GUYS I MORE OR LESS CAN JUST JUMP RIGHT INTO THIS BECAUSE I’M ACTUALLY HAPPY CRYING NOT EVEN SAD CRYING OMG!!! 

I! LOVED! THIS! EPISODE!! 

THIS! WAS! SO! GOOD!! IT WAS PERFECT!! I HONESTLY DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW NEXT WEEK IS GONNA LOOK NOW!! That felt SOOO final, and I honestly wasn’t expecting that! 

I mean, I knew that this episode was intended to be the season finale, with next week being the series finale, but guys...that felt so final oh my god. And it was SO! GOOD!!! I FREAKING LOVED IT!! 

So, as I often do, I scrolled through Tumblr and other various social media posts to see what people thought, and I was so surprised to see that so many people didn’t like it! While I admit that the episode had a couple little flaws, and while there are still a couple of pieces missing, guys...there’s still one episode left. They can tie up the final loose ends (Cas and Eileen being the two big ones there) then. 

And for a “season finale”?? This. Was. BEAUTIFUL!! The way they tied up Chuck’s storyline was SUCH a Winchester thing, and it was beautiful. And Jack?? BECOMING THE NEW GOD AFTER ALL?! PERFECT! And the way they said goodbye?? STELLAR!! 

AND THEN THE MONTAGE??!! You can’t POSSIBLY tell me that that wasn’t the BEST THING EVER and didn’t make you cry and feel so happy and content!!! BECAUSE IT WAS PERFECT!! 

There was SOOO much about this episode to LOVE, and so much to break down, so the rest of this analysis is gonna be so freaking long, but gosh darnat, I’m ready. 

Okay, I’ll start out with the (very few) negatives so I can end with the amazing positives, though, frankly, I’m ‘bout to combat most of those negatives, because guys, this was too perfect. Don’t even with me. 

So, actually, when I’m focusing just on my own opinion here, the only, only thing that I didn’t really like about the episode was that they randomly brought back Lucifer only to kill him right away again. I get why they did it, but it’s not my favorite plot point. I had the same problem when they did it with Gabriel back in Season 13. If you’re not actually gonna keep them, then don’t bother bringing them back. Find something else. 

That said, I was really happy to see Lucifer, and it made me so happy to see Mark Pellegrino on the screen again. So, in the end, it was worth it, especially with EVERYTHING ELSE they did in return! <3 <3 

Alright. Now I want to address my thoughts on some of the things other people didn’t like about the episode.

First of all, yes, there was not a ton of talk about Cas’s death. But here’s the thing: we didn’t need it. Character-wise, and story-wise, a ton of talk about it wouldn’t make sense. Dean is emotionally stunted. He isn’t going to outwardly react here. In fact, it was pretty obvious that he was trying to be the strong one, but the fact that he couldn’t even try to comfort Jack other than an “I’m sorry” just proves how much he was really struggling inside. Plus, his binge-drinking later just furthers that. Ever heard of show not tell? We don’t need to sit there and listen to them talk about Cas’s death, because we can see how much it’s affecting them--especially Dean and Jack. 

Jack is heartbroken. From the second Dean tells him, we see how much he’s hurting, and it doesn’t go away--not even at the end. Even when he says goodbye, and everyone’s (theoretically) happy, the second he says Cas’s name, his voice breaks a little (more on that ending later). It’s so sad, but so beautiful. 

And Dean? I mean, come on people. The drinking and everything about his face is our first sign. Plus, when he and Sam went to Chuck to make a deal, Dean specifically emphasized that he needed Cas back in order for this deal to go off--and the emotion in his voice when he said it was beautiful. Plus, on top of all of that, there was that scene. You know, the one where he thinks it’s Cas, when there is no way it could be Cas, but he’s so desperate for it to be Cas that he loses all sense of logic and books it up the stairs?? THAT SCENE? Yeah. I’d say he’s pretty heartbroken, and lost, and confused without Cas. PLUS, he actually listened to every word that Cas said to him. Because, after Chuck tried to tell him that all he was was a killer? HE! SAID! NO! And that was because of Cas. 

And THEN, on top of all of that, THEY PUT CASTIEL ON THE TABLE!! (Side note: I’m pretty sure the fandom has collectively decided that the only reason it said “Castiel” is because the writers didn’t want to end on a “Cas” vs “Cass” debate, and I freaking love that, because I agree. XD) There would’ve been no better way to honor his death without bringing him back (more on that later). I! FREAKING! LOVED! IT! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Alright. Now, let’s break down that ending, positives, negatives, and everything in between. 

Let me start by saying--and I cannot say this enough--I LOVED this ending. LOVED! IT! I thought it was a perfect end for Chuck, for Jack, for the boys--everyone. It was so beautiful and well-thought out, and the way they portrayed it was extra special. I thought it was amazing. 

Now, before I talk about what I loved about that ending, let me address the haters. And, be warned, I know I’m gonna get a little defensive here, but just remember: all of you are entitled to your opinions, and that’s totally fine. These are just my own thoughts--even if some of them might come off a little harsh--because I really do appreciate what the show did with this episode, whether other people do or not. And yes, I know Bucklemming wrote it, and they’re nobody’s favorite, but honestly, I thought they did really well with this one. It was AWESOME. 

For starters, we don’t know that the boys didn’t check in on all of their friends. We really can’t assume that. We went from the boys being in the middle of whatever town they were in (there were so many locations...I kind of lost track of where they ended up at the end...was it still Minnesota?) to them being in the Bunker. We have no idea what happened on the ride back, and my guess is probably that they did exactly that--checked in on everyone. Sam probably called Jody and Donna and Bobby and Charlie and all of them to make sure they were back and okay, because you’re right. They would. And they probably did. But the thing is, we didn’t need to see that, because we can assume that. Jack brought everybody back. Why do we have any reason to think that the boys’ closest friends and family wouldn’t be part of that list? They disappeared, and Jack brought back the people that disappeared. It makes sense to me. 

Second of all, Cas. Look, Destielers. I ship it too, okay? I do. How much I ship it depends on the day, but I do ship it. And I’m gonna say it, and you’re all going to hate me, but I am okay that Dean didn’t immediately ask Jack to bring Cas back because I think it works. I’m gonna be honest--I don’t think Cas is coming back. At least, not in the way everyone wants him to, and I think that’s good. I mean, the whole point of that scene was that Cas was sacrificing himself so Dean could live a life. It’s exactly what Jack was gonna do for Sam and Dean in 15x17, but the difference is that Jack was doing it out of guilt (and love, but mostly guilt). Cas was doing it completely and utterly out love. Sacrificing himself in the way he did led to everything that happened in this episode. It meant Sam and Dean being together to make the plan that let Jack become God. It meant letting the rest of his family live so that they could save the world. And guys...that sacrifice is amazing. Put the Destiel in it, take the Destiel out of it, do whatever, but that is exactly what Cas’s character has always been about. He’s been about protecting humanity and, especially, protecting Dean. And he did exactly that. I know I’m talking a lot about 15x18 right now, but I swear it connects. 

The thing is, if Jack brings Cas back, what does that do? I mean, yes, Dean would get him back, but...Jack isn’t even coming home. He’s God now. He’s protecting the world. And...as sad as it is, he doesn’t need his dads. They taught him so much, and now he’s able to be who is because of that. And Sam and Dean? They’re okay. They’re able to live their lives now. And guys, please don’t hate me, but Cas...doesn’t need to be in the story. His sacrifice was what brought them to where they are, and that is a beautiful thing. And I think Sam and Dean and Jack know that too. I mean, where do you think the “to everyone that we lost along the way” came from? 

Plus, in a much more real sense, think about this. The Empty’s mad at Cas, and the Empty is pretty dang powerful. What happens if Jack brings him back? Don’t you think that would open up a whole new world of problems? Wouldn’t that just put the Empty on our tail again? Yes, the Empty can’t come to Earth, but honestly, I’d be more bothered if they just pulled him back and didn’t address the problems that could cause from the Empty’s perspective. 

Guys. I know it sucks. I miss him too. But story-wise, it actually makes sense, whether we want to believe it or not. And again: we still have one episode left. They’re not just gonna leave it at that. I have faith that Cas is going to come back in some form--maybe not back back, per se, but probably as a memory or, as I mentioned before, maybe even in Dean’s Heaven. Whatever it is, Cas is still going to play a part in those final scenes, because our boys wouldn’t be who they are without him. And the show isn’t going to let him be forgotten. No one is. 

Lastly, those of you who are complaining about it being a bronlies ending...just...stop. XD 

Look. I love Team Free Will. I love Team Free Will 2.0. My favorite character is Jack. I am all for the expansive Winchester family. I love our new characters and our new family. 

But guys...the core of this show still is and always will be the Winchester brothers. Yes, their family got bigger. And yeah, that’s the most special thing ever. But their relationship will always, always be what drives this show. It’s what this show’s been about since Day 1, and even with their extended family, it’s still what this show has always been about--two brothers, saving people and hunting things together. So, yeah, the ending’s gonna be about the bros. Even next week, the ending is probably gonna be the bros. Because that’s what this show is. And it’s not like they forgot about their family. Guys, their names were ON THE TABLE. That right there proves how much of a family they all were. But in the end, it’s still always Sam and Dean. Always. And that’s how it should be. I”m not saying don’t include Cas and Jack. I’m not saying don’t include all of the other characters. For gosh sake, please, include all of the other characters. WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT MONTAGE WAS FOR?! But, in the end, the story only wraps when Sam and Dean’s story wraps, because that’s what this story is. And, to reiterate, it isn’t actually over. So. That’s what I have to say to that. 

Now that I have gotten all of that out of the way (holy frick I can’t believe I have more to say--can you imagine how long this is gonna be next week??), let me break down, from my perspective, how BEAUTIFUL that ending was. Piece. By. Piece. 

That entire twist was EPIC. That was the most Winchester ending to ever Winchester. The convolution. The fact that Sam and Dean knew about Jack, and knew about Michael, and used all of it to their advantage was so unbelievably THEM, and I loved it. And on top of that, the fact that Jack wound up being the pivotal turning point in that whole fight was BEAUTIFUL. Chuck’s clear panic and desperation and Jack just LAYING HIM! AMAZING! 

Those last lines between Sam and Dean and Chuck were SO. BEAUTIFULLY. WRITTEN. Chuck wanted a poetic ending--his characters being stronger than him and killing him in the end. But no. Because Sam and Dean and Jack are better than that. And the fact that Dean KNEW THAT, BECAUSE OF CAS?! “That’s not who I am.” Beautiful. And THEN! THIS:

“Then I think it’s the ending where you’re just like us. And like all the other humans you forgot about.” 

“It’s the ending where you grow old, you get sick, and you just die.” 

“And no one cares. And no one remembers you. You’re just...forgotten.” 

Because GUYS! 

THAT. IS. PERFECT.

Not only is that the best justice that Chuck could have possibly received after all of the crap he’s pulled, but think about that last line for a minute. “No one cares. No one remembers you. You’re just forgotten.”

That is the EXACT OPPOSITE of the legacy Sam and Dean will be leaving behind. It’s the exact opposite of the legacy of this show and its characters, because none of them will ever be forgotten. They think they will, but they won’t. That line says so much about this show, and that is absolutely amazing. 

And then, after all of that, everyone comes back because of Sam and Dean and Jack and what they did, and that just furthers that line of legacy even more. 

And oh my gosh. Jack. That proud little smile. The amount of wisdom that he has at freaking three years old--all because of his dads. I mean, let’s just think about that for a second. Jack was born with the entire world convinced that he was going to destroy it. But because of two salty hunters and a fallen angel, he became the new protector of everyone and everything, and he knows how to do it right. BECAUSE OF THEM. He knows how to care, how to treat people, and how to make the world a better place. All. Because. Of. Them. 

And yeah, he didn’t go back home, and it hurts a little bit, knowing that the little family isn’t together anymore. But Jack’s exactly right--they are together, and they always will be. Because they’ll always be in each other’s hearts. Jack won’t ever be far, and Cas will always be there in spirit. Always. 

And Sam and Dean? They’re gonna have each other until the day they die, just as they should. 

And to end all of that with the most beautiful freaking montage I have ever seen. Guys, I thought the Swan Song montage was the best thing in the world. But that? That left it completely behind. “To everyone that we lost along the way.” And, to all the people who are still in our hearts. To show all those characters, to show all those moments, and to show how they all impacted our boys...And then to end it with the boys driving off together towards their new future? Their free future? It. Was. Perfect. 

And, I will say this. Was everything completely wrapped up? No. Was it pretty dang close? Heck yeah. If this had been the official ending, I would’ve been a little disappointed, but it would’ve worked. Obviously, there are definitely a few key character and emotional pieces missing, but that’s why we have next week--one more to try to tie up our last little bits of emotion, and really truly finish out the story. But in all honesty, that was a BEAUTIFUL ending for the season, and I couldn’t have asked for anything better for this episode. 

In the beginning of Season 15, I started getting nervous. I started wondering: what if the ending sucks? I mean, I can name several shows that went on for so long with so many great things and then had a terrible ending that ruined it for fans. I was worried it would happen to Supernatural too. 

But after seeing that semi-ending--after seeing their season finale--I have total faith in them, as I should’ve from the beginning. I know that there’s no way that this ending could be bad. Not when they just delivered that to us. Between the storytelling, the acting, the cinematography, the editing, the music--all of it. It was such a BEAUTIFUL episode, and honestly, it’s already in my top ten. 

Say what you want about Bucklemming. Say what you want about the lack of Destiel. Say what you want about this episode. But to me, this episode was beautiful, and it couldn’t have been a more perfect way to end the Season 15 storyline. 

I am so, so excited to see what they give us next week. It’s going to be amazing. 

My Rating: 30/10

P.S. I...want to react to the 15x20 promo, but...there isn’t really much to react to, because they’re really trying to keep us from knowing what’s gonna happen I guess. So, I’m gonna wait and see if anymore promotional material comes out and then do it all at once. 

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15x19 Promo Photos

Alright. Let’s just jump right into it, since I’m doing so many in a row today lol. 

Link

JKFSJ:LDFS THIS PICTURE OH MY GOD!! You know what it reminds me of?? That scene, in 12x21 (check episode number) where they’re sitting against the wall talking about their legacy while they’re locked in the Bunker ‘cause of Ketch. This right here? This is a bro talk picture. This is a “what does our future look like” picture. This is a “what do we do next” picture. This. Is a “we can do this...together” picture. And that makes me very excited to hear the dialogue. <3 <3 <3 

MICHAEL! Okay yeah, that makes a lot of sense. I bet that’s the “something out there” that Jack was talking about in the promo. Now I feel kind of silly for being scared lol. Yay Michael! Help us take down your dad! (Also, side note: I saw this theory that suggests there’s a chance that Lucifer might be back to help with the final fight, but, like, I’m really not sure how that would happen, or, more importantly, why, so...I’m not buying it. Let’s stick with Michael.) 

OOOH!! ANOTHER SHOT OF THE BOUND TO BE AWESOME SCENE!! Gosh, Dean looks such a great combination of pissed and scared in that picture, and that makes me nervous and sad, but I really do have faith in our boys. <3 <3 

That’s an Impala shot. I can see the blurry steering wheel. Sam looks...worried? But a little bit of...determination is in there too, I think. And maybe hope? That’s kind of a hard expression to read, but it doesn’t look terrible or gut-wrenching, so I’m gonna call that a positive! 

OOP! That’s a planning picture. They are scheming with Michael. I like it. (Also, Jensen is hot. <3 <3) 

BABY!!! MY BOYS!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Also Jack looks so cute in that little jacket, because it’s just a little too big for him. Headcanon--without even watching the episode--that that jacket is either Sam or Dean’s and they gave it to him, because of course they did. <3 

Oooh...Michael looks...mad. I hope it’s at God and not at our boys. :( (Also that’s a really good shot of Jake Abel. <3) 

Welp. Normally, I would love a shot like that, because it would be our full Team Free Will 2.0, planning and back in action. However, since there’s one key member missing from that group, it stings my heart, because Michael is not anywhere near a replacement for Cas. Yes, I’m sure he’ll be very helpful, but in that particular picture...god it stings. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( That said, that is definitely a planning shot, which gives me hope that they have some way to bring everyone back (...except Cas… :’( :’( ) 

Another planning shot! What are those circles on the map? And OH! God’s book!! Maybe Michael can figure out how to open it?? So we can read it?? Cause man, that would be helpful. Or...would reading it be bad? Would that make it a self-fulfilling prophecy, but in a bad way? “If I tell you what happens, it won’t happen” kind of thing? (Thanks Marvel.) Huh...I guess we’ll find out? 

Welp. 

The only question that actually answered was that the “something out there” is probably Michael, which makes me think that the promo only covered, like, the first ten minutes of the episode. 

Beyond that, I have no idea what’s going to happen in this episode. Obviously, Dean has to tell Sam and Jack about Cas, and we’re bound to get some emotional trauma over that. Plus, that bro-ment that I was talking about between Sam and Dean is bound to bring some tears to eyes if it’s anything like that Season 12 scene--especially being so close to the actual end. 

All in all, this is bound to be an intense episode, both emotionally and story-wise. I’m honestly not sure what to expect. 

I saw some posts on Tumblr talking about how Buckleming will be writing this episode, and while that makes me a little nervous, knowing their track record, I also know that this is the second-to-last episode, and there’s no way that they’re going to be able to get away with putting something crappy out there. Not with all of the people that are trying to make this final season--these final episodes--the best it can be. So, I’m optimistic. 

I think this is gonna be a good episode, and I really, really, really hope we don’t lose anyone else… (although, I’m probably gonna be disappointed…)

T minus 3 hours to 15x19! 

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15x19 Promo

Alright! Here we are, finally hitting the promotional material for 15x19...the unofficial season finale. 

I find this semi-two-parter thing really interesting, but it also makes me really nervous. What does that mean for tonight? What kinds of things are gonna happen? And how does it all tie in to the final episode?? 

AHHH!! I can’t believe we’re so close!! My heart is racing just thinking about it!!! 

Also, THIS TITLE AHHH!! WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN??!! 

Okay. Okay. I’m okay. I can do this. 

Let’s watch. 

“Next Thursday” XD XD (Laughing at myself for watching this now instead of last week oops.) 

“There’s no one left to save.” Sam noooo. You’re supposed to be the positive one noooo. This is baaaad. 

A...a dog?? XD XD XD

A DOG?? XD XD 

Okay, but, like, I can totally imagine Dean trying to ignore his feelings by getting a dog. I saw a Tumblr post where somebody was saying how it would be really OOC for Dean to like a dog, but I totally disagree. I mean, remember the Dog Dean Afternoon episode? Dean learned to have an appreciation--even a love--for dogs after that episode. So is it really so OOC? Plus, he’s bound to be crazy upset after everything with Cas. I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s clinging on to anything left he can find, just to give himself something to cling on to and save. 

“2 Episodes Left” !!!!!! *SCREAMING* *HYPERVENTILATING* WHAT AM I GONNA DO WHEN IT SAYS “1 Episode Left”. WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITH MY LIFE??!! I DON’T KNOW WHAT MY LIFE IS BEYOND SUPERNATURAL!!! 

...anyways. 

“There’s something out there...besides us.” ???? Which...which is WHAT??! Like, other people, or, like, another being? Or, like...JESUS CHRIST WHAT IS THIS SHOW GONNA THROW AT US NEXT???!! 

Also, ALSO, do we get a resolution to Jack just casually accidentally destroying that plant?? BECAUSE I NEED TO KNOW IF MY BABY’S OKAY GOSH DARNAT!!! I CAN’T HANDLE SOMETHING HAPPENING TO HIM TOO!!! 

“I have no idea what we’re walking into.” Yeah, well, what else is new….

AHHHH!! GUUUUUYS!!! I’M SO STRESSED!!! But I’m also so pumped and so excited, but mostly nervous and scared and sad. I honestly have no idea what to expect from this episode, and I’m also really not ready for this show to be so close to its end. 

How is Dean gonna tell Sam and Jack what happened? HOW IS MY BABY GONNA TAKE IT??!! 

WHAT IS THIS THING OUT THERE THAT WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH?! SHOULD I BE SCARED?! I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE SCARED! 

...unless it’s the thing that’s coming back to help us?? Maybe I shouldn’t be scared. Maybe I should be excited! 

I mean, I am excited. I’m just...also scared. 

UGGGGHHH! GEEZ OH MAN!!! 

...7:00 could not come any slower…

Let’s look at the promo photos. Maybe that’ll give me some answers.

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Season 15 Featurette: Where’s Your Moose

Now, see, I love Crowley, but this seems a little out of place to me, given that we haven’t actually seen him in a good three seasons? 

But! I’m intrigued to see what Mark Sheppard has to say about his character! I’m sure it’s gonna tie into the whole big event next Thursday. 

Let’s take a look! 

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JFKLDSJFDKS:FJD I MISS YOU MARK!!! <3 <3 

“Where’s your moose?” YAAAAAS! <3 <3 

There is so much about Crowley that was so iconic that just...stuck. 

Okay but, like, seriously though! Moose and Squirrel is such a THING now, and it all started with Crowley! I love it! 

ERIC KRIPKE OH MY GOD IT’S GOOD TO SEE YOU!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“He found them.” XD XD Of course he did. Of course Mark did. I love him. I miss him. That’s awesome. 

Every time it goes through all those title cards, my heart skips a beat. :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

That was another short one, but it made my heart so happy! It was really awesome to see and hear Mark again, and to see KRIPKE!! I really hope we get a lot more of that with next week’s big event. I’m sure we will. It’ll be so cool--and so emotional--to see a bunch of old cast members come back and give their thoughts and everything. 

I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again--this show really has created something special. It’s created such a legacy not only among the fandom, but in the world, and each and every person that’s been involved in the show has had an impact. It’s honestly so incredible. I feel so lucky to have been a part of it. 

I’m really looking forward to next week, but also, I’m really not ready to see it end. It’s gonna be one of heck of a final ride… :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Season 15 Featurette: Castiel’s Goodbye

...welp. 

Just by the title, this is gonna be rough. 

...here goes nothing. 

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Yeah hi can we just take a second to talk about the fact that Dean’s biggest concern there was still Cas? Not even that he was gonna die? No no. It was that Billie was gonna kill Cas in front of him, and he’d have to watch Cas die. And then WHAT HAPPENED??!! So to all of you losers out there saying Jensen played that as homophobic, just...no. Dean didn’t have enough time to process any of the stuff Cas was telling him, especially after Dean had just said that the last thing he wanted was to watch Cas die. So no, it was not homophobic. It was actually completely in character for Dean to not know how to react, thank you very much. (...anyways.) 

THESE LINES ARE GONNA BREAK ME ALL OVER AGAIN NOOOO!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I love that Misha got exactly the ending he wanted for Castiel. I agree that it was a perfect ending for him, and I’m so happy that it came out the way it did. 

Okay but is he trolling us though? Because I know there are a lot of theories out there that Cas could come back in some way, because Misha was contracted for 15 episodes and he’s only been in 14, and that picture of J2M, all with grey hair...there are a lot of signs that point to him coming back. I’m just saying. 

That said though, side note: my guess is that if Cas does come back, it won’t be, like, back back. I think it’ll be in some sort of flash forward where we kind of see everybody, maybe in Heaven or something. But I think this death was pretty final for Cas, even if his character does kind of come back in some way. 

OMG WAIT! A thought just occurred to me. WHAT IF CAS IS DEAN’S HEAVEN?! WHAT IF??!! GUYS!!! What if, at the end of everything, Dean dies (maybe also Sam, I’m honestly not sure), and when he goes to Heaven, Cas is waiting for him. Cause, like, Heaven is supposed to be your best memories, right? So what if Cas is Dean’s best memories? What if Dean’s Heaven (now anyways) is them growing old together? Because that would explain why Misha had grey hair in that picture, especially ‘cause angels don’t actually age, but if it was in Dean’s Heaven, it would make sense! Oh my god this is totally what I want now holy frick. I don’t know if it is gonna happen, and I’m sure however the show ends will be awesome, but wow that would be cool. Okay. I’m sorry. I’ll move on now. 

OOOF! That’s right! That would’ve been right before COVID! I can’t even imagine how much worse that would’ve made it.

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’(

God that’s so haaaaard. I wouldn’t have been able to manage omg. 

Wait WHAT?! 

WAIT! WAIT!!! I FORGOT THAT THAT ACCIDENT ALMOST HAPPENED! IS THAT WHEN THAT HAPPENED?! HOLY FRICK!!! 

Dude I was freaking out when I found out about that ahhhhh. 

Oh my god. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

That must’ve been so scary.... :’( :’( 

Poor J2M...Jesus. Misha especially. 

God. I can’t even imagine. 

I’m so glad they’re all okay. 

Geez Misha, I wonder why it stands out! 

God, I don’t know what I would’ve done if that plane had actually crashed. I can’t even imagine how that would’ve impacted their families or this entire fandom. I mean...wow. 

Yeah I’m really glad they’re okay. 

Okay, not gonna lie, that was not what I was expecting from that. However, it was still really interesting and really sad and also kind of terrifying to think about what could’ve happened if that plane had actually crashed. 

But the takeaway from that is that they’re all okay, they were able to go to the convention, they were able to finish shooting, and now, I have a new theory after all. 

But wow. 

Phew. 

Okay then. Let’s move on and hopefully slow my heart rate down. 

P.S. Misha Collins is somehow an incredible mix of adorable and hot (as is much of this cast) and I just can’t with him. <3 <3 

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BTS: 15x18 Photos

So, I’m pretty sure most of these photos were just posted on various cast members’ Instagram accounts, but this video showed up in my YouTube feed, and it’s S15 related, so I figured, why not? 

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CUTIES!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

MORE CUTIES!!! OMG THIS CAST!!! <3 <3 <3 

Yep. These were definitely all on Bri’s Instagram. But also THEY’RE SO CUTE!! <3 <3 

YUUUP. Lisa posted that picture. I’m not sure if you guys saw the FB post, but it was actually a really sweet goodbye post about her last scene with Jensen. God, I don’t know what I’m gonna do next Thursday when everyone’s doing that all over again… Anyways. 

...I can’t tell who that is?? It’s a fun picture, but I can’t tell who that is… XD XD Okay hold on, let me look closer. Oh! Okay. It’s Bri. That makes sense. XD <3 

CUTIES AHHHH!!! Can we talk about how adorable Felicia Day and Briana Buckmaster are?? And how ADORABLE Alexander Calvert looks in sunglasses?? 

FJKAL:JFDKSL:JFS I’M SCREAMING OVER THIS PICTURE OH MY GOD!!! J2MA has the BEST reactions here!! XD XD I love Jensen and Misha both being like “peace signs yo” with Alex in between being like “hey yo” with his arms crossed all cool and then Jared in the back is just like “save me from these wackos” and I just...OH MY GOD I LOVE THEM!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

BRIANA YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING YOU!!! <3 <3 <3 

Ahhhhh those pictures!! Those actually made me feel good about 15x18! Who would’ve thought! XD 

Man. I just love this cast so much. They’re all so freaking cute, and they all love what they do and this show so much, and it’s amazing. We’re so lucky to have them. <3 <3 <3 

It’s really hard to know that we’re not gonna be seeing them on the same screen together anymore, but I also know that, based on what this show has created, this cast is gonna stay friends forever, because it truly is a family. Pictures like this just prove it. 

The show may end, but family never does. <3 

And now I’m tearing up again. But you know what? Worth it. <3 <3

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BTS: Inside: Despair

Hey all! 

I know, I know, I’m super behind, but I’ve been on vacation all week, and it’s been messing with my ability to get stuff done lol. But I’m here now, just in time to react to a bunch of videos before the new episode! 

I’m gonna start with the videos related to 15x18, then the new featurette, and then, lastly, the promotional material for tonight’s episode. 

Let’s get started! 

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AHHHH. The beginning of this is already bringing back all the panic I felt initially ahhhh. 

God I don’t know if I can handle this little “Inside”. I haven’t stopped freaking out about the episode. It’s been a week, and I’m still not handling it very well. (Then again, are any of us???) 

GEE THANKS MISHA!! I DIDN’T KNOW!! 

“The dominoes are starting to fall.” Haha UNDERSTATEMENT MUCH??!! 

Oh believe me, I TUNED IN!! AND IT WAS VERY HURTFUL!! 

Welp, that was pretty short, and almost anything I say is just going to reiterate what I said about the episode itself. 

But seriously. Guys. What...I can’t...AHHHHH.

I guess one thing I can share is that I’m in the process of making a Destiel music video edit, because that’s how much that episode broke me and I hate it. I mean, I love it, but I hate it. 

Man…

I seriously don’t even know what to do with myself after that episode. I don’t know where this show is going, I don’t know what’s happening, I don’t know what to do with my mental and emotional state. I am just a mess. XD XD :’( :’( :’( 

So yeah. Anyways. Moving on.

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15x18: Despair

Ahhhhh. 

Alright guys. I’m so pumped, but also so scared, because I couldn’t watch it live, and my mom and I are about to watch it on the app, but all of my friends sent me spoiler free reactions and I’m kind of freaking out now that I know how much they were dying. 

BUT ANYWAYS. 

Let’s do this. 

WAIT WAIT WAIT! 

That...that parallel...IS CAS GONNA FINALLY TELL THEM ABOUT HIS DEAL??!! 

MY POOR BABY AHHHH!!!! 

HE BETTER BE OKAY!!!! 

ARE THEY GONNA SHOW THE SPEECH??!! 

Oh boo. They didn’t show the speech. 

STOOOOOP! 

JUST RESOLVE IT ALREADY!! 

“Now.” 

Cas omg that’s not gonna help. I love you and I know you’re panicking, but no. That’s like when I’m having an anxiety attack and people are like “just calm down”. But anyways. 

Dean is panicking again OMG!! It’s nice to see him openly caring about his son again! <3 <3 <3 

I’m still a little upset with him, but that’s a good start. 

Jack noooo baby! We’re not doing that! 

Awww baby. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’(

“Don’t let me hurt you.” I’M ALREADY ABOUT TO CRY OH MY GOD! :’( :’( 

“We’re not giving up on you.” THERE’S THE DEAN I KNOW AND LOVE!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

BILLIE GO AWAY!!! 

Okay actually save Jack. 

But also SHUT UP! 

Yeah? And? 

HEY! NOT NICE!! 

It was SAVED because of them! Shut up! 

Cas is so desperate omg. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

UMMMMMMM

WHERE DID HE GO??!! 

They’re all so worried ahhhh.

IS THAT THE EMPTY??!! 

Noooooo no no no no. 

That’s bad. 

No likey. 

..........

...........!!!!

NO!!!

NO NO NO!!! 

PLEASE TELL ME THAT WASN’T REAL!!! 

PLEASE TELL ME THEY’RE GONNA FIX THAT!! 

I WASN’T EXPECTING THAT SO SOON NO!!! 

Their faces. :’( :’( :’(

...maybe? That’s a good thing, right? RIGHT?! 

God, I hate her so much, but da** Lisa Berry is good at playing the villain. 

Really? WONDER WHY!! 

Haha me too Dean. 

...they keep saying “not without being summoned” in regards to the Empty and it’s making me nervous. 

...oh. 

Frick. 

Just give it back if it means getting Jack back. 

TELL HER OFF SAM!! 

Ugh. Her sass is so good and I hate it but I love it. 

BILLIE SCREW YOU!!! 

LEAVE THEM ALONE!! JUST LET OUR FAMILY BE HAPPY!!! 

OH THANK GOD HE’S ALIVE!! 

I WAS HOPING!! 

And I kind of figured, but a part of me was nervous, okay? 

BABY! <3 <3 <3 

...oh no. 

Big uh-oh. 

BABY RUN!!! 

I DON’T KNOW WHERE, BUT RUN!!! 

RUN!!! 

RUN RUN RUN!!! 

HURRY UP BOYS!!!

JACK IS IN DANGER HURRY THE FRICK UP!!! 

HA!!! 

YAAAAS SAM!!! 

We be petty in this house. 

...okay AND??!! 

YAAAASSSS DEAN!!! I LOVE MY PROTECTIVE DAD DEAN AGAIN YAAAAAY!!!! 

NO NO NO NO NOOOO! LEAVE MY BABY ALONE!!! 

STOP IT!!! 

BILLIE HURRY UP!!! 

“Interesting”??? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??!! 

OH THANK GOD! 

...that was close. 

Ummm...no. 

We’re not doing that. 

YAAAAASSSSSSS DEAN!!!! 

THAT’S MY BABY!!!! 

THAT’S THE DEAN I KNOW AND LOVE!!! I’VE MISSED YOU!!! 

YOU ARE OFFICIALLY FORGIVEN DEAN WINCHESTER!!! 

YOU ARE BACK TO SECOND FAVORITE FOR THAT MOVE RIGHT THERE!!! 

FREAKING YES!!! 

I LOVE THIS FAMILY!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Awww...Jack. :’( 

Cas running right over to him. 

Most of Cas’s lines so far have been “Jack” oof. XD :’( <3 <3 <3 

Okay so...this is...kind of a good thing, right? Like, obviously, Billie is still an issue, and obviously, Chuck is still an issue, but the FAMILY is TOGETHER again!! This is GOOD!! Why are my friends so upset about this episode?? What could possibly happen? (Anything. Anything could happen. Why would I even ask that?) 

Wow. That’s an awesome camera shot.  <3 

The smoothness of that omg I love them.  

YES DEAN!!! 

I FORGIVE YOU!! SAM FORGIVES YOU!!! <3 <3 <3 

ALL BETTER!!! I FORGIVE EVERYONE!! THIS IS GOOD!! <3 <3 <3 

(I mean, he still kind of owes Jack an apology, but, like, based on his character, everything he just did for Jack was his biggest way of saying sorry. <3 <3) 

HE SNAPPED OUT OF IT BECAUSE OF YOU SAM! 

Also it’s true. 

OMG EVEN BETTER CAMERA SHOT NOW THAT THEY’RE BOTH IN IT!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

It’s okay! Because YOU GUYS are the heavy hitters! 

“To somehow.” <3 <3 <3 <3 

THAT SHOT! I CAN’T GET OVER IT!! <3 <3 <3 

...hoh boy. 

Billie is MAAAD. 

...no likey. 

AHHHH. 

HAVE I MENTIONED LISA BERRY IS REALLY GOOD AT PLAYING THE VILLAIN??!! 

CAUSE SHE’S REALLY GOOD AT PLAYING THE VILLAIN!!

OMG MY GIIIIIRL!!! <3 <3 <3 

AWWW!! SHE FOUND A GIRLFRIEND!!! 

THIS IS SO CUTE OMG!!! 

I know it’s AU!Charlie, but STILL!! <3 <3 <3 

“Like a date.” A date only hunters could do lol. 

I love it. <3 <3 

They’re the cutest omg. <3 <3 

“Rubbery trash eggs.” I LOVE HER!! XD XD <3 <3 

...what the...

...did she just...vanish?? 

....???? 

NOOO POOR CHARLIE!! She finally had another relationship! GOD DA**IT!! 

...poor Charlie. :’( :’( :’( 

I remember Stevie from the second episode of this season. I didn’t remember her name though. 

Awww...Charlie. 

...they don’t seem that surprised. Uh-oh...

...poor Charlie. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

SHE DESERVES A GOOD LIFE GOSH DARNAT!! 

Awww... <3 <3 

MY BABY LOOKS SO SAD!!! 

OMG THAT BANTER WAS ADORABLE!! XD XD <3 <3 <3 

PROMO PIC!! THESE ADORABLE LITTLE BOIS!! <3 <3 <3 

Awww...baby. :’( :’( :’( 

Baby it’s okay. We’d rather have you here, we promise. 

He’s choking up oh my goodness Alex how dare you be such a good actor. 

BABY YOU’RE HERE FOR US!! YOU’RE HERE FOR YOUR FAMILY!! <3 <3 

YAAAASSS CAS!!! 

“We care about you because you’re you.” OH MY GOD I’M GONNA CRY THAT’S SUCH A GOOD LINE!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Jack that should’ve made you smile so much more than it did please stop beating yourself up you deserve happiness and love and they’re giving it to you because they love you gosh darnat. :’( <3 

...awww...

YOU CAN BE THERE!! THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS!! 

AWWW!!! :’( :’( :’( 

“Me too.” AND THEN WITH THE HAND ON THE SHOULDER AHHH!!! <3 <3 <3 

They need to hug. 

Hug please. 

Dangat. 

That’s okay. I’ll still take that. Good scene. 

HA!

Well, okay, Sam. Don’t sugarcoat it. 

Okay but, like, gotta be honest...I don’t think it’s Billie. Cause...these people are vanishing just like Becky did...like Chuck made her. 

Charlie... :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Charlie no! It’s not like that. 

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

...no likey. 

NO NO NO NO NOOOO!!! 

She has to be fine. 

GO GO GO!!!

My ending has Sam ending up with Eileen at the end. She better not be dead. 

Oh thank goodness. That’s a text thread. Good. 

But, like...if people are vanishing, what do they do? How do they protect her? 

....it’s gonna stop isn’t it.

FRICK!!

NO NO NO NO NO!!!

NO!!!

DA**IT!!!

IS THIS GONNA KEEP HAPPENING??!! 

IS THIS WHAT MY FRIENDS WERE TALKING ABOUT??!! 

THE WAY DEAN JUST REVS IT AND SPEEDS UP OMG. <3 <3 <3 <3 

Please Eileen...please let it be a fluke. 

...she’s not standing there. 

It’s not a fluke. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

HER BACKGROUND IS SAM OH MY GOD!! 

THEY WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!! :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

GOD DA**IT SUPERNATURAL!! :’( :’( :’( :’( 

...poor Sam. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Dean’s little supportive “Sammy” oh my god. 

Oh my god Sam. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I’m crying already ahhh. :’( :’( :’( 

Sam you’re so strong omg you poor thing. :’( :’( :’( 

HE DESERVES A GOOD LIFE TOO GOSH DARNAT!!

WAIT NO!! DON’T SPLIT THE PARTY!! BAD THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN WHEN YOU SPLIT THE PARTY!!! 

Okay that’s awesome though. 

But also don’t split the party. 

Well frick. 

OOH!! DOES THIS MEAN WE’RE GONNA GET SOME GOOD OLD DEAN AND CAS CONTENT? CAUSE THAT’S BEEN LACKING RECENTLY! 

Oh frick. Something is SOO gonna go wrong, with a hug like that. 

But also DEAN GIVING HIS BRO A SUPPORTIVE HUG OMG I LOVE IT!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

And Sam just leaning into it because he totally needs it but he’s trying not to break down but also that’s such a beautiful, subtle thing and I love it. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

That little look and nod just made a tear slip down my cheek (as if I wasn’t already blurry-eyed and crying). 

“Let’s go reap a reaper.” PROMO LINE!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

DONNA!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Sam being a protective dad and being distracted by checking in on his son I love it. <3 <3 

I love my three protective dads in this it’s adorable. 

DUDE!!! 

JACK DRIVE BABY!!! 

OMG SAM I LOVE YOU FOR DOING THAT!!! 

HE’S DOING WHAT HE KNOWS WILL DISTRACT HIM AND CHEER HIM UP BECAUSE IT’S WHAT HE DID WITH DEAN AND GIVES HIM SOMETHING TO DO OMG IT’S SO CUTE I LOVE IT!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Whoa. That music change. That was intense. 

NICE SHOT OF DEAN!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

GO DEAN AND CAS GO! 

“Hiya kid.” “Hey.” So soft omg. <3 <3 <3 <3 

Awww baby... 

THAT HUG!!! 

IT WAS IN THE PROMO!!! 

AWWW DONNA!!! :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THEY BETTER BE OKAY!!! 

I’M GONNA BE REALLY MAD IF THEY’RE NOT OKAY!!! 

“Anything you need.” I freaking love Donna. She’s such an under-appreciated character. <3 <3 

MY GIRL! <3 <3 

YAAAASSS CHARLIE!! <3 <3 <3 

Poor thing...

But also I love you and I’m proud of you. 

God all of my favorite characters are suffering and losing so much I hate it. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

JUST LIKE BACK IN S14!!! 

Ha! Bobby omg. XD XD 

No. 

It probably won’t given our luck. 

Awww Sam.... :’( 

...there are kids in there. 

...which definitely means it isn’t gonna work. 

But I’m gonna be optimistic and let myself get crushed anyways. 

Awww Donna.... 

Awww Jack..... :’( 

UMMMMMM

....what?? 

What just happened?? 

That is so not cool. 

That is completely against everything Jack is what? 

No. 

Not okay. 

Don’t tell me he destroys anything he touches now. 

I don’t know how that would’ve happened. 

But no. 

....uh oh. 

That’s too easy. 

Run boys. 

OH MY GOD DID SHE JUST--

OH MY GOD SHE JUST--

“Hello boys.” HOLY FRICK I’M WHEEZING HOW DARE SHE MAKE ME LAUGH!! XD XD 

HA! 

GET HER DEAN! 

But also run because this is too easy. 

EEEEEE!! I DIG A BADA** DEAN!!! 

God she’s such a good villain, but also screw you Billie!! 

PROMO SCENE!!! 

DEAN HURRY!!!! 

YES!!!!

GO DEAN!!!!

GET HER!!!

IT’S CHUCK!!! 

I FREAKING KNEW IT!!! 

...dangat. 

We can’t do anything about that....

PROMO SCENE!!

SYMBOLS ARE GONNA LIGHT UP! 

YEP! I WAS RIGHT! 

I over-analyze those promos way too much lol. 

Wait...for what? 

It has to be! 

NOOOO. No likey. 

FRICK! 

DANGAT! 

I KNEW IT! 

NO NO NOOOO!!! 

OH MY GOD NO! 

THIS WAS IN THE PROMO! 

CHARLIE NOOOOO!!!! :’( :’( :’( 

BOBBY. NO!!!!

WE’RE LOSING EVERYBODY NOOO!!!

Oh no. 

No no no no no. 

Not Donna. 

Don’t you dare. 

Tell me it’s not true. 

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

HA! 

WELL TAKE THAT BILLIE!! 

ATTABOY DEAN!!! 

Wait nooooooo. 

That’s bad! 

Nope nope nope. 

Run you two. 

OMG that little moment. 

Cas stepped protectively in front of Dean, and then Dean immediately pulled him back and out of harms way. <3 <3 <3 

PROMO! 

BILLIE IS SCARY AHHH!! 

RUN YOU GUYS!!! 

Good call. 

But also how do you run from a cosmic entity??

Oh my god...

Jack’s face... 

Sam’s face...

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

DOES THIS MEAN JODY AND THE GIRLS ARE GONE TOO??!! 

OH GOD I DON’T WANNA THINK ABOUT THAT. 

Dean talking to himself. <3 

HEY!!!

STOP THAT!!! 

PROTECTIVE CAS! <3 <3 <3 <3 

BILLIE GO AWAY!!! NO ONE LIKES YOU!! 

SCREW YOU BILLIE!!! 

YEAH IT DOES, AND IT BETTER F**ING STAY THAT WAY!!! 

HA! 

YES CAS! WAY TO GET HIM OUT OF THERE! <3 <3 <3 

“I’ve got you.” <3 <3 <3 <3 

PROMO!

No. 

It’s never time. 

Shut up Billie. 

NO! 

LEAVE THEM ALONE! 

YES CAS!! 

SO PROTECTIVE I LOVE IT!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

YES CAS!!! WAY TO GO YOU AMAZING ANGEL YOU!!! 

...uh oh. 

PROMO! 

....no likey. 

Come on you two...you can do this. 

YES CAS! <3 

Dean...don’t do that to yourself. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Not now baby. We need you. You need to be strong. You can do this. 

Awww Dean. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I feel a big emotional scene coming. 

PROMO OMG NOOO! 

Dean honey. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Dean. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Cas’s look...

Dean’s so sad. :’( :’( :’( 

CAS HAS AN IDEA!!! 

The Empty??

Oh wait...

Is he...

HE’S GONNA TELL HIM!!

WAIT!!

WAIT HOLD ON A SECOND!!

WHAT ARE YOU THINKING CAS??!!

Dean’s face...

..........!!!!!

WAIT A MINUTE!!

WAIT!

A!

MINUTE!!

IS THIS DESTIEL??!!

IS! THIS?! DESTIEL?! 

OH MY GOD I’M GONNA CRY!! THE WAY HIS VOICE IS CRACKING!! 

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I’M CRYING!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

MISHA’S ACTING RIGHT NOW OMG!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

OH MY GOD CAS OH MY GOD MISHA OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!! 

“You raise your little brother for love.” :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

OH MY GOD CAS!!! :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

....my reactions might wind up getting slim because I’m really starting to cry.... :’( :’( :’( :’( 

“Because of you.” :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

“You changed me, Dean.” <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

WAIT NOOO!!! CAS NOOOO!!! DON’T DO IT!! :’( :’( :’( :’(

HOLY FRICK!!!

HOLY FRICK HOLY FRICK HOLY FRICK!!! 

GUYS!!!! 

IT FINALLY HAPPENED!!! 

DESTIEL JUST BECAME CANON!!! 

“I love you.” <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“The one thing I want, it’s something I can’t have.” <3 <3 <3 

THAT IS DESTIEL PEOPLE!! 

IT IS CANON!!! 

TWELVE YEARS!!! 

AND DESTIEL IS CANON!!!! 

I CAN’T BELIEVE IT OH MY GOD THIS IS AMAZING!!

WAIT NO NO NO I TAKE THAT BACK I DON’T LIKE WHERE THIS IS GOING!!!

“Don’t do this, Cas.” :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

OH MY GOD NOOOOO!!!! 

THE HANDPRINT!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( 

WTF!!! 

OH MY GOD!!!!

....

I can’t...

I can’t type...

I’m hyperventilating.

There are tears just streaming. 

WTF??!! 

DID THEY SERIOUSLY JUST INFINITY WAR THIS SH**??!! 

ARE YOU F***ING KIDDING ME??!! 

YOU HIT ME WITH CAS??!! 

AND THEN THIS??!! 

I can’t type...

.....

HOLY. 

FRICK. 

Just so we’re clear. 

I am writing this review portion. 

A good two hours after watching that episode. 

And I’m still crying. 

Even thinking about everything that just happened. 

What. 

The. 

F**k. 

WTF WAS THAT??!! 

DID THEY JUST--

DID THEY ACTUALLY--

*SCREAMS* 

Okay, let me try this again, and I’m gonna try extra hard not to burst into tears this time. 

That. 

Was. 

Epic. 

Oh my god. 

Between all of the s**t that’s going down in the world (and yes, I saw all the memes), THIS was the LAST thing I was expecting. 

DESTIEL.

IS.

CANON. 

CAS.

IS.

DEAD.

GUYS!!!

SERIOUSLY HELP!!! 

I...I can’t even process. 

Destiel is canon. 

Supernatural is Avengers: Infinity War. 

Jack destroys anything he touches. 

And meanwhile, Nevada is still counting votes, and Putin stepped down. 

Man. This is a day.  

Everything hurts. 

And I’m still crying. 

Okay. 

Despite all of the emotional trauma that this has caused, I’m going to try really hard to analyze this episode like I usually do. 

Let me just start with: wow. 

The cinematography in this was incredible, and Richard Speight’s acting was genius. Everything about this episode--visuals, music, set, everything--was just so brilliantly done and flowed so beautifully together. The scene changes, the transitions, the build-up of tension--it was beautiful. 

They hit those emotions right from the start, in big ways and subtle ways. Between putting beloved characters in danger, to killing some of them off entirely, to little hugs and smiles and words spoken, I was just as shaky and teary-eyed as I was last week. 

And all of it--all of it--culminated into one of the most beautiful scenes that this show has ever created. The amount of raw emotion that was in that Destiel scene was beautiful. The facial expressions of Cas and Dean were so clearly conveying how they felt--how deep Cas’s love truly was, and how scared and confused Dean was. The script. Those lines. The delivery. All of it put meticulously together, piece by piece, in a terrifying, emotional, tension-filled sequence that made something happen that the show has needed for years.

We finally got Destiel. 

And then to have it ripped away, just like that, because Cas was finally happy. Cas was finally happy because he told Dean how he felt, and because he could go out doing the one thing he’d always wanted to do--love him so much that he had to save him. 

Holy. 

Freaking. 

Cow. 

Look.

I was not a Destiel shipper from Day 1, okay? I wasn’t. I always saw their relationship as a brotherhood, and a friendship, and a special bond. 

But as the years went on, and I continued re-watching old episodes and comparing them to new ones, I started to see the Destiel relationship for what it was. 

And let me tell you right now: this scene? This was the final icing on the cake. 

If you didn’t already see the Destiel, then this...this should’ve done it. 

Because wow.

And while we’re talking about “wow”...

Misha Collins. 

Misha. 

F***ing. 

Collins. 

Holy god almighty. 

That was an INCREDIBLE acting moment. 

That was an Oscar-winning, Emmy-winning, stardom performance from a true legend. 

The way he conveyed all of that raw emotion, and the way the tears fell as he just let it all out. Every pronunciation fo every word was so deliberate and done in just the right way. 

And to end it all with the most satisfied, happiest look as his character gave his life for the man he loved. 

As he pushed his lover away and left a bloody handprint behind. 

Misha F***ing Collins is a F***ing Rockstar. 

Holy sh**. 

That could not have a been a better ending for Castiel. 

All of the parallels, and all of the callbacks, and everything that has happened between Cas and Dean came to a head in that very moment. 

And as much as I cried, and as much as I will still be crying for a long, long time...

It was beautiful. 

Then, after all of that, to just top it all off with everyone disappearing, Infinity War style, and to end on that scene of Dean crying, head in his hands, on the floor, weeping, his only remnant of his lost love staining his shoulder. 

And Sam and Jack, just staring into the nothingness that is the rest of the world before staring at each other, lost, and confused, worried that the rest of their family is dead and gone and they’re the only ones left. 

I have no words. 

I cannot describe how incredibly horrifying, and hurtful, and emotional, and beautiful that entire episode was. 

From start to finish, it was a true masterpiece. And I cannot say that enough. 

With two episodes left, I have no idea where this is going to take us next. 

I don’t know if Cas is going to come back. 

I have a feeling he isn’t. Not with an ending like that. At least, not in a way we might expect. 

But I do think we’ll get a resolution to the Destiel moment. I think Dean will have a moment where he wishes he could’ve had the courage to say it back, or a moment where all we see is him grieving, just as Sam grieves Eileen. 

And I wonder if, when all is said and done, Cas will come back in some other way--in heaven, or in dreams, or in some form. Because that would be a good way to do it, in my opinion.

But beyond that, I don’t know what’s next for Sam and Dean and Jack. 

I have a feeling that, like Infinity War (I’m sorry, but that’s totally what it reminded me of), not everyone will stay dead. My hope is that they’ll be brought back somehow. After all, that’s what our boys are all about, right?

But honestly, I don’t know anymore. 

Any theories I had about the deaths of future characters or the survival of others was thrown out the window by Cas’s death in this episode, and honestly, I’m going to be crying about that for the foreseeable future. I’ll never get over it, but at the same time, I won’t even not love it, because it was perfect, and with it came Destiel. 

That’s honestly all I can say. The tears are still falling, and my heart is still aching, but god da**it, that was a good episode. 

My Rating: 25/10 (These numbers are just going to keep getting higher and higher, aren’t they? I probably should’ve started lower...) 

P.S. I honest to god am still trying to process all this, so I’ll react to the promo tomorrow night. <3 

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15x18 Promo Photos

Alright! Last, but definitely not least, we have the 15x18 promo photos. 

I’m not sure how I’m gonna handle these. Between the trailer I just watched and last week’s episode, I’m kind of in tears right now, but I’m gonna try to do this lol. 

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Sam and Dean look troubled. Also J2 is hot. 

CHARLIE!!! OMG!!!! MY GIIIIIIRL!!! I’VE MISSED YOU!!! (It’s not the same Charlie, which is still sad, but she’s pretty close, so I’ll take it!!) <3 <3 

AHHHHH!!! SHE’S SO PRETTY AND ADORABLE I LOVE HER!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Ew. Go away Billie. No one likes you anymore. Screw you. 

Okay, that’s a concerning picture. Dean and Cas look super worried and super mad, and Jack is, like, keeling over on the floor. Yeah okay...this is fine...this is fine......THIS IS NOT FINE!!! (Jack better be okay or I’m gonna be so mad.) 

Billie looks so sinister, and as mad as I am at her, that’s a dang good picture of Lisa Berry. <3 

THIS LOOKS BAD!!! THIS LOOKS VERY VERY BAD!!! JACK LOOKS NOT OKAY!!! HIS DADS LOOK VERY CONCERNED!! I DON’T LIKE IT!!! HE BETTER BE OKAY GOSH DARNAT!!! 

Ope. This pictures screams bargaining. Dean and Cas are PISSED, but Sam just looks plain desperate. God this episode is gonna make me cry too, isn’t it?? 

Billie, screw you. You look way too happy about their despair. Dean is pure pissed, Cas is a combination of pissed and panic, and Sam just looks plain baffled. I hate it. I’m so scared. Please let my baby be okay. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Ope. Protective Dad!Cas is very mad. (Yes Cas. Take her down. Make her save your son.) Also that picture is in Death’s library, and I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. 

THEY LOOK SO DESPERATE IN ALL OF THESE PICTURES AHHHH!!! I HATE IT!!!! Dean looks like he’s freaking out, Cas is just coddling his poor son, and Sam just looks so lost I CAN’T!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Ope. NOW Sam looks pissed at Billie. Good. He should be. Screw you Billie. We hate you now. 

...okay wait. That looks promising. She’s, like, cradling his face. And Sam and Dean and Cas look slightly less worried now. And Jack looks like he isn’t in as much distress. Okay. Okay. I am calling this photo hopeful. This is giving me hope. (Also I’m loving all these shots of Team Free Will 2.0 ahhh! It’s been a while since we’ve really seen them all together. <3)

HEEEEY! Rich Speight, back to direct! Yay!! <3 <3 

Alright. 

Welp. 

So...those are...interesting. Honestly most of those just have me so freaking terrified. Sam and Dean and Cas just look so worried and desperate, and it makes me really concerned for the fate of my poor baby. It also pretty much solidifies the fact that I’m probably gonna be crying within the first thirty seconds. 

That said, though, like I said, that last picture of all of them actually looks hopeful?? Like, maybe Billie does heal him after all?? Obviously, I still don’t trust her, but if she saves Jack, I’ll be ver appreciative of her. 

AHHH! There’s probably so much that’s gonna happen in this next episode. I mean, THERE ARE THREE LEFT! Do you realize how crazy this is??!! 

I honestly have no theories. I’m just praying that my baby’s okay, and that, in the end, TFW 2.0 will be back in action as a family to take on Chuck once and for all and end this!! 

And man, am I excited (and scared) for Thursday. 

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Season 15 Trailer: Carry On

Alright, I’m pumped for this season trailer. Every time they put one out, it makes me cry and hits me just a little harder, and I bet this one will be no different. 

Let’s do this. 

I LOVE IT ALREADY!!! 

Also the way they edit these is the BEST. <3 <3 <3 <3 

2 HOUR SUPERNATURAL SERIES FINALE EVENT!!! I’M SO READY, BUT SO NOT READY!!! BUT ALSO SO PUMPED!!! 

“It’s been this amazing ride.” Oh god, this is totally gonna make me cry if all the members of the cast are gonna be saying things like that. 

BABY DEAN!!!! (Is it bad that I can tell you exactly what episode that’s from? Cause it’s from “Wendigo”. Yeah okay, I have a problem. XD) 

“A look back at some of the most memorable moments.” Yep. I’m gonna cry. Definitely gonna cry. (I say as if I was expecting anything else.) 

Oh god. I’m already about to cry with some of the quotes they’re throwing in there. :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

ME TOO KIM!! ME TOO!! :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 

“The final episode that will leave you breathless.” Oh OKAY THEN!!! 

OH MY GOD THE WAY THEY TIMED THAT MUSIC HELP ME!!! :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Jared’s voice cracked just a little bit oh my god. :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“You fought for us, you loved us. That’s enough.” THE WAY THEY PARALLELED THAT WITH REAL LIFE THOUGH OH MY GOD WHO EDITED THIS MASTERPIECE??!! 

3! EPISODES! LEFT! 

OKAY YEP I’M CRYING!! THAT LINE FROM BOBBY SEALED IT!!! THERE ARE TEARS!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

GUYS OH MY GOOOOODDDDDD!!!! THAT TRAILER!!! I’M SOBBING OMG!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

That was sixty seconds long and I am losing my s**t OMG!!! 

God. I don’t know what I’m gonna do on the 19th!! I’m gonna be such a mess!! The whole way through, for the whole event, I’m just gonna be sobbing. 

Man. The way they put those trailers together is always so incredible and beautiful, and it hits my emotions hard EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. 

I love it.

These people are amazing. 

Wow. 

Man, I am honestly so pumped for November 19th, but also, I am so not ready, and I know it’s gonna be super intense and super emotional, and I, and everyone else, is just gonna be a mess. 

Wow. 

Just. 

Wow. 

This is gonna be huge. 

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Season 15 Featurette: Socially Awkward Angel

GUYS OMG I THINK I KNOW WHAT THIS IS GONNA BE ABOUT BECAUSE I’VE HEARD THIS STORY FROM MISHA BEFORE AHHH!!!

Anyways. Let’s watch! 

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Every time they say “The Long Road Home”, I choke a little. 

That title does not fit with that font. XD XD 

BEST CHARACTER ENTRANCE EVER!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

GUYS OMG THEY’RE SO LITTLE!!! 

Like, I watch re-watch the show all the time, but I usually watch it in sequence, unless I’m looking for a specific episode, and anytime I see their little S1-S5 selves, I lose it. Because they’re BABIES! BABIES!! 

Anyways. 

Yeah I’m with you Cas/Misha. Humans are very confusing. XD 

“Why?” “Because that’s how you become President.” (I finished the quote naturally and then it occurred to me what the last line said and occurred to me--for those of you in the US--what’s currently going on and I just gave myself an anxiety attack that I’m now going to try to ignore. But anyways.) 

THE BADGE UPSIDE DOWN!! (Oh my god these flashback episodes are hitting me so hard ahhhh!! ICONIC MOMENTS!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3) 

So...kind of like yourself, Misha. XD 

It’s okay. It’s what we love about you. And Cas. XD <3 

*sings* I’ll just wait here then. (Anyways.) 

I just love Dean’s look when that waitress calls him handsome. XD 

I KNEW THAT’S WHAT HE WAS GONNA SAY!! XD XD 

I’m laughing so much OMG!!! XD XD XD 

I love that. I love that that’s how that all worked out. I love that Cas just became the awkward and out of place angel purely accidentally, and now it’s what he’s known for, because it’s so endearing, and it’s what we all love about him, and it’s PERFECT. <3 <3 <3 <3 

“This call is pointless.” I JUST WATCHED THAT EPISODE!! XD <3 <3 

God I love Misha. And I love Cas. So much. <3 <3 <3 

Okay but seriously, every time I hear Misha say anything about this, I can’t stop laughing and smiling. I freaking love that this worked out that way. I love the fact that so much of Cas’s character and Misha’s portrayal of him was very intentional on Misha’s part, but that him, in relation to all the other angels, was purely accidental, and I love that the writers just built on that. 

Because the thing is (especially having heard what Chuck said in “Unity”), ever since Cas became the different angel--and ever since he became so popular, since, if you remember, he wasn’t even supposed to be on the show this long--he’s been the different angel, and it’s been amazing. He’s been the stand-out in so many ways. Yes, he’s awkward, but he’s also the angel that cares the most. He’s the most loyal. He’s the most...special. 

And that’s one of the things I love about this show. I love how the actors come in and do what the do, and the writers take that and work with it and use the amazing talent they’re given to their advantage, melding the show to fit the people they have in a way that makes the show and the characters even better. It’s beautiful. 

Hooray for the socially awkward (and best) angel! XD <3 

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BTS: Inside: Unity

Hey all! 

I have a lot for to react to and catch up on today! From Behind-the-Scenes, to Featurettes, to Promotional Material, there’s a lot for us to look at. 

So let’s get started with the BTS of “Unity”. 

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Haha that line still makes me laugh. XD 

“We got one Jack.” And that still makes me cry-laugh-screech. XD <3 

ALEX!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Yep, I am still laughing at Adam. XD XD 

WHY DO ALL THE THINGS FROM THAT EPISODE KEEP REMINDING ME THAT DEAN SAID THAT??!!! STOOOOOOP!!!

Although, side note from that: I’ve decided I’m not really mad at Dean anymore. After thinking about my own analysis and the analyses I’ve read from other people, I really do believe that he didn’t mean it, especially after remembering that Dean ran all worried to Jack at the end. I mean, between Dean’s own desperation and emptiness, and between Chuck’s manipulation of their actions to get them to the point they were at, I feel like the Dean that said that isn’t really the Dean I love so much, because he’s just so broken right now. That’s why he needed Sam to pull him back. While I don’t necessarily forgive him all the way--and I won’t until he does apologize to Jack for real, not just with a “thank you”--I understand why he said what he said, and as much as it hurts my heart, I know he didn’t really mean it. Not after everything that the two of them and their whole family have been through. 

Anyways. 

God why is Alex so cute? Like, he’s in his home, totally natural and just chilling, and god he’s adorable. 

But, like, he’s also hot, and I don’t understand how that combination could possibly make sense, but it does okay?? 

ANYWAYS. (Wow I’m really getting sidetracked this team. Sorry peeps. XD)

Yeah except he’s not gonna do it because no. 

And also because Chuck sucks. 

YES! They do! We all do! I mean, I’m a little less hopeful after that episode, BUT I STILL HAVE FAITH IN MY BOYS! 

Okay, so I don’t think I need to do too much ending analysis here, since I kind of accidentally put all of my analysis in the actual reactions this time, but that’s okay! 

One thing I do want to share though: 

As much as this episode broke me, and as shaken and upset as I was after I watched it, I’m ranking this episode as #5 on my list of favorite episodes. Because yes, it hurt and it tore at my heartstrings, but d**n was it beautifully done, and it was a great fourth-to-last episode in our final season. Everything is building up, tensions are high, and I’m really looking forward to seeing what happens next. (Also, in case you were wondering, my top five, in order, are Fan Fiction, The French Mistake, Swan Song, Baby, and, now, Unity). 

I think that’s all I have for that one! Let’s move on! 

P.S. Have I mentioned that I love him?