The Square Root of Negative One

Cis woman (she/her), asexual, Jewish and agnostic theist. Poly and identify with relationship anarchy. Neurodivergent (Autistic, OCD, social anxiety, and still working on the details). Queer and I mostly orient towards women. Complicatedromantic. I'm also white, in the US, and cis as noted, and please feel free to call me out if I do oppressive or otherwise problematic things. I like to think and talk about stuff- sexuality and other non-academic 'how people work' stuff, social issues, and beliefs, especially. I don't get to do the 'talking' part as often as I'd like, though. * * * I'm also a world-builder and sometimes writer and a very amateur and occasional miniature-and-some-other-crafts maker. I'm rather bad at social things, but I try. * * * If you use the term 'special snowflake' derisively, I will probably really not like you. * * * All the best to you all (and if anyone knows a better way to phrase this, please tell me.)

[ursavorpalis]

because there will be joy again. sometime, unexpectedly a crocus will bloom. a leaf will sprout. a new person will smile because I was funny, or cry because I touched their heart and left it better for the touching. because my child is growing, growing, tall and funny and so kind. they are a miracle. they are a work of art. for it to be so, I must have done something right after all. because of five-part harmonies and sci-fi conventions and the next chapter of that stupid, lovely show. because the flowers that grow in trenches would grow in the meadow, too. because the wheat grows again and so will you and so will I.

[ketubahring]

Rosh Hashanah begins tomorrow evening, and I’m so ready for all the sweetness!! 🥰

Wishing you and yours a beautiful start to 5786. Shana Tova and happy New Year!

Copyright © 2025 Ketubah Ring. No reproduction, printing, resale, or use without permission.

[loki-god-of-mischief-13]

My artwork for pride this year, different flags with different Jewish symbols.

(The symbols and the flags were just chosen because they look cool)

[apolloforetoldus-deactivated202]

Shanah tovah!!! May 5785 be filled with sweet wishes, everlasting hope, and peaceful blessings. 🍎🍯✡️

[ursavorpalis]

This castle that i made does not exist.

I made it out of sea foam, out of clouds,

Of mornings dawning slow in autumn mist.

But you are welcome in it. You're allowed

To visit every room, to stay and rest

Until the time you're ready to come out.

This is no generosity expressed:

With your belief, i overcome my doubt

And know: a place like that could yet be built,

Though it is made of stories to be told.

I know i tilt at windmills when I tilt:

My dreams becomes more real as i behold

My castle's bright reflection in your eye.

When you are safer in it - so am i.

[ursavorpalis]

Hey.

There's going to be good things that you can't even imagine right now.

Don't give up.

[squareroot-1]

Hello, marvelous mutual! You are receiving this message from an ~*anonymous*~ tumblr mutual who wants to get to know you better. Answer this message with five things that you would want a new friend to know about you. Then pass this on to five more people!

Aw, thank you! Hmmm

I love talking to people about stuff! There’s a lot a lot of stuff I love to talk about, and if something isn’t one of my own interests or connected to them, for a lot of things I will totally be interested out of another person being interested!

The best medium of communication for me is generally sync voice conversation. (With a few other works-best-like-this I’m figuring out.) This is… kind of inconvenient on the internet! Sync short form text communication seems to work pretty reliably though not for everything, async short form text works sometimes for some things and can totally work well then and for those but often not so much outside them. Async longform text basically is not going to work. I need to learn more re async voice.

I have very, very bad executive dysfunction. Very very often it’s not you it’s my brain.

I am a very think-y person and very many areas of thoughts etc are in progress a very large amount of the time!

My brain has a thing where it just drops things and I kind of forget they exist until I’m reminded, and tend to be glad to be reminded!

bonus thing 6: I want to learn about how my friends work, too!

[squareroot-1]

oh my god, Apple podcasts added auto transcripts?! !!!!! (I hope it’s real and I hope it stays.)

[ursavorpalis]

Now, of all times

Drink the wine.

Light a rose-scented candle.

Spray the perfume you never opened,

Sweet and delicate.

Take pictures of autumn.

The horrible fate -

The horrible fate doesn't care

That we abstained from sweets

That we wore sack cloth and ashes

And didn't look at the sunset.

What exists, exists.

What happened, happened.

If we all drown in the sea,

We'll go down singing.

- DKB

[squareroot-1]

Notes |~re current |etc| state| bc apparently brain can rn do them here? (Had post thought for the second thing and then):

-Was having some like depression type thought patterns |earlier and etc.| etc. (Am fine, just, noticed as such etc).

-totally having that thing where I can tell that doing things would be good for me, but I also I can’t do it myself.

[squareroot-1]

I need more help than I can pay for and I don’t know what to do about this.

[perfuckt]

One of Bo Burnham’s poems for his new poetry book, Egghead. 

[squareroot-1]

Trick-or-treat! 🎃

oops, just saw this! If this is a meme I’m afraid I’m totally missing it but,

🍬🍬🍫🍭🍬🍬🍬🍬🍫🍭!

[squareroot-1]

Well, time for my reminder that I am actually not good at being vulnerable, at all.

(In the sense of like. The step where I do it.)

-I think a reason I notice this less are that things that are like, the classic ~illustrations are in fact things I *do* do. But - this is a very 'it's about what it is for you' thing.

(-And I *know* that vulnerability is the - don’t know words - to intimacy, I can feel that, and I *want* it. But.)

[squareroot-1]

How is having this little executive function even a thing that happens.

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(I very much know there can be much less than this to be clear. Just, keep having my current problem come to notice.)

[squareroot-1]

is tumblr having some kind of activity issue? I can’t see a particular reblog in my activity even though it happened and I can totally see it on the post. Conversely, there’s a reply I can (partially) see in activity but not on the post, which says 0 replies. ??

[squareroot-1]

executive dysfunction is the worst