The Cold Streets of A Forgotten River
I finish the last bite of my noodles, looking out into a cold and dusty street. The people walk past, kicking up clouds of dust as they go. The street needs to be re-tarred; the potholes have been there for years. The clouds outside show tell-tale signs of rain. I hear my mother nagging at my siblings to get ready for school because they’re going to be late. Normally I would join them in their relentless groans and complaints but today, I’m sick.
My father looks down from his newspaper and winks at me, as if to say he knows I’m faking my illness. He’s not wrong, the slight fever came from staying up all night but it wasn’t my fault. I was awake because of Its taunting. It calls to me at night, whispering into my ear, trying to wake me up. I learned to ignore It, but some nights it gets so unbearable. Nowadays I treat it like my little siblings, who can never shut up. Speaking of them, my mother rushes them out of the house to wait for the bus, reminding them to take their umbrellas because it’s going to pour.
My father leaves for work after finishing his coffee, while my mother is at the sink; washing the dishes and complaining about the millions of things she has to do today. After that, she applies her signature pomegranate red lipstick and heavy fruity perfume in front of the mirror in the hallway. She kisses me on the forehead, purposely leaving a big red stain before going off to work. She reminds me to lock the gate, but I won’t; I have to go out.
I lie down in the living room, staring out the window. When the first drops of rain appear, I sit back and relax. It doesn’t disturb me when it rains. For a while, I’m at peace. I fall asleep, listening to the harsh sound of the rain. When I wake up, it’s only slightly drizzling. I grab an umbrella and head out the door. The ground is wet and muddy, and the dirt gets on my feet. It doesn’t matter. I can always wash it off.
I head to the closest pothole and see the tiny droplets disappear into the murky water of the hole. I squat down to take a closer look. I see a boat, a traditional Malay sampan. An old sunburnt man is paddling it through the water. He reaches the edge, but he’s stuck in the pothole and can’t leave. I can’t help him either. He struggles for a while until he resigns to his fate and lies down in the boat. He falls asleep, with his hat covering his eyes from the rain.
I move on to the next hole, there I see people fishing. They sit by the side and chat happily while waiting for their bait to catch. I can’t hear what they’re saying but I enjoy watching them interact with each other. Each pothole tells a different story. Each shallow pool of water contains a history, unknown. I touch the ground, and feel it. The craving. It craves for water as a killer craves for blood.
It will never get what it wants, which is to have a prosperous, steady river flowing through it once again. The rivers of the past have dried up, and so have all the lives with it. Now it’s a road for cars to drive on, and for people to walk on. It waits for the rain to come, to soak Its forgotten streams and relish in its former glory. It seems like I'm the only one that can hear Its anguish.
Pulled out of my musings, I hear a voice behind me. Shrill and angry shrieking, it’s my mother. She’s furious as she sees me soaking wet from head to toe. I glance at the side, to where I had put down my umbrella. I grab it before she pulls me into the house by the ear. I take one last glance, at the sad, forgotten river before I go inside to pacify my mother’s temper.