[o-xytocin]

The worst part about anything that’s self-destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.

[starryeyesforeverblog]

Hanging on the edge.

Hoping my body will just give up,

And let me fall.

No-one try and reach for me.

No-one try and save me,

Please.

[starryeyesforeverblog]

Signs it's getting extremely bad : you're considering admitting yourself into hospital for treatment rather than being forced into it.

[definitelydead111]

what if the only way to not feel bad is to stop feeling anything at all forever?

[starryeyesforeverblog]

Aren't you tired trying to fill that void?

- Shallow (Bradley Cooper & Lady Gaga) - A Star is Born 2018

[starryeyesforeverblog]

A Star is Born (2018)

[starryeyesforeverblog]

I've been thinking about suicide alot lately.

[starryeyesforeverblog]

"Sometimes I think maybe I don't want to get better. Because at least if I use I know who I am. I feel like myself."

- Good Girls (S2 E10 : One Last Time)

[starryeyesforeverblog]

I think this is just who I am now.

[starryeyesforeverblog]

Me in any situation ever.

[scars-and-fucking-tears]

All I want is for all of this to finally end

[starryeyesforeverblog]

"Are you happy?"

[starryeyesforeverblog]

What is this feeling?

[in-over-my-head]

Cigarettes and cheap pills cause I hate how I feel. I wish this wasn't real

[starryeyesforeverblog]

I don't want to feel a thing.

[starryeyesforeverblog]

Me trying to convince my family not to hospitalize me when they find out about all my shit.

[starryeyesforeverblog]

Why do I destroy any happiness that I feel, it's like I've been miserable so long that I don't know how to cope with feeling happy. Anything I feel is too much. I just need to be numb to everything.