StarvingDelusions

『 Abi 🌺 ⚘ Frouse/Krii7y ⚘ British ⚘ she/they ⚘ immortal being (20s) ⚘ AO3 writer ➺ StarvingDelusions 🌷 』

[starvingdelusions]

Matt the Voyeur series "suggestion box"

˗ˏˋ Introductionˎˊ˗

Good day, guys / girls / gays / theys 💜 My name is StarvingDelusions, but you may call me Abi if you so wish :)

I am currently obsessed with: Ryan Gosling, Project Hail Mary, The Nice Guys

Obviously, we've got the usual - DNI 🚫 if: you're homophobic, transphobic, racist, sexist, etc. Quite simple.

My 'Ask' signature to show that I take requests. Drabbles, oneshots, a specific trope, things like that. Give me ideas and I will try my best to write them :)

My AO3 dashboard can be found here :D

Ships/Fandoms I write for:

Frouse:

John | KryozGaming/Smii7y

John | KryozGaming/Smii7y/Matt | BlargMyShnoople

Droid/Pezzy - occasionally

UK YouTube:

James Marriott/WillNE

My favourite colour is purple 💜 (if you couldn't tell, like it's actually a problem lol), and lavender and wisteria are my favourite flowers🪻

I live in the UK 🇬🇧 and I'm an adult.

My top 4 favourite movies (as per the Letterboxd structure) are Project Hail Mary, The Nice Guys, Holes, 1917.

Some of my favourite characters include Ryland Grace, Holland March, Steve Harrington, Newt, and Connor/RK800.

I've have been fixated on many, many pieces of media over the years. But the most intense ones have been The Maze Runner (twice!), 1917, Detroit: Become Human (also twice), One Direction, Merlin, IT, and Stranger Things (thrice).

Also, just to preface, I am proship. And before anyone gets mad about that fact, you should know that it means "ship and let ship" or "don't like, don't read", basically anti-censorship! People can ship and read whatever they want 🤷 (and if you're into RPF, you are proship, since it's considered to be controversial to some)

- Don't's and Do’s (27/?)

- Matt the Voyeur (6/?)

- The 'J' in John Stands For Jealousy (2/?)

- AU-gust 2025 (16/16)

- Flufftober 2025 (16/16 - AO3)

- Flufftober Masterlist (Tumblr)

- If I Could Choose, It Would Be You (5/?)

Good afternoon, good evening and goodnight 🫡💜

[staringjazz]

durring pride month???? basically like coming out if u think about it

source !

[thistlethread]

*slaps roof of edit* this bad boy has so much doomed space yaoi in it, you have no idea.

[gremlininho]

ngl I hate subscriptions. when people pay for something, they should be able to actually own it permanently. otherwise it’s just scam

[gremlininho]

I loved renting physical copies of my favorite movies when blockbuster was still a thing. but I think there’s a difference between renting a specific something where you’re expected to only pay them once unless you want to rent it again, and subscribing to shit that unless you manually cancel your membership will just keep feeding off your money indefinitely

[malice-kingdom]

“Save Earth save Erid”

[saimolfy]

I don't usually post wips a lot but I feel like treating y'all to smth I'm working on slowly and steadily lol

[subwaybug]

More people should get into poly shipping. Both because polyamory is awesome and because it's really fun to make complicated ass diagrams

[kokica1]

Love that Ryland Grace is the opposite of so many male protagonist "heroes" in media and yet he's still so incredibly brave, resilient, and strong. That flimsy little science teacher saves the day.

But he also,

Throws fits when things don't go his way. Not a "I'm a bad bitch" destroying everything-type fit, but tossing a trash can, breaking a screen-type fit.

Cries. A lot.

Pleads. He begs.

Doesn't answer the call to action.

Shows weakness. Being a coward and being fearful are two things he defines himself with.

Doesn't end up with the girl. In fact, that girl isn't even interested and he isn't, either.

Cherishes friendship over a romantic plot or something stereotypically brave like, "I'm going to save Rocky so I can save his world." No, he wants to save his friend, first and foremost.

Squeaks. He squeals. He screams, loudly and very high pitched. He whines. He complains. He physically struggles to open a jar. He's clumsy as hell. He makes some of the least graceful noises one can make.

Is not afraid to be the primitive species lowkey.

I love him and everything he stands for as a male protagonist. Men need to know that they can be just like Ryland Grace and still be just as much of a hero and a man.

[ashlettuce]

Hard launching that i love ryan gosling

[honeyedpines]

I’m an astronaut, you’re the moon,

I stare at you, I sing to you

I circle you

[themo-themo]

my interpretation and 3 cents to the bloodymary tag (sorry i was busy reading the 943 fanfics)

[koiagain]

I guess you could say he’s ve… he’s a very h…

[one-billion-marbles]

bloodymary scene matching! more info below :3

This is my first proper scene matching edit and I'm not even matching scenes 😔 (just voice lines). I'm really proud of it though! I feel like it matches up with a lot of iron lung universe bloodymary fics I've read, where grace is helping simon over comms. And then the ending was meant to be grace proposing to come down and get Simon out of the blood ocean but I got lazy finding lines, sorry </3

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

sorry to be a broken record every month but christ menstruation is a stupid concept. oooooh excuse me for not getting pregnant, why the fuck is there goo falling out of me about it? grow the fuck up and reabsorb that shit for nutrients.

[no-fudge-left-to-buy]

has this been done already? am i embarrassingly late to the party?

[turbo-the-dog]

if we dont get ANY krii7y during pride month then theyre both homophobic, actually

[icantspellthings]

Top 3 things people love insisting they don't have despite it being impossible

Pronouns

An accent

Bias