hello everyone, I am ALIVE, trying to fight art block so here's a gif
it was supposed to be just Wild's hair animation (that's my idea of relaxing after a stressful week of drawing I guess), and then when I was done I thought that something was missing just like in totk
this one was originally a wip from a year ago that I've made after replaying twilight princess. I started rendering it and ended up hating the whole thing... so I started over with a different angle 'cause who needs sleep anyway. Pretty happy with it, looks more dynamic
got really into reading item descriptions on this playthrough. anyway did you know the silent princess is one of the only raw materials with a cooking effect to not explicitly list that effect in its description
ok iâve thought about this for so long but i honestly think drunk confessions with soap would happen when both of you are equally as sloshed. like a full drunken horny spiral where neither of you can shut the fuck up - all of your filter is gone, and suddenly itâs turning into a game of who can confess the nastier thought first. mutual destruction type shit. just a casual descent into unhinged oversharing and both of you realizing - oh no. weâre the same type of feral.
like the bottle is almost empty. you donât know who had the last shot. doesnât matter. youâre both on your asses against a wall in some dim corridor, not even trying to get up anymore. your legs are stretched out and tangled, shoulders slumped together, heads bumping every so often when one of you snorts too hard.
youâre both cackling like lunatics.
soap just made a joke about ghost looking like the kind of bloke who asks for ketchup in a steakhouse, and youâre crying. actual tears.
everything feels warm. blurry. easy.
way too fucking easy.
âyouâre insane,â you laugh in between trying to catch your breath. âfulllyyy fucking insane, johnny.â
johnny sways toward you. âaye. but yer the same. same fuckenâ breed.â
you know you canât deny that. you and the scot do nothing but cause shit everywhere you go. itâs effortless, with johnny. you two feed off eachother.
and so you smirk, lifting your cup in admission. âidiots with a loaded weapon and terrible judgment? yeah. weâre practically twins.â
he snorts. âaye, but youâre the hot one.â
you turn your head slowly. âdid you just call me hot?â
he doesnât even blink.
âdonnae act like ye donât know it.â
your pulse stutters, but youâre too drunk to even notice. âno, johnny, shut up - youâre the hot one-â
âye dinnae wanne start this with me lass.â he says, cutting you off with a shake of his head. âyeâll lose.â
you swat at him. âi wonât lose shit- iâve thought about how hot you are for months. like months. i dream about it.â
thereâs a pause, at that. one that tells you that mightâve actually surprised him and is proven by the way he opens his mouth then closes it. even drunk you see it, the gears that start turning behind his eyes as he exhales a ragged breath.
âye dinnae even know what i dream of.â he whispers with the type of slurred inflection that surfaces when heâs long past the point of reason. âive thought about shagginâ ye in every storage closet on this base.â
you choke.
âjohnny-â
ânone oâthat- listen proper. i mean every. closet.â he lifts a finger like heâs testifying in court. âthe one near the gym? bent over the bench. one near the barracks? legs around my waist, beggen pretty in my ear.â
your jaw drops. because holy fuck.
âyouâre just saying that?!â
he grins some clueless little grin that is so signature johnny it hurts. âwe're beinâ honest now, aye?â
you squint at him, trying to find the bullshit. trying to find the lie or the twitch in his brow that tells you heâs only buttering you up in hopes to get laid. but you donât find it - you donât see anything except for the wild in his eyes, the flush in his cheeks that tells you - fucken hell. this might just be the most honest heâs ever been, and itâs exhilarating.
so just like you always do, you match him. this time in your honesty. because itâs always like this with you two. the dance of devils - yours and his.
you shift, head buzzing wild. âalright then. ive thought about you fucking me on the shooting range.â
he blinks. ââŚye what.â
you shrug, chewing on your lip. âfrom behind. pants halfway down while youâre tellin me to shoot it straight.â
his face twists, eyes blaring. âthaâs fucken evil.â
you giggle, nose scrunching. âyou started it.â
ânah - nah nah,â he waves a hand, scrambling to face you better. âye donnae get te drop that and just move on. ive thought about ye - fucken hell - riding me in the armoury. tools clatterinâ everywhere. noâ a care in the bloody world.â
you gasp, pretending to be oh so very scandalized. âin the armoury?! johnny!â
âright on the table. my hands on yer throat te keep ye quiet.â
youâre breathless. flushed. completely fucked but never more alive in your entire life. âoh my god.â
âaye. oh my god is right.â he leans in closer, breath hot, accent slurred and taunting. âtop that. i dare ye.â
youâve never been one to back down a dare, especially when youâre this drunk, so you lick your lips. âyou, in the showers, still half-dressed. water running. me down on my knees suckinâ you off while you lean on the wall grunting my name into your fist.â
his eyes roll back and he groans - actually fucking groans like youâve just stabbed him and slumps back against the wall. something in you begs and your thighs twitch for it.
itâs one of your favourite fantasies to date.
âjesus fuckenâ christ.â he grits after a moment of attempted recomposing.
âkeep up, mactavish,â you purr, all smug now. âor you tapping out?â
ânoâ a fuckenâ chance,â he growls, shifting up again. âi think about benden ye over the mess table while everyone elseâs sleepenâ. pissin myself tryen te keep ye quiet while youâre so fucken wet fer me itâs drippin.ââ
every word from his mouth is like fire, scorching your nerves alight. youâre certain youâve never been more unholy in your life, but all you do is nod like youâre not losing your fucking mind.
then you lean closer. âive imagined you pulling me into a closet just to put your fingers in me and tell me you âjust needed to check something.ââ
he gapes. fullstop. âoh youâre proper fucked, arenât ye?â
youâre both hysterical now, half-laughing, half-melting, cheeks burning, equally breathing heavy like the airs gone thin and its burning between you.
âyou,â you manage to recollect yourself, pointing a finger in his face, âyouâd be the type to say some sick shit like âdonât cum until i say so.ââ
you freeze, eyes locked. you donât even realize that youâve both gone quiet until he speaks again.
ââŚye would, wouldnt ye?â
âcourse i would.â you breathe out, jagged and cracking now until you manage to snap yourself out of it with another laugh. âchrist, youâre filthy.â
he flashes you that goddamn grin again. cocky and teasing and totally fucking evil. âye love it.â
âunfortunate,â you mutter, smiling. âmakes me wanna jump you for it.â
he hums. âmm. full offence, iâd let ye kill me with your thighs.â
you blink, then almost choke on your saliva. âyouâd what?â
âdead serious.â he gestures at your legs, slurring slightly. âwrap âem around my head, cut off the blood flow, lights out. best fucken way te go.â
âwell fuck.â you shake your head, but your grin is splitting your face. âiâd let you fuck my throat til iâm cryin. full tears. no air. fingernails bleeding my scalp.â
johnny leans his head back and groans again. âim gonna combust. gonna catch fucken fire.â
you wheeze, face buried in your sleeve. âwe're disgusting.â
âweâre perfect.â
and then, quiet.
not awkward. not scared. just two people hovering over the edge of something they both know they canât fall into.
you feel his shoulder still pressed to yours. feel his breath go slow and controlled like heâs thinking about all the ways this is wrong, and all the ways you both wish it wasnât.
âim no gonna kiss ye,â he mutters.
you donât look at him, just whisper back, âgood.â
another long beat. then-
ââŚbut if i grabbed ye by the waist right now and dragged ye toward my room-â
âid let you.â
another pause.
ââŚwe shouldnât,â he whispers.
âi know.â
âyeâd fucken end me,â he adds.
you smile. âright back at you.â
you sit like that for an unknown amount of time. taut, burning, wrecked. he tilts his head toward yours again. nose brushing your temple.
âye tell anyone about this,â he breathes into your hair, âand ill deny every word.â
you snort. âwe both go down with the ship, mactavish.â
he grins, and neither of you move.
you just sit there.
emotionally edged. spiritually wrecked. cockblocked by the entire universe and metaphorically blue-balled by your own drunken stupidity.