18+ Blog | Minors DNI Fanby on AO3 Multifandom | Multi- and Poly-shipper The almost-30-year-old mutual They/Xe/It/He Icon ID: A digital drawing of my Fallen angel/Fallen Exorcist O.C., Raze, with a blank, neutral expression, wearing a white T-shirt that says, "immoral support," over its usual sleeveless turtleneck, drawn in a simplified style with a crayon brush. Above it is a banner which reads, "Live Raze Reaction," in the style of the "Live Slug Reaction" meme. Header ID: The page from The Book of Bill lost journal pages where Bill spells out Ford's name with dead rats. // End ID
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Fandoms:
911
The Amazing Devil
The Amazing Digital Circus
Avatar: the Last Airbender
Death Note
Doctor Who
Fullmetal Alchemist
Good Omens — I do not support NG
Goncharov — (Unreality)
❤️ Gravity Falls
❤️ Hazbin Hotel
❤️ Helluva Boss
My Chemical Romance
Puella Magi Madoka Magica
Riordanverse
RWBY
Soul Eater
Steven Universe
Supernatural
The Witcher
The X Files
I tend to cycle through them based on the whims of my wretched gremlin brain. When and why the cycle changes is unknown even to me.
Current main fandoms are marked with a ‘❤️’
As Close to a DNI as I’m Willing to Post:
DNIs don’t work on assholes who intend to disregard boundaries, but there are a few cases where I believe people may genuinely not understand why something might get them blocked. Here’s a list, with links to context:
If you abbreviate Hazbin Hotel as HH, I’m blocking you.
If you have a default icon and blog title, I’m blocking you.
If you are a minor and you follow me, I will softblock you; if you do it twice, you lose the benefit of the doubt, and I will block you for real.
I know how to use my block button. If you don’t like me or what I post, please use yours.
Things you should know about me that may encourage you to use your block button:
I am anti-censorship and anti-harassment. In the microcosm of fandom, I guess that makes me pro-ship.
I have grievances with both generative ai and the anti-ai movement.
I believe that exclusionism and separatism only harm the communities they’re supposedly protecting.
I survived Tumblr’s 2010s acecourse and transmed discourse era as a genderfluid asexual, and am officially out of patience when it comes to queer infighting and exclusionism.
I have a Cluster B personality disorder, and support all my neurodivergent and persodivengent siblings regardless of disorder.
I support systems of all kinds and abhor sysmedicalism, fakeclaiming, and the awful saneism against psychotic people that often goes with it.
I am an enjoyer of nuance and am fending off us versus them mentality and black and white thinking with a baseball bat.
I think genocide is bad and that using genocide as a front to be racist/antisemitic/islamophobic/etc. is also bad (refer to previous bullet point; also, I can’t believe I need to say this).
About Me:
I’m a kinky, polyamorous, (a)sexual deviant, a genderqueer fagdyke, a writer, a digital artist, and old tumblrina—don’t let this blog’s age fool you; I’ve changed accounts several times. I’m also multiply disabled, but if you want my diagnoses you’ll have to collect my 8 pages of vent posts discussing them.
I sometimes use I/me and we/us interchangeably, when referring to myself, because we are a plural system. This blog is mostly run by the host typing this, Key, but others ghostwrite every once and a while. The name Fanby refers to our collective online presence, and can be used for any of us.
Note: I’m not always the best at tagging things. Sometimes I make mistakes, mistag or forget a tag. If you notice something is mistagged or missing a tag, please feel free to send me an ask or dm me about it!
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Refs, Recs, and Resources
Fanfic Masterlists:
Hellaverse (Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss)
The Witcher
Kinktober
AO3 Exclusives — Links to the AO3 collection
AU’s and OC’s:
UHverse/Unholyverse: Extended universe for the UH3/The Unholy Trinity (queerplatonic Alastor/Lilith/Lucifer fanfic series)
The Little Demon AU: Hazbin Hotel + The Little Mermaid AU, featuring Alastor as Ursula
Raze: (ref sheet) Fallen Exorcist OC featured in Raze Hell (Hazbin Hotel fanfic series)
Vickie: Raze’s ex-boss/murder victim; Exorcist OC
Ash Waters | Dual: (ref) Sinner OC to be featured in Duality (Hazbin Hotel fanfic series)
Destiny Stone | Fate Fortune: Dual’s ex-girlfriend; Sinner OC to be featured in Duality (Hazbin Hotel fanfic series)
ChaggiDaze: (basic rundown) The OC x canon polycule for Charlie, Vaggie, Dual, and Raze
ChaggiDaze AUs: AUs based around the ChaggiDaze polycule; now available in Hellaverse, Steven Universe, and Soul Eater
Inky Blott: (Who is Inky Blott?) Slime Sinner Hazbin OC
Pixxie Styx: Concubus sex worker Helluva OC
Leona Ness: Lioness anthro OC (sometimes Hellaverse, sometimes not)
My Incredibly Biased Hall of Fame:
Fake Tumblr Dash Masterpost
Fandom + Tumblr Masterpost
Apollo’s Dodgeball Masterpost
The haiku bot reblogged my post — And then another one
Unintentionally Popular Aroace Alastor Post — And someone drew it!!
I added onto a Helluva Boss post and for some reason it became incredibly popular, to the point of showing up in my top posts for a good amount of time
I think people don't take into consideration enough that Blitz likely struggles with chronic pain.
Stiffness, soreness, and an inability to handle textures or clothing types-we see Blitz either in oversized clothes or super skin tight clothes, nothing in between.
In other words, clothes that are so tight they can't rub, or clothes so big they're not going to. He likes soft things, like sweaters and hoodies, and seems to have a preference for very specific blankets.
The idea thay Blitz had to figure this all out on his own, with painful trial and error, discovering what hurts and what doesn't, what he can tolerate and what he can't. Stumbling over compression gloves by sheer accident, self medicating with booze and huge, soft sweaters on bad days, hurts my soul.
The idea that even Millie doesn't know, that bad pain days are just Blitz drunk again, fucked off in his apartment because he feels like it, or hung over and doesn't feel like coming in, with no one, not even Loona, realizing that every movement makes his skin feel rashy, raw, tight, painful-that his joints ache and his vision is blurry and his face hurts like someone's holding a flame to it.
That's scarier I think. To know the possession is Necessary. That any attempt to stop it will lead to greater tragedy as the angel's divine mission is interrupted. So you just have to sit there. And watch something else puppet your friend's body.
So a couple days ago, some folks braved my long-dormant social media accounts to make sure I’d seen this tweet:
And after getting over my initial (rather emotional) response, I wanted to reply properly, and explain just why that hit me so hard.
So back around twenty years ago, the internet cosplay and costuming scene was very different from today. The older generation of sci-fi convention costumers was made up of experienced, dedicated individuals who had been honing their craft for years. These were people who took masquerade competitions seriously, and earning your journeyman or master costuming badge was an important thing. They had a lot of knowledge, but – here’s the important bit – a lot of them didn’t share it. It’s not just that they weren’t internet-savvy enough to share it, or didn’t have the time to write up tutorials – no, literally if you asked how they did something or what material they used, they would refuse to tell you. Some of them came from professional backgrounds where this knowledge literally was a trade secret, others just wanted to decrease the chances of their rivals in competitions, but for whatever reason it was like getting a door slammed in your face. Now, that’s a generalization – there were definitely some lovely and kind and helpful old-school costumers – but they tended to advise more one-on-one, and the idea of just putting detailed knowledge out there for random strangers to use wasn’t much of a thing. And then what information did get out there was coming from people with the freedom and budget to do things like invest in all the tools and materials to create authentic leather hauberks, or build a vac-form setup to make stormtrooper armor, etc. NOT beginner friendly, is what I’m saying.
Then, around 2000 or so, two particular things happened: anime and manga began to be widely accessible in resulting in a boom in anime conventions and cosplay culture, and a new wave of costume-filled franchises (notably the Star Wars prequels and the Lord of the Rings movies) hit the theatres. What those brought into the convention and costuming arena was a new wave of enthusiastic fans who wanted to make costumes, and though a lot of the anime fans were much younger, some of them, and a lot of the movie franchise fans, were in their 20s and 30s, young enough to use the internet to its (then) full potential, old enough to have autonomy and a little money, and above all, overwhelmingly female. I think that latter is particularly important because that meant they had a lifetime of dealing with gatekeepers under our belts, and we weren’t inclined to deal with yet another one. They looked at the old dragons carefully hoarding their knowledge, keeping out anyone who might be unworthy, or (even worse) competition, and they said NO. If secrets were going to be kept, they were going to figure things out for ourselves, and then they were going to share it with everyone. Those old-school costumers may have done us a favor in the long run, because not knowing those old secrets meant that we had to find new methods, and we were trying – and succeeding with – materials that “serious” costumers would never have considered. I was one of those costumers, but there were many more – I was more on the movie side of things, so JediElfQueen and PadawansGuide immediately spring to mind, but there were so many others, on YahooGroups and Livejournal and our own hand-coded webpages, analyzing and testing and experimenting and swapping ideas and sharing, sharing, sharing.
I’m not saying that to make it sound like we were the noble knights of cosplay, riding in heroically with tutorials for all. I’m saying that a group of people, individually and as a collective, made the conscious decision that sharing was a Good Things that would improve the community as a whole. That wasn’t necessarily an easy decision to make, either. I know I thought long and hard before I posted that tutorial; the reaction I had gotten when I wore that armor to a con told me that I had hit on something new, something that gave me an edge, and if I didn’t share that info I could probably hang on to that edge for a year, or two, or three. And I thought about it, and I was briefly tempted, but again, there were all of these others around me sharing what they knew, and I had seen for myself what I could do when I borrowed and adapted some of their ideas, and I felt the power of what could happen when a group of people came together and gave their creativity to the world.
And it changed the face of costuming. People who had been intimidated by the sci-fi competition circuit suddenly found the confidence to try it themselves, and brought in their own ideas and discoveries. And then the next wave of younger costumers took those ideas and ran, and built on them, and branched out off of them, and the wave after that had their own innovations, and suddenly here we are, with Youtube videos and Tumblr tutorials and Etsy patterns and step-by-step how-to books, and I am just so, so proud.
So yeah, seeing appreciation for a 17-year-old technique I figured out on my dining-room table (and bless it, doesn’t that page just scream “I learned how to code on Geocities!”), and having it embraced as a springboard for newer and better things warms this fandom-old’s heart. This is our legacy, and a legacy the current group of cosplayers is still creating, and it’s a good one.
(Oh, and for anyone wondering: yes, I’m over 40 now, and yes, I’m still making costumes. And that armor is still in great shape after 17 years in a hot attic!)
Alastor's better then me cause if Rosie came up to me with the "why don't you help them?" my response would have been "bitch HOW?!"
Your telling me that you want me to help with an angelic nuclear bomb powered by the second strongest being in creation when I'm at the weakest I've ever been in my time it hell? With the thing I use to channel my power broken? The thing you have previously refused to fix?
I'm not saying that he's better then me because he threatened to let everyone die (even though I think it was an empty threat). I'm saying he's better then me because I would have lost my temper.
"guys you need to universally support indie games because they never commit workplace violations and use AI!" is one of the more annoying modern video game opinions you'll see in the wild lately
shoutout us formerly working on a fangame, the most indie you can get with indie games. workplace abuse is not exclusive to AAA studios. we were sexually harassed and people were really racist to us on that project. never let yourself think "indie" means "perfect" in any contexts.