Qu Chengguan

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[stefa-bingjiucanon]

CW/TW: mentions of trauma, psychological abuse, broken identity, memory loss, grief, self-hatred, unhealthy attachment, implied past torture and non-con. Read at your own discretion.

And it's me again.

With my dead sun.

We stopped at Shen Jiu and Luo Binghe returning to Cangqiong...

Binghe's body wasn't human, it was harder and colder than human, his nails were sharp and his hair rough, outwardly — human and so what? But inside there was no heart, no blood and no organs, his body made from an artifact was strong and powerful but not alive at all... Pale skin embarrassed those who saw Luo Binghe, they were also embarrassed by Luo Binghe's youth. Perhaps when Luo Binghe saw his former body he hated it, but the new one became salvation and curse. He looked like a teenager who fell into the abyss. As if he was still 17, but if you look into his eyes you can understand how deceptive his appearance is.

Even with the new body (old in its newness) he hated it. He remembered everything Xin Mo did to the girls dear to him in the harem, how he killed them, humiliated and wounded them, he was disgusted with his own hands, face, voice, actions.

But most of all he hated Shen Jiu. Actually not that, he hated that he couldn't kill him and end his life.

In his youth Luo Binghe had sincere awkward and tender feelings for this person, he hoped until the very end that Shizun would someday change his opinion of him, would be proud of his disciple. Which never happened.

Now Shen Jiu loved him, panically, madly loved. Binghe was the sun in his world. But Luo Binghe couldn't be the sun, he didn't know how to shine in the darkness, he was afraid of this man's hatred, afraid that Shizun wouldn't understand and would kill him, deep down Luo Binghe hoped that he would do just that.... Destroy his body and maybe.. be free.

That didn't happen.

Xin Mo died. Drowning Shizun's personality with himself. Took away his mind and life, leaving Luo Binghe his body and broken soul.

Shen Jiu doesn't remember who he was, doesn't remember who Luo Binghe is, doesn't remember everything at once, he remembers his memories of torture in passing and as if trifling, not understanding how terrible they are.

Luo Binghe cannot kill him, cannot kill an innocent broken soul that lives because of him.

It hurts, so hurts. He hugs him when he starts to be afraid of something, tugs his hand so Luo Binghe would answer for him, touches his head to check if he's here or not. A chilly feeling scratches him for a long long time.

Shizun looks so fragile when he sleeps holding his hand, Luo Binghe can't fall asleep knowing what this person went through. Can't breathe can't.... Be with him.

"Leader of the sect, all this is in the past, I am able to continue carrying the position of lord of the peak. – cold voice and confident look of his Shizun affects everyone"

Shen Jiu is good at pretending to be someone he hasn't been for a long time. Luo Binghe praises him for it and Shen Jiu is so happy. Quietly alone... Luo Binghe understands that all this is wrong, wrong to lie and pretend, but what can he do? Shizun doesn't want to talk.

"But they will be angry, and they will kill you! And you will suffer! They will take you away from me if they understand something is wrong!!!"

Is that the only thing that worries you, Shizun?...

...

Luo Binghe couldn't do anything before. Couldn't defend his body, couldn't help before. He can only keep up the lie, and make "Shen Jiu" happy so he doesn't fall apart completely.

Shen Jiu hugs the lost-in-thought teenager, his skin is cold and in the summer night it's so pleasant to press against it, his sun is so comfortable! Though very sad and harmful... Shen Jiu doesn't understand him. But it's okay, because the sun never gets offended at him, and is very kind to Shen Jiu.

[stefa-bingjiucanon]

CW/TW: mentions of sexual violence, implied non-con, torture, psychological abuse, gore, trauma, manipulation, and dehumanization. Please read with caution. If any of these triggers you, don't read. Your safety matters.

I almost didn't sleep today, only about 3 hours. Probably that's why my head came up with something so terrible...

So listen, Bingjiu, trigger topic is present but I didn't describe them in all details... so in any case if you are triggered by mentioning violence in any form I don't ask anyone to read this! ಥ‿ಥ it's just a thought I wanted to finish myself with.

The endless abyss passed, but it wasn't Luo Binghe who came out of it. His body lived, heart beat, eyes blinked, breath walked in calm rhythm through the lungs. The soul, the soul was rotten and alien, the soul was disgusting to everything alive, the new personality in this body craved to play a good, terrible, bloody scene in the role of puppeteer.

Or an AU where Xin Mo took over Luo Binghe's body almost at the same time as he pulled them into the real world.

And Luo Binghe's soul was specially sealed in precious metal.

It was a metal, dark and empty prison, a one-way mirror, the only prisoner of the prison could see everything, hear everything, feel every emotion of his victim, but could do nothing. He was locked in darkness, a human soul could not exist on hatred alone, every day feeling its own helplessness. Luo Binghe tossed and thrashed, he craved freedom as never before, but he could not imagine that his hell could be even worse.

Xin Mo played the role of Luo Binghe, everyone who knew him before understood his changes, no one could understand that in front of them was not that Luo Binghe, no one knew Luo Binghe well enough to notice. Every new wife was delighted with the love and passion with which "Luo Binghe" gave to them all. But Xin Mo was not satisfied with playing with women so dear to Luo Binghe, he wanted to get the most hated person of Binghe.

Then the well-known trial, Qiu Haitang sobbing and so fiercely loving "Luo Binghe" for revenge for her brother!

Everything as before, only the main role cannot say a word.

Xin Mo in Luo Binghe's body tortured Shen Jiu, tormented and healed wounds to inflict new ones. Luo Binghe whose soul was locked in the sword screamed with rage and panic fear, he did not understand why revenge by someone else's hands on his teacher made him so angry, but every time the monster calling himself by his name says gently "teacher", the real Luo Binghe wants to howl and sob from the impossibility to stop it. Hide, take away, cover in a dark place, never give to anyone, protect with everything he has...

Xiao Luo understood that torture of Shen Jiu was not the worst thing he had seen.

Xin Mo brought the wounded Shen Jiu out for public display.

Tortured him in front of demonic wives who were only happy to watch such things.

Bared Shen Jiu's body, forced him with blood parasites to do everything his wives ordered...

And once he brought the teacher to the barracks of his warriors. Dressed only in underclothes, Shen Jiu could do or say nothing. The Lord approved the holiday and brought ... Entertainment for all his loyal people.

Luo Binghe had no body, no way to leave, no chance not to watch. Watch how his proud teacher breaks apart piece by piece, bit by bit his eyes stop being conscious, every time Luo Binghe screams which in reality sounds like just a clattering of the sword. Shen Jiu hates the man with his face. Shen Jiu wants to die, Shen Jiu feels too much shame and disgust for his body and those around him that he doesn't notice how he gradually loses himself.

Xin Mo makes Shen Jiu his concubine.

Luo Binghe's soul transmits Shen Jiu's emotions too strongly, too similar to his own.

Once Shen Jiu accidentally managed to reach the sword "Xin Mo" and received a flash of strange slightly distorted qi. Familiar qi.

He won't understand, or rather maybe he will understand but decide that it's unlikely anything will change for him.

Luo Binghe gathers the power of dead victims that Xin Mo killed with his vessel. Gathers the most terrible forces, creating from his prison a body, heart, blood, eyes, tongue and ears.

His body is made from one of the most powerful artifacts of the world. And his intentions are sharp and clear, gods were on his side when he in his newly acquired body killed his former body. He knows the weaknesses of his own body, he was not afraid when he destroyed his current face into a bloody mess. He was not afraid to kill almost all of his past subordinates, slaughtering the entire Flower Palace and the demonic one as well. Perhaps after that he would finally die, crumble into pieces and fly away as metal dust in the wind.

The world had other plans.

Shen Jiu.

The last nerve cell, and the drop of past consciousness died seeing such a beautiful sight. Shen Jiu, no one knows where he got the strength, approached the blood-covered man, in his eyes danced sparks of madness, joy, hope, sincerity and absolute absence of consciousness.

He briefly and quietly happily asked: "did you kill them?"

Binghe could not answer him.

Shen Jiu repeated this question tilting his head to Luo Binghe.

Binghe again did not answer him aloud, but weakly nodded not daring to look into the teacher's eyes.

The Shizun broke.

But his soul wanted to live.

He chose Luo Binghe. He tied his entire new and broken soul to Luo Binghe.

Tied tightly and firmly.

...

Xin Mo didn't actually manage to do that much.

For example, cause a commotion in the cultivation world.

So Shen Jiu returned to the peak, and all people knew was that he was tortured, but he survived.

Shen Jiu played his own role without really thinking why, but kept doing it.

Many had questions who Shen Jiu brought with him... But Shen Jiu did not let them look. Did not let them take away his fragile treasure full of evil and grief.

Yue Qingyuan was the only one who knew who it was, but he could do nothing about it. Luo Binghe or whoever this person was - was the sun for Shen Jiu, and nothing else made him live.

I would like to write MORE

But that's for next time... Let's call this AU "sun"? I want to write a few more posts about it.

I'm not up for fanfics. Let's consider this post as a fanfic... Hehe. (⁠･ัω･ั⁠)

[aidoodle]

[hootyhoowoo]

Happy Qijiu Day! 🩶

[eggsolotl]

Did that broken mask trend with our dearly beloved binghe!

Bingmei is such a chronic yearner, and considering how bad it is... just imagining Bingge, who holds such unhealed anguish, yearning so deeply after getting his glimpse of sy as sqq

AOUGHHH it festered some brainworms within me that I had to get out

[red-garden]

Bing slander to say that Luo Binghe could not be happy if he isn’t Shen Yuan’s wife. That would imply he feels entitled to that position, when a defining characteristic of Luo Binghe is how unworthy and vile he sees himself. He wants to be loved and accepted, and I doubt he cares what form it takes when it comes from his favorite person. What he really wants is for Shen Yuan to express that affection freely, to hold him and kiss his scrapes, and tell him he’s not bad. So long as he receives love, he be okay as Shen Yuan’s disciple, perhaps a child figure, or just a friend. The only reason it seems like he wants to be a wife specifically is because he is a jealous person who can’t stand others receiving Shizun’s affection— romantic, platonic, or otherwise.

[tuaka]

I’m not sure which role suits whom best. ┐⁠(⁠ ⁠˘⁠_⁠˘⁠)⁠┌

[piosplayhouse]

!!! A LICENSE HAS BEEN FILED FOR A JAPANESE MANGA ADAPTATION OF SCUM VILLAIN !!!

[wirvaa]

Bingjiu

[celadonglazedmoon]

centaur qijiu!

[loratea]

bottom yue qingyuan week is already over but here is my (late!) contribution (combining prompts for days 1-4: xuan su | training; ling xi caves | scars; ownership/possession | diplomacy; and qi deviation | repression/restraint) — open in full view for best quality!

[id: scum villain fanart of yue qingyuan as an older teen in the ling xi caves, looking down at the ground and kneeling in front of his shizun. yue qingyuan is battered, bloody, and bruised. a bruise in the shape of a handprint is on his neck. xuan su, surrounded by flames, is pierced into his back. glowing scars in a lightning-style pattern surround the area where xuan su pierces his skin, as well as on his chest, neck, and jaw. his shizun has a hand on his head, more possessive than affectionate. spots of gray hair appear right below where his shizun's hand rests. /end id.]

[hehearse]

And he asked: "Forget what?"

a commission of a scene from this fic ! ^^

[horsegirlwarcrimes]

HI. this killed me

[x3ntha]

[noctuast]

tails are less cool if you’re a character in airplane’s trashy stallion novel :(

[tuaka]

Mizi, strangle me. Pls

[tuaka]

Mizi, strangle me. Pls

[stefa-bingjiucanon]

The emptiness on my account is bothering me again.

So here are some of my modern AU headcanons for the *SVSSS* cast.

Tianlang-jun would drag his entire family (Su Xiyan, Luo Binghe, Zhuzhi-Lang, and maybe even his sister and her husband if they're alive in this universe) to every convention imaginable. Anime cons, music festivals, gaming conventions, book fairs, Japanese sweets festivals, D&D events, fantasy conventions... everywhere. Everyone is coming, whether they're interested or not. ,_,

(On the bright side, thanks to all these events, Luo Binghe ends up understanding Shen Yuan and his hobbies much better =∆)

I also feel like Tianlang-jun would actually follow the event schedule. The type of person who goes to panels, workshops, performances, and activities instead of spending the whole day browsing the merchandise stalls.

Su Xiyan isn't a very good cook. ,_,

She knows how to make pancakes and an amazing chocolate cake, but that's about it. At home, Tianlang-jun or Luo Binghe usually do the cooking, or their housekeeper does it instead. (Hello, Luo Binghe's adoptive mom—you finally get to become part of the family in modern AU, just like canon Binghe wanted =∆.) So no one is starving.

(This is the happy version of the modern AU. The horrible version comes later!)

As for Shang Qinghua... either he goes to conventions as the author of his novel, or he's way too terrified to go at all.

It's one or the other, and I honestly can't decide which suits him better. Probably the second one, because he'd be afraid for his life!

In the modern AU, Luo Binghe spent a few years taking music lessons and art classes. (He still ends up working in an office, unfortunately. Curse it—I hate AUs where he's either in the mafia or just an office worker! It doesn't suit him at all! He belongs in some kind of creative industry... or at least as an actor!)

Speaking of acting... maybe!

Honestly, I imagine modern AU Binghe as someone who's incredibly well-rounded. He could study Ancient Greek history for fun while also reading the most trashy web novel imaginable.

And, by some law of the universe, he likes almost everything. He'll happily get into nearly any hobby.

Shen Yuan loves web novels.

He doesn't really play games anymore. ,_,

Well... maybe gacha games? I feel like Shen Yuan would be the kind of player who knows the entire story, every quest, every event...

All so he can discuss it online and complain about every single writing mistake, of course.

AHEM.

Since this is the happy modern AU...

Shen Jiu.

So. Shen Jiu has a tattoo on his side with a Japanese quote from an anime that he got illegally when he was sixteen.

(⁠Ӧ⁠ｖ⁠Ӧ⁠｡⁠)

And he actually knows Japanese, so it isn't some dumb tattoo—it really is a beautiful quote.

(He wanted to cover it up at one point, but eventually gave up on the idea. Shen Yuan talked him out of it.)

Honestly, you could come up with so many ideas for Shen Jiu's teenage years if he hadn't been trapped in such awful circumstances. Different subcultures, for example. I'm just not sure which one he'd have liked the most...

After turning eighteen, though, he'd do everything he could to hide any connection to *that* part of his past.

I think modern AU Shen Jiu would be embarrassed by his teenage years. Within two years of becoming an adult, he'd erase almost everything linking him to anime and creative hobbies.

A very sad story :P

(Binghe will remind him. He'll find everything. He'll learn everything! And for Shen Jiu's birthday, he'll buy him official merch from the anime the quote came from. (⁠~⁠￣⁠³⁠￣⁠)⁠~ Shen Jiu will kill him for it, but that's not important.)

That's all for now.

This Quyi takes her leave.