STELL

ok, this is one place where I can post whatever I want without caring about being judged.... am a little girl (ok maybe not so little) trying to find a platonic caregiver. and am a regressor!!

[stellar-babyy]

I know no one would read this...but I just want to let it out....

I have been feeling too many emotions....it's strange to describe but also can't stay without trying to explain it to someone. I have been in a few relationships... but only one of them was physical...n then also I broke up with them cuz I thought they were going too fast for my liking... It's been almost 2 years since...but why do I feel so lonely all of a sudden... why do I crave a touch again... why such a strong craving for love....for someone to physically stand beside me and tell me they love and support me... won't leave my side... would guide me through what's wrong and what's right...and won't leave me even if I take a wrong step...

I don't miss them...I never have. I don't regret breaking up with them...I never will... but why the f*ck do I feel like sh*t now. Ik it's not because of someone from 2 years back. People will say I am over reacting....am trying to seek attention.. but I'm not. Because of what u will think I don't say my problems to anyone else. I have learned to bottle every emotion in ...but by doing so I acquired social anxiety.

Now I'm scared of talking with people I know. Scared what they will think of me. If I meet someone out of school my heart picks up pace if I try to talk to them. It's all a mess.

I'm no longer the loud, extrovert, out going person my old friends knew. And my new friends can't believe I have been anything else than an introvert my whole life

I lie. I'm a liar. I lie to myself. I lie to others. I lie that I'm alright when I am not. I lie that everything will be fine when I know it won't. I lie to my parents that nothing's wrong. I lie to me that I'm strong. But I am not. I am weak. Coward. Suicidal. Broken. Cannot be fixed.

The people I call best friends. The people for who I gave up on other sets of people think I'm a bad influence to them. I went to them thinking I will express myself better with them. But I still can't tell them that I'm homicidal.

They will also leave me eventually when they find someone better. And I'll be left alone. Left alone with my greatest fear. Fear of being left alone.

" you shouldn't run, it looks indecent" ok. "You shouldn't dance, it doesn't suit your figure" ok. "Ayee gurlll, wanna bang? Look at that body." Ew,no. " Why are you wearing shorts or sleeveless. Are you trying to get attention of boys?" No, I'm not. "Don't go out with eye liner on. Remove that lip balm. You look like a prostitute." Sorry I won't repeat.

Sorry but I never asked to be born the way I am. Are you happy that now I have eating disorder?

I go days after days without breakfast and lunch. Just have handful of rice in the night. I don't feel hungry anymore. Oily foods makes me feel sick. Gave up on my favorite foods. Only thing I can say doesn't makes me think is chocolate.

I try getting thinner but nothing happens...feels like I am getting thicker anyway.

I found a way to escape from this.i know I won't be able to get past them, but I have to forget them for a while.

I discovered something about me . Something which would help . Something I found about myself. I am an age regressor.

But guess what, people didn't leave me alone there also. I didn't say this to everyone. Only a few people I trust. They claimed it's a period. They claimed it's just my kink. I tried to make them understand. But they didn't. I gave up.

To hide away from them, I made sure that I don't slip in my headspace often and not in front of them. Preventing myself again and again made it impossible for me to slip when I wanted to. I couldn't slip and it just made everything worse.

But I try. This is my happy place.

I know there are people who will talk to me if reach out to them. But they just console me. They just put a sheet on top of my problems so I can't see them. But they don't solve them so just as the sheet moves,my problems also hit me.

I don't know if a person being physically there with me will make any difference, but it will assure me that someone is there with me at that time.

Thanks if you read this till all the way down here. Thanks for keeping up with my rant.

I hope people understand.

It feels better after I let it out...

[stellar-babyy]

Hi...!

Today I couldn't talk with anyone or post anything (not even in my main account)😭😭. Today I had this festival ( kinda, but not really...) So I had to keep a fast for the whole day so this baby tummy was empty for most of the day...then I had to talk with every guest! Respond to their stupid jokes! Listen them rant about how less I eat and I should do more for the growing age! Acknowledge all the praises thrown at me about looking pretty (or they could have just said they were looking at my curves and.....😩😥) and smile at them! Then one of friends stayed back so I had to keep her company for the rest of the day and I am Soo sooo sooo soooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired!!!

I want to sleep but I can't cuz I have to study!!

So someone suggested that I should write something more about myself on this blog so I'll do it but not today cuz I'm soooooo tired. So I'll write something about myself tomorrow I guess 😁

-with love ❤❤❤

Stella

[stellar-babyy]

Listen to this song when you are feeling down. It will make you feel better.

' I pinkie promise you to never leave your side'

" I want to be your light baby, you should be your light."

Love you Jimin ❤❤

[stellar-babyy]

Hiiii~~~~~

So I had my sleep and I also got well and am feeling better 😛

But I found out something last night before going to sleep.

I'm not a little exactly, but I am a middle. So I found out something new about me last day!!!

I also don't know what I should be doing in this blog...can someone please give me any ideas 😣😣

AND GOOD MORNING TO EVERYONE!!!

[stellar-babyy]

GOOD NIGHT~~~

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🌛⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

So guess who got sick? Yeah this baby got sick right after turning big....now I feel like getting small again. I hope I get well after I wake up. Hope all other babies are healthy and happy. Good night to all the littles, middles, kitties, pups,caregivers, daddies and everyone

-with❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Stella

[stellar-babyy]

Hello~~~

GREETINGS TO ALL FROM MY BIGGER ME.

I came out of my little space for a while (or for a few days)

And I just wanted to talk about myself.

BIG ME(or my non regressing me)

•I am not going to tell you my real age until I think you are trustworthy enough.

• I also don't trust anyone with my real name but you are free to call me Stella.

• I might be shy in general, but can be bitchy if I want to.

• Please /don't/ start a conversation with me saying how you wanna fuck me or put your dick inside me. It's extremely cringey. Unless you can start a conversation like a civil person don't text me.

• Please remember your boundaries when talking with me.

• My regression is not my kink play and I am actually a regressor. Maybe I don't show all it's traits or my regressing age isn't that young but please don't use me as your getting off object.

• If you are talking to me then please know that I do have issues in my real life. So respect that and don't pressurize if I don't wanna tell you something. It's not lying ,it's not feeling safe enough.

• And no I'm not here to find myself a sex partner or anything, I just want to find myself a platonic caregiver with slight sexual innuendos.

• I curse.

LITTLE ME(or my regressing me)

• I'm around the age of 9-11.

• You can call me Stella or any other pet names.

• I'm extremely bratty and whiney.

• I'm really needy of love and attention.

• Please don't start talking with me with any inappropriate thoughts or motives.

• I'm usually a bit sensitive and emotional.

• I might call you Daddy, so if you feel uncomfortable please do let me know.

• Don't ask me anything personal or for inappropriate pictures.

• Don't expect me to be like this all the time. I do come out of my headspace quite often.

• Please again respect my boundaries and 'no' .

•Big no-no to spanking.

• I love praises. I hate degrading.

• I am not here to find someone only to boss me around or be my 'master'. I'm here to find someone who will listen to me and take care of me and understand me and give me love.

•I don't cuss.

Ohhhhhh I typed a lot~~

Will add to this list when I remember anything.

With ❤❤❤❤❤❤

-stella

[stellar-babyy]

YAYYY~~

I feel better!!! I had some chocolates and I spoke with a Daddy who showered me with love. I feel HAPPY and LOVED😍😍

Thanks youuuu DADDYYY~~~~

[stellar-babyy]

This is my most favorite song....it always gives me strength to fight all the baddies. I love you Jimin 😆

[stellar-babyy]

Good morning~~☁☁☁☁🌞☁☁☁☁

I thought I would feel better after waking up....but I don't....it's unusual of me.... I still don't feel good...but I can't take any more naps....

[stellar-babyy]

Good night ⭐⭐⭐⭐🌛⭐⭐⭐⭐

I feel sleepy and tired....am going to sleep now.... it's already past my bed time ...I wish someone would have tucked me in, kissed me on my forehead and called me his princess. I wish the bed wouldn't feel so empty because that someone would be there to cuddle with me ....I want to experience love.... I want to be loved again....

Good night~~

[stellar-babyy]

I hate all of this, I am tired.... please someone love me....I am begging you 😭😭

My heart at this moment....

[thepersonalquotes]

https://www.instagram.com/thepersonalquotes/

[inuyasha-hugs]

⚠️Littles are commitments⚠️

Being a caregiver is absolutely not an easy job. It’s taxing, it’s difficult, it is a job. A little themselves is a commitment to be made. If you’re thinking you want to be a daddy or mommy because you want an easy, loving relationship, you may be unpleasantly surprised.

Littles require constant attention. Most become very very attached to their caregivers, and can quickly develop separation anxiety. They will basically always want to know what you’re doing, or where you are. If you randomly stop responding to them for basically any amount of time, they can become nervous, anxious, scared, and other negative emotions because they don’t know where you are.

A vast majority of littles suffer from things like anxiety, depression, or low self esteem. This means they also need constant reassurance. They need to hear that “no, you don’t hate them. Yes, you love being their caregiver. No, they aren’t a burden. Etc.”

Some littles require even more care depending on how young they regress, and when the individual themselves requires.

Basically, a little will constantly need you. They are like real babies, you can’t leave them alone. So, if any of this seems like too much, you need to either prepare yourself more for this role, or reconsider being a caregiver entirely.

Of course, you can learn through practice with your little. A relationship still requires communication of both party’s needs. If you’re still willing to make the effort and commitment, talk and practice with your little.

[strawbunny-lia]

What being a little DOESN‘T mean

- I want to be in little space 24/7

- I can’t ever be independent

- I can’t listen to music with bad words

- I can’t watch movies that aren’t Disney/Pixar

- I need constant protection

- I will always do whatever you say without questioning it

[stellar-babyy]

I miss love....

I don't feel good....I feel extremely whiney and sad....I want love and attention 😫😫 I want to be a little again.... but I can't because no one's there to take care of me....I feel lonely and sad... I crave love and attention 😭😭 why don't I have a Daddy 😭😭 someone who takes care of me and with who I can have endless talks and the warmest cuddles

;(((((((((((( ;<<<<<

[stellar-babyy]

DADDYYY~~~

It's been so long since I slipped into my headspace. I'm missing the little me😢😢

[stellar-babyy]

I never really thought that one chat post will blow up. ..that's the most no. of notes I've ever gotten....NVM... I guess I'll just post more like it