yapper since birth

i just really need an outlet. you can take the girl off her blog, but ---- you know how it goes :)

[snowbairdd]

Conrad, I choose you, of my own free will. If there are infinite worlds, every version of me chooses you in every one of them.

THE SUMMER I TURNED PRETTY (2022 - 2025), season 3

[thatonekimgirl]

Conrad Fisher in Season Three: Domestic (and handy!) House Husband

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#100% His Look

[iknewitiknewyou]

Conrad | Belly + domestic

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#My Favorite Homewreckers 

[ryebreadlord]

[still-writingfrommycorner]

butthurtfriday

friday was the absolute worst. and 2025 just started.

in the interest of the data privacy act (lol), i will not (and cannot) go into details obviously. i'm hoping it's just one of those days that i feel so strongly about that it actually gets me to write an entry about it. but then a year later, upon reading back, i can't even figure out what the trigger was.

but i don't want to minimize how i feel. so here's what happened in keywords: work issue, work call at 8AM (!), got the brunt of the blame even if i was objectively / respectfully not at fault. but what i really did not like and what shifted my perspective -- how i view this job and the people i work with -- is that, when things get tense, it's mighty disappointing to realize that the person you trusted to have your back, didn't.

i admit it wasn't my most emotionally mature day. i took the rest of the afternoon off, just in time for a neighborhood blackout. it came at the end of a week when everything was just tough all around. i really did not come in for that. and i'm past the point where i overextend myself for people who don't know how to appreciate the lengths people go to for this job.

as i write this now, it's monday 9:48AM -- a full three days since this incident -- and i am still smarting. the person i expected to reach out has not done it. and tbh i don't think she will. so that's that.

[still-writingfrommycorner]

outlet

Hi blog,

Been a while. Going by my last actual written entry here, it has been 4 years since I cared or had time to lay down my feelings and experiences in their most raw. No editing here, for a change - yay!

A quick summary to catch you up, 'cause the last few years have been quite full.

Got married

Had a baby

Landed a new Sydney-based job

Enjoyed working with Australian and NZ brands with said Sydney-based company

Got into a near-fatal car accident right outside our home

Left Sydney-based job and took two months off to recalibrate (didn't realize how badly I needed it until I was fully immersed in it -- highly recommend if you were born in the '90s like me and went to work right after college grad haha)

Did a short freelancing stint with a NY-based Filipino lifestyle brand (thanks to a generous mentor who did the introduction)

Let freelancing stint go as I got more serious with my full-time job applications

Went on a fun family trip to Bohol just in time for Chunky's 2nd birthday

Started a new work-from-anywhere job with one of the best digital agencies I've come across (funnily enough, first "worked" with them when I was still with Summit -- felt like a foreshadowing haha)

So... that's the past 4 years as a list. What's not seen are the many breakdowns and breakthroughs, coffees and matcha lattes, crippling anxieties and thank-you-universe moments of happiness that I went through, paid for, and lived through.

TBH, today's writing prompt was a personal low point. It's been a tough several weeks or month, really. And yesterday, it all just came to a boil. I've been thinking about journaling the past few months, and today I just couldn't fight the urge anymore. I just need an outlet or maybe coping mechanism would be more accurate. I've tried a lot at this point: looking at my zodiac readings (lol), curating crystals (can confirm they work haha), downloading cat games, downloading "soothing" games, retail therapy (too easy to get carried away with this), and going to the gym. But this - writing and talking to the void where I feel unknown in the best possible way - will always be the most natural for me.

I promise to be back. Even these last few minutes of just typing away my thoughts almost as soon as they came to me has brought me immense comfort. Let's work towards this bringing me joy.

Note: Funny story about this book. Badly wanted this and my then-boyfriend, now-husband bought it for me for Christmas. Was only about a quarter of the way through reading when life took over and I had to pause. Lent it to a friend who, 'til now, has not returned it yet. hahaha I see her semi-regularly, must remember to ask for it back next time.

[still-writingfrommycorner]

In the past few months, I’ve been getting serious career envy. I would scroll on Facebook and Instagram, and I’d see friends who were working at my “dream companies” -- the multinationals with the big-name brands -- and friends who seemed so secure after quitting the corporate world and either put up their own start-ups or went back to school for their second degrees.

They knew what they wanted and, even better, they got the chance to go after whatever that was. I couldn’t help but think: Why wasn’t I a better college student? (I was a great one in high school.) Why didn’t I branch out from Journalism? Should’ve taken up Marketing or Business units! I should just pay for certified Coursera courses! etc.

There were a hundred things I felt I could’ve done and didn’t. And as much as I wanted to blame my current company for my frustrations, I knew a lot of it was also caused by me.

So I started doing things that I thought would help lessen the negativity: 

- I updated my CV after over a year

- I updated my LinkedIn profile, changed my signal to Actively Looking (for jobs), and started applying to anything that sounded even vaguely interesting to me

- I encouraged my teammates to do the same (we were all frustrated)

And now, a couple of months into the looking-for-a-new-dream-job business and I have had: 

- 1 official job offer

- 1 interview with a rising local brand scheduled tomorrow 

- 1 fresh email from a telecom company regarding an PR & Comm Expert opening

All in a span of about a week. 

It may not seem like much for some people. But right now, I just feel super grateful to the universe for always listening and providing whenever I need it most. There are days when I question why I’m here, and even darker days when I shut down and give up even asking.

But today, I’m happy that the universe proved to me -- once again! -- that shouts into the void don’t fall on deaf ears. I don’t know who’s been listening, but I’m just so grateful. Thanks for the push in the right direction.

[doseofriends]

[1ibertine]

[freifraufischer]

[badscienceshenanigans-deactivat]

DRAG THEM NEIL

[borderline-sunflower-deactivate]

i was on the train and 3 drunk girls saw me and said i had nice brown eyes so they sang “brown eyed girl” to me

[5348674174-deactivated20150510]

I threw up at a frat party and I was crying in the bathroom and a drunk girl went upstairs to get me a shirt and came back with a sweater and a kitten.

[locke-fuckscottlynch78-lamora]

At the last party I went to three drunk girls fishtail braided my hair by committee

[kaylapocalypse-deactivated20201]

a drunk girl drew an eye on the back of my hand and then patted it with satisfaction and  whispered “count olaf”

[wizzard890]

once at a barbecue a drunk girl gave the surgical scar on my shoulder a butterfly kiss and said “you’re cured”

[erincrocodile-deactivated202006]

A drunk girl at a bar I was at became worried that I wasn’t getting enough nutrition and proceeded to hold peanuts to my lips and just keep saying “peanut peanut” until I would eat it. And after I allowed her to feed me a peanut she pet my hair and said “Thank you”.

[mcdonalds-money]

Drunk girls, saving your life one wtf at a time.

[gh0stvirgo]

Girls are a fucking gift don’t let anyone tell you otherwise

[fyp-psychology]

How Unhappy Childhood Experiences Can Affect You Today (And How To Deal With It)

[wordsnquotes]

fyp-psychology:

The Key Dynamics of Relating is an area that assesses how childhood experiences impact a person in their adult life. Often, looking back can help a person going forward. Psychologists cite parents and relationships as reasons for issues later in life, as memories alter how the present day is perceived. But sometimes merely analysing a popular problem can shed light on why unhappy childhood experiences can affect you today.

Here are some common themes that illuminate the negative progression from a childhood experience to adult life.

Keep reading

[still-writingfrommycorner]

Dear Dad...

[wordsnquotes]

I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be, but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see.

Douglas Pagels  (via wordsnquotes)

[micdotcom]

Watch/Read: President Obama’s DNC speech was one for the history books

[kevin-hunte423]

I love how he used Republican quotes and used it to make his own personal tea lmao ☕️☕️☕️

[hashtagloveloses]

Im tearing up a lil bit

[still-writingfrommycorner]

Pretty sure the movie passed the Bechdel test with flying colors.