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start date: 10/5 2020 sw: 192.7 lbs height: 171 cm

pro-recovery! but this is my space where i get to be as disordered(TM) as i want. please leave if it triggers you. you deserve to eat.

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hw: 236.8 lbs (20 june 2023) lw: 164.2 lbs (26 may 2021) gw1: 165 lbs

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ang3ltearsxo

been telling myself "just gotta get through the day" every day since i was 8

beautyandlifestyleblog86

Minimalist home decor

#aes

when i was eating three meals a day, ~1,500 kcal, i was hitting all of my micronutrient goals, but at two meals and 1,000 kcal/day, i'm missing, like, most of them, even though i'm using the same recipes. which. duh.

so i kinda want to start taking a multivitamin again. but since i'm drinking a monster every morning i'm loaded the fuck up on b vitamins and i think i read somewhere that it can be dangerous to have too much supplement b12.

and i'm not vegan but i do mostly eat plant based, except for the occasional glass of milk, so looking at the different multivitamins the formulation that fits me best is the one for vegans. (and i don't want to get Man or Woman for gender reasons. literally makes me so uncomfortable.)

but i'd be having so much b12.

#origpost #i can care about health in all other areas except calories #it's not hypocritical and pointless at all #like. the only vitamins i'm good for is the b vitamins in monster and vitamin c lmao #let's not even discuss minerals

looking at multivitamins like 'ah yes, the three genders: man, woman, vegan'

#origpost

i'm not active on this blog at all, i'm realising, but i am around. i just mostly hang out on edc these days

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snorlax-and-co

bluedragonflydream

I'm still hurting. It will never be over, never be okay. I'll never forget the things that happened in my life. The pain will always stay. Some days it's better, some days it's not.

chaosdisorganized

Im so pissed that I didn't get to have a normal life. So many years have been stolen by trauma and the aftermath of said trauma. I didn't get to be a regular child or adolescent or teenager and now adult because trauma just ruined my life and took all these years away from me and is still taking from me to this day even though it's not going on anymore. I wish I could go back in time and give that kid a good life but I can't. All I can do is heal and move on and I feel like that's impossible. I hate this.

cattleya-in-hell-deactivated202

Sometimes, I feel like I have a hole inside of me. I try to fill it with things I enjoy, but it still feels empty. I don’t know who I am or what I want out of life. I’m trying to find the motivation to keep going, but I’m not sure if I’ll ever find it.

arinrowan

one thing about being mentally ill is that in order to function, you have to be really brave, but it’s unfortunately in a way most of the world considers quite stupid.