I Am That Girl

just trying to find answers in my life.

[stinathoughtbox]

That isn't what you think it is

Us: *talking about my dad's childhood in Korea*

Me: So apa, I guess we're pretty weak. I think bugs are pretty scary. The first time I ever saw a cockroach, I cried.

Apa: I mean, we were really poor, farms and all that so bugs were everywhere. You know, in Korean culture, cockroaches are called 돈벌래 (money bug) and were kinda considered to be good luck. I guess that's why I'm not that afraid of them.

Me: ... are you sure that cockroaches were considered good luck in Korea? I really feel like they're associated with filth and disease... something about that doesn't seem right to me. Let's look it up in Google.

Me:*looks it up in Google, expecting to see a cockroach*

Me: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THAT. THAT IS NOT A FUCKING COCKROACH. THAT IS WHAT NIGHTMARES ARE MADE OF HOW THE FUCK WERE YOU NOT SCARED OF THAT SHIT. FUCK THAT. FUCK THAT. HOLY SHIT THAT'S THE SCARIEST FUCKING BUG I'VE EVER SEEN. WHY. JUST WHY DOES THAT EXIST?! THAT LOOKS LIKE SOMETHING THAT WOULD STEAL YOUR SOUL AND CRUSH IT FOR FUN. JESUS CHRIST WHY.

Apa: *looks over* Huh, wait, if that's not a cockroach, what is?

Me: *googles cockroach*

Apa: Ohhhh... that's a totally different bug.

[chibird]

You will survive the tough times. Everything will be okay.

[girlfriend-ly-deactivated202509]

[bethmartell]

movies list : My Neighbor Totoro (1988 - Dir. Hayao Miyazaki) “What a beautiful tree. It’s been around since long ago, back in the time when trees and people used to be friends. When I saw this tree, I knew this would be a good place for our family to live.”

[carudamon119]

[mcdyke-deactivated20171112]

being a female means needing to see 10 different doctors to get a proper diagnosis because they always think you’re exaggerating and/or lying

[leftiesneedrights]

define proper diagnosis. I mean, does that just mean the diagnosis you want?

[mcdyke-deactivated20171112]

no :) it means going to 10 different doctors who disbelieved your symptoms until the 11th found cysts on your ovaries :) which may mean infertility :) sit on a cactus :)

[cobra-23-deactivated20151224]

I call bullshit

[40yodater]

Of course you do. Like the first 10 doctors. 😒

[cobra-23-deactivated20151224]

I call bullshit on the story. If you think you have an issue you should see a specialist not just your PCP.

[40yodater]

Like the 4 “specialists” I saw for the crippling numbness in my face and legs I had for over a year while they told me it was “stress”? When it was finally found that I had scars on my brain and spine? Those “specialists” we’re male neurologist who wouldn’t give me an MRI because “women stress too much”. Go fuck yourself.

[beesplosion]

MY SPINE WAS BROKEN FOR 2 YEARS BECAUSE MY DOCTORS TOLD ME I JUST HAD BAD CRAMPS AND REFUSED TO TAKE XRAYS. FUCK YOU AND YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. WHEN WILL BOYS REALIZE THEIR EXPERIENCES ARENT STANDARD???? I ALSO LOVE THIS IDEA THAT YOU CAN JUST GO TO A SPECIALIST WHENEVER YOU WANT LOL IF OUR PCP DOESNT BELIEVE US WHEN WE TELL THEM OUR SYMPTOMS THEY ARENT GONNA REFER US TO A SPECIALIST YOU FUCKING MOLDY WALNUT

[proudly-pro-choice]

My parents began noticing something large in my throat, saw a specialist….Guess what? Told me to lose some weight..even though I wasn’t overweight. I would have my period for weeks at a time. Was told that it was teenage hormones and stress.

Two fucking years later I attempted suicide they ran a battery of tests as required and bam! They find out that I have untreated Hashimoto’s. The “thing” was a goiter. Possible symptoms of an untreated thyroid disease is the goiter, unexplained weight gain, and depression. All they had to do was test my blood, but they said young people don’t have thyroid problems. 😒

-Allie

[tikkunolamorgtfo]

Ten years ago, my mother—who is a pretty tough cookie—started feeling both ridiculously wired, anxious, and incredibly emotional. Every doctor she saw told her she was going through early menopause, even though she was still menstruating. Her health declined to point where she was barely sleeping, losing weight, and crying constantly, which was a huge red flag because my mother never cries. Finally, she went to see another doctor 2.5 hours away who referred her to an endocrinologist. And what did the endocrinologist say? He diagnosed her with one of the most advanced cases of Grave’s Disease he had even seen, and said if she had gone just a few more months without being treated, she could have FUCKING DIED. 

Also, it turned out that her thyroid levels had been moving out of the normal range in a progressive pattern for years, but nobody bothered to look at her past test results until after the diagnosis. They would just do a test, see that it was “in the normal range” and leave it at that. She could have caught it before she even had symptoms, instead of basically being accused of having hysteria. 

[celestial-cat-prince-deactivate]

i had a brain aneurysm/hemorrhage ten years ago, doctors still tell me im faking my disability BECAUSE YOU CAN TOTALLY FAKE LIMITED MOVEMENT OF THE LEFT SIDE

[symphonicsadness]

My sister had intercranial hypertension which was causing headaches, dizzy spells and loss of vision, and you know what the hospital told her? She was being a hysterical girl and making it up. A few weeks later she spent roughly a month in hospital and had several lumbar punctures to relieve her RECORD HIGH spinal pressure that was causing so much strain on her brain and optic nerves she was being sent blind.

[fail-sage]

Everytime I see this post (and it’s been a good 5/6 times), it has different stories and experiences of women who have been horribly mistreated by doctors and it just blows my mind that this is so big. It’s absolutely disgusting how terribly women are treated in the medical world and something needs to be done about that.

[kirawords]

my friend lea had back pain, then pain in her legs and feet, and then numbness. despite seeing 7 different doctors over 2 years, by the time they found the cancer it was inoperable. chemo and radiation didn’t work. the cancer spread. she died and left behind a 5 year old daughter.

[kaijuno]

A few years ago I would go through spells where I literally could not stand on my own and I couldn’t get out of bed. I would be freezing and too weak to eat. I would keep having heart palpitations as well. I got up the money to go to a clinic and they told me it was just stress and to basically just work on chilling out. I saved up money for a few weeks to do this and I pretty much get a “chill out” from them. As time went on it got worse, most noticeably the heart palpitations were happening almost constantly. I went again to a different clinic and was told it was normal and that it was probably stress. They did no tests, and they told me it would “just go away”. Two weeks later I ended up collapsing going down some stairs, and at the hospital it was discovered that I had such severe anemia that my heart could barely keep up with trying to get enough oxygen to my body. I had developed left ventricular hypertrophy (my heart muscle is too big) and because of them ignoring me and dismissing me I’m at a much higher risk of heart attacks and stroke now.

[spacebabenumber-25]

I went to the doctor with severe intermittent pain in my upper right stomach area that was so bad I had to miss school. Despite the fact that my period has been on a regular 3 month cycle for years, and I still had two months left until my period, my doctor told me it was period related cramps and or indigestion. 2 months later I’m in the hospital getting my gallbladder removed. It was so obstructed that there was gangrene developing my my system.

[words-writ-in-starlight]

So…everyone who’s given me shit for that one post (about medicine and equal treatment and shit) can just read this because I’m sick of defending my case.

[dynastylnoire]

Relevant

[dadcharming]

My happy ending isn’t a man

REGINA GOD BLESS (via dadcharming)

[emily31594]

Regina was instantly attracted to Robin in every world. But the differences in how she reacted to that are so fascinating.

In the Enchanted Forest, she was hurting too much to be able to deal with it:

In Storybrooke, she was bold and flirtatious as she’s taught herself to be, but ultimately still skittish and afraid:

But Bandit Regina, bless her heart

speechless, floundering, mouth-gaping, wide-eyed staring, 

who me?, wow his eyes are gorgeous

completely lacking in poker face Bandit Regina and her awkward “Congratulations. To you both.” and “I should go.” and strained little fake smiles as she leaves

and sad but peaceful thank you because maybe she’s meant for love after all.

Bandit Regina is what love could’ve been like for Regina Mills if only the world had been a little kinder.

(primary gifset here x)

[odonoghues]

[stinathoughtbox]

The worst part is I never told him I loved him. Not once. I was too scared. Too scared that somehow saying it would make it real and change everything. But now I’ll never have a chance to take that next step with him because he’s gone.

[bunnykillian-blog1]

Tell me more about this reality you want to return to.

[stinathoughtbox]

YES

[adreamersquest]

Oh, gawd! What the hell happened?! WHO WOULD DO SUCH A CRUEL THING?!

[adreamersquest]

A lovely 蛋撻 appeared!

[intensional]

i use the word fuck so excessively i sometimes forget it’s a swear word

[stinathoughtbox]

That Sinking Feeling You Have

I found out that an old friend is still with her boyfriend and is moving to a new city with him this summer. It hurts my heart to hear it because part of the reason for our friendship ending was because of this exact thing. From what I was told, it doesn't seem to have gotten better and considering that this mutual friend doesn't know her or her boyfriend super well, I was even more saddened to hear that even her boyfriend noticed something off about that particular relationship dynamic. We stopped being friends only a little over a year ago. Maggie, stay safe. We might not be friends anymore, but I still hope that one day you can find the self-worth to dump that abusive sack of shit. I wouldn't change a thing about the things I've said and the choices I made, but I wish that we could've stayed friends.

[halfprincesshalfgoddess]

[stinathoughtbox]

Entry level jobs need experience. Don’t you think entry implies I have no experience, dickwad?

[unemployedcollegegrad]

Hunting for a job like

[tumblrisforlulz]

[thingsishouldnottype]

UNMUTE THIS IMMEDIATELY

[smeliot-deactivated20220528]

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