Hey there, I'm Paramour (they/them) and this is my blog for a fanfic I'm writing, Stonewound Heart! Here you can find:
Log Entries (fic progress, non-spoiler musings)
WIPs (art & writing)
General Updates (worldbuilding & character notes, etc)
You can also ask questions (I encourage it!) and enjoy chatter about it; I love sharing everything I'm working on (in fact you may notice my inability to shut up, haha).
Here are some relevant links & info for navigating the blog and getting acquainted with the project!
Links:
My AO3
FAQ
Fic Premise
Lore Document (TBA)
Tags:
#telestrata log | general tag for project-relevant posts
theme/concept is "protection/guardian", so i chose traits and features in line with that idea. i'm working on a base (made by smi) which is good, because 90% or more of my time has been spent on the wood grain... if i was drawing off-base it would simply never get finished LOL
these aren't final colors, just what i'm using for test purposes and so i don't burn my eyes out on a white canvas
more under the cut!
here it is without all the other traits
and here are some detail shots
those paler sections on the feet are where i have yet to refine the lines. i have actually made more progress since these screenshots were taken, but not enough to warrant snapping a bunch more.
i'm working on a second adopt as well, and in fact it's actually the one i started designing first, but the wood and bark consumed my life so utterly that i haven't touched that one for a hooot minute haha. here it is tho (also on a base by smi)
i LOVE drawing fur so so much, but it IS very tedious. i wonder if it's gonna be any more tedious and time consuming than the wood grain ended up being tho lol...
the idea with this one is more offense than defense, and i'm trying to shape the fur in such a way as to evoke fire. lots of sharp pointy bits and several pairs of arms to fuck up your day (only if you're an ICE agent tho; get roasted bitch)
without being able to write, working on this project has been the only thing keeping my creative soul alive and sane TcT shout out to daitens for always being there for me hahaha
man i need to get my computer set up soon so bad; i haven't written in 2 months now and it feels baaad. i keep feeling like i'm wasting time with other stuff, and i don't like how long i've left stuff just... sitting around. i know it's not entirely a conscious choice to not work on the fic and my reasons for not doing so are entirely valid (burn out, tech issues), but it still feels BAAAD
and i've been productive in other areas of my life (bc writing fic isn't the one and only thing in my life lol) such as the community support adopts i've been designing, which are going to a good cause, and YET. oof. it's been rough
does anyone wanna see those adopts btw. they're daitens. if you couldn't guess lol
figured i'd give a quick life update, since i haven't been active for quite awhile
the family's healthy again
we finally celebrated xmas
work on updating my computer setup has resumed
my 'E' key is still messed up (and getting worse i fear)
writing hasn't happened... yet...
actually writing might have to wait until my desktop is set up
i HAVE been working on more art tho (it's all daitens lol)
i finally finished the amphoreus arc. i will never recover
winter remembered it's winter so we got a bunch of snow
friend can finally visit and hang out TcT
mentally/emotionally i am doing better
life's given me some ups and downs, but i see a clearer path forward than i have in awhile, which is a relief. i really really want to pick up the writing again, but it might need to wait until february. the problem with my 'E' key is very distracting...
anyway, just wanted to say something to make sure y'all know i'm alive haha
also facades and false identities are so fun . many such variations.
someone accidentally slipping further into a facade than they intended . someone purposefully retreating further into a facade . someone accidentally dropping their normally impeccable facade for a moment . someone purposefully letting their facade down as a taunt or mockery or in a genuine way because they're finally in a situation where they don't need the facade anymore . someone whose facade really is just a tool that they have complete control over and it never falters or fails . someone whose facade is the opposite and they're having a really bad time trying to maintain their facade or trying to maintain their true self under the facade . many such good options. all fun.
i love you facades and false identities and presentations of the self and separation of aspects of the self and
Writer culture is impulsively posting the first chapter of an uncompleted work because you’re starved for interaction and suddenly realising the crushing expectations you have placed on yourself as people begin to comment how excited they are for the next chapter.
‘don’t you want your favourite character to be happy???’ no? i want my favourite character to be interesting. i want me to be happy. which sometimes involves my favourite character being in exquisite agony
i DON'T need them to kiss i need them to come to the sobering realisation that their souls are merged and no part of them is extricable from the other anymore
the covid crisis has finally ended; both parents tested negative today, everyone's feeling mostly "back to normal", and we'll finally have our xmas celebration tomorrow. after two weeks, we're finally doing it
i also had a therapy appointment for the first time since it all began, which was SO overdue and needed. my therapist helped me recognize the success of my own efforts to keep it together, even in spite of a few bumps along the way, and that realization did genuinely make me feel a lot better about the whole thing. two years ago, i'd probably have had a meltdown and spiraled really bad and... who knows what else. nothing good i'm sure. but, i've come a long way from those times and i really did do everything in my power to control what i could and come to terms with the rest
also, i never got sick myself, so that's the ultimate win
HOPEFULLY. this means i can ease back into writing, though i might need to do some warm up stuff considering i haven't done any proper writing in almost 3 weeks at this point. this might mean working on some stonewound histories, or writing some chapters out of order just for fun, even if they'd ultimately get rewritten later, buuut that remains to be seen. oh also, there's the matter of my 'E' key... it's gotten worse unfortunately, so writing might be a little annoying, but hopefully it won't be TOO disruptive. fingers crossed
anyway, figured i should make an update since i've been quiet for awhile now (apart from queued posts). i've barely even checked tumblr, but i wanna get back into it. so much pretty art to get inspiration from; i don't wanna miss what people are creating out there :) oh and collecting posts to queue lol. gotta call out my blorbos (mostly aven tho, sorry man)