Stressed Marshmallow

I’m Stressed. I’m a human marshmallow. I like pink and squishmallows. I needed somewhere to put my feelings. Welcome to my brain. 25 | Female | Autistic | Mental Illness Abounds

[stressmallow]

Hi 👋 I made this side blog on a whim at 1 in the morning after crying … a lot. I’ve got so much swirling in my head right now and I needed a place to vent. This is it. I don’t know what I’ll post here or how often I’ll post it, but I know I’ll likely post a lot about mental health. (Autism, OCD, ADHD, Anxiety, PTSD, ARFID) Turn back now if that’s triggering for you. There will also be memes lol.

I’ll use #Stressmallow Says for my posts. Okay bye. 🙃

[theambitiouswoman]

[theambitiouswoman]

Start where you are, use what you have, do what you can

A missstep is not a failure

Dont go backwards and don’t give up 🤍

[thememedaddy]

[victusinveritas]

[toastbutteregg]

[miseducatedmelanicmuse]

[sk-lumen]

This is so true. For the right person, you don't have to jump through hoops, bend over backwards and transform yourself into someone you don't recognize.

For the right person, the flawed, human, quirky, complicated and multifaceted person that you are, just as you are, is exactly what they find fascinating and magical and perfectly worthy of love. For the right person, you just need to be yourself.

Isn't that so beautiful in its utter simplicity? For the right person, you just have to exist.

[theambitiouswoman]

Your type will change when your self esteem changes

Your boundaries will change when your self esteem changes

Your friendships will change when your self esteem changes

Your tolerance for disrespect will change when your self esteem changes

Your career aspirations will change when your self esteem changes

Your self talk will change when your self esteem changes

Your definition of success will change when your self esteem changes

[stressmallow]

Why do I feel calm when I’m just mildly sick? Like not super sick, that makes me spiral. But just feeling a little tired and worn out, like at the very beginning of a cold. It always makes me feel calm and content, bonus points if it’s dark out and there’s soft lighting. I just feel comfortable, despite the mild discomfort. It’s a paradoxical but consistent feeling I’ve had my whole life.

[obscurix]

“I won't fight for a spot in anyone's life!” I say confidently while clawing my way through hell and back for one person.

[eccedentesiast-skies]

You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

[sw33tlittlegoodgirl]

[okii-1]

Pink clothes, pink food, pink flowers, pink EVERYTHING (happy April 🍭)

[stressmallow]

Everyone at school thought we were sisters

Dressed the same, talked the same, together all the time

You could find me in your family pictures

Next to you, in the frame, but you moved on and I'm replaced

🎶🎵🎶🎵

Always thought that it'd be love

That was gonna mess me up

Didn't think it'd hurt this much

When best friends break up

[stressmallow]

So, I’m turning 26 soon. I feel like my depression hasn’t been *as bad* the past few months, like the burnout and crippling sadness are lifting ever so slightly, but now I’m afraid I’m going to spiral back down. When I turned 25 I did nothing but cry for two weeks. I literally couldn’t even have conversations with anyone because I would just start crying the minute I opened my mouth. I was (and am) so isolated. No friends. A quarter or more of my life was gone and I had nothing to show for it.

Now I’m about to add another year to this joke of a life and I’m not fucking ready. Over half of my 20’s is gone and I’ll never get those years back. I spent the first half of my 20’s depressed and isolated and at this rate I’m going to spend the second half that way too. I’m going to wake up one day at 30 years old and still be wondering where the fuck my life went and what’s the point of any of this?

I’m either only going to start enjoying my life once my body has already started deteriorating, or I’ll never enjoy it period. Not to mention I want to get married and have kids one day. What are the chances I pull myself out of the mud in time to accomplish that?? Pretty fucking slim, I’d say. That’s the only thing that I think would truly bring me joy in life and I doubt I’ll ever have it.

My life is pointless and will likely remain so … forever.

I don’t want to be 26.

[stressmallow]

I don’t know how to avoid the bad thoughts anymore. There’s to many. All the time. It never stops and I’m being crushed by the weight.

[synapsyyy]

I can physically feel the sadness in my body and i just want to be happy for once

[muzgozjeb]

[injuredsoullessfrog]