Depressions Ball Pit

28 | Platinum Star Gay | Traumatized

[studlydudetwinkle]

So Reddit permanently banned my account for promoting hate speech. The comment they linked to was me saying that nazis are subhuman and don't deserve the benefit of the doubt.

Reddit admins aren't even trying to hide their contempt anymore. As if hiring a pedophile didn't make things clear enough.

[studlydudetwinkle]

For those who care (@partywithponies and @myothertardisisonthemun) I haven't been able to get started on the Doctor Who chronological watch timeline but I started tonight with Rose. I gotta leave out ClassicWho for a couple reasons. But question.

Should I include the Paul McGann movie and mini YouTube thing?

[onceiwashere]

“pulling stunts that strengthen the public’s perception of gay people as satanic perverts“ yeah lil nas x is definitely the first and only gay artist to use christian imagery ironically and if we direct all of our stupid outrage at him we can salvage the good image of the homosexual community in the eyes of the church once and for all. good take  

[cipheramnesia]

The reactions to Lil Nas X are really telling about how many people only accept queerness as long as it’s white, and cis, and chaste, and obedient.

[studlydudetwinkle]

I just think it's a shitty song. Yet everytime I've said that alone I'm getting attacked for being homophobic or hating myself because I'm gay.

Nah.

I just think it's a shitty song.

[studlydudetwinkle]

So I'm suicidal and have no reason to keep living. By the end of this month my life will have been ruined, I will be homeless, and have no choice in the matter.

Screw it.

Might as well spend my last month doing something fun and quirky that others can look at and go "lol what" as with the rest of my miserable life.

I'll report back in a couple weeks with a chronological list.

[studlydudetwinkle]

I've been dealing with bed bugs and I might have stopped it. I hope I did. Idk. But I'm afraid. I'm at my breaking point. This has strained my mental health to worse than its ever been. I was homeless for 5 years and never felt as low, terrified and alone as I do right now. I keep having panic attacks and I can't sleep. Cant eat. Not that I have food in the first place. Yay thanks COVID for breaking food banks.

Anyway can people do me a huge huge favor? I need SOMETHING right now to make me forget but more importantly... Make me feel nice? My family hated me for being gay and I've been alone for years. Homeless for a while as mentioned. No friends. No family. Christmas time screws with me a lot too.

This is the favor I ask.

Can people just add notes or reblog cute things or something? Just be nice to me for the first time in a fucking decade? I went from abusive parents to abusive foster parents to abusive relationship to homeless and it has been so. Damn. Long. I just want to feel like I'm worth something again.

[studlydudetwinkle]

Okay so I haven't had a hug in a decade and I'm dying inside. A friend got me this giant Teddy bear for Christmas. He's very snuggly and I've fallen asleep cuddling him every night since.

What should I name him because I have no clue and at this point it's getting awkward. Deodorant for scale.

[cosmicmomma]

when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)❤️

5 things? That's pretty vague but I'll give it a go...

Pizza

Sex

Weed

Fries

Tornadoes

[studlydudetwinkle]

Aren't you that stupid cunt who thinks the MMR vaccine kills hundreds of people with no evidence?

[studlydudetwinkle]

My roommate stole some of my rent money so now I'm scrambling to try and figure out a couple hundred dollars like

So I don't end up homeless again. If I end up homeless again I'm just gonna kill myself. Idgaf anymore.

[pie-thinkings]

I want to prove a point to a coworker of mine.

Pretend this post is the coronavirus.

If you see this on your dash, just reblog it.

Let’s show them how quickly this virus can spread from just one person.

[gumi-megpoidd]

at this point i’ve gotten infected at least 3 times

[weaselweaselweasel]

thanks for the infection <3

ive rb’d this t h r e e t i m e s today :”)

[the-dark-king-noah]

I’ve honestly lost count of how many times I’ve gotten “infected” today.

[guiltiest-gear]

And the second time

[god-of-identity]

third time in two days whoop

[night-dragon937]

oh i just had this last night

[wiggles-and-worms-deactivated20]

yikes, im sick!

[lilfuwuthrowaway-deactivated202]

holy fucking shit this is like the sixth time

[thisisntmymainsilly-deactivated]

AGAIN

[kid-in-the-back-of-class]

Man this is like the 8 th time lol

[studlydudetwinkle]

[bottommemes]

bottoms lemme hear yall make some noise !

[caduceussaysfuck]

mmh.,,, ow! hah.. ah… mmmh…

[bottommemes]

never mind !

[irateyourposts]

8/10

[riben-deactivated20230922]

This got a higher score than me having daytime sex with autozone employees? Fucking christ

[elitefourkylewantstobattle]

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[azoraahai]

we love a good magic trick glow up!!

[studlydudetwinkle]

Controversial opinion: WallStreetBets is a worse force than Wall Street themselves and the subreddit should be purged on a nuclear level.

Go to that sub. Read the comments. Tell me these people aren't psychopaths on the same level of wall street.

[creaturey]

feeling a deep sense of kinship with danny here

[m3zzaluna]

power lines are crushed with the weight of four days of accumulated freezing rain in boucherville near montreal, canada, january 9, 1998

photo by robert laberge, via bbc archives

[studlydudetwinkle]

Jesus. I thought this was an art project showing slutty power line things in a "MY BODY IS READY" position

[studlydudetwinkle]

Okay so I haven't had a hug in a decade and I'm dying inside. A friend got me this giant Teddy bear for Christmas. He's very snuggly and I've fallen asleep cuddling him every night since.

What should I name him because I have no clue and at this point it's getting awkward. Deodorant for scale.