Hi lovelies,
This post is several weeks late, but I just didn’t get around to doing it earlier. So. First off, thank you, and you, and you – for a wonderful, fun, occasionally hectic, sometimes drama-filled 2+ years in this fandom. It’s been a great ride.
But this is goodbye.
Truth is, I am ridiculously busy with real life right now. I’m out a lot, travelling a lot, and while things are great, something’s gotta give if I want to sleep at all. Unfortunately, that something is fandom. I hope to still catch the most important bits of what’s happening with our boys (and I love Drag Me Down), but this is actually the first time I’ve logged into Tumblr since… June, I think.
Admittedly, I might have tried harder to somehow make it work if it hadn’t been for the shock of Zayn’s departure, and a number of subsequent events that have tested my bullshit tolerance (which I thought was pretty high) beyond endurance. In order to stick around, I would have needed some authenticity and enough OT4 to melt my brain; getting only modest amounts (pun slightly intended) of each just wasn’t enough to keep me around. I wish the lads the very, very best for their future. I believe they’re immensely talented and would love to see them succeed with an adult audience, where they will get to talk about writing their own music rather than listing what they look for in a girl for the millionth time. Wouldn’t it be nice? In fact, an avalanche of quality interviews coupled with new music and decent promo that’s not exclusively targeted at girls who dream of marrying one of the boys? Wow. That’s the kind of thing that might revert me to a real fan.
In the meantime, I just want to say again: thank you. I am so, so grateful for all the love this fandom has shown me, and especially for the friends I’ve made here that have transferred into real life. A particularly heartfelt thank you goes to those of you who sent me concerned, sweet messages asking if I was okay – I am okay; I’m more than okay. But at least for now, I can’t handle fandom on top of everything that’s going on. I still get all messages and comments on my stories sent to my email inbox, so I see them and they make me smile. I just don’t have time to reply.
Last but not least, a necessary reminder: with all the drama that’s happening, please look out for yourselves, darlings. If fandom is bringing you down, maybe it’s time to take a break. Remember that you don’t owe it to the boys to stick around if they – ha – drag you down. Your own life always and forever comes first.
A million hugs,
Zarah
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