ethereal

She wasn't much to look at but she was something to think about. Call me M.

[subtlegirl]

March 31st It was our last day at school and we had our party. We stayed at least until 6pm until school just because tambay. Aaand I was about to go home when he hugged me from behind and with that moment, I felt really secured. It was that "please don't go hug" Pwede sumabog kahit mga five minutes lang?

[piyuturmd-deactivated20161120]

what if your girlfriend texted you at 2 am in the morning because she can't sleep but you're sleepy would you ignore it?

Would i ignore it? Hell no. I don’t care if I’m sleepy as fuck, i would drip cold water to my face just to lose my sleepiness and text her endlessly.

[subtlegirl]

Me: I want the best for you and obviously I'm not so yeah

Him: Don't say that, you are my best

[subtlegirl]

Conversations I’d skip sleep for

It was 11pm last night, you said you were tired and I said that you should sleep but you said no, it’s okay because you’re talking to me. Little do you know, how I am melting deep inside with that simple thing you have said. But of course I didn’t tolerate your foolish actions because you said you were damn tired so I pushed you to rest but ended up talking until 2am about the most random things in life. But of course, you know that I wasn’t allowed to stay up that late so you said that I should sleep. And of course, I’m also tired so I said yes but you should sleep, too. That was my condition and you did what I just said. You said you love me, and I said I love you too. With that, I fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

[subtlegirl]

March 27th; 11:46am

How I missed typing random stuff, how my day went, and all. Yes, I guess this is the time to go back to this wonderful place--my safe haven, my sanctuary.

So, let’s talk about what’s been happening to me lately.

i. We almost broke up because I almost gave up, almost. I’m surely glad I didn’t because I wouldn’t be here right now if I did. 

ii. We’ve been yolo-ing like there’s no tomorrow. Roadtrip there and everywhere but yes, we still got finals tomorrow until Wednesday.

iii. I’m bored, super.

iv. I don’t know anymore

[kushandwizdom]

I just have this happy personality and a sad soul in one body. It feels weird sometimes.

Unknown

[subtlegirl]

“When will I be enough?” That’s the question I'd ask myself a million times in the past few months.

I tried so hard to satisfy my parents’ demands. I did my best to be the best friend and God knows what effort I exerted to be the girl he needs.

And in the end, nah. “I’ll never be enough,” I said.

But I was wrong all along. Those were all my negativity clouding my mind. I tried to look on the brighter side of the picture and I have realized that the best is yet to come.

And now, everything’s in place.

[subtlegirl]

November 22nd, 10:01am

It’s been a while. 

But life’s been pretty good to me, and that kept me busy. I’ve been busy enjoying life through the ups and downs. No words can explain how grateful I am today for everything that happened to me in the previous months.

First, we are doing good. Almost a year going strong. 

Second, studies are doing well too. Pretty well actually.

Third, my relationship with my parents went 0-100 real quick. Gah, thank you Lord.

And lastly, my friends and I are doing fine too. And I love them so much.

Thank you Lord for this kind of life.

[kayley710]

[urbanrealism]

My father deserves the world.

[subtlegirl]

May 29th, 10:55AM

You know what sucks? They’re my priority in everything yet I’m just their 519403918th option. I know for myself that I’ll always pick them first and yes they might choose me but always last. I mean, I’d do anything just so spend time with them but they won’t do the same. It freaking hurts. When will I ever be enough for the people I care about?

[subtlegirl]

I can’t hide it. I’m very disappointed because you aren’t going tomorrow. Paasa ka, dude. Okay. 

[subtlegirl]

Ayoko lang talaga ng feeling na binabalewala ako you know ugh it's so frustrating like ano pa bang kailangan mo why am I still not enough but I'm not gonna say it to you though hahaha bahala ka sa buhay mo I don't need people like you in my life

[ipoetried]

[subtlegirl]

My parents are so cute ofsbdofbod the way they act like teenagers kung makapag-asaran grabe, absolute goals in life. I saw posts or rants like this before and I thought ay corny naman sus pero now that I’m witnessing them, grabe iba talaga. Hahahaha someday.

[subtlegirl]

I want the old me back--the girl who doesn't give a damn to what other people say about her. The girl who does not think too freaking much. The girl who is not sorry for everything she does. The girl who doesn't like this certain boy. Yeah, I definitely want that.

[nquad]