I look up from my phone and stare at him until he raises his head up too giving me full eye contact. I can feel one of the girls staring at me staring at Jimin but I choose to ignore it, I manage to squeeze through and whisper into jungkook's ear "Hey, I'm going to leave okay?" I grab onto Jungkook's arm tightly so that I don't get bumped into or shoved and he slides arm down and wraps our hands together. "Fine, let's go, do you want to tell Jimin and Tae though?" He whispers back. I tell him to only tell Taehyung and he taps him on shoulder, motioning for us to go. Somehow, someway, we got out of the crowd and away from those girls but...left Jimin.
We walk around on the somewhat empty but filled streets that are blocked off because of the event; we pass food trucks, rides, and games but again, we only walk pass them. Sigh, this would've been better if Jimin was here but did he have to be a dick? Like seriously, who acts like that, he might think I'm petty for leaving him there but if he needs a ride home then he can probably ask one of the girls from the pussy possy.
"So, you're going to tell us why we just left him there?" Taehyung says, grabbing my left hand. "Yeah, what for?" Jungkook says squeezing my right hand.
"You guy's noticed those girls who came out of nowhere, right?"
"Yeah" they say in unison.
"Well—hm, actually, let me show you." We stop infront of a pretzle stand and right as I'm about to pull out my phone, two girls came running up to us.
"H-Hi, uhm, we wanted to say that we saw you earlier and thought you were cute.." She says slightly panting, the other girl nods and says "Yeah, uh, we were wondering if we could get your number!" I look at them with my eyebrows raised but they're totally ignoring me, I'm literally standing between Jungkook and Taehyung—but tgeir stairing at them, is their eyesight bad or something? Jungkook and Taehyung both look down at me but don't say anything, although there aren't any words, I can see Jungkook slightly smirking and Tae looking at me the way he looks at food...?
I sigh and walk between the girls, pulling them by their hands and walking around the corner where no ones around.
"Look, are you really trying to hit on these two boys?" I put my hands on my hips and smile at them while Jungkook and Tae are just watching behind me.
"Uh, we just wanted their numbers so we get get to know them, who are you? We weren't even asking you anyway." The two girls look up to them and before they say anything I pull them in both by the shoulders and whisper into their ears;
"They're gay." Only for me.
The girls pull away and scoff "Yeah, right. You guy's are gay?" The first girl says rolling her eyes, Jungkook and Tae awkwardly laugh and give me a stern look. What was I supposed to do? Well, I could've said no but I wanted to mess with them since they had the nerve to shove me in the crowd earlier.
"They can prove it." I say smiling at brightly as I can.
"Yn, are you su-" Jungkook says.
"Just do it."
Taehyung sighs "Yes, ma'am." And pulls me, I was so caught off guard that I didn't know what to do. Tae starts to kiss me infront of these two girls while Jungkook is recording and laughing, I can't see their faces but I'm assuming their as confused as I am.
He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me in closer, trying to get deeper in; eventually, I feel his hands slide down to my thighs, soon enough I find my legs being wrapped around HIS waist, my arms hugging his neck and his hands on my ass, holding me up.
"Okay, it's my turn!" Jungkook says as he grabs my chin and forces his soft lips onto mine; I can hear Taehyung laughing and feel his hands gripping tighter, I bite Jungkooks bottom lips and smile, he pulls away from me and Tae sets me back onto the ground.
“Yn, we’ve told you before haven't we?” he grabs my wrist tightly and drags me through the crowd of people. I get it’s the summer but does it always have to be packed here? Sigh, sometimes I kinda get tired of them acting so overprotective, I understand their point of view but they're so extra sometimes. “Jungkook, you don't have to be so rough with her, people will look at us.” Jimin holds Jungkooks shoulder so he doesn’t get lost but also so he can get his attention.
“Hyung, it’s her fault, she shouldn’t have been flirting with him.”
“I know Jungkook, but still, we’re at a festival, let’s deal with her at home.” Jungkooks stops in his tracks, we were headed to the car but I guess he realized Jimin’s point, we walked all the way back to the parking lot just outside the festival and almost to our car. I hear Jungkook sigh and feel his grip loosening up on my wrist.
“Yn, you better be a good girl, okay?” Jungkook says with his back turned, to be honest, it’s not like I was trying to flirt with him....the guy wanted me first.
“Yes...” I say with my head lowered. I hear another sigh from behind me along with the rocks from the gravel crunching, he puts an arm over my shoulder, pats my head and says “Wow, aren’t you guy’s being a bit harsh on her? I mean, I was standing next to her when it happened, he came onto her first.” He scratches the back of his head and looks at me, im trying not to make eye contact because I already know what he’s going to say...
“Tae, you know how she is, sh-”
“Yeah, yeah, I know Jimin, but look at her,” he lifts up my face by the chin “Isn’t she adorable?”
“Hyung, you know she hates being called that,” Jungkook says pointing at my face, Taehyung turns my face towards him and frowns. “I told you, she looks like she’ll smack you.” Jungkook and Jimin both laugh and start heading back into the festival but I and Taehyung just stand there for a bit, staring at each other. We both seem to be confused at each other but why should he be confused?
“Yn,”
“Wait, before you say anything-” I grab his arm and pull it off my shoulder and pull his hand off my face. Taehyung looks at me frozen and dumbfounded, keeping the same expression on for a while until Jungkook comes back to break the silence. “What’r guy’s doing? Cm'on, the fireworks will show soon.” Jungkook grabs mine and Tae’s arm, pulling us both with him. I don't see what the big deal is, they should’ve known something like this was going to happen to either me or one of them; whatever, if a guy finds me attractive then it’s not their fault nor mine, right? Well, Jungkook, Taehyung, and Jimin think otherwise-people flirt with us all the time but when a girl flirts with one of them it's apparently not a big deal but with me it's totally didferent, im not as harsh on them as they are with me. Like, did Jungkook really have to drag me out?! Especially in front of the guy?
I, Taehyung and Jungkook get back to Jimin and he looks at us with a weird expression "You guys took a long time." He says while taking his sunglasses off. I notice a group of girls next him is sending them glances, I guess none of the boys realize because they kept joking around and watching the fireworks and it was pretty crowded.
Right! It's New Years! Usually, people come here for New Year's kiss, right? I can see them giggling and pointing at him and their also pushing each other, are they trying to talk to them? One of the girls gets pushed out and the other girls are motioning her to go and she slowly but awkwardly walks in this direction, I look at them up and down and wow—
I hope she doesn't get embarrassed..
"Yn, why'r smirking?" Jimin says looking down at me.
"Am I?"
"Awe, so cu-" Taehyung gets cut off by one of the girls tapping on his shoulder, he turns around confused and looks at her, giving her a glance then just to turn back around, he didn't even notice her? What the heck, me and her practaclly have the same expression but I can really care less if girls flirt with them; If I know Taehyung or Jungkook or Jimin, their my loyal little puppies. One of them might take one of the girls home, maybe flirt back, tease them a bit, might start to strip, slowly making her think that she might get laid. Probably slowly crawl onto the bed, hovering over her until theirs about an inch between their lips, one inch away from contact just until he tells her:
"You should leave.."
I started laughing, laughing loud enough to get her attention and theirs. "What's so funny?" Jungkook says as he wraps his arm around my waist, "Nothing, I wasn't laughing, why are you laughing?" I look up at him and raise a brow, trying not to think about Taehyung's obliviousness.
"I'm laughing 'cause you're weird."
Jimin looks over and scoffs, "That's the dumbest answer I've ever heard."
"I don't think so, her being weird is what makes her ado-" Taehyung gets interrupted again and I guess the girl noticed that they were with a girl because now she was standing in front of me. I had been standing in front while the three of them were behind me and somehow she had managed to squeeze through the crowd, even I didn't see her.
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I look at her and furrow my brows, I guess she can't tell that they're with me 'cause then she motions her hand to signal for her friends to come over. I look over and see three more girls trying to squeez through this packed crowd but once their here the girls are practically up against them. I pull Jungkooks shirt down so that he can lower his head so that I can say something, I can see in my perefferal that those girls notice me talking to him 'cause now, their bodies are basically skin to skin contact with Jimin, Jungkook, Taehyung, and ME!
"Jungkook, do you notice the girls that are right next to us?" I whispered, he looks around—plainly obvious I must add and whispers back, "Yeah, why? The girls that are all wearing backpacks?"
"Yeah, them."
"Okay, what about them?"
"Aren't they a bit to close to us? And to Jimin and Tae?" Jungkook looks at Jimin and Taehyung and laughs a bit.
"Yeah, I guess they are, they look a bit awkward.."
"I know, but they won't budg-" I get bumped a bit by the people in front of me which then, I guess gives the first girl an opportunity to slide between me and Jungkook.
"Oh, sorry.." She says as she is now all over him. I'm standing in the outside of four girls and three of my boys, are they crazy? They seriously shoved me out of the way and basically hopped their horny asses onto them!
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I look over to Jungkook and he shrugs and I think he was looking around to see if he can move because he looked a bit nervous..., I look over at Taehyung and I don't think he's noticed or cared, then I look over at Jimin and he's-he's basically, spooning this bitch. I take out phone and open the first app I see to text Jimin.
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part 1 // next
a/n: xjoajzikansk— im sorry, The Apocalypse and other indiv. Series will be uploaded soon I promise!!! Here's a little gift for being patient though!
a/n: ah, sorry this episode is late..I was supposed to edit it last night but i got too tired anyway, here it is now, and yes, episode 3 will not be out on time tomorrow but enjoy!
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I put the strap of my bag over my shoulder and run to Vinn’s room. “Are you ready now?”
He walks past me with a backpack on and grabs my wrist again, dragging me out the door and into the car with him. I look around outside the window and my heart starts to race, my eyes are starting to water, why is this happening to us? Why us? Why now?
“You can see them, right? Vinn, you can?” I quietly say as I clutch my bag even tighter than I already am.
“I do, it’s okay, we’ll be fine Yn, I prom-”
“Can you hear them too?” I look at him with tears filling up my eyes and falling down my cheek, he looks at me quickly then looks back at the road.
“Yn, don’t cry, it’s okay, I won’t go anywhere!” he places his hand on mine, squeezing it tightly and looks at me in the eyes. “Yn, please don’t cry, you know how I feel when I see you cry, I’ll be here by your side, okay?” I close my eyes tightly leaving only tears left to fall and nod my head. He can be such an ass but he can also be my only comfort, even at times like this, he says just the right things to make me feel like everything is going to be alright. I hope everything will be alright.
“Fuck, what the hell could be causing traffic right now?! Are people not seeing what's going on?! Fucking idiots!" he yells, making me jump in surprise. Vinn isn’t the type to yell when he’s angry but when he does, it’s scary. He doesn’t care how you feel in that moment and he doesn't hold back, the only time he’s yelled at me like that was when he saw me slap his girlfriend. He didn’t hear our conversation and came at the wrong time, she had said things about me, things that I probably do since I'm his roommate...
“Look Yn! Just stay away from my boyfriend okay?!” She rolls her eyes and spits on my shoes. I have my head lowered because I don't want her to see that I'm about to burst into tears but me looking like that doesn’t make it any better, huh?
“Ugh, look at me, you whore! Don’t act like you don't dream of him naked, God, you’re honestly such a slut!”
We were in an alleyway around the corner from a bar, we were at a gathering with some of our friends there and a lot of people were here us so no one wondered where we were, well..beside Vinn. I slapped her and then heard my name being called, I turned around to see Vinn holding two bottles of beer. Did he want to drink with her?
“Yn! What the fuck are you doing?!” He walks towards us but passes me and walks to his girlfriend.
“You saw that? She slapped me Vinn!” She had a hand on her cheek where I had slapped her and the other on his arm.
“Damn Yn..”
I turn around and see a couple of our friends standing there as well with beers also in their hands, they were looking me in so much disgust that I almost ran away, I couldn’t believe someone could be so cruel like that.
“No, I-”
“Yn, save it..., we’re going to talk when we get home.” He says his back turned from me. I've done it haven’t I?
We get home, the whole car ride was silent and he hasn’t looked at me once or tried to talk...we get inside and I try heading to my room but he grabs my arm and aggressively pulls me back. I look at him and pull my arm back, rolling my eyes and sighing.
“Yn, why did you do that?” He says calmy, I can see the upset in his eyes like he’s just lost someone he loved.
“Vinn, It’s not what you think! You came at the wrong time!”
He scoffs at my comment and tosses his coat on the couch, Vinn lifts his hand, swinging it towards me but stops before he comes in touch with my face. My eyes are locked closed and my entire body flinches.
“You see that? You got scared and thought I was going to slap you like you did to her, didn’t you?” He puts his hand down and sighs.
“Yn.”
“Yn.” He looks at me and sees that I'm crying, I can't help it, it's not my fault...
“Why the fuck are you crying for?! Stop being a fucking baby Yn! You’re 23!”
I look at him, attempting to say I'm sorry but instead I get choked up and cry more.
“Stop acting like this is about you! You always act like you’re the victim! It’s fucking pissing me off! Yn, stop crying and shut up already.” He ruffles his hair and his arms slump down.
I snap my head at him and punch his chest., is that my best friend?
“Are you serious? Do you believe I'm playing the victim? Me?! Wow, you are blind, huh?”
“You literally smacked my girlfriend, Yn! And look at you now, you’re bawling your eyes out and for what?!”
“Vinn! Do you really love her that much that you’re acting like this?! I know you better than anyone else!”
“Do I love her? Do you hear yourself right now? No shit I love her!”
“Really? What about me then, huh?! Do I mean nothing to you goddammit!?” I clench my fists as we’re screaming at each other, does he trust someone like that?
“What?” he says, his voice getting softer than a few seconds ago. “What are you talking about? Yn-”
“You don’t care?” I raise my eyebrows at him and cross my arms.
“Yn, I do care, you know that you mean a lot to me...” He shakes his head and sighs again, I wipe my face and scoff-catching his attention.
“What Yn, What is it now?”
“If you care then you would think about the reason I slapped her. I’m not just your roommate Vinn, I’m your best friend, I know almost everything about you. If you’re my best friend then you would know better than to yell at me like that without a second thought.”
My head is turned away from him but I can tell he’s regretting his words. I can hear him getting up and see him walking to the fridge, he starts rummaging through it but I don't know what he’s looking for until I see him pull out a small white cake, fuck.
“Happy 3rd-year-anniversary, friend.” He turns off all the lights and puts a candle in, I look at him and lower my head. I had totally forgotten and usually im the one to be excited for this-im always going all out.
“Im sorry, I forgot..” Vinn and I blow out the candle together and stare at each other.
“I know, I wanted to surprise you and Im sorry, you were right, I should’ve thought about why you did that, I think I was just so caught up in the moment..” I walk over to him and flick his forehead before sitting down.
“She said that I probably daydream about being with you, that I should stay away from you..that im a whore, a sl-”
“Okay, I get it.”
He hugged me and patted my head, told me it was going to be okay and that he won’t let someone talk to me like that again. He promised.
a/n: i hope this going to be a good series. Finally, episode 1 is out! I've been waiting so long to release this just because its different from my other stories. It has a lot of angst in it and gets pretty dark, I hope whoever reads this enjoys it!
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beep! ... beep! ... beep! ... beep! ...
shut up, shut up, shut up. "Ugh....., no school.." I mumbled.
beep! ... beep! ... beep! ... beep! ...
"Be quiet.." I turned around to face the other way and place my arm on my eyes to block out the sunlight.
beep! ... beep! ... beep! ... beep! ...
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bee-
"What's wrong?! Yn, you okay?!" He yells as he slams my door open.
"Shut up." I muttered again and threw the blanket over my head, "What? What was that bang?" He says, I point over to my closet door and wave my finger, "Over there."
"Yn," I can hear his footsteps getting closer.
"Is that your alarm clock?" His feet are getting heavier, I already know what about to happen.
"Now you have a smudge on your door." He YANKS the blanket off me and grabs my ankles.
"Ok, ok, ok, Vinn wait!" I sit up and grab his wrist as tight as I can.
"I'll do it."
"Look, you see, you will, but you don't HAVE to, Vinny."
"Yn! That's your fourth clock!!" He yells at me and pulls my ankles—pulling me closer to him then throwing me over his shoulder and carrying me to the bathroom.
"Vinn!! I'm sorry, I won't do it again!! I swear!" He puts me in the tub and before I get up he runs out and shuts the door. You would think that having a male roommate would cause some sparks to fly but oh no—no, no, no, no. I and Vinn are—are animals, he's the person that gets notified when I end up in the hospital, he's the person that gets called when I'm too drunk, Vinn seems amazing, right? But you see, the thing is, once he arrives at the hospital he calls me an idiot and leaves when he gets called to pick me up, he tells the caller to call a cab and tell them to bring me to a hotel because he doesn't want to make me hangover soup.
Well, that's what I used to think, these days I find myself yearning for his nagging, I just want to hear his voice one more time, miss him so much.
"Yn, you have to wait like usual." I can tell he's sitting in front of the door right now, he does his weird tongue clicking noise and whenever I do something wrong, he throws me on his shoulders like I'm his girlfriend and locks me in the bathroom.
I was thinking about confessing about how I feel...we're best friends but I can't help it.
"Vinn.."
"Hm?"
"Vinny...."
"What?"
"Vsauce...."
"Yn, what?!" He says opening the door aggressively. "Nothing!" I take the opportunity to leave, skipping my way out and into the kitchen, I went to make a bowl of cereal because I had only woken up and hour ago but as I do, I take a glimpse out the window. "Is it still morning?" I say but shrug it off as I mumble to myself, I pour milk into my bowl as I hear Vinn walking into the kitchen. "Do you want some Vinny?" I look at him and offer him a bowl but he's just staring outside; I look at him and look towards the window and then look back at him.
"Vinn..? Did you hear me?" I walk over to him and stand next to him to see what he's looking at, his eyebrows are scrunched up—it's like he's seen a ghost or something.
"Yn..."
"Hm? What is it?"
"What's the time...?" He keeps talking to me but still gazing through the window, at this point I think if someone were to be robbing us, he would still be standing there. I look at my watch and I get confused myself.
"Uhm, it's 1 pm.." I put my arm behind my back and fiddle with my watch.
"Is there a lunar eclipse or something? What's going on? You know, before you threw your clock, its been like that all day.." He snaps out of his trance and reaches for the tv remote, I don't understand what's going on, but I have a horrible feeling.
[TV] "BREAKING NEWS— ITS ALREADY 1 IN THE AFTERNOON BUT THE SUN HASNT RISEN. NO REPORTS OF-BOOM-" the TV goes static.
"Vinn, what's going on...?!" I tap his arm repeatedly as I stare at the empty screen, my heart is racing..w-was that a bomb??
"I don't know yn.." He runs over to the window and sticks his head outside. "Yn...Yn...YN, COME HERE! Look, the sky, it's gotten darker."
I quickly get nervous and speed walk my way towards him. We both look at each other and I noticed something..horrible...
"Vinn, omg..!"
"What? What Yn?" His are widened and then he grabs my wrist and starts walking towards our rooms, quickly I stop in my tracks and...
"Vinn, you're crying...you're crying an-and you're ears are bleeding!!" He lets go of my wrist and touches his eyes and ears.
"What the hell..?" Vinn grabs the napkins on the table and wipes his face but proceeds to his room.
"What'r doing?"
"Grab your phone, your charger, your keys, and a pair of clothes, now." I stand there in front of his door in shock, I'm speechless, this can not be happening, not right now anyway...
"Yn! I fucking said now!"
"O-oh, yeah okay!" I run to my room and grab my bag, I put the things he told me to, but then we hear sirens.
[SIRENS BLARING] "ALL RESIDENTS, PLEASE EVACUATE YOUR HOMES, THIS IS AN EMERGENCY. PLEASE LEAVE ALL YOUR BELONGINGS, BRING ONLY WHAT’S NECESSARY! THIS IS NOT A DRILL! I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A DRILL!"
I look out my window and see people running and screaming, people are stumbling into their cars, yelling at each other to hurry up and some are even...
My mom would tell me that the people who you suspect the least are the ones who you should suspect the most.
Keyword: would
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It's a cold foggy day and you found your self staring through your open window to a quiet street with no one around, listening to your neighbor's dog bark.
What catches your eye and breaks you from your daze is a big cloud of smoke from afar, you can hear sirens and faint screaming until slowly, it gets louder and louder, and LOUDER and louder. That quiet street now filled with people running out their houses, neighbors asking what's wrong but the only reply they get from these terrified civilians is simply put:
-I do not own any of these gif’s, credit to original owners-
It’s been 5 months since we got engaged. Every one supports us, ARMY, the other members, parents and staff, except the obsessed fans obviously. I wouldn’t be happier. I worked as an idol in korea as well as the others, when we go on tour we often sometimes bump into eachother and if fans were lucky they would have a double concert. I really am happy…..I think I said that too soon. Now, I don’t think I could be happy ever, this is the story of how my life went down hill from….just-one fan meeting. Everything that happened after that-I could never forgive myself….not even him.
monday, october 1st, 2018 -
yn: hey, slow dow- /moans/
jimin: you said you wanted a family? let me give you one babe. /starts to grunt louder, pushing all of himself deeper into you, never letting you adjust to his big member/
yn: Jimin! Ahh, im clo-ah! /jimin speeds up his pace now thrusting faster, deeper, and harder. You both radiating body heat, covered in sweat, not wanting to stop pounding into each other. He finally releases onto your chest/
jimin: ah fuck!
yn: god, i don’t know if I can make it in tomorrow.. /you sighed as you crawled onto his naked hot body, giving him a deep kiss/
jimin: yn, its 11:45 pm, I have a meet tomorrow. /jimin wrapped his arms around you, taking himself and you to the bathroom to wash from the intense night/
tuesday, october 3, 2018 -
jin: where’s yn?
jimin: she has to stop by the office and do paperwork. /jimin eagerly tapped his pen on the table waiting for both the last member to hurry with the fan and you to hurry and finish work/
tae: you guys live together, calm down.
jimin: i know its just that I miss her every-
army: awe! /jimin looked infront of him and suddenly there you were cupping you face smiling. Jungkook took out his phone and showed jimin a video of you walking in and crouching to try and not get caught then sitting infront of him./
jimin: who’s this cutie? /he says laughing then cupping your face over your hands/
yn: i have something to tell you!
someone: hey! get away from him! he’s mine! /everyone immediately turned to the person shouting, before a member could comment, gunshots filled the room, echoing into the hallways/
You and jimin looked at each other with wide eyes, he grabbed your hand but before he could stand up and run away with you he heard something, a sound now engraved into his memory, he turned his head towards you to see your eyes staring at your stomach, watching your clothes soak with blood, spilling onto the marble floor, all without any emotion. Suddenly the shooting stopped and sirens were heard, the attacker had been detained and cuffed but jimin didn’t care, all the other members were protected under the table or by body guards but jimin was standing there in the open, his mouth hanging down so long that a fly could’ve flew in there and gotten lost. Everyone slowly got up from underneath, people rushing to them and fans to see if they were okay/
jimin: thi-this is a joke…right? Your fine, you have to be- /before he could finish his sentence tears started to fill his eyes, mercilessly streaming down as you looked up to him with the most saddest eyes and with all the energy you still have, you manage to say;
i was pregnant im sorry.
finally collapsing to the floor. His eyes grew wide, jimin jumped over the table stopping at your body, slowly crouching and cupping you in his arms.
jimin: no…no…no…yn please..yn, this isn’t a funny joke…please baby…stop it!
jungkook: hyung…..
jimin: shut the fuck up Jungkook! She-she’s still..breathing… /he struggles to say as he started to sob over you/
person1: exscuse me sir, we’re going to have to take her to the hospital. /before jimin could respond they took you into the ambulance/
jimin: wait! im her fiancé! /they opened the door and let him in, other cars took the members who were injured but no too badly taking all the victims of the attack into care/
thursday, october 5, 2018 -
yn: jimin? /you said as you slowly opened your eyes to adjust to the sunlight, finding Jimin sitting by your bed, playing with the ring on your finger/
jimin: your awake? your okay? your breathing? /he clenched your hand and intertwined his and yours together he then grabbed a remote from the table beside him and pressed a button, several minutes later someone in a white looking lab coat entered with a clipboard/
doctor: hello, good morning miss, you must be…uh yn, right? /she said looking up from the board/
yn: yes
doctor: do you remember the last event you were at?
yn: a fan meeting
jimin: she’s okay right? she can come home now, right?
doctor: yes but I’m afraid she might need counseling as well as you and the others due to the event, it maybe very traumatic and outcomes could be bad also, I understand that you were pregnant ma'am?
yn: yes
doctor: okay, well I have good and bad news ; your healthy, and able to go home, feed her well and don’t go to work for awhile.
jimin: okay? What’s the bad news..? /he hesitated/
doctor: im afraid…that when she was shot, the bullet had also shot the..
baby.
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after that you and Jimin went home to the 6 boys and told them the horrible news as well. Neither you, jimin or the members were the same after that week.
author's note ; sorry ep.1 was bad, hopefully this will be better. -btw i feel like everything seems better if you read this ep. With rain in the bg :) -
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time ; 12:48 pm
It's been pouring for the past few weeks, non-stop.
I haven't been getting better because somehow, in some way, miraculously i have obtained: a fever.
Getting shot was enough and now this? Did i do something wrong? Did i make someone else angry?
Am i being punished?
I just want and I NEED to talk to someone, days on end, hours and hours, im always home until Jimin comes home. Jimin took last month off to spend with me but now he can't because well, he has a job and i never have anyone to talk to or anything to do and i can't go anywhere by myself because im stuck in a damn wheelchair...im by myself now.
Im alone.
Jimin took last month off to spend with me but now he can't because well, he has a job. I know he likes to 'act like a man' but i also know deep down, im probably the thing tearing him down the most. He tells im safe and ill be okay but every now and then he sneaks out of bed and out the balcony where its dripping wet. I can always hear him whimpering and sobbing- asking him self.. Why he's useless, well until Tae or Hoseok come and tell him everything is going to be okay. They tell him that we're all going to get through this-together, everything is okay. He tells me that too.
I know it's not true. We both know.
Nothing will be okay for quite a while now.
Jimin: "Hey y/n, im leaving now, do you need anything else?" -he fumbles with the pills on my desk and his head lowered to them-
Y/N: "Uh no, im fine." -keeping my eyes on the book, sigh, i can feel his eyes on me but what am i supposed to say? 'No, actually can you stay?' Pft, i wish-
Jimin says okay, kisses my forehead and leaves walks towards the door, i dont see him since im on the couch with my back facing him but i hear his keys jingling so he can find the right one to lock the door.
Y/N: "Don't forget your umbrella!" -i yell from across the room and my eyes still on the book-
Jimin: "I got it...thanks.."
I hear him leave and shut the door, locking it through the other side and him walking away.
sigh
What do i do now?
Y/N: -i put my book down besides me and lay my head back, staring at the ceiling- "Today will be boring, won't it?"
I carefully hop into my 'transportation device', put my book on my lap and roll out to the balcony.
Y/N: "It's been raining for quite awhile, hasn't it?" -i mumble to my self as i pull open my book-
time ; 4:15 pm
???: "Goodmorning sleeping beauty."
???: "Y/n, you know being outside isnt good for the fever you ALREADY have."
???: "Exactly, so falling asleep isnt doing it justice, all you do complain about is being sick but look at you now."
As i slowly open my eyes, trying to adjust to the light, all i see is Hoseok sitting on the floor with his back turned from me. I look around and realize i was laying on the couch with a blanket over me.
Hoseok: "Do you feel okay? Do you need water?" -he turns around so that hes facing me-
Y/N: "Uh n-no..shouldn't you be at the company?" - i slowly get up with Hoeseoks help and realize Jungkook took the jar of cookies and almost ate them all and HE probably doesnt realize it-
Hoseok: "Careful.."
Jungkook: "Jimin asked if someone can stay home for a few hours with you in case you needed something."
Hoseok: "We have manager approval so dont worry y/n."
Y/N: "I see, well if thats the case, Jungkook, can you make me some tea please?"
Jungkook: "Wha-Why?" -he looks up from his phone still shoving cookies down his damn throat-
Hoseok: "You little shit.." -he stands up and grabs the tv remote, just wide eye staring him down-
Jungkook: "Im just kidding...sheesh calm down."
Y/N: "You guy's are kids seriously." -you carefully hop into you wheel chair and head towards the jar Jungkook left open-
Y/N: "Do you want an-" -you mumble to yourself, about to put the lid on-
Jungkook: "Y/n wait!" -Jungkook turns around with a kettle in one hand and a cup in the other. -
Y/N: "What?!" -Your head turns to him to realize he hasn't even boiled water yet-
Y/N: "Jungkook!" -You and Jungkook put what your both holding and practically swtiching spots-
Jungkook: "Im still eating these!" -he says as he takes out like 15 more cookies and placed them on a plate-
Y/N: "What the hell! The water is cold!" -you say as you fill up the kettle more and set it down, turning it on for it to boil-
Hoseok: "Wow, unbelievable and I am the child? Do you need some milk too Jungkook? Huh???" -he sits down on the couch, shaking his head and turning on the tv-
» you find yourself in an unexpected situation, a normal day of practicing choreography turns into an audition to become BTS's newest member?! Unsure how you feel, you go about the situation as a way to have fun—until things take and unexpected turn and now your left with the choice of leaving your hometown or drowning in misunderstandings.
Fee: "Hey yn," -she talks from behind her locker door-
Yn: "Hm?" -i start changing my clothes and shoving everything into my duffle bag and then shoving THAT into my locker-
Fee: "What's your number?"
Yn: "You have my number...?"
Fee: "No i dont..?"
Yn: "Yes you do...?"
Fee: "Well, tell me, i don't remember then."
Yn: "Oh, fine its 25326-'
Fee: "No you idiot, your fucking number on your tag!" -she doesn't even look at me and smacks me on the back of my head-
Yn: "Oh, uh..25, how 'bout you?" -i sit on the bench behind me, rubbing my head-
Fee: "Dang, 46."
Yn: "Dang?" -as she finishes up, she turns around towards me and gestures to leave-
Fee: Walk and talk, lets go. Anyway, yeah, i wanted to go sooner."
Yn: "Hm? Why?"
Fee: "I don't know, if i was best, then they'll probably have a hard time judging others, no offense...hehe."
Yn: "Don't they record them? They can always look back to remember."
Fee: "Hm, i guess you are right." -we slowly stop talking as we re-enter the studio. This time the lights and cameras were set up-
We had an half-hour refresh session so everyone and practice. My number was 25 so I had plenty of time to work on my own choreography, they said they will be going by twenty but theres alot of us so...this'll be awhile.
[Thirty minutes later]
Namjoon: "Okay, i hope everyone's warmed up?"
Everyone: "Yes!"
Namjoon: "Okay, we're going to need the numbers 1-20 to stay please and the rest can exit. After they are done we'll take a 25-minute break and the group next can come in, got it?"
Jin: -whispers- "namjoon.., they aren't dogs.."
Namjoon: "Shut up."
We all exit and sit outside waiting..well some of us, it was like an hour and a half till it was our time but before that, mostly everyone went to other studio rooms to practice or some fell asleep or something but for me and fee just sat there talking. We were actually pretty confident we would make it to the next round but maybe that's just us, i guess a lot of girls need that (confidence) to perform but i felt like maybe something was going to be a bit different.
[Hour and a half later]
Girl 1: "Dude, im so exhausted.."
Girl 2: "i know right? Me too, good job out there by the way." -she wipes her forehead with a towel as she's walking out-
Jhope: "Wow! I was super impressed! You all danced well today!"
Jimin: "I agree, you all must've worked very hard, huh?"
All the boys follow each other out as they bow and hand out water bottles to the girls. We all know damn well that they didn't need it lol maybe its because its from celebrities?
Jhope: "Don't worry, we won't be long!"
Suga: "Hoseok, just go."
They all wave and bow to us as they walked into a break room reserved for them, they're lucky too, that room is one of our biggest and has couches and T.V’s, lots of food and drinks and other stuff. Usually, that would be reserved for the studio staff or VIP members like me but the staff got a smaller one instead.
Every time I saw a teacher walk past the room, they would roll their eyes as their seeing it taken away from them, but you know, sucks to suck.
[25 miNuTeS LaTer]
The next 20 girls walked in and the boys were already there. We all sat against a wall while the first girl went, the boys looked so focused and when they saw something surprising they seemed genuinely impressed. It gave me alot of courage because then maybe i can do something that'll have taken them aback..., thats until I heard people whispering and talking about me, saying things like; “Omg, I totally forgot we were up against yn..”, “Should we just leave now? We have no chance with her here.” etc. To be honest, it gave me some joy that people thought I was intimidating but also it was sad that people put themselves down just cause I was in the competition too, I didn't want to say anything cause I had a feeling that maybe they would think I was being...conceited but really, what should i do? Quit?
Soon enough time passed and it was my turn, I stood there in front of 19 other girls and seven boys, I stretched thoroughly, cracking every bone in my body and gave them my requested song. For my audition i had selected to be in a duo so I called in henry, i wanted to have more people dance with us but ...they wouldn't get credit since they had to do their own dances when it was their turn plus henry wasn't going to audition—he slacks off too much.
They play on the music and once the intro starts— i immediately get a shot of adrenaline into my body. That's the best part of dancing in front of a crowd, the racing heart wanting to blow out of your chest, the massive amounts of energy that come along— i just feel so awake and enliven. Its like dancing is a drug, i can practice hours on end and yeah i can get tired but i can never get tired (you kno'¿ lolol), i crave for the side effects; the sweat, the dehydration. I love it all.
Everyone sits up and starts bobbing their heads to the beat of the song. They've all seen me dance before and i got to say, im not the best but im sure as hell far away from worst. As their all getting ready to watch me go, the boys are also getting interested, they want to see me dance like before or BETTER than before- all that this morning, it was just all practice, surely im better than that.
I move my body to the beat of the intro and we get into position for the first lyric.
[song] ; a.c.e- black and blue
Im in full focus.
I start dancing with a sharp move—my upper half bopping to the sound. One minute in the song and i can feel the burn, im moving as fast as my body can go and making sure that my moves are as sharp as can be. Really, i didnt care if i got selected. When he asked me if ill be participating i was a bit unsure really and when Jimin said i didn't care i just thought, well "we'll see."
I have to admit that even if i dont get picked, this was really fun, this competition. I get to really see what my peers are made of and they get to see me at my fullest.
Yn: -i make contact with jhope and we stare at each other for a while until i wink and blow a kiss, you would think he would be used to it but it seemed like he got flustered a bit-
Jimin: "Isn't she really good?!" -He whispers to the other members-
Jhope: -scoffs- "Tsk, she's cocky." -he mutters-
I can see Jhope writing on the clipboard with a smirk, was he impressed?
The music ends and I stand there for a minute breathing heavily. Henry pats me on the back and bows to everyone as he leaves, I take a deep breath and stand next to the door. All the other girls tell me that i did a good job and said I was amazing but, I look over to the members and their expressions were so...blank? I can't tell if they enjoyed it or not well besides Jimin, he's smiling from ear to ear, at least someone thought it was good, right...?
I end up having eye contact with jhope again and he raises a brow.
Namjoon: "Okay! Good job #25! Next please!"
Another girl goes up and its a much slower paced than what I just danced to, sigh, this will be a long day won't it?
Lunch starts and everyone heads to the cafeteria. I was more in the back of the studio because every time lunch started, it would be chaotic. Everybody wanted to get there first so they could get the food nicely fresh and warm. I always bought my own food because the people who were last always hogged the microwave to warm up their food, I always hated standing in line so I always bought a nice sandwich (it was four slices and yes I ate them all ヽ（´ー｀）┌) or something. I waited until everyone left the studio and packed my things after I was about to walk to my locker I felt someone’s hand grab my shoulder. I had put my earbuds on after the Manager made the announcement so I couldn't hear anything after I took a second to realize it was someone's hand, I took the earbuds out and turned around.
Yn: "Yes-oh"
???: "Hello! My name is uh-"
Yn: "Jhope, i know haha."
Jhope: "Ah-haha, i forgot we were celebrities...heh-Oh, um, i saw you dancing earlier! Well, before you got interrupted, you were really good!" -He smiles at me very kindly, laughing a bit awkwardly with his hand on his neck and starts to blush- "I was wondering if you were auditioning? You look like you were working very har-"
???: "Hyung! Stop bothering her!
He quickly turns around and then looks back at me.
Jhope: "Ah..Jimin, i-" -jimin bows and tries to pull him back to the others but he doesn't even budge-
Yn: -i bite the inside of my cheeks, trying not to laugh. They were so cute! I raise my eyebrows and tilt my head a bit-
Jhope: "Can't you see im trying to have a conversation right now????" -as he’s looking at jimin, he rolls his eyes and crosses his arms-
Jimin: -sigh- "Hyung! Can't you see she doesn't care?"
Yn: "U-uhm.."
They both immediately turn their attentions toward me.
Yn: “I will be auditioning..but just please, treat me like the others! Not just because i can dance!”
Jhope: -giggles- "Your wish is my command! Well, this kid won't stop buggin' so see you then!”
Jimin: “Yea! See you later too!"-jimin smiles brightly and waves goodbye with his arm wrapped with jhopes-
I sighed and unlocked my locker and placed my belongings inside, thinking about what just happened is actually kind of funny and cute, will it really be okay if i win this?
time ; 12:37 PM
-Lunch has started-
I sit on an empty staircase with a couple of my friends as we eat lunch.
???: "Hey, yn!"
Yn: -im playing around on my phone in one hand and a half-eaten sandwich in the other- "Hm, what?"
???: "Yn, don't talk to your phone, talk to me!"
Yn: -i furrow my brows and look at her- "What'h?! What do you need so badly, Fee??"
Fee: "YOU NEVER READ WHAT I SENT YOU ON INSTAGRAMMMMM!!!"
Yn: "What'r talking about?"
Henry: "Fee, shut up, you're too loud." -fee snaps her head to henry in annoyance-
Fee: "You shut up- Yn, check your damn dm's!"
Yn: -i look back at my phone and sigh as i take another bite from my meal- "oH, yUh dish teck me."
Henry: "Finish what's in your mouth yn, geez."
Yn: "Mhm, yeah sorry."
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Yn: "Yeah, The manager just talked about this."
Fee: "You idiot, i sent that on thursday."
Yn: "I should probably sign up, one of the members asked me if i was and i said yeah." -i didn't realize how half-heartedly I had said that until fee SMACKS my back-
Yn: "Ow! Fee what the fuck!"
Fee: "He-Wh-I-Who?!" -she yells at me with her mouth half full, literally spitting bits of crackers in my face whilst i just stare at her with my eye wide in concern-
Henry: "EAT WITH OUR MOUTH CLO-"
Fee: "SHUT UP HENRY!" -henry moves up a step to sit farther from the bacteria bot-
Yn: "Uh, Jhope did but i also talked to Jimin." -i say as i take another bite until she HITS ME AGAIN-
Fee: "No shit! For real?!"
Yn: -i start coughing and struggling to say I'm choking- "W-wat-tar!!"
Henry: "Look what you did you buffoon!" -he flicks fee on the forehead and hands me my water bottle-
Fee: "Ow!..im sorry."
Henry: "Yeah you better be."
Fee: "Henry shut up!"
Henry: "Tsk."
Fee says she can send me the link for the online application so i can apply and honestly, i im kinda nervous- but i dont know who said that 👀.
time ; 2:30 PM
-Lunch ends-
I stood back where i was when i was practicing this morning and noticed a long white TABLE set in front of the windows. The boys were standing with pink clipboards and next to the table a whole other stack of boards on the floor, which were blue, soon after everyone had entered from lunch, and the manager walked in.
Manager: "Okay, on the farther end of the table we have name tags with numbers and names obviously. All applications that were submitted passed 1:50pm were not entered since that was the deadline and after that we had all the names randomize and numbered so it didn't matter how early or late you submitted them. Alright! Everyone listen up because I'm only gonna say this once!
The pink boards are representing the girls and on the boards are a couple pages numbered from 1 to 130. Same for the blue ones, in the box behind Namjoon are tags about 260 but split in half. Each person will get one and whoever has the #1 will go on until #2 and so on, everyone will perform a solo choreography that they have made or a solo dance they've learned and with a group or not-whatever. After the females have finished the members (BTS) will see who have passed to go on then it's the males turn, next they’ll show if they can do the following; Sing, or Rap, the people the members select to move on will go on to the next round which the members will decide what will the challenge be. Then they will choose 5 females and 5 from the males also, those 10 will go to another round and the members will choose three people from them to become a trainee. They have dedicated their time into auditions to just THIS studio so please respect that. They can leave whenever they want, disrespect will not be tolerated. Phew! That was a lot but everyone got it?!”
Everyone: "Yes ma'am!!"
Manager: Oh! Those three by the way, whoever they may be, its like a death round, one of those three will eventually debut and the other two will be sent back home. Since these seven boys are generous, the top 10 will be able to make 2 collabs (song) with them as a reward for the hard work and everyone else who auditioned will get free concert tickets so dont be so bummed out okay? I believe in all of you so do your best!"
Everyone: "Thank You!!"
The manager left with all the males following behind her as a bunch of girls raced to Namjoon as he was helping pass out tags. Before lunch had ended, everyone got a text telling their numbers so it was less of a hassle but still....
Namjoon: "Ladies! A single line please!"
BTS: -Laughing at Namjoons failure-
Namjoon: "Help me!" -He gives off a dark glare to all the members and eventually someone steps up- "Thank you Hyung."
Jin: "Okay, I can help here too! Please form another line!"
Me and Fee just stand back in awe, staring at all the chaos girls can cause.
Me: "Wow, thats amazing." -i stand with my back against the mirror and my arms cross, contemplating if i should go and die in the crowd-
Fee: "Can't relate." -i look over at fee and raise a brow-
Yn: "Oh?" -i grab her hand and pull her to a line and gesture her to stay as i wait in the other-
Fee: "Really? Can't you come here?"
Yn: "Wha-What? Sorry, i can't hear you over these fangirls!"
Fee: "i sa-" -sigh- "I SAID COME HERE!"
Yn: -puts earbuds in and looks away-
Fee: "i give up. Truly the biggest brat."
It seemed like it took forever, just standing there and to be honest, at this point I didn't care if i got in or not;
But FINALLY it was my turn, he helped me find my tag and winked at me, I just gave him a quick smile and walked off. I didn't think much as Jin was always the one out of everyone to send hearts and winks and all the girls were ALL over him for that, it was c r a z y.
After that, all the girls grabbed their clothes and headed to the locker room to change into more comfortable clothing.
This was a regular day for me, I was caught up practicing a new choreo and i just started 'creating' it; Id say i’m making SOME progress at least.
Mostly everyone was communicating with each other and some others (including I) were practicing. We had earbuds in and it wasn't weird to practice in front of each other, messing up choreo was nothing to get caught up about because everyone knows dancing is hard work.
For me though...if im practicing then thats pretty much it, i get too immersed in it that i basically block out all distractions. Er, thats why we have the rule to keep one bud out but everyone knows how focused i am so i never obey it.
A few hours passed and I still was practicing non-stop, I can hear myself panting and breathing heavily so I decided it was best if I take a short break (as one does). I took my headphones off and slouched my back against the mirror and grabbed my water bottle and started chugging down the water until i basically choked-as if someone wanted to take my sweaty bottle..I sat a bit trying to grasp my breath but as i was about to get up, my manager walks in.
Manager: "Geez guys, there's so many of you.. Anyway, you call read the announcement on Twitter-right?" -her head looks around the room smiling-
Everyone: "Yes!!" -they all start doing that weird 'eewhoo' scream that people do at football games-
Yn: -i slightly click my neck- "Hm? What's she talking about...?" -i mumble under my breath. I look at her, my eyes wider than before, trying to get a grip of what's going on.- "There IS a lot of people here today..."
Manager: "As you know they are VERY POPULAR, i want everyone on their very best behavior-you hear me?!"
Everyone: "Yes!!"
After the manager waves goodbye everyone goes back to talking....but more...energized. I had no idea whats going on so i just click my tongue and put my buds in; i continue practicing more and more and as per usual, i zone in. Some time passes and not realizing or caring, apparently everyone had stopped what they were doing- which by the way, I WAS IN FRONT OF A WALL MADE OF MIRROR SO HO- but that's not the point UNTIL I felt someone tap my shoulder, i looked at them and they gestured at me to take my earbuds out and then told me to turn around, I slowly do as told with a confused expression and turn around Obviously not bothering to look at the mirror.
Yn: "Dude, what do you wa-" -doe eyes my ass, my eyes were basically popping out my head and dangling on the floor!-
fuck
I stand there.
My mouth hanging open on the floor along with my fucking eyeballs, they minus well be a cat toy for how- DUMBFOUNDED I WAS.
I don't processes what's going on until this guy freaking pats my head.
Tae: "Oh cute!"
My eyebrows ruffle as soon as i heard that and immediately i bow along with profusely apologizing. I can literally feel their staring! Literally into my soul.
Yn: "Oh my gosh! Im so sorry!!!!"
While my head is lowered to them, i keep on mumbling im sorry until i can feel some weight on my left shoulder-along with some sharp ass pain.
Yn: "OW-" -this is when my dumbass falls on the floor without realizing it. I look up and see my manager staring at me so
Bewildered.-
I look at her with the most confused look that my face can come up with and my hand over my shoulder.
Manager: "Oh yn! Why are you on the floor? How'd you get there?"
It turns out while half my body was lowered, she put her arm on my back but...elbow went first.
Manager: "Well, i guess you've met yn already!" -she looks at them but whispers to me, trying to shove me up by her foot instead of with her arm (which were behind her back gesturing me to get up)- "yn.yn..g-get up!!"
Yn: "God- tsh, i am!" -i look at her pouting as i dust my self off-
Namjoon: "Ah, your name is yn?"
Yn: "Uh..y-yes it is.." -SBKSBSINAB MY HEART IS FREAKING RACING-
Before Namjoon can continue, my manager cuts him off and puts her arm around my shoulder.
Manager: "Okay! Well, let's not get distracted here! I wanted to introduce our special guests today but I'll let them do it themselves!"
Everyone: -Cheers!-
Namjoon: "Uh...okay..well, we're BTS!" -They all do their introduction and bow as my manager hands me...water? I look at her confused but she just nudges it towards me more so i take it and slowly and hesitantly drinking it-
Manager: "OKAY!!! Now, i would like to say that since we have some of the best dancers in the country and including some other tale-"
Everyone: "EEWHOO-"
Manager: "SHHHH! Most of you may know why these seven handsome members are here today BUT I'll refresh for those who don't. They are here to find an 8th member and basically, you'll all perform your dances that you have prepared and they'll judge. Also have you perform other talents as well but if you make it through the next round! That was a brief summary but if you need to know more than check our Instagram or ask a friend! Since its almost break time, I'll let you go but come back here after, break goes as usual-AND BEHAVE OR ILL KICK YOUR A- goodbye now." -she walks out the studio waving and bowing at everyone. She's older than most of us since she's in her 40's but dang! That woman looks younger than me!!-
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a/n: i was thinking, if anyone wanted to do a gc on kakao to help with each other FF's for bts chats then lmk i kinda want to make one because I feel like it'll give us as fans somewhere to bond more and something to talk about later (msg me ♥) but its a new idea so idk if people will be up for it.
