Vienna Waits For You🤍

She/her | aspiring author | Billy Joel Enthusiast

[sullyywrites]

I’m back in my Outsiders hyperfixation so here’s a Phoebe Bridgers edit💛

[ofinkandstardust]

i made a whump wheel

want to beat up a character but don't know how you wanna do it? same here, friend. behold, the whump wheel! it currently has 60 different prompts/tropes on it and is ready for use! 🎉 i...love this thing. it is wonderful for writing exercises. (if you wanna know what's on it before using it, take a peak at the screenshot below)

[sullyywrites]

Attention Readers:

Are you looking for a fantasy book to read with the found family trope?

- Do you love world building, epic adventures, and magic?

- Do you like relatable stories with mature themes?

- Do you love tropes like friends to lovers, enemies to lovers, whump, multiple point of views, pirates, love triangles, and hurt comfort?

- Do you love books like Six of Crows, Throne of Glass, and The Cruel Prince?

If you love all of those things, check out my fantasy novel, The Queen of Golden Flame! It is a completed book I’ve been working on for the past four years and love dearly. If you find yourself interested in all of the things above, please check it out in the link below! Would love to hear some feedback!🩷

The Queen of Golden Flame

In the midst of a gruesome war, Queen Kali of Marina unites a crew of seven from every corner of the world to take down...

[sullyywrites]

Don’t Imagine...

Don’t imagine how Kaz would’ve reacted if Inej had died.

Don’t imagine him watching as the life faded from her eyes and she went home to her Saints.

Don’t imagine him doing anything he could to keep her there and refusing to believe that she died because ‘She’s the Wraith. She can do anything.’

Don’t imagine him trying to hold himself together while the others are around him, not sure if they should comfort him or leave him be.

Don’t imagine him climbing up the stairs to the Slat by himself, not bothering to use the railing.

Don’t imagine him getting to his office and it’s only when he sees Inej’s perch on the window sill that he loses it.

Don’t imagine Kaz destroying his office, knocking over furniture and papers and all of his hard work, screaming in anger and pain.

Don’t imagine him crumpling to the ground in defeat and sobbing into his trousers.

Don’t imagine the others finding him curled up on the ground like that.

Don’t imagine Kaz locking himself in his office for days.

Don’t imagine when he finally leaves he goes on a rampage, killing and stealing from any merchant that had ever gotten in his or Inej’s way.

Don’t imagine him letting himself get taken by the Staadwatch.

Don’t imagine them finding him with his gloves on after years without wearing them.

Don’t imagine Kaz having to live with the fact that he felt when Inej died at his hands.

[thesexypanda-boo]

aksbja my friend actually wrote a death scene where inej died- and I cried and I've not even read soc-

[sullyywrites]

Okay I would totally cry too, but the amount of angst that comes out of those fics are always so good

[lyrium-deactivated20230102]

what i say: i'm going to work on my novel!

what i do: *spends half an hour actually writing* *spends an hour researching obscure details for my universe* *spends 2 hours daydreaming about my universe and characters* *spends 3 hours daydreaming about other people daydreaming about my universe and characters after i become a famous published author* *repeat*

[sullyywrites]

Nikolai Lanstov

The man who engineered the first plane-like vehicle in the Grishaverse and yet he’d stand pulling on a push door for twenty minutes.

[generalstarkov]

*gasp*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

NO I DONT THINK YOU UNDERSTAND I JUST DIED

LOOK AT THEM

LOOK AT THEM

ZOYA'S HAT????? PLS

ZOYA'S KEFTA? STUNNING

ALINA'S FIRST ARMY UNIFORM? CHECK

THEM? I LOVE THEM

MY ZOYALINA RIGHTS? THEY'RE HERE

[panic-at-the-jesper-deactivated]

YALL I AM LITERALLY HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN OVER THIS THEY HAVE MY HEART

[sullyywrites]

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

[ems-alla]

So I just realised something..

Freddy Cater calls Amita;MITA which in hindi means sweet

*cue me jumping up and down with happy tears*

Ahhh kanej in real life !

[sullyywrites]

A Little Help From The Dregs

(Note: This is just a short oneshot that I thought of when I was talking to my friend)

Kaz was more vulnerable around the Dregs than he realized. The only reason he didn’t realize is because none of the Dregs ever brought it up. Kaz Brekker had a reputation to uphold, and they were not going to deal with angry Kaz if word spread of his vulnerability. Besides, sometimes they had to remind themselves that Kaz was still just a kid, and sometimes he just needed a nudge in the right direction.

They all were aware of Kaz’s horrible sleeping habits. There had been many nights where one of the Dregs had gone to get a drink late into the night in the Slat’s sorry excuse for a kitchen and found him stumbling around, mumbling to himself as if he were drunk.

Most times they would avoid it, knowing that it would only make Dirtyhands angry if they pointed it out to him, but sometimes they couldn’t avoid it. Some days it would get to a point where they would find him completely spaced out, shaking so badly from the amount of caffeine coursing through him that he couldn’t seem to stand up straight.

They never touched him, never dared lay a hand on him. Normally they wouldn’t even address the situation. They would simply take the coffee away and guide him back to his office and tell him to get some rest. Normally when he was that out of it it surprisingly worked, and the next morning he would act as if nothing happened. That was if he even remembered the encounter.

Other times someone would walk into his office to find him pacing like a madman. The room would be torn to shreds, papers and books scattered over the floor, items in places they shouldn’t be. In those situations they would ask what he was working on and they would attempt to ease his racing mind about the case, hoping that it would calm him down.

It was only the ones that paid close attention to Kaz Brekker that noticed when he would lock himself in his room. They knew it was one of two things; He was sick (which Kaz Brekker hardly ever got sick), or he was having a panic attack. On those days they would force anyone away who tried to see him, claiming that he had fallen ill and did not want to be bothered.

Even Per Haskell had his moments where he had to play father figure for Kaz. It was mostly when Kaz was young and had first joined the Dregs, when Haskell was more interested in his gang and not just in it for the money. He knew that Kaz would work himself to death if he could, so there was a few occasions where he had to be the one to tell Kaz to go home. He knew that Kaz would obey if he ordered him to do so, so that’s just what he did.

It wasn’t until years after and he was well into his adult age that he thought back on it. Inej leading him to bed late one night when he had went a near week and a half with no sleep, Jesper talking him through his frustration when he couldn’t figure out a case, when he was having a horrible panic attack and caught Pim and Anika telling someone to fuck off from somewhere down the hall. They had all been there for him when he was never kind to them in return, and he couldn’t have been more thankful to have had them.

[sullyywrites]

Don’t Imagine...

Don’t imagine how Kaz would’ve reacted if Inej had died.

Don’t imagine him watching as the life faded from her eyes and she went home to her Saints.

Don’t imagine him doing anything he could to keep her there and refusing to believe that she died because ‘She’s the Wraith. She can do anything.’

Don’t imagine him trying to hold himself together while the others are around him, not sure if they should comfort him or leave him be.

Don’t imagine him climbing up the stairs to the Slat by himself, not bothering to use the railing.

Don’t imagine him getting to his office and it’s only when he sees Inej’s perch on the window sill that he loses it.

Don’t imagine Kaz destroying his office, knocking over furniture and papers and all of his hard work, screaming in anger and pain.

Don’t imagine him crumpling to the ground in defeat and sobbing into his trousers.

Don’t imagine the others finding him curled up on the ground like that.

Don’t imagine Kaz locking himself in his office for days.

Don’t imagine when he finally leaves he goes on a rampage, killing and stealing from any merchant that had ever gotten in his or Inej’s way.

Don’t imagine him letting himself get taken by the Staadwatch.

Don’t imagine them finding him with his gloves on after years without wearing them.

Don’t imagine Kaz having to live with the fact that he felt when Inej died at his hands.

[bibwu-movedlol-deactivated20220]

Writing Websites

1. a website with a list of superpowers and what they are

2. a website that generates random au ideas

3. a website that generates names, basic info and futures in a bunch of languages

4. a website that checks your grammar

5. website that lists types of execution in the states

6. a website with info on death certificates

7. a website with info on the four manners of death

8. a website with info on the black plague

9. website with information on depression

10. a website with info on the four types of suicide

11. website that lists famous quotes

12. website with different kinds of quotes

13. a website with info on food in every country

14. a website with a list of different colors

15. website with a list of medieval jobs

16. website with a list of fabrics

17. website with a list of flowers and pictures

18. website with a list of flowers and no pictures

19. website with a list of poisonous plants

20. website with a list of poisonous and non-poisonous plants

21. website with a list of things not to feed your animals

22. website with a list of poisons that can be used to kill people

23. website with info on the international date line

24. website with a list of food allergies

25. website with a list of climates

26. website with info on allergic reactions

27. website with info on fahrenheit and celsius 

28. website with info on color blindness

29. website with a list of medical equipment

30. website with a list of bugs

31. website with an alphabetic list of bugs and their scientific name

32. website with a list of eye colors

33. website (wikipedia sorry) with list of drinks

34. website with a list of religions

35. website with a list of different types of doctors and what they do

36. website (wikipedia again sorry) with a list of hair colors

37. website that generates fantasy names

38. website with a list of body language

39. website with a list of disabilities

40. website with an alphabetic list of disabilities

[justashleywrites]

This is extremely useful, I will use these for sure!

[sullyywrites]

Reblogging so I don’t lose this and to spread it to others. This is so helpful!

[sixstrongcrowbbs]

Do you think that Kaz starts using Demjin as a nick name after Matthias died went away

Cos I’m soft for that

Like Kaz might be cold hearted but he has respect for his friend

one day he walks into the slat and quietly says to himself ‘the Demjin is here’

Then he starts it sign letters off as ‘D’

People start to wonder why

They assume it’s Dirtyhands

But one day he signs a letter off ‘Demjin’

Then it just starts to stick

Kaz is has a new name added to the collection of nicknames he has

The crows start to use it too

Jesper is with Wylan when he says “so are we inviting the Demjin to lunch with us or can we enjoy our waffles in peace?”

Kaz always found the himself thinking of Matthias when he heard Demjin whispered on the streets

He maybe had to admit he missed him

Now as Kaz signs of his letters as Demjin he remembers him -

“I can’t believe I’m doing this for you,” he says

[sullyywrites]

This made my heart hurt but it’s also so sweet

[caw-caw]

Wylan, running to kaz: hey

Kaz: ˢʰʰʰ ᶦⁿᵉʲ ᶦˢ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖᶦⁿᵍ

Wylan: ᵒʰ ᵒᵏ ˢᵒʳʳʸ

Kaz: ʷʰᵃᵗ'ˢ ᵘᵖ

Wylan: ᵗʰᵉ ˢˡᵃᵗ ᶦˢ ᵒⁿ ᶠᶦʳᵉ

[sullyywrites]

Kaz falling asleep on the sofa after dinner with the crows at Van Eck mansion.

It being the first good sleep he’s had in a long time.

Inej gently shaking his shoulder, hating to wake him up but knowing that they’ve got to get back to the Slat.

Kaz, still half asleep, seeing Inej and lifting his arms to her like a toddler wanting to be carried.

Like, making grabby hands and all.

The others trying not to laugh from the kitchen because this is too good, but Inej loves seeing him like this so she doesn’t care.

[sullyywrites]

Kaz walking into the kitchen of the Van Eck Mansion one morning while Colm is visiting.

He hasn’t slept in a few days and it’s getting to him.

Kaz accidentally calling Colm ‘Da’ and not even realizing it.

Colm having to leave the room because he’s crying tears of joy.

[sullyywrites]

Guys...

If we go off of when Crooked Kingdom was published...

Kaz would technically be 21 now.

[sullyywrites]

How The Crows Would React If They Saw Kaz Cry

(Note: This takes place after CK, and by the time that Kaz is getting comfortable with touch. This could take place in the span of years because I don’t think that Kaz cries that often. And this is if Matthias had lived)

Inej: Kaz hardly ever cries in front of Inej. Maybe it’s from old habits, but he hates crying in front of her. He hates being weak in front of her and worrying her. He’s only cried a few times in front of her, only sniffles and stray tears, but she holds him close and whispers reassurances in his ear. Of course she checks to make sure that he is okay with her touching him first.

Jesper: Jesper is one of the people that Kaz would actually go to when he is vulnerable. Jesper is obsiously like a brother to Kaz, and I feel like after years of knowing each other he would be comfortable with Jesper seeing him in such a state. Normally whenever Kaz cries Jesper pulls him into a hug and doesn’t let him go until he knows that it’s okay. It’s quiet and still, but his grip is reassuring and strangely calming for him. It reminds Kaz of Jordie when they were kids. It feels safe.

Nina: Nina is the other person that he would go to. I feel like after CK Kaz and Nina gained a strong friendship. Whenever she would be in Ketterdam and he couldn’t seem to hold himself together, he seemed to always find his way to her door. It was almost always at ungodly hours of the night, and she always knew that it was him. Nina would sit him down and make him tea and biscuits, and would sit with him and drink her tea while he just tries to breathe. It’s the silence and warmness of her presence that calms him. He doesn’t need her to touch him or talk to him to feel calm, it just is.

Matthias: Matthias only ever saw Kaz cry once. He had been having a panic attack, alone in his office when Matthias opened the door and saw him there. The Fjerdan froze, confused and shocked. Kaz Brekker was crying. He couldn’t believe it. But then realization hit that Kaz Brekker was crying. Matthias would wait for Kaz to yell at him and demand that he leave, but when he doesn’t he just closes the door and slowly walks over to him. He wraps Kaz in a big hug, and Kaz is shocked because he’s so big yet so strangely gentle. He tells him to “Breathe demjin. Breathe.” And Kaz just laughs because Matthias of all people is comforting him? This had to be a joke. But his panic attack stopped, and so did his crying.

Wylan: Kaz always tried to avoid Wylan when he felt emotional. Wylan was subconsciously like a little brother to him, and he didn’t want Wylan to see him like that. But one day Wylan found him in the bedroom he very occasionally stayed in at the Van Eck mansion while he was waiting for Jesper to get home. Kaz had been sitting on the edge of the bed, silent tears streaming down his face. Wylan had been shocked, but mostly he was just sad to see Kaz like this. So he sat down next to the leader of the Dregs and carefully wrapped his arms around Kaz. And Kaz just broke. He had never cried as hard as he did in front of the others as he did that day with Wylan. And Wylan just held him tightly, humming very softly. It was strange to Kaz because the embrace felt so caring and familiar, but he couldn’t seem to place it. It brought out the years of tears that he had built up, and he had never been more relieved.