Today was the three year anniversary of when I fell in love with Leona, and I still can't believe that all my t.w.st f/os came to me in a dream last night. It was one of those dreams where you have amnesia, but instead of trying to get me to remember everything, everyone was trying to start over until I could remember again.
Ace, Deuce, and Ruggie were there trying to support me even though I couldn't remember them. They were their old goofy selves, and of course Ruggie had a "I'll scratch your back if you scratch mine" policy (basically, he would help me with whatever if I brought him food. Love that guy :3).
Riddle and Epel seemed like they were really upset about my condition, but we had some nice moments to just talk; I remember Riddle called me kind.
Jack was trying to forget about the whole thing. He tried acting like we never even met and wouldn't even look me in the eye, but I could see the way he would side eye me, and I'm sure he missed me. Grim was also similarly very upset and stuck to the sidelines when I was around.
But Leona... he was the only one who tried to get me to remember. He had Ruggie bring me to him, and we had a short conversation. I remember he also seemed upset to see me, but he was also talking to me like he was trying to figure something out. I realized after that it was actually his way of figuring out if I was really me because afterward, he went to my room to talk to me privately. He told me that he was relieved to find out that I was me, and that he would do all he could to support and care for me. He said he missed me and told me that he loved me. And then he kissed me.
I woke up right after that.
And it's just so incredible and interesting to me. Because I have had so many dreams with my tw.st. f/os that feel like I'm trying to reach them or their world, but I just can't get through all the way.
And Leona being my f/o has always been interesting because he may be the only f/o to make me believe in the idea that we and our f/o's are together in other universes or something. Like, I've talked about the first time I saw Leona and read about his source, but really, even long before that, I would see him being used as people's icons. And every single time I would see one of his pictures, from these little icons from scrolling through the notes of posts, where I couldn't recognize that it was him but I was drawn to his image every single time even without knowing it was him. I would go to people's blogs and every time be like "wait, this is the same lion dude with the cute ears and the pretty face!" And everything in me would scream "know him, you know him, know him"
He is the only f/o this has ever happened with, but he makes me believe that in some other universe and time, we were happy together. And even if this is the only way we can be together now, even if he is just an image in my phone, we still found each other in the here and now.
So, happy three years my love. I've missed you too.
