Sunny Sunflowers ☀

Pronounced as "On" but spelled as An. I photosynthesize for energy. Art tumblr: laphetandpho

[dragongirlteeth]

I am shocked at how many people don't have an actively hostile relationship with advertising

[dragongirlteeth]

I am skipping your ads as fast as I can. I'm skipping past your sponsor read. I'm muting the tv. I'm muting the tab. If they get too annoying I will simply stop trying to watch.

If advertisers can use every manipulative trick in the book to get me to buy their product, I am fully within my rights to do everything I can on my end to make their job impossible

[rounni]

[flavoracle]

I love the song “Scarborough Fair” because it follows my favorite poetic structure:

Nosy question

Grocery list

Haunting personal information

[destinationtoast]

Does the carpet match the drapes?

TP, cheese, raspberries, and eggs

Think of me if you see fuzzy grapes

It’s been five years since I shaved my legs

—–

How many times do you shower per week?

Fettuccini, pesto, and oil

It hurts whenever I take a leak,

And on my butt there’s a boil

—–

You’re right this is a foolproof recipe

[shoku-and-awe]

For me, it feels like:

Nosy question

Grocery list

Presumptuous request

Haunting personal information

ーー

When was the last time that you got laid?

Hot dogs, sticks, and stuff for s’mores

Could you grab that book on the top shelf for me?

I just ate a chip I found on the floor.

[flavoracle]

Recognizing the “presumptuous request” line feels like an important addition to this discussion. So thanks for that, @shoku-and-awe.

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Do you floss your teeth every day?

Dryer sheets, lint roller, and Tide

Watch me touch my tongue to my chin

When my wife first saw it, her eyes sure got wide

[niuniente]

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[adoring-suggestion]

When your dad tries to guilt trip you into visiting him: “well I guess I’ll just spend the weekend all by myself...”

You say “glad to know we’re on the same page.” Slowly, he will have to adapt to just outright telling you what he thinks instead of playing mind games.

When your friend tries to hint that they’re mad at you without saying anything: “Oh, I’m fine, clearly you don’t need to worry about me,”

You say: “I’m glad you’re doing well. Call me if you want to talk, though!” Soon enough, they will accept that they can’t be passive aggressive with you.

When your boyfriend says: “All your friends are great, I really love *insert male friend* especially.”

You say: “I’m so glad you like my friends! I should invite them back soon.” He needs to understand that if he has a problem with your friends, he needs to just voice his concerns instead of being sarcastic and accusatory.

As someone who has lived through several toxic relationships and has an abusive father, I think one of the most important manipulation tools a toxic person has is excessive subtext and hidden meanings in their conversation. It hides all of the actual fighting from the eyes of onlookers while still hurting you, which is scary and makes you feel like you’re making it all up. Don’t put up with this bs. Make them stop hiding.

Make. Them. Say. What. They. Mean.

[bymossypine]

Tiny flowers 🐇🌱

[sunnysunflowers]

I never really understood what it meant to live life or in a way where my feelings didn't have to be so painfully FEELSY. I'm so so sensitive. MY CANCER SOUTH NODE. Then I have to reach my CAPRICORN NORTH NODE? WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?!?

And then a bunch of shit happens and I'm seeing changes, I"m feeling the changes, my new years future is screaming CHANGES and somehow, I feel like I've always been this prepared. I feel like I've finally tapped into this flow, there's a path, and I didn't have to rage/logic/cajole/beg/plan/barrel my way to find it?

I'm starting to feel like even planning was a huge emotion that was just screaming CONTROL, CONTROL. It did help me be prepared and make my transitions to these changes easier though.

Being older and wiser feels like such a gift because I think about my younger self trying to claw her way out of the hellhole and then someone just opened a secret door and was like SURPRISE! HERE'S THE WAY OUT.

WHAT.

The people and events that have supported and loved me have always been easy for me. When things exit, it should be easy as well.

[sunnysunflowers]

Hello Tumblr, my old friend

I had talked to some friends about how i dont like to look at old things i used to write, because it was so cringe. But by cringe, I meant, young me was just so fragile and hopeful and lots of things and I basically don't want her to get hurt hahaha but thats not something one would say to casual friends. at least not me.

either way, the thing that hasn't changed is that i always type/blog/write in a hopeful tone, looking towards the future. Wow, I guess I really am an optimist.

I wrote a lot of things on paper about really old wishes, loves and yearning but its faster to type this new bit first before the pain of my past self starts coming out and I get too wistful and HNNNGGGHH WHY THIS.

Okay.

Someone on Twitter wrote that sometimes the person you're so obsessed with, reflects what you really wanted/liked/wished for/wanted to embody in yourself. And I thought about how I was so obsessed with you and with what you had until the day I realized I had all I really wanted and poof! Something had neatly clicked/unclicked? That was the end of that.

I've been through hell and back and while I'm glad to be physically unscatched throughout the entire process, I am ready for this change. I am open to whatever comes next. Let me come out of this fire changed and indistinguishable.

[wishuponastarion]

"oh sorry, i guess i was infodumping again" - sad, shy, apologetic

"you sly dog, you got me monologuing" - cool, strong, confident

[huttslut]

shoutout to the lord of the rings lighting directors. bold move to let the audience see what's going on in nighttime scenes. i miss that.

[coopsgirl]

[sleepybattousai]

Just last week I saw The Long Night (Game of thrones). 

Actually, I didn´t see it, much

[secondlina]

Check out my ongoing comic Crow Time. It has crows, and also neat pantheons of epic beasties.

[sandmandaddy69]

[maruti-bitamin]

ランタン

[sunnysunflowers]

Dear A from the land of BBQ,

I haven't been able to catch you up on a lot of my random thoughts obviously due to my recent travels but this past week was particularly eye opening and painful and maaaaaaan.

TLDR: Self-awareness/growth is hard AND I OVERTHINK THINGS TOO HARD INSTEAD OF COMMUNICATING LIKE AN ADULT.

No need to respond/discuss it but I felt it would be good to talk/communicate these feelings to you so you know where I've been lately.

BTW this happened during the first 3 days of vacation and then I was able to calm down and relax finally throughout the rest of the week and collect my thoughts.

I started mega-freaking out and feeling insecure about how there were married couples at Grand Cayman and I was having thoughts like: OMG IS THIS MY EX SITUATION AGAIN. DO WE NEED TO HAVE THE MARRIAGE TALK?? OMG WHAT IF HE NEVER WANTS TO MARRY ME. I NEED TO TALK TO M ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT HE'S SERIOUS ABOUT THIS BECAUSE I AM NOT DOING THIS SHIT AGAIN. JEAAAAALLLLOUUUUUSYYYY WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ONNNNNN

Then it spiraled to: OMG HE JUST STRAIGHT UP DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME AND HOW I FEEL AND WHAT I WANT and I'm going to fucking die. I am such a fool. I fucking do this to myself all the fucking time. I want to fucking die.

What ended up happening later was that we went to a stingray tour and had brought a go-pro to take pictures with. We didn't pay for the fancy photographer pictures (which I really loved because they were really cute couple pictures that I wanted) because I was hoping the go-pro pics turned out fine and was fretting about it until we got back to the hotel and the go-pro pics were TERRIBLE.

I was so fucking crushed and upset and I ended up curling up on the bed, cycling point no. 2 in my head over and over again when M noticed and asked if I was ok. I just quietly sighed and said that I was pretty disappointed about the pictures because I wanted cute couple pics of us and went to go shower to help me accept my fate.

Finished showering and M came by and suggested we dress up to go to take couple pictures since the day was really pretty and I was !!!!!! !!!?!?!?!!?!!!! ;-; THEY TURNED OUT SO CUTE OMFG and then afterwards, I wanted some sexy time so I asked for it and he delivered????

SUDDENLY POINTS 1 AND 2 DISAPPEARED AWAY as I came to realize that I've been making this relationship super hard in my head and I am not a great communicator like I thought I was. ;-;

Towards the end, I was able to talk to my Moomin Valley friend about my general distraught feelings in which she said in her observations:

"One is that you're actually very stressed and need rest. When we stop, we will face ourselves.

Another is that you need more mental stimuli and when you are on a vacation, your mind starts to race when it doesn't have any outlet for the excessive energy.

Third is that when the energetic buzz of work "dies", you start to feel low and mind follow then with bad scenario thinking etc. mind games."

I want to add the 4th point being that I need to work on communicating and self expression, esp with my unhappy feelings :(( waaaahhh

I was glad things worked out at the end but honestly it was just a terrible internal battle in my brain and I feel like I don't feel as safe as I thought I was, with expressing these negative feelings with people I thought I was close to. Heavy thoughts man. Typing this out to refer back to in the future.

[itspileofgoodthings]

you know what gets me about lord of the rings? evil is defeated by people who choose to fight against it without possessing absolute, or even very much, conviction that they can actually win. all the converging story threads that lead to the happy ending are carried out by people who are far, far more convinced that they will fail than that they will succeed, who had only the frailest, most foolish hope, who had blind faith and frequently wavering hearts not peace or ease or certainty.

middle earth isn’t saved because no one faltered or came close to despairing or who sank to their knees in weary defeat. it’s not saved by pride or conviction or even strength. it’s saved because enough people do what they have to do even if they have to do it in the darkness. in the dust. with the ashes of hopelessness and bitterness in their mouths. because enough people took another step. Frodo, Sam, Gandalf, Aragorn, Theoden, Boromir, Faramir, Merry, Pippin. And many don’t. For every hero there is someone who gives into the “reasonableness” of despair—Saruman, Denethor, Grima, even Gollum—but enough. Enough people said “it doesn’t matter if we lose, I will keep fighting” and then they do.

And that GETS me. It is the most hopeful thing about the lord of the rings to me. There is so much that sums up its spirit, so many beautiful quotes and moments, but to me it’s never been the most famous of the quotes about hope and love that hit me hardest but a line from the films. Before the battle for Minas Tirith, one of the soldiers says “we cannot defeat the armies of Mordor” and Theoden answers “no. but we will meet them in battle nonetheless.”

And I—That is the spirit that leads to the conquering of evil when it comes down to it, when we’re talking about the part played by humanity alone in the fight against evil. Not the conviction you’re going to win, not farsightedness into a perfect future, not perfect inner peace or certainty. But acceptance of the real possibility of defeat, of that defeat being more the reality, the future, of your life than the victory, and then doing the damn thing anyway because goodness is worth fighting for even if you lose.

[sunnysunflowers]

Its really easy for me to respond to things that make me happy but things that make me uncomfortable..... I JUST WANNA RUN AWAY!!!!

I already had nightmares last night about people from my past approaching me with their woes and burdens and I was like YUCK!! WHY ARE YOU APPROACHING ME?? I DON'T WANT YOU IN MY LIFE!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!

Got me thinking about how I had an IRL situation where I just didn't want to hang out with this person anymore.... and I just kept delaying it.... so I finally decided to respond to this because I knew it was gonna stress me for the rest of the day. Asked for some help because I definitely don't have the spine to tell someone away firmly... and then everything happened so smoothly!! I was so pleasantly surprised!!! OAO!!! I FELT SO FREEEEEE!!!

I feel more confident in tackling the uncomfortable things, day by day!!! Definitely loving my "no's" more and more hehe

[sunnysunflowers]

I am thankful for all my difficult times and I am thankful for all my wonderful, joyful times. I can no longer linger in situations that pains me and if I get a chance to extend my help/services when I am able to, I will do so.

I will work on continuing to improve myself, keeping an open mind, and staying humble and grateful.