𝐢 swear 𝐢 mean well 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐞 still going to hell. — toxic!heehoon notes : toxic rs, online rs, not too descriptive death, manipulation, sh, initial carving, n-d3s, maybe surprising plot twist, not too surprising if you look closely, lmk if I forgot anything.. wc . 1,678
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Night falls, and so does Sunghoon as he falls into his bed that was way too cold for his liking. The darkness taking over the whole bedroom as he pulled on the string on the lamp by his bed. He could finally rest after such a stressful of work.
And that's usually what he would do until he met such a sweet person his whole entire life revolved around. Every waking moment that person was in Sunghoons head, it would sometimes make him sick about how much he was thinking of his special person.
Sunghoon stared into the darkness before pulling his phone out of his black sweatpants, he smiled seeing that text.
"I miss you so much, send me something, Sunghoon."
That's what he did, he did just that. He always listened to his special person. "I miss you too Heeseung. Give me a moment." Sunghoon smiled, taking his shirt off and placing it onto the floor. He saw his phone light up just as he was about to take his belt off.
"I know." Heeseung texted back, he knew that Sunghoon missed him.
Sunghoon rolled his eyes and smiled at the text, taking his belt off, his pants, and lastly the black boxers that he was too lazy to wash. Picking back up his phone, turning the flash on and snapping a picture of himself in the bed.
Somedays he felt disgusted he did this, somedays it felt nice to be cared about so deeply by someone that is possibly who knows where. Heeseung and Sunghoon met online, they instantly clicked. Then, they started to date a few months after.
His expression saddened, Sunghoon opened the picture he took and looked at his body. He felt insecure, really insecure about his body that Heeseung sometimes would say he loved and sometimes would say was disgusting. Sunghoon wanted Heeseungs validation more than anything.
The picture was sent. Heeseung on the other side of the phone smiled looking at photo. Sunghoons body on full display, cuts on his body, Heeseungs intinal right in the middle of his chest. It was attractive for him, Sunghoon did all of that just to impress him.
"God, you look so perfect. I can't wait for when we possible meet in person, that body will look even more perfect, love."
"I just want you, Heeseung. I want you so bad why's my favorite boy so far awayyy I love youuuu"
"Lmfao I love you too.. <3"
Sunghoon couldn't help but geek out, his boyfriend loved him so much. He loved that, he loved it so much. Heeseung was the only thing that mattered. Without Heeseung, Sunghoon was nothing. His obsession with the older boy was bad. At least that's what everyone said to him.
"Best boyfriend in the world, thanks for being the sweetest"
Heeseung stared at the message, then looked back at the picture Sunghoon sent. He smiled while saving the photo, his perfect Sunghoon. Only his, he owned all of Sunghoon. His body, choices, relationships, etc.
"Do you actually think that? Or are you just lying to me?"
The smile left Sunghoons face, did Heeseung think he hates him? No, that's not true at all. If Heeseung asked, Sunghoon would deliver.
"I'm not lying please, I love you so muchhhh you mean the world to me"
Prove it? How could he possibly prove to Heeseung that he was the only man for Sunghoons heart. He looked around his room and then back at the phone, another text.
"If you don't prove it to me, I'll leave you Sunghoon."
No, Sunghoon doesn't want that. He doesn't want the only person in his whole entire life that showed he cared about him to leave him. It would kill him inside if Heeseung left him.
His phone brightness slowly went down, meaning Sunghoon was just staring at the phone and no longer being active with it. He sat up, turning his lamp on and opening his drawer, pulling the knife out that Heeseung actually gifted to him for his birthday.
For half of the relationship, Heeseung would just make Sunghoon hurt himself. Yes, Heeseung loved the younger so much his heart could never take all of the love. But if Sunghoons body looked so ugly no other man or woman would want him, they would think Sunghoon was just ugly. Heeseung swore he meant well.
"Sunghoon? You look tired." Jake spoke softly, Sunghoon looked up from his phone and just shrugged his shoulders in response.
"Did Heeseung do something again?"
Jake knew that Sunghoon was always a straight mess because of Heeseung, he looked like trash ever since they got together. That would never go unnotice for the aussie boy.
"We just stayed up late talking, he really is the sweetest." Sunghoon said with full confidence in his voice. That poor boy, Jake thought in his head. He was corrupted by Heeseung and he didn't listen to anyone who said he was.
Jake sighed, the room felt heavy. "Mhm. Because it truly is sweet when your partner begs for you to hurt yourself.
"You don't understand, Jake." Sunghoon spat out.
"You're right I don't understand."
"I don't understand how you can just take it! You just let him walk all over you, doing all of this for what? Some guy you meant online? Sunghoon, You don't even know yourself." Jake said.
"And then he told me I don't even know myself." Sunghoon whined into the phone, he was on the phone with the love of his life. His precious Heeseung.
"Sunghoon, don't listen to whatever he has to say. He doesn't know you like I do, that's why every person leaves him. Jake doesn't understand love like we do, sweetheart." Heeseung said with such a soft voice you can tell it was fake, Sunghoon believed him though. Jake doesn't understand, he always got broken up, it was pathetic.
"You're right, Heeseung. I love you so much, thank you."
"Your welcome. My sweetheart."
Sunghoon smiled happily, Heeseung was so perfect he could never see his bad intentions whatsoever.
"Sim Jake? Right, thats his full name?" Sunghoon hummed in response to Heeseung.
"Alright. I have to go now, my friends are coming over, Sunghoon."
Sunghoon pouted, he hated whenever Heeseung was with his friends. He only wanted them to be together, not some stupid people that haven't seen Heeseung naked and begging before.
"Can you reschedule? I need you, Heeseung." Sunghoon begged, he wanted to keep Heeseung hidden away from the world. No one should see his Heeseung. He will forever think that.
Heeseung stayed silent, should he really do that for Sunghoon? Was he really worth it? Yeah, he was. Heeseung quickly agreed and that's how they ended up spending 6 hours together on the phone.
Heeseungs friends were mad at him for canceling the hangout, but he didn't care. Sunghoon was the best person in the whole world and he will never stop saying that, he never ever will.
Sure, they were both crazy over each other. But isn't that what loves all about? Being so in love with each other that no one else matters? That's what Sunghoon and Heeseung believed in. They weren't toxic, no one just understood their love. And no one ever will.
Weeks passed, happy weeks for the couple but for the people around them who thought they were utterly insane, it was horrible.
Jake was constantly being ignored by Sunghoon and Heeseungs friends were avoiding him like the plague. But at least those two insane people had each other, and they always will. Till they are both dead in their graves.
And when bugs are eating their hearts, they better taste the love Heeseung and Sunghoon had for each other.
"Sunghoon, we need to break up."
It's too bad, Heeseungs love slowly started to fade. Sunghoon stared at the text, his heart racing, his eyes wide and his whole body shaking. Heeseung was leaving him? No, this must be just a joke.
"I'm not joking, Sunghoon. I don't really feel love for you anymore."
But Heeseung? You were the one who started to torture Sunghoon? How did you fall out of love, you weren't that much in pain. You didn't hurt yourself for love. What the fuck is wrong with you? You're crazy, Lee Heeseung.
"Oh, I understand. It's fine Heeseung!"
Sunghoon took that surprisingly well, he took that very well. Almost too well.
Heeseungs didn't reply after that, Sunghoon was left on read. The love of his life was gone. The boy he did everything for was gone and no longer in his life. Why did he have to leave? Did Sunghoon do something wrong? He swore he did everything right.
Now, what was Sunghoon supposed to do? He had cuts all over his body for Heeseung. He did everything for him, and whoever said he didn't was honestly just lying. Heeseung is a horrible person.
Honestly, did Heeseung really get better and think he could live without Sunghoon? No he possibly can't, he can't escape Sunghoon at all. He was claimed by Sunghoon.
Sunghoon leaned in, kissing soft lips happily. A smile on his lips as his hands ran down a perfect pale body he owned.
"You really are perfect." Sunghoon muttered softly, a soft sigh escaped his lips as he looked at his perfect boy. His perfect boy that was on the floor, bleeding and paralyzed.
Heeseung, was dead. The blood was all over, a lot on Sunghoon. But that's what he loved, Heeseungs blood on him meant that he was loved. His heart was red, so was blood. That meant he was loved.
The sirens loud in the back started to get closer to where Sunghoon and Heeseung was. Sunghoon leaned in, kissing Heeseung one last time. Tears slowly entering his eyes.
"I don't know what I did to deserve you. And I don't know what you did to deserve me, but I promise. We will always be together."
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